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5th

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his birthday

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4th

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[lovelysuggestions]

can we all come together and agree that the saying “no one can truly love you until you love yourself” is trash. loving yourself takes time, and it isn’t always easy. Know that there are people out there who love you, even when you struggle to.

[cobx]

rip to the songs we love but dont listen to anymore bc they are associated with bad memories

[booksfunquotes]

[suspend]

how do you know if you're in love???

I honestly asked my friend this same question just hours ago as I was clueless myself but thinking about it now I think it’s when for the first time after what seemed like a dreadful year (or life), you look forward to waking every morning knowing he (let’s use he as it’s me talking) will be there for you. I think it’s just plain seeing him and being happy that’s he’s around. It’s being happy just by hearing his voice. No matter how bad your day is, one message from him would make your entire day. It’s when he makes you want to write long letters and huge poems. It’s not all about “lust”- it’s more of the intimate relationship you have together. It’s when the simplest of things count. It’s when you start to mature and start to plan something with him for the future. It’s when he makes you want to start fixing your life. It’s when he’s always in your head 3 pm or 3 am. It’s when you can’t stop talking or thinking about him. It’s when you just really always miss him even if he’s right beside you. It’s the “I used to like green eyes but now blue eyes are my favorite”. It’s when all love and cheesy stuff just apply for him. It’s when you begin to see nothing but him and you value him like you value yourself. It’s not the “heart pounding, hands sweating” feeling but more of the “I feel home” feeling. It’s more of like talking to yourself- being yourself with someone without worries. It’s when you begin to really trust him with everything and that includes your happiness. It’s when he’s your happiness. It’s when subconsciously you change for the better. It’s when you once again start opening up after a long time. It’s when you are denying it at most cause you are afraid of how strong you feel and last I think while you’re reading this- there’s someone in your head right now and you’re just contemplating whether you’re in love with him or not but hey the fact that he or she is the person (out of billions of people) in your mind while you read this must say a lot.

[jorrrrr]

What do you do when you lose this kind of love?

[suspend]

I broke up with the person I was thinking of while writing this because that’s what you do when you lose this kind of love- you let go and you move on.

You don’t cling onto the person because “two and a half years has been a long time and it’s a waste to end it here”. You end it because you’ve had enough thinking twice whether the person is still worth staying with or not. You let go because you find yourself looking back, comparing and missing the old times than cherishing the present. You let go because you have to stop defending that person and start facing the truth that things have changed. You let go because you let go of anything that upsets you whether it be work, hobby or a person.

And you let go because you have to stop being selfish. There is someone out there wanting to love the person you’re holding onto and they deserve to feel this genuine love from someone and not a pity love from you.

When you lose this kind of love, you move on. You do it because it’s the best choice for you. You move on because you’ve been hurt enough and it’s time to be happy. You move on because you don’t deserve to doubt the love that someone gives you. You move on and whenever you crumble, remind yourself on why you left in the first place.

And you move forward because you won’t find the right person for you while you’re holding onto the wrong one.

[erentheghost]

This is the realest advice I could have ever read, and everyone deserves to read this.

[depressionhope]

“An untold story never heals.”

[starllex]

when you see a dog from across the street 

[lilmissvirgo-deactivated2022070]

me watching my own snapchat story: she is so damn funny i love her 

[ilovebeinginlovewithyoubabe-blog]

[the-absolute-funniest-posts]

perfect way to tell somebody to chill tf out

[haramdaddy]

Me taking care of myself all 2018

[typography-is-cool]

[phantasmal-provocations]

To the guy I almost loved. Thank you! our story was so brief but i felt happy during those times. You were the first guy which i have no intention to like as im a pathetic bitch who thinks a gorgeous man would only make me happy. You were the first guy who kept his good intention tight though I have ignored you so many times. You were the first guy who didnt buckle even though i have informed you that you were not the only guy I am talking to. You were the first guy who welcomed me as a whole, no questions asked even though I neglected your messages for quite a few times. You were the first guy who will ignore me for a day because you are planning to surprise me. You were the first guy who fought his urge to touch me because I told you not do it even though i really wanted you to do it. But what happened? Why do you have to add the scariest step to overcome in this ungrown relationship. Why do you felt unhappy about not giving in to you for the mean time. Why cant you understand that I really wanted to try it but Im just waiting for the right time? Why do you have to throw me away like you never exerted an effort at all. Why do you think I do not deserve you when I felt deserving for your efforts. If love is about trying and risking and hurting each other. Why do you have to give up so soon? 03-12-2018

[hemingay]

100% sure im ugly as hell and yet I still expect to be in a relationship with a hot person