âSo, have you figured out how youâre going to deal with it?â
Logan didnât even turn his head at the question, pretending to be so consumed in his essay that he didnât hear his best friendâs approach and tasteless greeting. He knew what Synri was talking about, and Logan has not, in fact, figured out how he was going to deal with it.
It was only a couple of minutes later that a hand appeared in his field of vision, without regard for personal space and privacy as the owner of the said hand pointed towards Loganâs barely-written essay.
âYour surname is Mckeller.â
Logan stared at the words at the tip of Synriâs finger and noticed that, indeed, he didnât even get as far as finishing writing his name before pretending to be immersed in this particular academic requirement.
Logan rolled his eyes, more to himself than Synri, and looked up at the shorter guy. âDonât you need to be somewhere manipulating people?â
âIt gets a bit dull,â Synri tutted, plopping down on the chair across from Logan. Actually, Synri never plops down. He always gracefully lowers himself unto a chair that would be lucky to have a Vanrith ass on it. Logan often wondered how theyâd become friends when Synri was always the exemplary gentleman, and Logan tried really hard to become as less like his father as he could. So Logan didnât even bother straightening his tie, much less worry about how he drops down on chairs.
Although, not fixing his tie always had the added bonus of having Pepper standing close to him for a few minutes, the female prefect as neat and tidy as Synri was in front of other students.
But that was beside the point.
Logan slumped in his seat now across an impeccably dressed and seated Synri, and Logan groaned. âYou always think itâs better to bother me when youâre bored.â
âI thought thatâs what friendships are for,â Synri tilted his head, the corner of his lip threatening to twitch in amusement.
With a huff, Logan threw his quill down, thinking that it would be better for his sanity to stop diverting the conversation from something Synri was obviously worrying over him about. The Slytherin prefect would never admit it, though.
âNo, I havenât thought about it. In fact, Iâd rather not think about it at all.â
Synri raised an eyebrow. âAnd how is running from your problems treating you?â
âItâs not a problem.â
Synri raised both eyebrows now. âThe fact that youâve been agonizing about it for six months already implies otherwise.â Deciding to cut his best friend a bit of a slack, he leaned back on his chair, trying another tactic. âHave you talked to Pepper about it?â
Logan clenched his jaw, which was really all the answer Synri needed. He averted his gaze again, choosing to look out of the window, the vast amount of snow fall obscuring practically everything outside. It was winter break, leaving only a handful of people in their dorms, which Logan was really thankful for. He appreciated the quiet as he⊠brooded. âPepper isnât here, is she?â
Synri only rolled his eyes. âAgain. Agonizing for six months. Youâve had time to bring it up. How did you even get out of the Mantovani Family invitation to stay over for the break?â
Logan slumped further into his seat, so low that if he slid any further, heâd be on the floor instead of the chair. âI wasnât trying to get out of it. I love Pepperâs family.â
âBut youâre terrified of her dad.â
âHer mom actually,â Logan mused absentmindedly, before shaking his head. âI convinced Pepper to spend this time with her parents. I have her for the rest of the year.â
âPepper didnât buy that.â
Disgruntled, Logan actually sat up to place his forearms on the table, directing a glare at Synri. âNo, she didnât. But I insisted.â
âIs this practice for when the ink shows up and youâre not paired?â
Logan gritted his teeth, but couldnât help the sharp pang to his chest at the words that quite accurately summed up what heâd been worrying about for the past few months. âFuck you, Syn.â
With nary another glance, Logan stood, crumpling the still empty parchment in front of him and stuffing it haphazardly inside his bag as he stood swiftly, slinging the strap over his head and walked purposefully away from one of the two people he knew would stick by him no matter what. Heâd feel guilty about being an overdramatic asshole later. For now he wanted to stew in his bad mood.
Which would have lasted longer had his owl not caught up with him, settling automatically on his shoulder while he walked, and managing to balance on one claw while the other extended for Logan to take the letter. Knowing it could only be Pepper, he detached the letter and let his owl settle both claws on his uniform. He felt his lips twitch, because the train had only left late that morning, which meant it hadnât even been twelve hours since they last saw each other, and Pepper was already sending him mail. He briefly wondered how his owl knew that Pepper was even intending to send him mail.
Iâm only on this train without you because you distracted me with kisses when you asked for me to spend break with my parents. Iâm going to keep sending you mail until you say yes. Donât think I wonât ask my mum to use that charm that could send thousands of mail to someone.
I know you said I should spend Christmas with family. I will. And, Lo, youâre my family, too.
Logan raised a hand to his chest, pressing the heel of his hand on his breastbone where he felt both a warmth that he knew heâd only ever felt with Pepper. He released a breath as he looked up from the letter, only to slowly inhale, letting the familiar scent of the castle fill his lungs until he couldnât feel the slight prick of whatever behind his eyes.
He knew he was going to break, anyway. He never could say no to Pepper. And with his parents on several events for the break for the several branches of the company worldwide, he was sure he could steal his sister away anytime. Probably everyday so she wouldnât have to be around their parents.
Logan tapped the letter on the palm of his other hand as he thought about the logistics of his break, but not being able to stop his worries from cluttering his mind. It was still there, and it would be there until Pepperâs birthday. He didnât know what he had wanted to accomplish by spending less time with Pepper, but the few hours theyâd been separated was already wearing him down.
With a heavy sigh, he dropped his head to reread the words on the small piece of paper on his hand, already starting to give in to the request in it.