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Intro

Howdy. You can call me Ali or Alexander. I’m a 15 year old gal. I’ve struggled with BED most my life & for the past 2 years it has morphed into Mia. I had a blog on here but it got termed. Now I’m back. If you have any of my older posts, please tag me.

I luv music & I’ve been goth the past 4 years of my life. I like motorsport, MMA, & pro wrestling. I do crochet as a hobby. I like FPS & my favorite game right now is Ghost Recon Future Soldier.

DISCLAIMER: I do not support having an ed. I am pro recovery. This blog will contain mentions of eating disorders. I may also blog about self harm. If this makes you uncomfortable, block me.

Stats & Tags

#Ali og #Ali spo #Ali info #Ali tips #Queue the wl

Lost the motivation to run this blog. I’ve been active on my main. If I ever come back to this edblr, it’ll be on this account. Maybe it’s for the best I leave this place. Farewell

#ali og

pinkglittersstar

I wish I could just cut my fat fucking belly off and every other part of my body.

#queue the wl

sm4lestspeckofdust

౨ৎ pro 4n4 tip:

every time you get a cr4ving, do not give in. log each one you get throughout your day in your notes app and before bed calculate how many c4Is it is. you’ll be able to see how much f4tt3r you could have been today without self control.

#queue the wl #ali tips

I think I may have hit two new record lows with my ed. I purged the earliest in the day today. I purged at 8 in the morning. I also purged 4 times today.

#ali og #Will I ever be free from this ed?

audreyonarun

The dream is legs like these

#queue the wl #ali spo

babydollnextdoor

bf thnsp

#Queue the wl #ali spo

r0ttingballet

“Was that your stomach rumbling? I thought you said you weren’t hungry?”

#Queue the wl

If I had actually died in the car wreck, would they put my sh scars on the autopsy? I remember reading Dylan Klebold’s autopsy & it put his sh cuts on it. Now I’m fantasizing about actually dying during the accident. I am grateful to be alive but my family would’ve learned about my sh if I had died. They would’ve cared. If one day I know I am going to die, I am going to self harm crazy. I am going postal on my arms. My last breathe will be a sigh of relief.

#I’m not actually suicidal right now or anything #ali og #Also I was not weird tcc that sexualized the killers #I was genuinely interested in the caees

strawberrycakemilo

#queue the wl

I think I may have actually changed the composition of the skin on my arm from sh. I don’t cut on my arms; instead I punch them. I’ve been punching them for years. They don’t bruise as easily as they used to. I think my nerves have been fried, since I can’t feel as much touch on them. My skin is tougher on my arms too. Has anyone else experienced this?

#ali og

When my left arm was covered in bruises, I was terrified of someone noticing them. I wore thin jackers since it was hot to hide them. But now I miss them. I wish someone would’ve noticed them & cared for me…

#ali og

It made me sad when my Dad told me he hopes I never develop an addiction. I’m sorry, but you’re 4 years too late.

#ali og

moonygrly

#ali spo #Queue the wl

lightest-angel

100 Things to do Instead of B1ng1ng 🤍

Paint your nails

Do your hair

Clean your room

Find a new hobby

Spend time with friends

Call someone

Take a walk

Go to the gym

Workout at home

Go to the pool

Draw and color

Try a new kind of tea

Eat a low c4l food you wanted to try

Watch a movie / series

Read a book

Watch your comfort youtuber

Take a bath

Take a nap

Dance to music

Do solo karaoke

Have a one-person party

Make something to give to someone else

Write in a journal if you have one

Build a puzzle

Do yoga

Look at cute cats on the internet

Go for a bike ride

Gardening

Watch TED talks

Word searches

Sudoku

Learn to knit

Talk to your stuffed animals

Bake food for others

Go to the movies

Make a vision board

Learn something new

Play an instrument, if you don’t, learn one!

Go to the beach and build a sand castle

Play a board game with family

Have a sleepover with friends

Facetime with friends

Join a random discord call

Go to the library

Build a lego set

Add to a collection you have

Learn to skateboard

Go rollerskating

Find new music

Play solitaire

Call your mum

Go to the mall, window shop

Write a short story

Origami

Lay on the floor

Clean around the house

Make a new Pinterest board

Play a video game

Make an online friend

Fight kids on Roblox

Play with your pet

Follow a YouTube workout

Join an 3d discord server

Go for a drive if you have a car

Go to bed

Find a new d13t plan

Discover something you’re passionate about

Put on comfortable clothes

Try a new makeup style

Try pilates

Rearrange your room

Scream into a pillow

Visit a museum

Play a sport

Kick a ball around

Clean out your phone

Clean your phone case

Do useless side quests

Visit your grandparents

Take a walk in a community garden

Learn how to do a cartwheel

Reach out to someone struggling

Make a scented candle

Offer to babysit for someone you know

Play stupid mobile games

Change your wallpaper

Drink water

Take a look at a thrift shop

Meditate

Go to the park

Sit on a swing

Make a bracelet

Try on all of your clothes

Get rid of what you don’t need

Take a scooter ride

Go for a hike

Go birdwatching

Scrapbooking

Learn how to do a backflip

Make a list of things to do instead of b1ng!ng, and do them!

The choice is yours, angel 🤍

#queue the wl

Grandfather that I opened up to just left. He moved across the state to go live with another woman. Before he left all he did was tell me to find God for 10 minutes.

#ali og #I thought the man leaving for another woman was just a plot device #Why does it have to happen to me?#The find god part is what angers me #I study Greek because of how anatomical terms come from Greek #The New Testament was mainly written in Greek #You tell me to find God & yet you don’t know anything about the language the Bible was written in?#You don’t even know how Greek has 8 different words for love #You don’t even know about Dante Aligheri’s Divine Comedy even though I’m rereading it this week #You don’t know about the Great Schism #All you know comes from a translation made by a man that criminalized people that did not belong to his denomination #But whatever #Run off with the woman you just met #Y’all won’t make it to the end of the year

natalieblr

The whole of the £d community preparing to “lock in” at the start of every month

#The original gif was a bunch of people putting their hands togther & then letting them up #queue the wl

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