I stare into the void

-–—it stares back and calls me an idiot—–- 25, she/her, not turtle enough for the turtle club

[ouchmyghostskin]

[murkycrush]

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[abstract-venus]

I like to think the Cat King was damn near shaking in his Gucci leather boots when Edwin made his first guess. Right out of the gate he was swinging “142”. The correct answer was literally 146 not counting himself. He took all that time setting up this elaborate cat and mouse seduction play only for the Edwardian twink to nearly chuck the game board out the window. He didn’t even give him the chance to make another guess before the bracelet fell off and Edwin still took the time to sassily beat him at his own game. “Not even close” he was WORRIED

[shaylogic]

"Well, I'm aces with people!" said the boy who was just killed by his friends

"I'm not good with other people..." said the boy who escaped dehumanizing 70+ years of Hell just to comfort a stranger through death

[acediscowlng]

thinking about how both edwin and charles refer to edwin getting sent to hell as a technicality or a clerical error and like. it's not. that's not what happened. edwin was sacrificed. hell had a mechanism for accepting innocent souls. edwin ending up in hell wasn't a loophole or a mistake someone made along the way. it was a system that was working exactly the way it was intended.

and thinking about the idea of hell and the idea of forgiveness and the idea that you only stay in hell if you feel like you belong there. and how edwin says that he was never meant to be in hell to begin with but still building up a case for himself to prove it because him not deserving hell might not be immediately obvious

thinking about how edwin died because of a hate crime, how he died being made to feel that there is something fundamentally wrong with him and getting sent to hell right after. and thinking about how edwin saying "if you punish yourself, everywhere becomes hell" and over a century of repression and supressing the parts of himself that got him killed, that got him sent to hell in the first place. and thinking about how when the night nurse looked at edwin's file, it didn't know if he belonged in hell or somewhere else either because edwin didn't know because edwin knows that he never did anything to deserve hell but he didn't get sent to hell because of anything he did but because of what he is and maybe there's a difference and maybe he believes that he never did anything wrong but maybe some part of him believes that he, personally, is wrong

and thinking about forgiveness and salvation and how people actually get out of hell, and how edwin forgave simon because they were two queer kids in the same shitty situation both in life and in death and it didn't matter how simon hurt edwin because he still needed to understand that being gay was not a punishment, and thinking about simon getting out of hell right after

and thinking about edwin confessing his love for charles on the steps of hell and getting to leave right after and how hell is something you make for yourself and how edwin escaped the first time but he never forgave himself for what he is and not something hecdid maybe hell still had a hold on him after all those years and it wasn't until he let himself be honest about it and be gay and love boys and allowed himself to actively choose to be the person he is and deciding that that person is someone who is allowed to feel and love and that that kind of love was not a punishment and thinking about how edwin escaped hell by not just allowing himself to love but leaving behind all the ways he was punishing himself for it

[itolerate]

dead boy detectives textposts part 11 (happy pride)

[leahaart]

Spooky Ghosts

[andreacsenge]

JAYDEN REVRI, KASSIUS NELSON, GEORGE REXSTREW and YUYU KITAMURA on the set of DEAD BOY DETECTIVES (2024-)

[zmorak]

We live in a terrible time loop

Idea: @knifesimmons, my execution

[homoquartz]

fair enough the boy did slog through the orgy room countless times. to be fair he DID die in a fuckpile multiple times. "what's a handjob?" man you waded hip deep through handjobs.

[ouchmyghostskin]

[amones]

Enjoy.

[soranatus]

DREAM By Biscuit

[homoquartz]

i feel like we were robbed of jenny processing that she had double the children in her apartment than expected

[abeautifulblog]

I really enjoy how Edwin subverts the expectations for his character archetype. Usually, if you had a character that was a mousey unpopular teenager who'd gotten bullied to death, they'd be shy and laden with insecurities, easily steamrolled by characters with more force of personality -- but instead, by the time you meet him in the show, Edwin's ego is basically bulletproof.

He is entirely confident in himself, and comfortable being himself, free to be as fussy, effeminate, and old-fashioned as he likes, because the only person whose opinion of him he gives a fuck about is Charles, and Charles thinks everything about Edwin is brilliant and he can do no wrong. Thirty years of Charles's radical acceptance has allowed him not only to be himself, but to be himself fearlessly.

And I think that's beautiful. :)

[protect-edwin-at-all-costs]

LOOK AT HIS EYES. LOOK AT THE MIXTURE OF HURT, AND FEAR, AND SADNESS IN HIS EYES. HE IS VULNERABLE. HE IS MAD THAT HIS DEATH WAS "AN ACT OF GOD". HE IS MAD THAT NO ONE REMEMBERS HIM OR CHARLES. HE IS SCARED OF WHAT CRYSTAL IS DOING TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP. HE FEELS HELPLESS THAT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW HANDLE A WITCH AND HE FEELS INCOMPETENT. AND IF HES INCOMPETENT, THAN HE CANT HELP OTHERS. HE WILL BLAME HIMSELF FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S UNSOLVED CASES/UNFINISHED BUISINESS.

And as we know this roots back to the fear of Hell.

If he can't help others, then he has nothing to argue about being sent back to Hell. And he's terrified of Hell. That is when he felt the most helpless and vulnerable. That pit in his gut is the most painful thing in the world to him.

In the OFFICIAL character sheet in the omnibus, it says:

The base ESSENCE of Edwin's whole character is that he wants to be safe. But he's in an uncomfortable, unfamiliar place (America), with an uncomfortable, unfamiliar person (Crystal), on an uncomfortable, unfamiliar case (witch). This is scaring him and he doesn't know what to do!

AGH IT FUCKING KILLS ME. EDWIN YOUR EYES KILL ME

[writing-for-life]

Time and Night—JH Williams III