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"And when it was over, that agent, he...                                                        he saved my life."

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He turned around to see young man in front of him.

"Yes I’m…" he said slowly watching closely young man. 

"What happened?"

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"I don't...I don't know. I woke up like this, with a note...and it said...it said to find you." He thrust the bloodstained paper at the man in front of him.

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You are my sweetest downfall I loved you first, I loved you first…

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                     can you stand the person you've become?                                                   i. ii. iii.

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“ did you know that there are more lifeforms on the human skin than there are people on the planet? it’s what sometimes causes the sensation of something crawling on a person’s skin from time to time. “

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"You know, Dr.Reid....you don't have to  keep doing this. I'm fine on my own.  Honestly."

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I'm sorry--                  Are you Patrick Jane? Phoenix was covered in blood, his entire body shaking, illuminated in the darkness.   I need your help.

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Spencer frowned and put his hands up slowly as he approached the kid.          ”Okay.. okay.             —just tell me what happened..” He surveyed the child for signs of wear or blood.

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"I...I don't know!"

                                                           He stared down at his trembling hands,                                                            covered in blood that led down to scratched                                                            up forearms, and he started to hyperventilate.

"Oh...oh god, whose blood is this?!? Whose fucking blood is this?!?"

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         ”Look, I’m putting it away

— I don’t want to hurt you

We just need to ask you some questions.”

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"You gotta understand

                                  --I didn't do this.

Please, you gotta believe me."

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After listening to him, it soon clicked to her that he was part of the group that she had helped the year before. The blonde hair was returning to her memory, and so was that dark day. At nineteen, and her first big call, Valerie Murphy couldn’t even fathom that something like this could happen. Such things the young officer tried to block from her memory, now coming back as if it were a wave from a flood. Her dark eyes searched his face for a few moments, before bowing her head to reply.

"I-I understand…" 

Her words were lost, and as much as she tried to gather the right thing to say, all she could do was let them disappear from the air.

Pushing past the vivid memories, Officer Murphy cleared her throat, glancing around her office. Her blinds were closed, allowing the setting rays peek through her windows, reaching as far as they could before fading into the fluorescent lighting.

"I’ve got some time… I know it won’t really help, but you can talk to me about it. Looks like you want to let things out."

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"All my friends are dead. It sucks." He leaned against the wall, folding his arms across his chest. "I just wish I could run into someone who didn't know my entire fucking life story, you know?" He tilted his head before amending his statement. "Not that it's not great to see you, because it is. Really. You were really great."

Phoenix took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. He didn't know why he was saying all this. Maybe he was tired of his shrink. Maybe he wanted someone who wouldn't sugarcoat things or try and convince him that things were going to be better. Maybe he wanted to feel normal, for once. Maybe he wanted something else.

"I have nightmares all the time. I can't sleep most nights. I can't focus, I'm flunking out of school, and I'm not going to amount to much because of my freaking PTSD. I thought that things would be over when I got out of that barn, but it seems like those two weeks are going to follow me forever. Why the hell does everything have to suck so much?"

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She wasn’t expecting the slew of information being thrown at her - but she tried to take it all in. She’d saved his friend? It still didn’t sound familiar. She didn’t know wether to feel bad about not saving him, or relieved that he wasn’t bitter about it. She was given  two questions at once, and there was so much to be answered - for both their sakes. She took off her sunglasses, perching them atop her head. She was trying to handle this properly, so she treaded carefully. 

"We’re looking for a suspect, to see if anyone acts suspiciously." She looked over at JJ who was snapping pictures with her phone of the people around campus. She turned back to Phoenix. She pursed her lips, eyes flickering. She looked back, and then she remembered him. "Oh my god." She muttered, almost under her breath. "Y-Yeah, I’m with the BAU - I think I remember you now. Who was it I saved you from?" She asked, wanting the last piece of the puzzle. 

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Phoenix saw the blank expression on her face, and was starting to regret his decision to talk to the brunette more and more. Maybe he should have talked to the skinny guy who sat in the hospital with him until his parents arrived, or the one who looked like he was perpetually worried, or maybe the guy with the backwards baseball cap who half-carried Phoenix out of the barn where his life had ended. He should have talked to anyone but her.

However, he started to see a flicker of recognition in her eyes. "Richmond Ripper," he replied quietly. He looked down, folding his arms behind his back as he waited for her to remember the rest of the case. It wouldn't take long, now that she had a name. He looked up. "Thank you," he added. There wasn't enough time for him to say just how deep his gratitude ran, but he figured that those two simple words were at least a good start.

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"I have nightmares too. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.”

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"It's not that I'm ashamed.  I'm just not looking for help. Is that so hard to u n d e r s t a n d?"

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"I remember you, Phoenix." Spencer said, shoving his hands in his pockets. It had been a particularly nasty case, where Phoenix more or less kept himself and the other victims from the brutal torture regimen the Unsub had adopted.

"How’ve you been holding up? Did you start college or a job or anything?" It wouldn’t surprise Spencer if Phoenix hadn’t gotten right back into the swing of a normal life; the trauma the boy had endured was enough to knock even the strongest to their feet.

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Phoenix folded his arms over his chest, able to feel the scars through his shirt, both surgical and non-surgical, that were on his torso. "I've been doing all right. Can't say the same for the others." Two of them had been dead on arrival, one of them died a few days later in the hospital, and one of them ate a bullet.Compared to them, Phoenix was just peachy.

"I'm in college, actually. Psychology." Because I have plenty of that. He rocked back and forth uncomfortably, starting to regret his decision to talk to the other man, feeling old memories and feelings start to resurface, no matter how much he tried to push them down. "Are you here about...about those kids who were killed?" Phoenix started to feel his throat close up with anxiety, and he forced himself to take a deep breath. His lungs opened up again, and he breathed normally. "It's too bad that this shit happens everywhere."

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Emily had her sunglasses on, scoping the college campus. It was a hot day, and her pantsuit was making it a lot worse. They were looking for a needle in a haystack, and she’d split up from her team but she could see them scattered around asking various questions. She was downright frustrated though. They’d been on this case for days no, and their leads were dead ending. 

But when she heard the voice, she snapped back to reality and looked at the man in-front of her. “Excuse me?” She asked with a small smile. She didn’t recognize him - did he know she was FBI? She didn’t think it would be a good idea to point out exactly why she was here, She pushed her sunglasses up her nose and looked over to JJ for a moment, who saw her - before looking back. “I’m sorry - are you a student?” she asked. 

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"Yeah, I'm a student, but that's not the important part of all this." Phoenix spoke quickly, his mind working far too quickly for his mouth as he tripped over his words. "You're that agent, the one that tried to save my friend, but you couldn't but that's okay because the guy had beaten him half to death but you tried and that's the important part." Phoenix tilted his head slightly. "You're looking for something--someone, probably. Who?"

He backtracked. He probably looked completely insane at this point (which he sort of was, as a flashback started to take hold in his mind) and he forced himself to take a deep breath. "My name's Phoenix, and about a year ago you saved my life." Almost exactly a year ago she had saved his life--a year and two weeks ago, to be precise. Phoenix backtracked again. "You're with the BAU, right?"

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Phoenix was more than a little surprised to see a member of the BAU on his college campus--he turned to the dark haired woman, tracing a scar on his forearm, picking at the raised skin slightly, a reminder of the trauma of his past.

"What are you doing here?"

Phoenix realized that he probably seemed strange, knowing that they probably didn't remember or care about him, but still, he had to ask. The sight of the mildly familiar faces were starting to bring back a lot of memories he had hoped to forget.

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"I’m me, yeah…" She trailed off, watching as the male stroke the underside of his jaw. Leaning back onto her desk, she allowed her bottom to hang against the cool metal as she waited for the other to get a hold of his trail of thought. Since working at the office for almost two years, the raven-haired woman couldn’t exactly say she remembered him, but she wouldn’t have turned him down mid-sentence.

Nodding, she grew smug and crossed her arms, waving a hand dismissively as if it wasn’t a big deal. Truly, it was all in her job. Saving folk just as her father had taught her, growing into the family tradition of law enforcement.

     ”You’re very welcome, really. You shouldn’t be thanking me.”

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Phoenix mustered a small smile--or, at least, what he considered a smile. Most would think he was having a muscle spasm in his face.

"I didn't think I'd see anyone from that day again."

The other kids that had been with him were all dead. Two had died in that barn, one died of his wounds in the hospital afterwards, and one shot himself the previous May. Phoenix was the only one left who remembered the horrors of it, and having no one to talk to about it had started to take its toll on him--there wasn't exactly a support group for what he had gone through.

Seeing the officer again had brought back a flood of memories that he didn't want to remember, but he swallowed back the scream that threatened to explode from the back of his throat.