forest's edge.

andrei. 37. pădurea măreță, treowa. wix. teacher of science and magic. single father. on the hunt for answers. hungry for knowledge. dependent romania oc.

[fullyunfurled]

talking music with radio misk +

[tuu-likki]

Tamino in Cigar (x)

[perennialardency]

37 hadn’t been the most welcome of birthdays for Andrei. To him, it symbolized how time wore on, marking every day and week and year he had spent feeling so unhappy in life. He felt it was a mixture of age and general well being that made every day feel so heavy on his bones, exhausting him to the point that it was difficult to continue on. The winter season beginning to set in and the days becoming shorter were the miserable cherry on top.

He was silent during much of his birthday lunch at his parents’ house, not unlike how he had been silent for much of the time he wasn’t working. He could tell his family had sensed the pattern, not unlike the pattern he had been set into upon his last partner’s disappearance. But there was no way in hell he was willing to talk about it, even though it seemed to occupy nearly every square inch of his head.

When the meal was finished and Ilie was occupied with drawing a picture for his grandparents, there was still much to be cleaned up. The duties could have been placed upon Andrei’s teenage brother, of course; but Irina, their mother, strongarmed her eldest child into helping her. A sinking feeling made Andrei’s stomach twist and turn; he hadn’t eaten very much anyway, but what little was inside his stomach was threatening to make its way back up his esophagus. And his mother absolutely was about to corner him.

“It’s changed, Andruță,” the woman said once Andrei had carried a stack of dishes into the tiny kitchen. He knew what she meant already and yet he briefly glanced down at his chest; while he had been buttoning more of his buttons due to the cooler weather, his secret still managed to betray itself.

“You thought it wouldn’t, but it changed so quick,” Irina continued before waving her wand and muttering incantations that would help them clean up. “Who is it? Do you know?”

Andrei looked away silently, though his mournful expression spoke volumes. She didn’t have to ask, he knew she figured it out on her own already. It was far too obvious. Everyone in the world had to have known. His mother watched him with knowing eyes.

“If nothing has yet to come of it, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing,” she said simply, rubbing her son’s back. He didn’t have the energy to argue with her; and after all, she was just doing what she knew best, as a mother and a grandmother. Even in her haste to widen her family, she still meant well, and Andrei knew that.

The rest of the afternoon and into the evening was spent relatively quietly in Irina and Denis’ home, with Irina wondering aloud multiple times if her daughter and middle child would make an appearance just for her brother’s birthday. It didn’t happen, of course, as nobody really expected her to; though Andrei knew she would likely send something his way, whether it was a small gift or a letter. He didn’t have the mental or physical energy to remind his mother that Ana almost never came around anymore. Nothing was worth fighting at the moment.

Since the days were becoming shorter now, they had to keep an eye on the hands on the clock, more so for the sake of Ilie, so he could have been put to bed at a decent time. Irina offered to let Andrei and Ilie stay the night; but Andrei insisted he didn’t want to take up too much of their room. He managed to get the typically extended goodbyes cut short, as he was too tired and impatient to go through the many rounds of reminders and hugs and kisses. Days like these really stressed how much Andrei enjoyed alone time sometimes.

The rest of the evening was spent preparing for the next day’s work, watching Ilie play quietly, and making sure the boy was comfortable and ready for bed. Whenever Andrei entered a fugue-like state similar to this, it made him feel like a terrible, inattentive parent. He gave his son extra kisses and stayed a little longer until the boy fell asleep to try and make up for that feeling of insecurity.

He attempted to focus on preparation for classes the next day; but it felt like a dense fog had moved into his skull. The slight wix made a half-hearted attempt at straightening up his materials; but his entire body felt weak. His next movements--walking out of the room, down the hall, into his bedroom--felt like he was having an out of body experience. Most likely dissociating.

When he closed his bedroom door, Andrei practically fell face-first into his bed, curled up, and felt his body begin to shake as the tears began to come. He purposely hid his face as he sobbed quietly, not wanting to awaken or alarm Ilie. Fat tears wet the old pillowcase, as sobs wracked Andrei’s shoulders. A few hopeless choked whines made themselves audible as he held the pillow even tighter in his arms.

This had happened to him twice now. Two times had he developed feelings for someone he wasn’t meant to have. Two separate people he had begun to love even though they were unattainable to him. Even his body or the universe or whatever it was that powered their magic had taken notice of his feelings, yet made it worse as it solidified that he had fallen for someone who wouldn’t fall for him.

Andrei wanted to love...but was it possible he was not made to be loved?

When the sobs had slowed to a silent halt, he crawled out of bed and managed to get into the cramped bathroom, intending on rinsing his face with cool water, hoping it would help him gain his head again. Absently he unfastened a couple buttons on his shirt so as to not get it wet; but was met with his reflection in the old, slightly warped mirror. His olive skin was reddened by crying, his eyes felt swollen, his hair was disheveled; but none of that gained attention the same way the root of his problems did.

At the center of his chest, he was forced to see the jagged lines of the treetops of a thicket of evergreens, the gray of the magical ink nearly having darkened to its final black. Those stupid fucking trees--they were laughing at him, as they should have been: he was a fool, hapless in life and especially in love! They were reminding him he was one half of something he would never have the other side to, reminding him he was set in an eternal loop of loving and never being loved in return.

[perennialardency]

@punkishpessimism:

“Is that something you want to talk about?”

Perhaps garnishing casual, shallow conversation with muttered snark was not the best idea, especially for someone who typically didn’t want people worrying after him. The comment about one’s life being complicated and interrupted by the inconvenience of the introduction of a Wixen soulmate probably came off as bitter--maybe sad? He was definitely sad, very sad, much sadder than he ever was bitter. “...No, I don’t think I want to, in fact.” He didn’t want to talk about it at all. Not with anyone. Weather patterns made for a much better topic right now--and perhaps always.

[perennialardency]

@themightypebbles:

“I’m absolutely freezing.”

Right. Andrei removed his coat--a weathered old thing that had seen better days but still served its purpose well enough--and carefully draped it over the girl’s shoulders. It made him kind of cold himself but making the sacrifice wasn’t a difficult decision. He then patted his sides and found his wand. “Aprendire subțire,” he muttered, and a small flame lit the end of said wand, which he held closer to Pebbles. “This help?”

[perennialardency]

ooc: whenever i reblog memes on only one blog, please feel free to send to the others. i don’t want to clog up the dash with reblogging the same few things on all 4 accounts.

i usually reblog on andrei first just bc he’s first alphabetically; but that doesn’t mean i don’t want anything for erika @softbrilliance, júní @tenderreticence, and olena @audacioustenacity!!!

[justmorerpmemes]

It’s Too Cold Starters

“I’m so cold that arson looks like a great alternative right now.”

“Is eleven blankets still not enough?”

“I could give you my coat…”

“I’m absolutely freezing.”

“Well it’s warmer where I am.”

“Can you get me a jacket or something?”

“It should be illegal for it to be this frigid.”

“I’ve been to receptions warmer than this.”

“If you sit any closer to the fire, you’re going to get a heat rash.”

“No, we are not igniting flammable objects for warmth.”

“I should make sure you aren’t getting hypothermia.”

“Someone keeps turning the heat down and I do not approve.”

“There isn’t enough hot coffee in the world to rid me of this chill.”

“Tea? Hot chocolate? Coffee? Anything? It’s cold!”

“I’m conflicted whether or not to drink my tea or leave it to warm my hands.”

“Is a third sweater too much to ask for?”

“I had to wear this stupid thing because a blanket isn’t proper public attire apparently.”

“The lock on my door was frosted over from the inside when I left.”

“I will fight you over this blanket if I have to.”

“I’m starting to lose feeling in my thighs.”

“So the temperature is arctic, with a wind chill of hell no.”

“I’m not letting you go out in this weather, that under dressed.”

“You walk out there like that, and you will get frostbite.”

“A hot bath would solve that chill.”

“Becoming an unrecognizable mound of fleece blankets and duvets is certainly an option?”

[justmorerpmemes]

Concerned Comments Starters

“Normally, I would ask how you are… but I don’t want you to lie to me about being okay!”

“It’s good, really it is. How can I prove it to you?”

“There have been some things… I’ve noticed.”

“I’ll make some time. We can talk about it.”

“Has anything been going on?”

“There is just… I’m a little scared okay?”

“You’ve been doing a lot more lately… why?”

“You don’t have to pretend. I know you’ve noticed.”

“Tell me something that will pop this bubble of anxiety.”

“There’s been a bit more aggression lately…”

“Something needs to be addressed, now.”

“There’s been something wrong for days.”

“It’s been over a week now! What’s been happening?”

“How are you feeling? Do you need anything?”

“Your worry isn’t necessary. No, don’t look at me like that when I say that…”

“Everything is fine.”

“Nothing is fine.”

“People have started talking… tell me you can alleviate my worry.”

“You haven’t been yourself for a long time, so I don’t believe that. Sorry.”

“This isn’t something that I’m going to drop! I care!”

“Just leave it well enough alone. That’s how it’s always been dealt with and I’m still going.”

“You’ve been told the rumours and I’m here to tell you that it is not as bad as it sounds.”

“I came to -hopefully- confirm that everything was blown to outlandish proportions.”

“A concern was brought up and I’m concerned for it.”

[justmorerpmemes]

Perfectly Platonic Starters

“You look like you could use a coffee.”

“Is that something you want to talk about?”

“Come on, sit down. It’s break time.”

“I needed that, thanks…”

“Here’s a blanket. You looked cold.”

“Thank god you’re back, I need to rant.”

“Is my sweater ever going to be returned?”

“Bad day? Emergency plans are in order.”

“Alright your ride has arrived, where to next?”

“I’m brushing your hair, it’s a mess.”

“You happened to go get lunch and ‘bought too much’ huh?”

“Your hugs are the best.”

“Hey. Hey. Heeeeeey. Come on. We’re gonna be late, get up.”

“I’m late, yes. You should be used to that by now.”

“How long as it been that we’ve known each other? Feels like ages.”

“There was something on your face, I had to get it off.”

“You’re sure people think we’re dating?”

“I think it’s hilarious people assume they’re dating just because they’re nice to each other.”

“I need to hang out with someone I like, can we pretend to be working for an hour?”

“Tea and coffee? What happened?”

“Here you go, one forgotten, left it at home in a rush, lost item!”

“I’m going for a walk, you want anything?”

“… sorry I took a nap on you.”

“I suppose I am now requisitioned to being a napping spot.”

“We could pretend we’re dating, but that might confuse your significant other, and then that might be a waste of petty effort for the sake of rumors.”

[rpmusings-galore]

                  with gentle fingers, you pluck my heart from my hands

                                       raised aloft, cradled in your palms

              held together with safety pins and haphazard tape, it still beats 

                                                       faster     f a s t e r 

                           “ please, “     

                                cracking voice, nearly too soft to be heard 

                                                                     “ please, don’t break it. “  

                   already patchwork, so fragile 

                            i don’t know how i could mend it, again 

[dovingmemes]

random sentence starters

random sentences for any / multiple scenario(s). change around as you see fit.

“ who do you think you are? “

“ wait , did you just say you love me? “

“ please just … leave me alone. “

“ i’m so happy! “

“ is this a gift for me? “

“ hey! i’ve got something for you! wait right here! “

“ i love you. “

“ shut up! shut the fuck up! “

“ who told you that?! i didn’t say that! “

“ w — what? “

“ … i’m sorry. “

“ what? ME have a crush on YOU? whaaaaaat?! haha! what? pfft … shut up! “

“ bitch , guess what? “

“ oh my god … “

“ fuck you to fucking hell! “

“ man … go to hell. “

“ what did you just send me? “

“ what did you just say? “

“ they’re totally checking you out right now. “

“ jealous?! i’m not jealous! “

“ are you jealous? “

“ wow … you’re hot when you’re angry. “

“ wow … your smile is breathtaking. “

“ you’re so stupid. “

“ okay! that’s it! put your dukes up! “

“ you don’t want me. “

“ question , you’re not dating anyone , are you? “

“ let me take you out on a date. “

“ i swear to god i’m going to scream at the top of my lungs. “

“ no! don’t tickle me! “

“ i’m not good for you , trust me. “

“ no offense but i’m out of your league. “

“ so , how does it feel to know me? a blessing , isn’t it? “

“ … why does this card say ‘ happy 3rd birthday ‘? “

“ so what will it be tonight? “

“ please , let me listen to celine dion in the dark in peace. “

“ i don’t love you. “

“ you don’t love me. “

“ … is there something you want? “

“ you know , you’re really cute. “

“ god , just let me fucking love you , you idiot! “

“ shh … don’t cry. “

“ i just feel like everything is falling apart. “

“ DON’T YOU DARE! DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE! “

“ hello darkness my old friend … “

“ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? “

[perennialardency]

@theirishwix

“ hello darkness my old friend … “

“Wow, that’s awfully somber,” Andrei remarked, pulling up the brim of his hat, showed a quirked eyebrow. “What has you so fucked up? You need to talk it out or something?” Not that he minded, but it was a strange way to greet someone.

[perennialardency]

@hotheadedchild:

“ no! don’t tickle me! “

It had only been a sneaky thing--a feather-light touch on the back of the neck--ingrained in Andrei after years of being a teacher, and having younger siblings, and having a child of his own. Most children who refused to smile would be instantly cheered up by a little bit of tickling. However, it was important to remember that even children needed to consent to such things. “Sorry. Won’t do it again.” Though both hands pulled back and folded together, his eyes were still crinkled and smiling.

[perennialardency]

Interview the Muse

- What is your Full name? Include any maiden names, aliases, or nicknames.

- When is your birthday? Do you know where you were born and at what time?

- What is your star sign? Do you know your Chinese Zodiac too?

- What is your earliest memory that you can remember?

- Where was your childhood home? Was it more urban or rural?

- How was your childhood in general? Did your parents treat you well? Did you have a lot of friends?

- How was/is school? What is your favorite and least favorite subjects? What were your grades on average?

- Did you have a best friend growing up? What was their name? Are you still in touch?

- Were you in any cliques?

- Best childhood memory you can recall?

- Worst childhood memory you can recall?

- Name an event in your childhood that has shaped you into the person you are today

- What is the dumbest thing you have ever done to impress someone? Were they impressed or was it all for naught?

- Did you ever have any sweethearts or lovers? Do you have a boy/girlfriend?

- Are you a virgin?

- Do you ever plan on getting married in your life? Do you want kids?

- Would you rather have your own kids or adopt? How many kids would you want?

- Do you think you'd be a protective parent or a relaxed parent?

- How would you prefer to pass away? Surrounded by loved ones and at peace, or while doing something heroic?

- Generally, how healthy are you? Do you get sick or injured easily or are you fit?

- Have you ever been badly injured before?

- What is the worst injury you have ever gotten? What was it and how did it happen? Were you ever close to death?

- How many times have you been to the hospital/doctor's?

- Have you ever had a concussion or brain injury? Have you ever had amnesia?

- What was the worst illness you ever contacted? Do you know what it was? How long were you sick?

- Ever had any extended hospital stays? What for?

- Have you ever had to give yourself or someone else emergency first aid? What happened?

- Are you employed? Where do you work and who do you work for? What do you do?

- Are you happy with your current job?

- Did you have any previous jobs? What were they and what did you do?

- Most dangerous thing you have ever done?

- Do you consider yourself a more active person or a more relaxed person?

- What is your dream come true? How about your worst nightmare?

- What is the biggest and most important goal you have set for yourself?

- How persistent would you say you are? How much does it take to get you to give up on a task?

- Would you surrender yourself to your enemies or fight to the very end?

- When do you usually do your shopping? What is currently on your shopping list?

- Top three things on your wishlist?

- Currently, what is something you want but do not need?

- Do you like shopping? What is your favorite thing to shop for?

- What is the most expensive thing you have purchased? Was it worth it?

- What would you do if you were suddenly given one billion dollars out of the blue?

- What would you describe your style of clothing as?

- Do you have any hobbies? Name all of them if you can.

- Do you like and appreciate art? What is your favorite piece of artwork?

- Do you like music? What is your favorite style of music?

- Have you ever seen any musicals? What is your favorite?

- What are your top three favorite animals? What would you say your "Patronus" or "Spirit Animal" is?

- What are your top three favorite colors?

- What is your favorite season? Do you prefer hotter or colder weather? Do you like snow at all?

- What kind of flavors do you prefer: Sweet, Sour, Bitter, Spicy, Dry, or Umami (savory meat taste)?

- Can you cook at all?

- What is your favorite dish? Can you prepare it? Do you have the recipe handy?

- What is your favorite fruit and vegetable?

- What is your favorite dessert? What is your favorite type of candy/treat?

- What is the best thing you have ever had the opportunity to eat? What is the worst?

- Do you like to drink tea or coffee? Any favorite flavors?

- Describe your sense of humor.

- What is one thing you are justly proud of?

- Do you have any religious beliefs? If not, have you ever been to a church service?

- What would you say is the worst thing someone has done to you? What is the meanest thing someone has ever said to you?

- What is the worst thing you have done to someone? What is the meanest thing you have said to anyone?

- Share the latest entry in your diary/journal.

- What is the most precious thing you own? Is it valuable at all?

- Talk about someone you know. It can be someone you either like or dislike.

- FREE QUESTION

[perennialardency]

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

“My best friend?” He thinks for a moment about who his best friend is, but there’s only one logical conclusion. “For sure how comfortable I feel around him. He gives off this aura, I always feel so at ease when I’m with him; and from what I notice, others feel that way about him too. He’s simply...easy to spend time with. I’m never worried about what he’s going to say or think.” Andrei stops himself short, with a small grimace showing up on his face. “Well. Sometimes I worry, but that’s my business.”

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

emoji asks 💫 (must be answered truthfully)

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be? 

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

😘 talk about your crush or partner

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

💙 what annoys you about some people? 

😤 do you get angry easily?

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change? 

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

☕️ talk about your ideal day

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

💧 when was the last time you cried?

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

💚 who are you jealous of and why? 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today? 

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

😪 what are you sick of?

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why? 

🐴 opinion on __?

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

🌍 which country do you live in?

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

🐵 which quotes changed you?

💭 do you keep a diary?

💫 who inspires you?

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

[perennialardency]

snickeriarbete‌:

It was difficult to see the exact expression on Andrei’s face as he moved around in a semi circle and began to aim at him more deliberately. He could tell that the older man was up to something and it was tricky to duck out of the way of some of those splashes and he sent a few towards Andrei once more. “Hey! I was just idly flicking water, which is starting something but you escalated it into what it is now!” he squawked indignantly.

He paused as the other moved quickly towards the bank and began to climb out, curious about what Andrei was planning on doing. “Hey now! Wouldn’t a wand be overkill? I don’t think it’s fair to pull magic into this–” he began to protest before trailing off when the water seemed to be giving Andrei’s clothing some issues. Well, that was certainly a memorable sight. He fought the part of his brain lamenting that he didn’t have his spectacles to get a clearer view. He had certainly seen enough and it was definitely an enticing sight. No. Focus on this water war since magic was being pulled into it. Stare at handsome friend later.

“I think you should know better by now to have considered the risk that I would elevate it,” Andrei countered, walking as he held his shorts up with both hands--they were still awfully heavy with water. “You acted and didn’t calculate the risk, which was one-hundred percent. You should have thought about it a little longer before so carelessly inciting a war.”

Once he’d reached the right spot, he bent over and rooted through his discarded clothes, and found his wand. As he returned to the riverbank, his eyes narrowed as though he was on the prowl, preparing to strike. He stopped just a few feet away from where Ber was and raised his wand, mumbling an incantation: specifically, a telekinetic sort that would create a splash in the water. Giggling to himself, he repeated the motion and incantation, splashing his friend once again. “You came unprepared because you were cocky! You thought you had a chance but you lose!” Andrei laughed as he ran back to set his wand back down safely.

“If you think it’s unfair, you should think a little harder,” he mused as he returned to the side of the stream. “I’m sure there’s some way you could one-up me, you just need to think about it a little longer. I mean, humans like yourself have made it this long without magic somehow! Maybe you can tap into that, whatever it is that helps you all survive.” As he approached where Ber was in the water, he saw something on the younger man’s back: in the area between the blond’s shoulders, there was something....sort of gray, and in a sporadic pattern. Maybe it was just dirt from jumping in the water. “You’ve got something on you,” the brunet advised before hopping back into the cold water. “On your back. I’ll help you get it off later. It might just be debris.”