unsent letters of my🫀

20|she/her| Poetry and stuff

[penvibess]

I don't want to be your drug of choice, I want to be the medicine, the treatment, the reason behind your healing.

I don't wanna be an addiction, I want to be your salvation.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

as simple as that

[prince-geo]

You know despite the attention he's had most of his life, I truly do think that that conversation with Dustin was the probably first time in his life Steve Harrington ever felt truly and utterly irreplaceable and precious to someone else. Imagine thinking that you're mostly just the guy who's there to take the hits (and yes your friends do love you but you think they'd learn to be ok without you eventually) to then be HIT with the reality that someone's world would simply crumble without you in it. Dustin and Steve you shine brighter than all the stars in the sky I am so serious

[ruhaniya]

i distance myself when i feel unwanted. i won't beg for space in someone's life. if my presence doesn't matter, my absence won't either. i choose peace over forcing connection.

[thoughtkick]

“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale

[remanence-of-love]

[ruhaniya]

[vexheart]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Leo Tolstoy

[penvibess]

white nights, Fyodor Dostoevsky

[penvibess]

[penvibess]

College is a weird place to be. There are times you love the independence that comes along with living alone and there are times where that solitude feels like loneliness. You are constantly surrounded by people yet you have never felt so lost. The place you used to call home doesn't feel like home anymore and it makes you wonder, where does one go from here?

[penvibess]

one of my friends recently got hurt and broke his nose, and lost a lot of blood. I simply thought of giving him the princess treatment and peeling pomegranate for him.

oh boy when I tell you that I got the most adorable smile from him followed by a hug.

men are so cute istg

[penvibess]

Dear you,

I don't know what love is, I don't know what it looks like or sounds like. I don't know what it is supposed to feel like.

But I swear to God, when you laugh, it is like the sweetest melody to my ears, it is warm and soothing, like the first sip of coffee in winter. When you look at me with those brown eyes, it is like losing myself in your universe that lies behind those orbs. When the sun hits your face, it is like looking at the first ray of light after being alone in the darkness for a long time.

Your hair feels like silk between my fingers and your hands fit in mine like they're meant to be held by me. You are beautiful in ways I can't begin to comprehend and it hurts that I will never be able to put it into words that will justify the kind of person you are.

I dread the days that I have to spend without you and hope for the moment to last for just a little bit longer when we are together. I secretly giggle at the lamest of your jokes and say that I hate you with a hopeless smile. On days when we are apart, I only look forward to holding you in my arms.

I don't know what love is, what it looks like or what it is supposed to feel like but I swear to God, I have never felt safer, happier, and understood the way I have felt with you, and if that's what love is then I'm glad to have experienced it with you.

Yours truly,

<3

[penvibess]

when darkness is your home

[penvibess]

you know it's love when they let you touch them with your cold hands in winters>>>>😌

[penvibess]

hey mera naam bhi anoushka hai :"DDD i love ur poetry

ayeee👋

thank you so much🥰