It’s 2025, near the beginning of June,
I’m sitting, thinking, of every attempt at love,
Of everything I had been through,
So I could end up here, with you.
Call it what you want, fate or the butterfly effect,
This was indeed a very long journey,
As it started way before the year 2020.
Of course, I'm a little scared but that's not entirely me.
If you say you have no fear, who are you actually fighting?
The ego has no bounds, if you let it continue to seek.
It will make you feel your past, push you to be a refugee.
"You've felt this before, this is not safe"
"You've learned this before, you should already know"
Nothing you see here is true.
You spent years falling apart, gaining trust issues.
You spent years building walls, keeping your guard up.
Just remember these were formed solely for construct.
Safety, while constructing the new you.
and after you've grown and stepped into something new,
the walls seem to feel like glue.
They do you no good, so you tear them down,
but they already caused destruction around.
You move on, continuing through life.
Understanding you're no longer in fight or flight.
There's no need for the walls, because you keep yourself safe.
You know now your love partly depends on faith.
They walk into your life and you have no walls.
You keep your heart open, staying vulnerable.
"Take me as I am", you've never felt so strong.
Yet little things prick and suddenly your ego knows all.
My walls are broke and my love more than true
Now it's time to address the ego issue.
Call it your nervous system, the alarm that goes off.
But that system is outdated and no longer does the job.
Without silence and quiet observation,
Self-sabotage will send you to an unwanted destination.
Don't let it be your ruler, trust me, I know.
An untamed ego will seem to be the killer of Love.
But if it can be ruined, murdered, or covered in blood
Was it really true Love at all
Or was it meant to show you who it never was?
For true love cannot be destroyed by such low frequency factors.
It just feels right regardless of the matter.
No ego or trauma can scare true love away,
it's rather welcomed, acknowledged, while its untamed.
And no, don't get me wrong,
this doesn't justify always coming off strong
for you are accountable for you own flaws
but will true love judge them? Not one bit at all.
It'll look at them with kindness and offer patience
It comes with a sense of gratitude and emotional irrigation.
You're able to feel freely, within yourself and amongst them.
Simultaneously being responsible with your stream of conscience
Being accepted, heard, and seen
does not mean you get to act on emotions irresponsibly.
Keep in mind, you always come first.
You need extra help? support? a case to be reasured?
True love is there, no matter the works.
Sometimes its laughter other times its silence,
the best true love, in my opinion, is the one that hurts.
It's the one that cares so deeply about you
that it shines a light on all your negative attributes.
It uncovers things you didn't know still existed,
but nurtures them into fruition.
If love doesn't hurt, do you think that its true at all?
Or is it just a simple facade,
that keeps your ego thinking, it knows it all.
This love, I will continue to choose everyday.
Not once, has my mind or heart thought to stray.
It’s a love that’s hard to explain,
It’s here with every intention to stay.
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