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âWhat would I do without you?â He sighs out, his hand squeezing yours lightly.Â
You just laugh before responding. âI guess youâll never have to find out.â You quip.Â
Though he doesnât respond, his expression tells you everything you need to know. His lips curl into a tight smile, the hand that's grasping yours tightens even more as his thumb caresses your skin.Â
âItâs you and me, Tobio.â You mutter. You hear his breath catch in his throat before you continue.Â
âAlways forever.â
Always Forever - Cults
Childhood Friends to Lovers
Word Count: 8.8k
No use of Y/N
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7 years old
As the chill of the February air nips at your skin, you feel your grip on your motherâs hand tighten.Â
She takes a quick glance down at your small form, and releases a small exhausted sigh. After a long and tiresome day of packing the rest of your belongings from your old apartment into the moving van, both you and your mother were worn out from such a busy day.Â
The sun was just beginning to set behind your house, the warm light casting a beam across your face. With the only source of warmth during the cold of winter now disappearing for the night, the chill in the air only got worse, making the tips of your fingers tingle.Â
As you look around at your new neighborhood, you glance at the line of similar houses surrounding yours. As you did, you took note of the light beaming from the house to the right of your own, voices echoing from the backyard. Â
Before you could try to peep what was being said, your mother tugs on your hand. âCâmon sweetie. We need to start unpacking before the sun sets,â she sighs out before pulling you along. Your grip tightens against her hand as you walk, your other hand grabbing onto the straps of your Sanrio backpack as you enter the house.Â
After your first few days since moving, your new house was somewhat furnished, with a few boxes still scattered here and there. As you made your way down the stairs to the kitchen, your mother was already waiting for you, bowl of steamed rice in her hand. Her new job didn't start for another few days, so she has been busy unpacking the house.Â
As you made it to the final step, a loud yawn exited you, the heels of your palms rising to rub at your eyes. Hearing your sign of arrival, she turned to you, a small smile on her lips. âThere you are, I was just about to come and wake you up!â she beamed. You slowly dragged your feet to the counter, heaving yourself onto the stool across from her.
She slid a bowl of rice across the counter to you and turned to pour a cup of milk for you as she spoke. âMy new job starts in a few days, and I am going to be gone for a majority of the day, so I am going to have to hire a babysitter to watch you throughout the day.â she states, sipping her coffee from her mug. You just nod, sleep still clouding your mind as she continues. âThe neighbors next door may have to watch you. They have a kid around your age too, so you can hang out with him while Iâm working!â She exclaims.Â
This gets your attention, as you were unaware that there were any kids your age in their neighborhood, let alone one of your neighbors. âReally? Do you think he will be in my school too?â You gasped, hopeful you will actually be able to make a friend in your new city.Â
The woman just huffs out a laugh, a smile present on her face as she shrugs. âIâm not sure hun, but we can find out later tonight. I invited him and his grandfather over for dinner later, so we can find out then!â She smiled, laughing at the glint of happiness in your eyes.Â
As the evening sun sets further and further past the horizon, the smell of cooked beef and eggs filled the house as you began to set the table for four. Once you set out the last plate, you hear the doorbell ring and your moms voice calling for you to get the door. You skip over to the front door and reach for the knob, twisting it and pulling the door open, a large smile on your face.Â
âHello and welcome!â you exclaimed, holding the door open for the man and his grandson. With a grateful smile, the man grabbed the boy's hand and walked through the door. âThank you very much for the invite. It is a pleasure to meet you, young lady.â He greets with a quick bow, urging the boy to do the same.Â
When you take a glance down to the young boy, he meets your gaze with a shy smile and bows politely. âThank you for having us..â he mutters, eyes squeezed shut. Your mouth parts open slightly, then you break out into a smile, letting a soft giggle escape your lips. The boy sits back up, eyes opening as his face falls in confusion, raven hair covering his deep blue eyes as he examines your face.Â
You smile down at him and extend your hand out to him, introducing yourself and telling him your name. âWhatâs your name? How old are you? What school do you go to? Whatâs your favourite show?â You shout, shaking his hand with force as soon as he grabs it. Your mother pokes her head out from the kitchen upon hearing the shouting, laughing awkwardly seeing you shaking the boy in front of you violently.Â
The sound of your mother clapping lightly breaks you from your questionnaire, halting your excessive shaking and turning to where your mom stands next to the dining table. âOkay okay, let him breathe, dear. You can ask questions after we eat. Theyâve barely even gotten through the door yet.â She chuckles.Â
Kazuyo, as you later learned, sighs happily, stomach full. âThank you so much for the food, Maâam. It was very lovely.â He hums. Your mother just smiles at him softly, glancing towards the living room to see you showing Kageyama your Tamagotchi that your mom got you a few days prior. âIt is no problem, really. I am glad you were able to come,â She sighs softly. âI do need to ask for a bit of a big favour though.âÂ
Kazuyo shifts slightly, facing your mother with a questioning look. âWhatever it is, I am happy to help.â He replies with a soft smile. She returns the smile, takes one last glance at you in the living room, and continues. âMy new job starts on Monday, and I leave in the early morning and am gone almost all day, and I need someone to watch my daughter while I work. I was wondering if you would be able to watch her while I am gone. She could stay at your house until I come back. If thatâs okay with you? If not, thatâs okay I can always post an ad onli-â She rambles, but is quickly cut off by Kazuyo.
He chuckles and places a hand on her shoulder. âIt is absolutely alright. It gives me something to do and Tobio gains a friend out of it. You do not need to worry about it.â He smiles. There is visibly a weight that lifts off of her shoulders. She lets out the breath she didnât know she was holding and smiles. She turns her head back to where you and Kageyama are sitting on the floor and smiles.Â
Youâre gonna be just fine.Â
11 years old
The following years go the exact same way.Â
Monday through Friday, you walk to the Kageyama household after school, where you spend the majority of the evening in the living room with Tobio watching any volleyball match that was playing (Tobioâs choice, of course).Â
While you watched, Tobio gave commentary on what was happening during the match (Not that you understood much of what he was saying anyway). You just smiled and nodded, the screen a blur as you lost focus.
Which, of course, did not go unnoticed by Tobio.Â
âAre you even paying attention?â He muttered, waving a hand in front of your face. You regained focus and shifted your gaze onto the boy next to you. You nodded, to which his face deadpanned. âThen who just scored a point?â He asks, pointing to the match that was playing on the screen in front of you. You glance back, blinking before sighing. âI donât know Tobio, the blue team?â You mumbled.Â
Kazuyo laughs from his spot at the table behind you. âTobio, give her a breather. She just isnât as interested in volleyball as you are, kid.â You hear the crinkle of the newspaper he was reading.Â
Tobio just rolls his eyes and sits back against the couch with a huff, focusing on the television with his arms crossed across his chest, ultimately pouting. You smile in his direction and continue on with your daydreams.Â
One weekend, your mother had to go on a small trip for work and would not return until the following Monday, so you were to stay over at Tobioâs house until she returned. With your bag packed, your mom walked you over to the front door, knocking lightly.Â
You hear light footsteps making their way to the door before it swings open, the boyâs cheeky grin meeting your gaze, and an excited glimmer in his eyes.
You know that look anywhere.
A groan escapes your lips as the smile on his face grows, his hand reaching out to grab your wrist as you drop your bag next to the door. He pulls you through the door as your mother laughs from behind you. âHave fun sweetie. Behave while I am gone. I love you!â She shouts while blowing a quick kiss your way. You peek your head over your shoulder and return it before being dragged into the boyâs backyard.Â
As you reach the grass of the yard, Tobio releases the grip on your wrist as he runs to the small shed in the corner of the lot. You look around the yard as if itâs your first time being here, but unfortunately, youâve been dragged here more than a dozen times.Â
A few moments later, he returns with a small sack of volleyballs trailing behind him. Once he reaches you, he drops it and reaches inside, pulling a few out and leaving them on the floor beside you. This isnât new to you, so you already know the drill.Â
For the next half hour or so, your job is to toss balls up for Tobio to set back up and retrieve them.Â
After a while of tossing, the silence begins to bore you.Â
âDid you study for your english test on Monday, Tobio?â You sigh out, the cool Spring breeze flowing through your hair. He winces, body tensing up before his shoulders slump, mentally preparing himself for the lecture you are about to give him.Â
You let out an annoyed sigh before tossing another ball his way. âTobio, you said you were going to study. You need to pass this test or else Kazuyo is going to have your head and then you wonât be able to hang out with me because youâll be dead.â You complained. He just rolls his eyes as he sets the ball up into the air before bumping it back at you. âYouâre being dramatic. Iâll be fine. It canât be that bad.â He huffs.Â
You squint at him before letting out an amused laugh. âYouâve said that about the last two tests, and you barely passed.â You remind him. âYâknow, if you practiced your english as much as you practiced your setting, then maybe you would be a genius.â You taunt before tossing him the same ball he had perfectly bumped back to you.Â
Hearing this, he gives you a nasty side eye before he sets the ball up above him. Before he can bump it back to you, a sudden idea sparks in his mind. With a sly smirk, he reaches his arm up and spikes the ball right in your direction with a little too much power. Before he can yell out a warning, the ball collides with the side of your face, the unexpected force knocking you off your balance, causing you to fall to the floor, landing on your backside.
Tobio blinks before his eyes widen, mouth falling open slightly. He quickly runs over before kneeling down at your side, scanning you for any signs of pain. âOh god, are you okay? I didnât mean to hit it that hard, I swear.â He blurted out, his hands hesitantly raising to grab at your face, pulling you closer to him as he checked your face for any marks or bruises.Â
You, on the other hand, sat in silence, momentarily stunned. After a few seconds, your eyes drift to meet his deep blue orbs. You freeze up, the sudden closeness sending a wave of chills down your spine.Â
As you feel your face begin to increase in temperature, you push him off of you. âTOBIO, YOU JERK!â You exclaim, fists clenched as you stare up at him with a scowl. While his face is filled with worry, he canât help the playful smile that spreads across his face, which only fuels your annoyance.Â
He just shrugs, laughing while reaching down to pull at your arm. âCâmon, I said I was sorry. We can go back inside if you want.â With one quick tug, youâre back up on your feet, shoulders sulking slightly. You just nod, walking back towards the door to the house, leaving Tobio to clean up the volleyballs scattered across the yard.Â
Before you reach the door, you pause, glancing back at the boy behind you. He knelt down, packing a few balls into the bag. As if feeling your eyes burning into the back of your head, he turns, eyes meeting yours. His arms freeze, the ball he was holding rolling out of his hand.Â
Seeing his questioning gaze, your face reddens, quickly turning away before heading back inside to set up his room for the night. As you close the door behind you, you stop, heart thumping in your chest.Â
What is this feeling?
15 years old
After a rough last year of middle school, it was finally time for the two of you to start high school. As you and Tobio are nearing the start of your first year, the rush to prepare takes over.Â
While Tobio was adamant on getting into Shiratorizawa for volleyball while you didnât care much about where you went to school. The closest school to your house was Karasuno, so by default, it was your number one option.Â
Since he wasnât offered a sports scholarship, he was required to take the entrance exam to get in. In the next week, you and Tobio would spend the evenings at his house attempting to prepare him for his exam. And boy, did he need it. He was a mess. There were papers thrown everywhere, pencils all over the floor, and his room was chaotic.Â
His head was in his hands and his fingers were stranded through his hair as he squeezed his eyes shut, sighing out in annoyance. You snort out a laugh, reaching out and shaking his shoulder lightly. âYou need a break. You wanna go for a walk?â You offered, which seemed to get his attention. He visibly perked up, head snapping in your direction. With a quick nod, he stood up from his chair, grabbing a sweatshirt and his jacket before turning to you with an impatient look on his face.
âAre we going on a walk or not?â He asks, hand already grasping the handle of his door. You canât help the smile that spreads across your face or stutter in your heart. âYeah, yeah, Iâm going.â You snicker, standing from your place on the edge of his bed before following him to the door with your jacket in hand.Â
Once you make it out the front door and onto the sidewalk, you both fall into a comfortable silence. After walking for a few minutes, you finally break the silence. âAnywhere you want to walk to? The convenience store?â You ask, head turning towards him slightly. Without looking up from his shoes, he nods silently. You take notice of his lack of words, but choose not to bring it up, deeming it the stress of studying for his exam.Â
After a few more minutes of quiet walking, you make it to the small convenience store, entering through the automatic doors. The owner welcomes you in with a small smile which you return before tugging Tobio down the aisles. After scanning the store for a while, you both choose some snacks before paying and exiting the store, making your way back to his house.Â
While the silent walk had been calming, you began to worry. Tobio is quiet, but usually not this quiet. Deciding to break his trance, you nudge him softly with your elbow. âWhatâs your deal? Youâve barely said a word this whole trip.â You whisper, a slight worried tone in your voice. Thereâs a fault in his step, but he quickly recovers, continuing his steady pace next to you. You look up at him expectantly, but he doesnât fold. Excepting his response, you huff a breath out of your nose and face forward again.Â
For the next few minutes, the walk is silent, but there is a newfound tension surrounding the two of you. Right before you turn to walk on the path back to the front door of his house, he stops you, his hand grabbing onto your forearm. Surprised by the sudden contact, you jump slightly before turning back toward him. Your head tilts slightly to the side in a silent question. He meets your eyes for the first time since you left for your walk and lets out a shuddered sigh. âWhat if I donât get accepted into Shiratorizawa? What if I am doing all of this work for nothing?â He murmurs.Â
Hearing his words, your heart drops. Even if he didnât directly say it, you knew what it was he was truly asking. Your eyes relax and you let out a soft sigh, smiling sadly. Reaching out slowly, you connect your hand to the side of his face, brushing your thumb against his cheek.
âWherever you go, he would be proud of you, no matter what.â You feel his body stiffen slightly before relaxing against your hand, his teeth coming to chew on his bottom lip. A moment passes by without either of you speaking before he suddenly reaches up and grabs your hand from his cheek, gently taking it into his own. He smiles lightly before speaking.Â
âWhat would I do without you?â He sighs out, his hand squeezing yours lightly.Â
You just laugh before responding. âI guess youâll never have to find out.â You quip.Â
Though he doesnât respond, his expression tells you everything you need to know. His lips curl into a tight smile, the hand that's grasping yours tightens even more as his thumb caresses your skin.Â
âItâs you and me, Tobio.â You mutter. You hear his breath catch in his throat before you continue.Â
âAlways forever.â
Before he can react, the grip on your hand loosens as you turn to head inside, arms coming to wrap around yourself as you shiver. While you make your way back to the house, Tobio is frozen in his place in front of the walkway.Â
He slowly glances down at the hand that was holding yours mere seconds ago, a faint blush creeping down his neck and blooming across his cheeks.Â
âAm I getting sick?â He thinks, before shaking the thought away while walking to the door of his house.Â
The next few days pass in a blur.Â
On Thursday, Tobio was out taking his exam that he spent the entirety of last week studying for while you were at home preparing for your own entrance exam for Karasuno.Â
The following week, the results came back.
You get a text on your phone.
Tobio:
I just got my results back.
A few minutes go by before the next text comes in.
Tobio:
Can you come over?
I donât want to be alone when I open it.Â
You let a laugh escape your throat before responding.
     You:
     Iâm on my way.
You shut your phone off, the screen with his message going black before you sit up from your place in your bed. Sliding off the side, you reach for your sweatshirt and coat before exiting the confines of your room.Â
Since it was later in the night, your mother was already home from her day of work. Hearing your footsteps coming down the stairs, she looks up from her spot on the couch. âHey sweetie! Dinner is on the stove if youâre hungry.â She smiles before glancing back at the TV. You quickly glance at the kitchen before striding towards the front door for your shoes. âIâm heading over to Tobioâs house, but thanks, mom!âÂ
As you begin to pull on your shoes, you go to reach for the door before your moms voice stops you. âNow? At this time of night?â She laughs, turning to you again. You look back at her smiling before you go to respond. âYeah, Tobio got his results back from Shiratorizawa and wants me to be there when he opens it.â You explain, letting your hand fall from the handle of the door before walking over the edge of the couch.Â
She stares at you for a moment before a sly smirk spreads across her face. âOkay, but let me know if you are going to sleep over, alright?â She states, a playful smile on her face. You nod, making your way back to the front door. âIâll text you if I end up staying.â You announced before walking out, shutting the door behind you.Â
The walk to his house is short, and before you know it, you are already at the front door. Having been there plenty of times, you let yourself in, removing your shoes before shedding your coat as you walk up the stairs to Tobioâs room.Â
Once you reach his door, you raise your hand to knock lightly, waiting for his voice to tell you itâs alright to come in. From behind the door, you hear him call for you. Pushing the door open, you walk in to find him sitting on the edge of his bed.Â
When your eyes meet, you can see the nervousness in his eyes. You smile softly, closing the door behind you before slowly walking over, taking the spot next to him on his bed. The envelope sat on his legs in front of him as if it was staring him down. When you take a look at his face, his eyebrows are scrunched and he is chewing on his bottom lip.
A sigh escapes your lips, a hand coming up to rest on his shoulders. When you make contact, you can feel the way he tenses up under your touch. Your hand unconsciously rubs up and down his arm, easing the tension away as his shoulders begin to relax.Â
Leaning forward to meet his eyes, you begin to speak. âAre you ready to open it?â You say, your other hand coming to nudge at the envelope in his lap. He scans the lettering on the wrapping, inhaling through his nose before exhaling a breath out of his mouth, nodding as he picks up the envelope.Â
He rips the seal at the top, reaching inside and grabbing the sheet of paper that is sitting on the bottom. Before he pulls the letter out, he looks at you, eyes searching yours for comfort. You nod softly, the hand still on his shoulder squeezing gently.Â
Taking a quick breath, he pulls the paper out of the envelope, slowly unfolding it and taking a breath before reading the contents of the note. The paper is at an angle which makes it unreadable to you, so you try to study Tobioâs facial expressions as he reads, but his face remains still.Â
After a few beats, he lowers his hands, wresting the page in his lap. He sits in silence for a moment before he speaks. âI didnât get in.â He mumbled, his eyes creased as he bit back a sad sigh. You frown at the disappointed tone in his voice, glancing down at the clenched hands in his lap.Â
Reaching down, you pull the piece of paper out of his hands and set it to the side, pulling his hand into yours. You lean forward, trying to get him to look at you. âTobio, look at me.â You whisper, thumb brushing the knuckles on the hand interlocked with yours.Â
He hesitantly meets your eyes, a soft gloss coating them. Giving him a sad smile, you sigh. âIâm so sorry.â His gaze shifts to your hands as he blinks rather aggressively, inhaling a deep breath before releasing it through his nose.Â
From the scowl on his face, you can tell he was trying his best to hold back any sign of emotion. You just smile, squeezing his hand as you reach your other arm around his back, pulling him into you lightly. Your head lulls to the side, resting against his shoulder.Â
The two of you sit in a comfortable silence, the only thing heard in the room was Tobioâs heavy breathing and an occasional sniffle. It was obvious he was trying to be as subtle as possible, so you chose to stay quiet.Â
After a few minutes, you spoke. âDo you want me to stay the night?â You ask, lifting your head from his shoulder and turning to look at him. He takes a few seconds to respond until he nods. You nod back at him before returning to your original spot on his shoulder.
In your head, you remind yourself to let your mom know that you were spending the night.Â
After setting up the futon next to his bed, he began to think about his other options. âWhat other schools with good volleyball teams are near us?â He mumbles, hand coming up to his chin in thought. âHow about Aoba Johsai?â You question, glancing up at him from the floor.Â
âItâs too late, they already had their entrance exams and I canât make it up.â He groans. You pause for a minute, thinking about the other schools in your prefecture. âDate Tech?â You suggest while laying back against his bed.Â
He thinks for a moment, face scrunched before he sighs out. âItâs too far. I would have to leave at least forty-five minutes before school started to catch the bus, and knowing me, I would more than likely miss it and be late. â He laughs. As you think for a minute, an idea pops into your head. âWell, thereâs always Karasuno? You could go to school with me!â You exclaim, turning towards him with a hopeful smile.Â
Glancing down at your face, he feels a wave of heat rise from the base of his neck to his cheeks. The tips of his ears begin to turn pink before he quickly looks away from you, fists clenched in his lap.Â
Brushing it off, he jokingly rolls his eyes as he speaks. âYeah yeah, I guess I could go to school with you. Itâs not like I have any other options.â He murmurs, cheeks lighting up in the darkness of his room. Your lips turn into a bright smile before you leap up from your spot, jumping onto him and wrapping your arms around his torso. âReally? Are you serious?â You shout, squeezing him tightly.Â
He freezes for a moment before slowly reaching one arm around your back, returning the hug. âIâm serious. They may not have the best volleyball team, but I also heard that Coach Ukai was coming back.â He sighs, pulling back to give you a forced smile. âI can fill out the form for the exam tomorrow. For now, letâs go to sleep.â He sits up from where he was sitting on his bed and walks over to the light switch on the wall, flicking the lights off before walking back to his bed and climbing in.
As you go to lay down on the futon he laid out, you take one last glance towards him. He is already tucked under his covers with his back facing you, and even though you canât see his face, you can tell he is already half asleep. You place your hand over your mouth to muffle the laugh that escapes, finding it amusing how quickly he can fall asleep.Â
Once you turn to try and go to sleep, you begin to think about what it would be like to go to the same high school together. Would you be in the same class? Would you even see him throughout the day? Will you stop talking to each other?Â
You squeeze your eyes shut, shaking the thought from your head quickly before drifting off to sleep.
When your first day at Karasuno finally arrives, your nerves are through the roof. Standing outside of your house, you were patiently waiting for Tobio to make his way outside. The two of you were originally supposed to meet at 7:30, but of course, at 7:42, he was still not here yet.Â
You consider calling his phone, but the sound of his front door opening interrupts the thought. When you look over, you spot Tobio emerging from his house, a pouch of milk in his hand.Â
As he makes his way towards you, you quickly scan his figure, taking note of his messy hair and the way the collar of his uniform is all wrinkled.Â
Letting out a groan, you reach out and stop him, hands going to smooth out the wrinkles and taming the tangles on his head. âWhy do you look like you just rolled out of bed?â You mumble out, fingers snagging on a small knot in his hair, leaving him to blurt out a quick ow before you pull away, admiring your work.Â
He turns away while grumbling. âBecause I just woke up.â He sounds almost embarrassed, but you ignore it, instead gripping onto the hand that isnât holding his pouch of milk before turning to begin the walk to school, dragging him behind you.
After a few seconds, you release his hand, letting your arm rest by your side. The plan to stop by the convenience store was no longer an option, so you were going to have to do without breakfa-
âDid you eat breakfast?â Tobio questions. His question interrupts your thought, causing you to pause and turn to him for a moment before you continue walking. âNope. I was hoping to run to the convenience store before we left for school, but I donât think we have time.â
You notice the guilty look on his face as he looks back down at his feet. After walking a few more yards, you feel him tug on your wrist, pulling you to a stop. Looking back at him questioningly, you see him drop his bookbag to the ground, reaching down into it as if he was looking for something.Â
A few moments later, his hand emerges from his bag with a granola bar and a yogurt pouch in his grasp. Closing his bookbag, he stands up, hands outstretched towards you expectantly. Glancing up at him, your eyebrows raise. âTheyâre for you. Itâs my fault you didnât eat breakfast, so here.â He waves the food in front of you. As you reach out and take it from him, your hand grazes his, causing the tips of your ears to turn pink.Â
âThank you, Tobio.â Smiling at him, you nod your head in the direction you were originally heading before turning to continue walking, Tobio taking the spot next to you as he throws his bag on his back.Â
While you walk, you open the packaging of the granola bar, eating it as you go. You did feel bad that Tobio gave you his food. It was most likely his snacks for practice, and you didnât want him to be hungry.Â
âDonât you have practice after school today?â You question. He just nods, not bothering to lift his gaze from his feet.Â
âWhat time would you be done? Do you want me to drop something off for you before I go home?â Giving him a gentle smile, he finally looks up at you, a look of surprise on his face.Â
âUh.. I mean, sure, if itâs not a problem for you.â He says, a slight pink tint on his cheeks that you decide is most likely from the chilly morning air. You nod before continuing the trek to school.Â
What you donât notice is the smile that reaches his face or the way his palms begin to sweat despite the cool morning air.Â
16 years old
After months of hard work and practice, Karasuno was finally going to Nationals.Â
Since Kageyama is who he is (A workaholic? A perfectionist? Who knows..), you barely saw him outside of school since he was constantly practicing.Â
Was he being distant on purpose? Of course not, he would never intentionally leave you in the dark, he is just so hyperfocused on being the best he can be that he forgot to take breaks.Â
One day during lunch, you finally decide to ask him about his lack of balance.Â
âYouâve been taking breaks from practicing, right?â The questioning tone in your voice didnât gain his attention, so you gently nudged his side with your elbow. When he finally looked over, he just stared for a few moments before fully processing what you just asked him.
âOh. Uh⊠Yeah Iâve been taking breaks here and there. Totally.â His voice cracks slightly towards the end of his sentence, giving you the answer you were looking for.Â
Youâve taken notice of quite a few of Tobioâs habits and quirks over the years.
One thing you have picked up on is how bad of a liar he is.Â
Your lips pull into a thin line as you raise one of your eyebrows. Seeing your knowing glare, a sigh escapes from his throat as his shoulders slump. âTobio, you need to take a break. Youâre gonna end up wearing yourself out right before youâre supposed to go to Nationals.â You scold, placing your hand behind his shoulder.Â
He just nods before turning back to the food in front of him. As you continue to stare at him, you daze off in thought. If he notices, he chooses not to say anything.Â
âWhat if I pick you up from practice today and we can go home and relax?âÂ
When he turns to you, you can see the way his eyes scan your face slowly. For a split second you swear you see his eyes dip to your lips, but you brush the it off.
âYeah, yeah. That sounds good.â He agrees quickly, smiling shyly and going back to staring at his food as if it owes him something.Â
âOkay, Iâll come get you when practice ends then?â He doesnât answer, just nods his head before taking a bite of the onigiri in his hand.Â
A few hours later, you make your way back to the school from your house. Itâs not too long of a walk, so you arrive within 10 minutes from the time you left.Â
Once you make it to the gym, you can hear loud voices and the sound of shoes sliding against the gym floor.Â
As you make your way to the door, you peek your head in slowly, looking around for any sight of Tobio. While you are looking, a voice beside you makes you jump slightly.
âWhoâre you looking for?â You jerk your head slightly to the right to see who the voice belongs to, meeting the eyes of an orange haired boy holding a volleyball in his hands.Â
You stare for a moment, blinking a few times before clearing your throat to respond. âOh Iâm just waiting for Tobio! I came to pick him up from practice because we have plans."
The boy in front of you, who you recognize as Hinata from the many times Tobio has ranted about him, just stares at you, frozen. You awkwardly glance back to the center of the gym, where you find Tobio staring at him, eyebrows furrowed.Â
After a few seconds, Hinata begins to shake slightly. âUhhh, are you alright?â You ask, slight concern in your tone.Â
Right as youâre about to turn back to look at Tobio for help, Hinata begins to shout.Â
âKAGEYAMA YOU DIDNâT TELL US YOU GOT A GIRLFRIEND?!â
You feel your heart drop and heat that rises up your neck and spreads across your face.Â
Out of your line of sight, Tobio is the same way, if not worse. His hands are already drenched in sweat and his jaw is stuck open in shock.Â
The whole gym has gone silent at Hinataâs outburst, their heads looking between you and their dark-haired teammate. You can hear Tsukishimaâs quiet snickering from the back of the gym.
âOh we arenât.. uhh.. me and Tobio arenât dating.â You manage to utter out.Â
âHINATA YOU MORON!!â Though you hear Tobioâs voice, you donât look up from where youâve locked your gaze on the floor, mouth slightly parted.Â
Hinata jumps slightly, dropping the ball that was previously in his hands before running to the other side of the gym, more than likely to escape the beating heâs about to get from Tobio for embarrassing him.Â
Turning around slowly, you begin to walk out of the gym entrance. âIâm just gonna.. wait out here.â You mutter out to nobody in particular, Tobio more than likely too busy trying to kill his teammate to hear you.
Walking to a nearby bench, you sit down slowly, almost like the bench would break if you sat down too quickly, hands out to steady yourself.Â
You sit waiting for Tobioâs practice to end for another 20 minutes, replaying what just happened over and over in your head which only worsens the steaming blush on your cheeks.
He doesnât like me like that.. Right?
Hearing the gym doors open, you finally look up from where your hands are sitting in your lap to see Tobio walking out of the gym with his bags. You stand up and walk over to where he is standing looking down at his phone, probably about to text you asking where you ran off to.Â
You step beside him glancing up at him. âYou ready?â Looking up from his phone, he smiles and nods, tucking his phone in the pocket of his jacket.Â
The walk back to his house was silent so far. Not necessarily awkward, just that neither of you have anything to say.Â
âIâm sorry about Hinata.â He mumbles out. âHe's a dumbass.â You let out a soft laugh, shaking your head slightly.Â
âYou donât have to apologize, Tobs.â You let out a long yawn before continuing. âYou have no control over him.â You smile, turning to look at him from your side of the sidewalk. Your eyes are half lidded from exhaustion even though it is only around 7pm, the long school day having taken a toll on you.Â
Hearing the sudden nickname, his steps falter for a quick second before he recovers, not without a faint blush appearing on his cheeks.
Tobio takes notice of your tired state, the way you yawn every once in a while and how your shoulders are slightly slumped.
âAre you sure you donât just want to go home and go to sleep? You donât have to come over if youâre too tired.âÂ
Shaking your head, you turn back to face the sidewalk in front of you. âNope. Iâm fine, I promise. Plus, I need to make sure you're actually relaxing and not going out and overworking yourself.â You smile, looking up at the sky.Â
After a few more minutes of walking, your hands grazing every so often, you make it to his house, heading inside and removing your shoes at the door before walking to the kitchen to grab something to eat.Â
âDid you let your mom know you were over here?â He asks from behind the door of the fridge.
âYeah, I told her if I donât come back I probably fell asleep. Is that okay with you? If I just spend the night?â
Peeking around the fridge door, he turns his head to look at you, a deadpan look on his face. âWhen do you ever ask me if you can spend the night? You know I donât mind so you donât have to ask, idiot.âÂ
Rolling your eyes, you push his shoulder playfully before reaching past him to grab a pouch of yogurt and a juice box. âWhatever, asshole. I was just making sure.âÂ
He was right though. You never really did ask if you could spend the night, you just did. You even have a whole bag of your own belongings sitting in his closet just in case. Why does this time feel different? You shake it off and close the door to the fridge before turning on your heels and marching up the stairs to his room while sipping on your juicebox, leaving him alone in the kitchen.
While you wait for him to follow you upstairs, you start to lay out the futon that youâve been sleeping on any time you stayed over since you were 7. After it was all laid out, you grabbed a pair of shorts and a shirt from the closet along with your toiletries.Â
Quickly, you go in the bathroom to get ready for bed while Tobio eats his dinner downstairs.
When you exit the bathroom a few minutes later, Tobio is halfway up the stairs to his room.Â
Seeing you standing in the doorway to his room, he smiles at you softly before walking past you to the bathroom. Once the door closes behind him you stare at the door for a moment, a soft blush blooming across your face.Â
Shaking it off, you walk back into his room. Despite the cold winter outside, Tobioâs room was colder than it needed to be. You vaguely remember placing a sweatshirt in his closet with your other things, so you reach in and grab it.
Throwing it over your head, you notice how the end of the sweatshirt goes well past your mid thigh.Â
Did it get stretched out or something?
Shrugging it off, you close the closet door and turn away, only to be met with Tobio standing in the door.Â
âSo, what do you wanna do now?â He turns his head to you, only now gaining his attention.Â
When he doesnât answer, you continue.Â
âWe could watch a movie on my laptop? Is that okay with you?â You look at him expectantly.
He just stares at you, making you shift nervously in your spot. âTobio? You okay?â
He nods slowly, his eyes not leaving you.Â
âWhy are you staring at me.. Is there something on my face?â You rub at your face quickly before he interrupts. âNo, no. Itâs nothing. Just..â He audibly swallows before continuing.Â
âIs that my sweatshirt?â
Hearing his words, you freeze, slowly glancing down at the sweatshirt you just threw on. It was, in fact, not yours. A wave of embarrassment washes over you as you scramble to take it off, muttering out a wave of apologies, but a hand on your arm stops you.
âYou can leave it on. It.. It looks nice on you.â He mumbles just loud enough for you to hear.Â
You pause, breathe catching in your throat. Letting go of the collar of the sweatshirt, you look up at him through your lashes. âAre you sure? I can just grab the one -â
As he makes eye contact with you, he gives you one stern look, basically telling you I said it was fine, so donât ask again.
You both keep eye contact for a few more moments before he breaks the silence.
âSo.. movie?âÂ
A breathy laugh escapes you as you nod, already heading toward the edge of his bed with your laptop to pick a movie.Â
Around a half hour later, the two of you are sitting in his bed, watching some corny rom-com that you practically begged him to watch, though you can tell heâs not really paying attention.Â
Out of the corner of your eye, you can see him staring directly at you, not even bothering to try and hide it.Â
âYou arenât watching the movie, Tobio.â you say, focus never leaving your screen.
With a flushed face, he turns back to the screen, picking at his nails.Â
âIâm sorry.â He sighs, eyes closing as his shoulders slump. You look at him, confusion irked on your face. âWhat are you sorry for? Itâs just a movie.â You laugh, glancing back at the movie.Â
A loud groan escapes his mouth, his hands reaching out to pause the movie. âNo, Iâm sorry about what happened at the gym.âÂ
âTobio, weâve already been through this.â You sigh. âYou donât have to apologize for that! You didnât know he would react that way.â Smiling at him, you are about to turn back to unpause the movie when he starts again.
âNo, you donât get it. Hinata had a suspicion that I liked someone but he didnât know it was you, so he was doing it to be a jerk or something, and he not only embarrassed me but he embarrassed you too and Iâm really sorry-â He cuts off with a long pause, slapping a hand over his mouth with wide eyes.
There is a silence in the room, the only sound being the wind whipping against the window. You can feel the temperature of the room increase, but you could have sworn it was colder a few moments ago.Â
After a few beats of silence, you begin to speak in a hushed tone. âTobio.. are you serious?â He stays quiet, eyes looking everywhere but you.Â
Squeezing his eyes shut, he turns his head down to his lap. You go to speak up again when he beats you to it. âI didnât mean to say that! I just meant that he was trying to be annoying and get under my skin or something!âÂ
âTobio I-â
âIâm sorry!â He cuts you off. âI didnât mean to say that out loud. Itâs just he is so annoying and he knows what to do to piss me off and he saw you and just-âÂ
Letting out an amused sigh, you gently place your hand against his cheek and rest your other hand over his heart and lean in, gently placing your lips on his. You can feel the way he nearly jumps out of his skin, his heart beating rapidly against your palm.Â
After a few seconds, you pull away, resting on the back of your legs. Without even needing to look up at him, you can feel the heat radiating off of his body in front of you.Â
His face is flushed red, mouth slightly agape. A smile spreads across your face at the sight. âItâs okay. I feel the same way, actually Iâve felt the same for a while now.â You shyly laugh, cheeks ablaze.Â
He doesnât respond for a few seconds, making your nerves shoot through the roof. Your palms are sweaty and your heart feels like it's going to burst out of your chest if he doesnât say anything.Â
âYou... You like me?â He sputters out, his eyes still near popping out of his head. Meeting his eyes, you slowly nod your head, now unsure if he actually meant to confess or not.Â
The silence continued on for a few more moments, but that was your breaking point. âIâm sorry! Did you not mean it like that? Oh my god, Iâm such an idiot. I can go home now if you want me to. We can just pretend this never-âÂ
Your nervous ramble is cut off by his hand grabbing onto yours, your fingers intertwining before a pair of lips meet yours, and though they are slightly chapped, they carry a wave of warmth and comfort with them.Â
The kiss only lasts a mere two seconds before he leans back against the headboard of his bed, looking everywhere but you, his cheeks glowing shades of pink.Â
You blink down at him, your heart still going a million beats per minute. After a few more seconds of silence, he finally speaks.Â
His gaze finally meets yours when he speaks again.Â
âI do like you, idiot. More than you know.âÂ
An hour later, you and Kageyama are curled up together watching yet another movie, but about halfway through, Tobio falls asleep beside you.Â
Glancing towards him, you smile before closing your laptop and placing it on the floor next to his bed.Â
As you turn to open your phone, he stirs in his sleep, his arm coming down to wrap around your waist, pulling you into his chest with his face in your neck. The sudden contact causes you to jump slightly, snapping your head in his direction only to see that he is still unconscious.Â
Putting your phone down, you hesitantly place a quick kiss to his head before turning slowly under his arm and getting comfortable.
As you drift to sleep, you swear you feel him smile against your neck before pulling you closer.Â
Karasuno had just beat Inarizaki.
In Nationals.
They were moving on to the next round.
You were buzzing with excitement as you made your way to the main floor to congratulate the team, but most importantly, your boyfriend.
As you made your way down with Yachi following close behind you, you couldnât wipe the smile off of your face. The whole team had worked so hard for this moment, and you couldnât be more proud.
But you were even happier for Tobio. You know how much this meant to him.Â
Once you made it to the first floor, you head out to where the team should be sat. Since their match just ended, youâre not surprised to see that they are not there yet.Â
While you wait, you sit with Yachi on one of the benches surrounding the room. The both of you chat enthusiastically about the match and how well they played.Â
A few minutes pass by, and you hear a loud commotion coming from down the hall. The team enters a short second later, Nishinoya and Tanaka making a ruckus while Diachi is trying his best to get them to shut up.Â
Hinata and Kageyama are no better. Hinata is bouncing everywhere and bumping into a tired Tobio who is mid yawn, causing him to grab the ginger by his collar and shake him to get him to chill out.
You stay where you are, not wanting to interrupt the team's moment, but itâs almost like Tobio can feel your presence, his head scanning the room before he locks onto you, face lighting up slightly.Â
Letting go of Hinataâs collar, he walks over to you, the ginger's gaze following the setter in confusion.Â
As he approaches you, you stand from where you were sitting on the bench, a wide smile on your face. âYou played so well, Tobs.â You wrap your arms around his torso, squeezing him softly.Â
He hesitates before he does the same, a light flush on his face.Â
Pulling back slightly, you look up at his face, pausing before you slowly stand up on your tip toes, pressing your lips to his cheek quickly before pulling away, a faint blush across your cheeks.Â
You can feel his body freeze up, his eyes are slightly wide and his face is a deep shade of red.
You donât realize you were being watched until you hear a loud yell from behind Tobio.Â
âWHAT THE HECK?? I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU TWO WERENâT DATING??âÂ
Tobio snaps his head in the direction of the yell, only to be met with a head of orange hair sprinting towards him.Â
Thankfully, Suga steps in just in time to grab the boy by the back of his shirt, keeping him from running up to the two of you.Â
Another voice speaks from behind you, thankfully this time, theyâre not yelling across the room.
âWow, your royal highness really does have a girlfriend? What a surprise.â Tsukishimaâs remarks, his smug tone clearly getting under your boyfriend's skin, as he turns to the boy with a glare.Â
While Tobio gets berated by his team, all of them questioning him about how he got a girlfriend, you sit off to the side watching, a small smile on your face. Out of nowhere, Hinata starts dragging you into the group too, catching you off guard.
You end up next to Tobio, pushed up against his side. As you make eye contact, the both of you smile warmly, your hands unconsciously find each other as your fingers intertwine, though the team doesnât notice through the noise and mayhem.Â
Even with the chaos, you wouldnât want to have it any other way.Â
You both will always be there.Â
Always, forever.Â
Notes: This is lowkey ahh đ
Ignore how funky the timeline is...
Also I apologize if this is ooc </3 I tried my best (â„âžâ„)
Might be a little bit cringe but bare with me it's been at least 4 years since I've last written something...
Some photos of my orange boy, Timatourou (Tima for short), who I had to say a heartbreaking goodbye to this week. We had seven years together and I absolutely loved him to bits. The first cat I ever owned. I got him 3 weeks after moving to the city I live in now. Top left is the day I brought him home, he loved and trusted me immediately. Bottom right is one of my last photos of him, sat on top of me, purring for forehead skritches.
Its been forever since i did some actual manga paneling and even longer since i drew daisuga but i was absolutely INSPIRED!!! What an amazing cute au for REAL đ€đ€đ€
êź starring: dragon rider!lando norris x dragon hunter!reader.
êź word count: 34k overall; 17.5k in this part two. read part one here.
êź includes: romance, action, angst, implied smut. alternate universe: non-f1, alternate universe: how to train your dragon. depictions of injuries, blood, violence, animal/dragon death; mentions of food, alcohol; suggestive language, profanity. one-sided rivalry, slowburn, rivals to lovers, creative liberties on viking culture, lando has a hiccup -ish story arc. not beta read; all mistakes are my own.
êź commentary box: my words continue to fail me when they matter most; 34k and then some, and it all still feels wildly not-enough. happy birthday to my darling, dearest @norrisradio. i love you. i wouldnât know how not to â€ïžâđ„ đŠđČ đŠđđŹđđđ«đ„đąđŹđ
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THIS IS PART TWO OF THE STORY. READ PART ONE HERE!
You arrive back at your village on a rickety boat, your legs half-asleep from the ride and your heart still somewhere between Berk and the moment youâd fled it. The skies are overcast, clouds heavy like they know something you donât. The air tastes like soot even before you land.
It only takes one glance to see that something is very, very wrong.
The village is a wreck.
Splintered wood is strewn across the paths, mixed with shattered pottery and snapped beams. Upturned carts lean drunkenly against walls half-collapsed. Entire roofs have been peeled back like sardine tins, exposing the damp, ransacked interiors of homes.Â
Smoke still curls lazily from what used to be the storage barn, now reduced to blackened ribs and ash, the lingering scent of burned grain acrid in the air. The training fieldâyour training fieldâis carved with deep trenches that rake across it like claw marks, and the northern watchtower, once proud and stubborn, leans at a precarious diagonal as if itâs too tired to keep standing.
You kick off your boat in a hurry, boots slipping slightly on the scorched, mud-streaked earth. Your knees protest when they hit the ground, still stiff from travel, but you barely notice. Villagers move in quiet urgency through the wreckage. Some with shovels, others with buckets. A few with just their bare hands and eyes too stunned to cry.Â
The silence is louder than any panic. Itâs the kind that sinks into your bones.
A child walks by, face pale, a crude bandage wrapped around his head. Heâs clutching a single piece of painted pottery in his arms like itâs the only thing he has left.
Yuki finds you first. Of course he does. His coat is torn at the hem, one eye swollen, and thereâs a smear of dried blood across his sleeve. His expression hardens the moment he sees you.
âNice of you to show up,â he snaps.
Youâre already flinching before the words land. âYuki, I didnât knowââ
âNo?â he interrupts, voice brittle with exhaustion and fury. âBecause a Triple Stryke trampled through here last night. Took out half the grain stores, flattened the forge, and nearly crushed the entire eastern quarter. But yeah, Iâm sure whatever you were doinâ was far more important.â
You want to tell him. You want to explain. But the words catch, curdle.
George appears from behind a half-collapsed wall, brushing ash from his shoulder, the usual mischief gone from his eyes. âEase up,â he says, nodding toward you. âShe wasnât lounging around. Max gave her a mission.â
From across the square, Max himself grunts in agreement. Heâs on one knee, inspecting the splintered remains of someoneâs porch. âShe was following orders,â he says without looking up. âLeave it.â
Yuki scoffs and turns away, but not before you catch the bitter twist of his mouth. âConvenient,â he mutters.
You donât reply. You canât. The defense feels heavier than the accusation.
You were supposed to be here.
You take in the quiet ruin of it all. The smoldering barn, the way the well is cracked clean through, the missing shingles like picked scabs on every rooftop. Someone is patching a torn sail across the remnants of a house like a makeshift roof. A dog limps past, yelping, its leg wrapped in something bright blue.
No one died, they say. But you wonder if it would feel less hollow if someone had. Loss has taken a different form this time. One you helped create simply by not being here.
Smoke and guilt cling to the inside of your throat. You want to retch. You want to run. You want to sleep for a hundred years and wake to a village whole again, to a world before.
You were with Lando.
You swallow it all down and try to stand straighter, even as your knees threaten to buckle under the weight. For once, you donât have anything clever to say.
Max doesnât need to tell you what to do.Â
He watches from under the soot-streaked shadow of the broken watchtower, arms crossed, saying only, âGo.â No briefing. No fanfare. He knows your blood is already boiling, that your hands are twitching from the guilt, the need to fix whatâs broken. To put something down without it looking up at you with Landoâs eyes.
You leave before Yuki can say anything else. You hit the ground running and find the Triple Stryke in record time.
Itâs not even hidingâjust out in the open near the basalt cliffs of Emberâs Spine, coiled like it owns the place, tails flicking and braiding and unbraiding as if just daring the world to try again. The ground is scorched in an erratic spiral around it, boulders melted into glassy slag. You circle it once, twice, and then dive in with reckless grace.
Itâs like hitting a wall.
Your first strike glances off its hide like a pebble against plate armor. The creature screams, high-pitched and furious, and lashes out with its trio of tails like whips of living lightning.
You dodge. You grit your teeth. You shout things at it that would probably make your ancestors cry. But itâs not enough.
Then you remember Lando.
Specifically: Lando flipping through a tattered notebook one afternoon in the cove, dramatically reading out loud between mouthfuls of dried fruit.
âTriple Strykes, surprisingly vain,â heâd said, licking his thumb. âReal divas. Show them a prettier version of themselves, and theyâll get distracted. Dragons. Theyâre just like us.â
Youâd called him an idiot.
Now, you dig through your satchel mid-fight and pull out the polished metal disk you use for signaling. Smooth enough to catch the moon and, hopefully, a narcissistic dragonâs attention.
You swoop back low, flashing the metal toward the beastâs face. It halts. Blinks. The tails pause mid-lash. It studies the glinting surface with the intense scrutiny of someone trying to remember if they left the house with eyeliner.
You approach warily, angling the disk just right. It stares at its reflection, tilts its head. The posture loosens. More importantly, it rears back slightly and exposes its underbelly.
Soft. Pinkish. Vulnerable.
You aim your next net perfectly.
It tangles around the creatureâs midsection with a satisfying thunk and a shriek of surprise. The Triple Stryke bucks and screams, but the net holds. You cinch the ropes tighter with a practiced spiral. A few minutes of expertly danced chaos later, the beast collapses, worn and breathing hard.
Tamed? Not quite. But no longer a rampaging blur of venom and destruction.
You stand beside it, chest heaving, heart stuttering. The wind blows your hair into your face. The dragon glares at you with all three sets of tail tips twitching.
You hold the polished disk toward it again.
âYeah,â you pant, smiling despite yourself. âStill pretty.â
The Triple Strykeâs massive, segmented tail thrashes behind it like a nest of angry snakes, gouging trenches in the stone. The creature's golden-orange carapace glistens in the sunlight that filters through the trees, every armored plate a warning. It breathes hard, heat curling from its nostrils, venomous tails raised in warning but not striking.
Youâre crouched just outside the circle of scorched brush, one hand on your sword, the other steadying your breath. You could do it now. A clean strike. Max would be proud.
But something about the dragonâs stance makes you hesitate.
Its breathing is shallow, pained. The braids of its tails are knotted tighter than youâd expect, almost protective. Its eyesâdeep-set and flashingâarenât just wild. Theyâre tired. That makes two of you.Â
âAlright,â you say under your breath, sheathing your sword. For now. âLetâs figure out what your problem is.â
You creep closer, keeping your movements slow, non-threatening. The Triple Stryke watches you warily, snarling low in its throat, but it doesnât strike. You circle its flank, ducking when one tail lashes close. Itâs then you see it: a thick, jagged splinter of wood embedded deep between the braidâs middle coils. The flesh around it is swollen, inflamed.
âNo wonder youâre pissed,â you whisper.
Youâre not sure what comes over you. Maybe itâs the ghosts of guilt and a curly-haired dragon boy playing knight in your head. Whatever it is, you reach for your satchel and fish out a pair of forceps. âDonât torch me for this,â you warn.
The Stryke growls. You roll your eyes.
With the gentleness of someone who absolutely should not be doing this, you press your knee into the ground and slowly, steadily, ease the splinter out. The dragon flinches hard. You mutter apologies under your breath like a prayer. When the shard finally pulls free with a wet noise, the Stryke emits a sound that is neither growl nor hiss but something almost⊠relieved.
It looks at you. And then it lowers its tails.
You lean back, stunned. Your knees are soaked, your hands coated in sap and dragon blood, and your heartâs thudding because that shouldnât have worked.
A breeze moves through the clearing. On instinct, you reach into your coat and pull out the crumpled parchment youâd read just before departure. Landoâs notes. Scrawled in looping script, sentences like Vain bastard, but secretly sensitive, and Braid fusses when anxious; maybe tail grooming = bonding??
Youâd scoffed at his notes. Dismissed them as nonsense. But now?
You stare at the calm, massive beast before you. You see not a war machine, but something wounded. Misunderstood.
âOh my gods,â you breathe. âYouâre not just ridiculous, Norris. Youâre brilliant.â
The Triple Stryke chuffs, as if questioning who this fabled Norris might be.Â
You sneer. âDonât get smug. One of you is enough.â
Still, you donât raise your weapon. You donât need to.
You report back to Max with a careful shrug and the laziest smirk you can muster. âTriple Strykeâs not an issue anymore,â you say, tossing a dragon scale onto his map table like itâs an apple core. âConsider it resolved.â
Max eyes the scale with a brow raised, then glances up at you. âYou kill it?â
âIt won't be bothering the village again.â You donât elaborate. Max doesnât press. Thatâs the unspoken agreement. You get the job done, details be damned.
Yuki corners you outside the strategy hall, rubbing the back of his neck. His coatâs freshly patched, and he wonât quite meet your eye. âHey,â he says. âAbout what I said. I was out of line. You were just doing what Max told you to.â
You blink at him. Thatâs... shockingly mature. âAre you feeling alright?â
Yuki glares. âDonât make me regret apologizing.â
âWouldnât dream of it,â you say, grinning as you clap his shoulder.
The next few days slip into a quiet rhythm. You donât think about the Night Fury. You definitely donât think about Lando. You pour yourself into your duties like a woman on fire: patrolling, mapping routes, sparring until your arms ache. Max praises your renewed focus. George offers you leftover bread rolls and a raised brow. You ignore both.
One off afternoon, you duck into the woods, a basket in hand, eyes scanning the underbrush for anything remotely edible. The trees sway gently, sunlight filtering down in golden splinters. You bend to pick some wild ginger; you hear a branch snap behind you.
You freeze. Then slowly, you turn.
There it is. The Triple Stryke. Standing maybe twenty paces away, head cocked like a curious dog, its tri-braided tail low to the ground.
You straighten, trying very hard not to make eye contact. âNo. Nope. Donât even think about it.â
It blinks at you.
âYouâre not following me. Thatâs not whatâs happening here.â
It takes a step closer.
âShoo. Scat. Go terrorize someone else.â
Another step. It purrs. Actually purrs. Like a scaly, overgrown feline with venomous tails.
You spin on your heel and march away.
Fifteen minutes later, your basketâs fuller, your boots are muddier, and the Triple Stryke is still there. Following at a polite distance. Like itâs on a scenic walk. With you.
You turn around, hands on your hips. âYouâre not my dragon,â you tell it. âI donât care what stories Lando probably read to you. Go home.â
The dragon flicks one tail lazily and settles in a sunny patch of grass, watching you with far too much interest.
You sigh, long and theatrical. âGreat. Just what I needed,â you mumble. âA walking guilt trip with claws.â
It yawns at you, utterly unbothered.
You press a palm to your forehead and trudge back into the brush, muttering, âIâm never going to live this down.â
You try to hunt. Try to get back that killer instinct that youâre known for. But when you do, the deer gets away. Again, and again, and again.Â
You watch it bound through the underbrush, graceful and smug, and you lower your bow with a frustrated sigh. There was a time you would have fired without hesitation, arrow slicing through air and hide. But now? Now you fucking hesitate. You keep hesitating.Â
Youâre not sure when it started. Maybe with the Windwalker. Maybe with the Triple Stryke. Maybe with Lando. All you know is that every time you look through your sights, all you see is a question.
Soft, George would probably mutter if he saw you. Gone completely soft.
You donât disagree.
Instead of returning to the village, you veer deeper into the woods, where moss grows thick and the canopy swallows sound. You settle on a log beside a mossy boulder and let your head fall back against the bark of a tree. A few birds chirp in the distance. A squirrel chides you from above.Â
You ignore the world until you hear the familiar rustle of something much bigger. You donât look up. You donât have to. âYou again?â
The Triple Stryke huffs, slithering with too much serpentine pride for something that once trampled half your village. You sneer at it. âYou really need a hobby.â
It settles beside you like an oversized, armor-plated dog. You side-eye it. It blinks back. You seem to be its new hobby.Â
âYou know, you werenât invited,â you say, arms crossed. The Triple Stryke flicks one of its tails and gives a low purring growl that, shockingly, doesnât sound entirely hostile. âYouâre vain, annoying, stubborn as sin...â You hesitate, then reach out to stroke the smooth patch beneath its jaw. â...but I guess youâre kind of cute.â
âShould I be jealous?â
The voice cuts through the trees like sunlight. You jolt up, hand flying to your belt out of instinct, but your heart gets there firstâleaping straight into your throat.
Lando stands just past the tree line, one leg kicked lazily over the saddle of a certain smug-faced Night Fury.
âYouâwhatâhow long have you been there?â you stammer.Â
Lando grins, all teeth and something else behind the eyes. âLong enough to witness some very flattering compliments.â
Your hand is still on the Triple Strykeâs chin. You withdraw it like itâs on fire. âItâs not what it looks like.â
âUh-huh,â Lando says, sliding off the Night Fury with practiced ease. He lands lightly, despite the snow and roots beneath his boots. âSo you havenât tamed the very dragon that wrecked your village, adopted it as a hiking buddy, and started whispering sweet nothings into its scaly ears?â
âAgain, not what it looks like.â
The Triple Stryke, traitorous beast, purrs and nudges your side.
Landoâs smile falters just a little. His eyes settle on you, taking in the muddy boots, the stray twig in your hair, the exhaustion in your shoulders. Something tender curls into the air between you. His voice is softer when he asks, âYou alright?â
You want to answer. You donât know how. Not with your throat clenched the way it is.
He steps closer, Night Fury trailing behind like a shadow. The two dragons eye each other warily but donât fight. You wonder if that means something. You wonder if everything means something.
âNice friend youâve got there,â Lando comments, trying to keep things light.
You shrug, but it comes out more like a sigh. âIt followed me home.â
His smile returns, crooked and quiet. âYou planning to keep it?â
You glance down at the Triple Stryke, then back up at him. The question lingers in more ways than one.Â
The two dragons are dancing now.Â
At first, it's just a low rumble of interest. A cautious circle, the sound of soil being disturbed by talons and claws. You hold your breath as the Night Fury tilts its head at the Triple Stryke, nostrils flaring, wings twitching like a cat about to pounce. The Triple Stryke answers with a snort, each tail tip flicking with their own rhythm, like a trio of agitated drummers.
And then, like someoneâs flipped a switch, theyâre bounding at each other. Not in attack, but in something that can only be described as wildly awkward, draconic play. The Fury darts in and out like a shadow with too much caffeine, while the Stryke tries to catch it in a loping, bumbling chase. The whole clearing smells of churned earth and singed pine needles.
Youâre too caught up in the madness to notice the sound of Landoâs nearing footsteps until itâs too late. âTheyâre playing,â he says, and you whirl around at how near he now sounds.Â
The sight of him makes something in your stomach churn. Wind-tousled hair, goggles pushed up on his forehead, and that stupid half-smile that makes your chest do something unspeakable.
âDidnât realize you were in the neighborhood,â you manage.Â
He glances at the dragons, who are now inexplicably rolling in the dirt together like oversized puppies. âDidnât realize you had a thing for bad-tempered reptiles.â
âOccupational hazard.â
Thereâs a pause. The kind that doesnât feel like silence so much as breath being held.
Lando shifts closer until you can smell leather and soap and something faintly smoky. âIâve been thinking about you,â he says, tone softer now, almost uncertain. âEver since Berk. That night.â
You cross your arms, digging your fingers into your sides. âDonât.â
âDonât what? Apologize for being a bumbling idiot?â
You shrug, fix your gaze on the dragons instead. The Night Fury is now perched on the Triple Strykeâs back, looking far too smug for something with murder eyes. âIt was nothing,â you say dismissively.Â
Lando goes still beside you. You can feel the tension roll off him, unspoken but undeniable. âWas it?â he asks, like he genuinely doesnât know the answer. Like it matters more than heâll admit.
You blink up at Lando, thrown for a second by the gleam in his eye. A little playful, a little hopeful. The wind rustles the grass around your knees, and the Stryke makes a low, almost smug sound behind you, curled at the base of a tree like a very large, very dangerous housecat.
âLet me help you make up your mind,â Lando says.
You tilt your head to one side. âAbout what?â
He grins. âAbout everything. Us. This ridiculous, dragon-ridden mess. Câmon. Fly with me.â
Your heart stutters in your chest. âFly with you?â
He nods toward his Night Fury, lounging a few meters off, nosing the Triple Stryke like itâs testing boundaries. You realize now, with a flush creeping up your neck, that the Furyâs tail fin is gleaming under the sun. A perfect prosthetic mirror to Landoâs leg. Sleek, forged from some kind of dark metal with etchings that look suspiciously like they were carved with care, not utility.
âYou⊠want me to fly with you,â you echo, trying to sound unimpressed. You mostly just sound squeaky.
Landoâs grin softens. âWhat, scared?â
You shoot him a look. âNo. I justââ You look away. âIâve never flown. Not really.â
That gets his eyebrows up. âSeriously?â
You fidget with your sleeve. âMost of the dragons I work with arenât exactly built for passenger seating, Norris.â
His smile turns radiant, then. âWell. Good thing I am.â
The Night Fury senses something, lifting its head and letting out a purring chirp. Lando steps forward, hand out to help you up. âCome on. Hold onto me.â
You hesitate. For a moment, you swear he looks nervous, too. But then you take his hand, warm and calloused, and he pulls you up onto the saddle behind him. Itâs a snug fit, your chest pressed to his back, arms awkwardly not-quite-around him.
âYouâre gonna fall off like that,â he says, over his shoulder, âand Iâm not diving into a fjord to fish you out.â
You mutter something unkind under your breath, but you slide your arms around him properly. He laughs, the sound loud and pleased.
And then the ground disappears.
You gasp. Not out of fear, exactly, but sheer, overwhelming wonder. The air rushes up to greet you, cold and biting. The viewâthe stretch of green and gold, the distant shimmer of the sea, the tiny specks of your village, the dragons wheeling far belowâis enough to steal the breath from your lungs.
You bury your face briefly in Landoâs shoulder, partly to hide the shock and partly because you donât quite know what to do with your heart now.
Lando doesnât say anything right away. But his hand slides briefly over yours where it rests against his ribs, and he leans back just enough to murmur, âHold tight, okay?â
Eventually, he coaxes you out of hiding with a nudge to your arms, firm but playful. âCome on,â he says, voice whipped thin by the wind. âYouâre missing the view!â
You peek out from where youâve buried your face into his shoulder, knuckles white where they clutch at his tunic. The air hits your cheeks like cold seawater, sharp and crisp. You see it: the world unfurling below, a patchwork of pine-covered ridges and glittering creeks, soft clouds scudding beneath you like theyâre trying to keep pace.
And just beside you is the Triple Stryke, its three tails trailing like elegant ribbons. It keeps pace with the Night Fury, almost smug in its smooth gliding. Wings rippling like molten bronze. You laugh, breathless. The sound gets caught in the breeze.
âHe followed us?â you shout over the gusts.
âGuess he likes you,â Lando calls back, turning enough to grin at you.Â
His curls are wild, caught in the gale, and his eyesâstormlight and seafoamâcrinkle with delight. The sun has caught his cheekbones, turning him gold. You donât know if itâs the altitude or something else that makes your stomach flip.
Do you like me? you want to ask.Â
Instead, you lean forward before you can think better of it. You press a kiss against the side of his mouth. Certain and chaste. Itâs chapped and warm and tastes like salt and fire.
Lando yelps. The Night Fury gives a startled dip, a stomach-lurching swoop that has you both grabbing on tight. âDonât do that when Iâm steering!â he shouts, but heâs laughing.
You punch his shoulder, scowling and grinning all at once. âThen steer better!â
âYou kiss like a saboteur!â
âYou fly like a drunk goose!â
He laughs again, wild and happy, as the Night Fury levels out. Below, the mountains fade into cliffs, and the sea glitters like a blade drawn from a sheath. You hold on, not just to Lando, but to the moment, lungs full of wind and wonder.
You donât look down anymore. You look ahead.
The wind thrums beneath you, cool and sharp against your cheeks, as Lando steers the Night Fury into a lazy hover above the clouds. The dragon beats its wings in a steady rhythm, casting fleeting shadows on the mist below. The Triple Stryke does a show-offy loop through a puff of cloud, its triple tails trailing like ribbons, before vanishing briefly from sight. Youâre too dizzy with adrenaline and warmth to care.
Lando turns in the saddle, the leather creaking beneath him. His prosthetic leg presses lightly into your shin as he shifts, bracketing your thighs with his. Heâs too close. He always is. But now thereâs no mistaking the way his gaze lingers, half-smile curling against the wind.
âYouâre in love with me,â he says, utterly shameless.
You snort, leaning back slightly. âWow. Modesty really is extinct in dragon country, isnât it?â
âNo point being modest when Iâm right.â He leans in a bit, voice lowering like heâs sharing a secret. âYou kissed me mid-flight. You cooed at a Triple Stryke. You havenât tried to stab me in at least a week. I think thatâs love.â
âI was distracted,â you retort, cheeks burning. âBy the clouds, the zephyr, your stupid curls. And I only didnât stab you because the Triple Stryke was watching.â
âAh, so the dragon gives you standards. Good to know.â
You roll your eyes and try to twist away, but his knees are still bracketing yours, steadying you, anchoring you. The sky hums around you both, a brilliant blue stretched across forever.Â
Itâs impossible to lie when youâre this high above the world. Thereâs too much honesty in the air. You exhale, a long sound that leaves you a little lighter. âFine,â you murmur. âMaybe I do⊠like you. A little.â
His grin turns roguish, eyes crinkling with something far softer than mischief. âA little, huh?â
You flick his arm. âDonât push it, Norris.â
But your hand stays on his sleeve. His fingers settle gently over yours, squeezing once. âI like you too, though,â he says, quieter now. âA lot.â
With the clouds drifting lazily beneath you and the dragons wheeling above, you can do nothing but believe him.
Lando still has your hand in his when he says, voice light but eyes too intent, âSo... what do we do now? Do we write it down somewhere? Carve it into a tree? Tell your terrifying boss that weâre entangled in a scandalous affair?â
You stiffen. Just a little. Your eyes flick down, and Lando catches it. He always does. âHey,â he says softly. âI was joking.â
You nod, but it feels like your throatâs been stuffed with wool. You try to laugh it off, some breezy chuckle that sounds more like you than what youâre actually feeling. âMax would kill me. And then probably bring me back to kill me again.â
Lando leans back slightly, lips twitching. âSounds like Mad Max.âÂ
You groan and press the heels of your hands into your eyes. You can feel the weight now, like stormclouds gathering behind your eyes. Youâve been shirking everything. Your mission, your people, your own sense of directionâall for the soft curve of Landoâs grin and the dragon who used to terrify you.
Lando doesnât say anything for a moment, just watches you from beneath those stupidly long lashes of his. The Night Fury hovers beneath you like a living breath, wings shifting to catch the air.
âHey,â he says again, and this time itâs lower, gentler, coaxing. âI get it. Itâs messy. Youâre on one side, Iâm on the other. Youâve got people counting on you, and Iâm just the distraction with curls and a nice dragon."
You glance at him.
He grins. âA very nice dragon.â
You snort, but itâs small and fragile. He sees that, too. He adds, with mock gravity, âPersonally, Iâm a fan of secret romances. Very thrilling. Good for the skin.â
You swat his arm. âYouâre the worst.â
âAnd yet, you kissed me in midair. Which, if I recall, almost killed us both.â
âDrama queen.â
âYour drama queen.â
Before you can respond, he kisses you again.
This time, itâs tender. Tentative. Like he thinks you might pull away.
You donât.Â
When he draws back, the question lingers in his eyes. If youâll have me, heâs saying. You answer it without a secondâs hesitation. You grab the front of his tunic, yank him back, and kiss him until youâre both breathless. Iâll have you, youâre saying. Every bit and piece youâre willing to give.Â
His laugh, when it comes, is dazed. âOkay,â he murmurs, forehead against yours. âWeâll figure it out.â
You close your eyes. Inhale. Exhale. âWe will,â you say.Â
The thing about secrets is that they make everything feel sharper. Louder. Sweeter. Like sneaking dessert before dinner or dipping your feet in cold water on a hot day.Â
Your meetings with Lando become just that. A string of stolen pleasures, one after the other, stitched into the fabric of days spent pretending.
You meet halfway between your islands, both outposts hidden enough to draw no questions, just far enough to convince Max and George that youâre being thorough in your Night Fury pursuit. You even keep a tally on your map and scratch fake sightings into the margins. It helps you lie better.
Lando doesnât make it easier. âYouâre getting good at this,â he says one afternoon, watching you mark an invented trajectory on your parchment. He bites into an apple, smirking, juice running down his knuckles. âShould I be worried about how easy you lie to your friends?â
You elbow him. âOnly when I start lying to you. Until then, consider it a survival skill.â
The cove becomes neutral ground. His Night Fury makes peace with the Triple Stryke after some initial power struggles involving a lot of snorting, dramatic tail-slaps, and the Stryke hissing like it had something deeply personal to protest. Eventually, they nap near each other, mutual disdain settling into mutual tolerance.Â
You suspect theyâre bonding through shared annoyance at their human companions. The Night Fury even starts nudging the Stryke when it gets too dramatic, which somehow makes the Stryke even more dramatic.
You bring food you pretend you caught on solo hunts, sometimes even charred just right to pass for âfreshly roasted,â while Lando brings mismatched gear he salvaged and claims is for âscientific purposes.â You both know itâs just an excuse to spend more time fixing things togetherâside by side, fingers brushing over leather and bolts and the occasional grease-smudged diagram.
There are quiet moments, too. Sitting beside the water, shoulders pressed close, dragon snores in the distance. Brushing fingers when you hand him his tools. Lando sprawled on the grass like a starfish with a secret, mumbling about sky currents and wind pockets while you lay beside him, listening more to his voice than his words. You let yourself forget about orders and expectations, if only for an hour or two.
âWeâre terrible at keeping things casual,â Lando murmurs one day, lying in the grass, eyes half-lidded under the sun. A dragon's tail flicks behind him like a metronome.
You glance over, smirking. âYou say that like you werenât the one who initiated this.â
âYeah, but you kissed me,â he shoots back, that familiar spark in his voice.
You throw a pebble at his chest. He lets it hit him like itâs a badge of honor.
Max continues assigning you the Night Fury task, thinking your narrowed eyes and furrowed brows mean youâre honing in on the dragonâs location. George keeps giving you snacks for the road, always wrapped in napkins with scrawled smiley faces. Yuki glares less, though he still occasionally squints at you like he suspects youâre up to something. Itâs a cruel irony, how good youâre getting at fooling everyone just when you feel most like yourself.
You find excuses to stay longer. Tell Max the trailâs still warm, that you almost had it yesterday. You keep your gear packed, your alibis polished. You know this canât last, but itâs hard to let go of something that feels so easy.
Youâve grown soft for the reckless curl of Landoâs hair, for the way he holds his breath before stepping into your space, like heâs bracing for impact. Youâve grown softer still for the dragons, misunderstood and magnificent, just like the boy who rides one. You memorize the way Lando pulls you in by the hem of your sleeve, the way his smile tugs at his scar, how he always looks surprised after you kiss him, like it's the first time, every time.
Maybe, just maybe, you want to keep this going a little longer. If only for the warmth it plants in your chest when you think of the next time youâll see him. For the way the world shrinks to a cove and two dragons and someone who sees you, lies and all, and still leans in closer.
The cove, dusky and humming with the low trill of insects and the soft splash of waves against mossy stone, has become the kind of place where secrets are born and kept. Today, Lando is sprawled on the grass, arms behind his head, his Night Fury curled beside him with its eyes half-lidded like itâs listening to your conversation while pretending not to.
âYouâre never going to guess what Iâve decided,â Lando says, with the smugness of someone whoâs just pulled off an elaborate prank.
You glance over, plucking a blade of grass to twirl between your fingers. âYou finally figured out how to use a whetstone without nearly slicing off your fingers?â
He sits up, indignant. âThat happened once. And I bled very bravely, thank you. No, I meant Lucky. Thatâs what Iâm calling him now.â
You blink. âLucky?â
Lando gestures to the dragon. âYeah. Itâs ironic. You knowâheâs black, hard to find, objectively terrifying. Like a cursed omen, but make it endearing.â
You snort. âThatâs what you want to name a creature people think is a mythic harbinger of death?â
âExactly,â he says proudly. âLucky. Can you imagine?â
You laugh, the sound echoing off the rocks and rolling into the trees. Lucky, as if knowing heâs the topic of discussion, lifts his head to blink at you with slow, predatory indifference. He yawns. Lando grins.
Then Lando turns to you, and his eyes crinkle just slightly. âYour turn.â
You stiffen. The Triple Stryke, lounging a cautious distance away like it's pretending not to care, flicks one of its tails as if bored. âI donât think I should name it,â you say slowly. âFeels... final.â
Landoâs brow arches, but he doesnât tease. âIt already follows you like a lost puppy.â
âBecause I removed a splinter from its tail, not because weâre bonding over mutual trust and affection,â you retort.
âOh, sure. Thatâs why he curls up behind you when you nap.â
You roll your eyes, but your fingers twitch like they miss stroking the dragonâs hardened scales. Thereâs truth in what heâs saying, and that terrifies you more than admitting the name aloud.
Lando must sense it, because his smirk softens into something warmer. âAlright,â he concedes. âNo name for now. But donât think that gets you out of this next thing.â
You narrow your eyes. âWhat next thing?â
He grins, grabs your wrist, and tugs you toward the jagged shadow of a cave carved into the cliffside. âThe part where I kiss you until you stop thinking so much.â
Your protests die on your lips as he hauls you into the cool dark, laughter bouncing off the stone walls. The sound of Luckyâs snort echoes behind you. Theyâre so sick of you two, and rightfully so.
The news comes at the tail end of a war meeting, when Max straightens from the table and levels a glance at the room. âWe leave for the Isle of Formulae in three days.â
Silence follows. For a beat too long.
You can feel Yuki stiffen beside you, sharp as a drawn blade. George furrows his brow, mouthing a slow, skeptical, Diplomatic? under his breath.
Max nods, reading the room like it's a particularly dull map. âItâs a diplomatic mission,â he confirms. âTheyâve requested conversation.â
You force your jaw to relax, even as your pulse stutters. The Isle of Formulae. Landoâs island.
You donât look up from the surface of the table, where your thumb rubs idle circles into the worn wood. It feels like the grain is buzzing, like it knows something you donât. You hear Max continue, outlining escort numbers and expected supplies, but his voice drips away into a distant static.
Lando hadnât mentioned this. Of course he hadnât. He probably doesnât know. Or maybe he does, and heâs staying quiet for the same reason you are.
You risk a glance across the table. George looks bored, though you know better. Formulae is a part of his past, a place he avoids like the plague. Meanwhile, Yukiâs mouth is pinched in a thin line. Max looks, as always, like heâs three steps ahead and daring anyone to catch up.
And youâyou swallow the taste of worry. It coats your throat like bad mead.
You nod when expected, speak when spoken to, and smile like your guts arenât twisting into knots.
Because youâre going to Landoâs island, and something about this doesn't feel diplomatic at all.
Three days later, youâre in a newly hemmed kirtle as your boat approaches the Isle of Formulae. It itches. Itâs too clean. You look like youâve never fought a day in your life, which, you assume, is precisely what Max wanted. âDiplomacy,â he said, tugging the sleeves of his formal tunic as if that alone would guarantee peace. âWe arrive looking civil, or we donât arrive at all.â
So you scrubbed your face raw, wrestled your hair into some semblance of neatness, and wore the damned kirtle. Soft blue with delicate embroidery that makes you look like a village bakerâs niece rather than a dragon hunter with a kill tally.
Yuki mutters beside you, tugging at the stiff collar of his own doublet. âI look like Iâm about to serve fruit pies at a harvest fair.â
âYouâd make a killing,â George offers, all sunny and unbothered. He hasnât stopped admiring the pearl buttons on his cuffs since you set sail. âMaybe theyâd surrender out of pity. Or hunger.â
Max stands at the bow like heâs auditioning for a heroic painting. His jaw is set, his hands clasped behind his back. âRemember,â he calls over the wind, âthis is not a raid. This is a discussion.â
The docks of Formulae come into view. Cleaner than yours, lined with smooth stones and bordered by woven banners in crimson and deep gold. People bustle without urgency, and the air smells like spiced citrus and brine. Itâs almost pleasant. You hate that.
A small group awaits your arrival at the end of the dock. Thereâs Lewis, leading the delegation. Tall, elegant, and half-smiling like he knows something you donât. His cloak is midnight-black, held in place with a dragon-shaped clasp.
Beside him stands Oscar, all clasped hands and tight grins, and Alex, who gives you a polite nod like heâs already ranking you based on your posture.
And then thereâs Lando.
He looks like he hasnât seen you in years, not days. His curls are tamed for once, his expression unreadable, his prosthetic polished to a shine. He stands straight, his face carefully blank, but the moment your eyes catch, itâs like the breath gets kicked out of you.
You canât smile. Neither can he. Not here.
âWe hope your journey was smooth,â Lewis says, stepping forward with all the practiced charm of a man used to controlling a room.Â
âAs smooth as a diplomatic mission can be,â Max replies, offering a deep nod. âWe appreciate the welcome, Chief Hamilton.â
You step onto the dock last, your kirtle sweeping against the wood, and you swear you see Landoâs mouth twitchâjust a little.
âThis is my team,â Max continues, gesturing. âMy brawn, my brain, and my beating heart.â Yuki, George, you.Â
Landoâs gaze lingers on you longer than it should. You incline your head. Words are dangerous, so neither of you say anything.Â
You catch the flicker of a smirk in Lewisâs eyes. Whether itâs from Landoâs performance or yours, you canât tell.
The game is on. And you have to play it well.
Formulaeâs war room is carved into the heart of the islandâs craggy ridge, all black stone and flickering torches, their flames casting long, dancing shadows over the dragon motifs etched into the walls. Thereâs a long table hewn from driftwood, sun-bleached and smooth, and it groans under the weight of scrolls, maps, and heavy clay goblets filled with strong-smelling tea.
You take your seat slowly, trying not to crinkle the absurdly crisp folds of your new outfit. Max claims the chair nearest the head of the table, opposite Formulaeâs chief, Lewis. Beside Lewis are Oscar and Alex, both watching you all with the relaxed alertness of seasoned dragon riders.
Lando slides into the seat directly across from you, a picture of casual indifference. His prosthetic clicks softly under the table.
âWelcome to Formulae,â Lewis begins, voice steady and rich. âWe've long believed in coexistence with dragons. They are not weapons, nor threats to be neutralized. They are kin.â
Max folds his hands, elbows on the table like they might anchor him in place. âAnd we believe the safety of the archipelago must come first. Some dragons, perhaps, can be⊠tolerated. But we cannot ignore the destruction that so many bring.â
âThe destruction comes from misunderstanding,â Lewis replies smoothly.
Your eyes remain fixed on the maps, tracing the borders of disputed territories. You can feel Lando watching you, his gaze like heat against your cheek.
Then something shifts. A brush. A nudge.
You blink. His boot.
It glides, slow and deliberate, up the inside of your calf, teasing past the laces of your boots. Higher.
Your throat tightens. Your hand, which had been reaching for your goblet, freezes halfway.
Max is still talking. Something about evacuation protocols. George leans forward, eyes darting between the speakers like heâs watching a particularly juicy tavern brawl. Yuki frowns at a scroll.
Lando, damn him, is looking nowhere near you. He rests his chin on his hand, utterly composed, one eyebrow lifted in vague amusement as if heâs only half-listening. The toe of his boot presses higher.
You meet his eyes. You donât flinch. You will not.
âAs I was saying,â Max continues, unaware of the under-table debauchery unfolding beneath his own diplomatic overtures, âa disarmament treaty will only work if both parties understand the risks involved.â
âIndeed,â Lewis agrees. âWhich is why you should see the dragons not as beasts to be managed, but as forces to be respected.â
You nod solemnly. Under the table, your hand slips down and swats Landoâs ankle hard. He grins. Still, your face remains perfectly neutral. Diplomacy, after all, is about balance.
Max and Lewis send out the youngins as they decide to have some closed door conversation, which means Alex is in charge of touring your lot. The stables at Formulae smell like well-oiled leather, warm hay, and the faint tang of smoke. Dragons blink from their stalls with knowing, intelligent eyes. Sleek, gleaming creatures whose scales look more expensive than your entire villageâs annual income.
Alex beams as he gestures toward each one like a proud parent. âThatâs Hugo,â he says, pointing to a particularly preening Nadder with a purple sheen. âAnd thatâs Armani. He bites. Gucciâs shy. Prada is, well, Prada.â
Prada, a willowy green Zippleback with gold-tipped horns, looks down its dual noses at you like it's offended by your very existence. You nod with all the seriousness of someone being presented an elite military lineup.
âThey sound more like a fashion house than a fighting force,â you whisper to Lando, who has somehow sidled up beside you without a sound.
âThey fight with style,â he murmurs back, and then, with calculated carelessness, places his hand at the small of your back. Not quite inappropriate. Just enough to make your skin spark.
You glance at him, warningly. He smiles, all dimples and danger.
âBehave,â you sneer.
He plucks a stray strand of hair from your shoulder, slow and deliberate, and lets it fall between his fingers. âIâm being a perfect gentleman,â he says under his breath. âYouâre the one imagining things.â
You step on his foot.
Lando hisses, pulls his hand away. âOw. Romantic violence.â
âYou started it.â
Alex is still talking. Something about saddle quality. Youâre trying to pay attention. Really. But then Landoâs fingers find your pinky. Just the lightest brush. Testing, teasing, yearning..
You brush back.
It lasts all of two seconds before Oscar strolls around the corner, a brow arched so high it practically detaches from his forehead. âYou two good? Or should we leave you alone in the hay for a minute?â
You jerk your hand back. Lando coughs. Alex, oblivious, says something about waterproof armor to George and Yuki who seem very engrossed in all the useless tidbits.
âAll good!â you chirp. âVery educational. So many dragon facts.â
Oscar snorts but lets it slide. You mouth a silent traitor to Lando. He winks, unrepentant.
Dinner at Formulae is grander than expected. Golden lanterns sway from polished beams, casting warm halos over silver dishes and roasted meats. Everything smells of clove and charred rosemary. There are gilded goblets for each of you, and too many forks to understand without a lesson.
You sit across from Lando again, this time with a clearer view of his mischievous smirk and the ridiculous way his curls catch the light like heâs in a bardâs ballad. Underneath the linen-covered table, thereâs a very real problem brewing.
His boot taps yours. You tap back. His knee slides over. Yours doesnât flinch.
He raises an eyebrow over his wine. You take a deliberately slow sip, then lean over to speak with George, pretending not to notice the way Lando has now somehow managed to press his entire leg along yours. At one point, his fingers graze the back of your knee. You choke on your drink.
âYou alright?â Max asks, distracted mid-conversation with Lewis.
âFine,â you croak, smiling through a throat that feels like it just swallowed a pinecone.
You kick Lando. He has the audacity to look innocent.
By the time dessert arrivesâsome poached fig and cream thing you donât even tasteâyou canât take it anymore. You rise abruptly, pushing your chair back with a screech.
âExcuse me. I need to find the latrine.â
âIâll go with,â Lando says far too quickly, already halfway out of his seat.
George snorts into his napkin. Max doesnât even blink.
You make it out the hall and around the side of the building before Lando has you backed against the stone wall, mouth already finding yours like itâs a homecoming. The air is cool, damp with sea breeze, but his hands are warm at your hips, anchoring you.
âYouâre reckless,â you murmur, pulling back only slightly.
âYou love that about me,â he replies, mouth chasing yours again.
You try to glare. It lasts all of two seconds before youâre kissing him again, hard and unthinking. The stone digs into your back, but his hands move to your face, thumb brushing your cheek like youâre something precious.
You hate how good he is at this. You hate even more how good it feels to be wanted like this, without hesitation or apology.
âWear that kirtle for me again,â he begs in between kisses. âI want to take it off.â Â
âMadness,â you groan as he dips his head to latch his mouth on the side of your neck. âThis is madness.âÂ
You donât see him grinning, but you do hear it. âThen letâs go mad together.âÂ
For once, you donât fight it. Not when his smile feels like sunlight. Not when his touch makes you forget which side of the war youâre supposed to be on.
Youâre only halfway listening. The war room is stifling, walls sweating under the afternoon heat, the air thick with the smell of old parchment and half-eaten provisions.Â
Max paces in front of the war map, droning on about strategic fronts and defense vectors, but your mind has already slipped out through the narrow window and gone sprinting across the island. Youâre thinking of the rendezvous you and Lando planned for later that day. Somewhere near the falls, where the air smells like moss and crushed strawberries, and everything feels a little less like treason.
Maybe heâd bring that silly little compass he found and act like it held the secrets of the universe. Maybe youâll kiss him first this time instead of waiting for him to do it. Maybe, if you let yourself dream, youâd stay longer than just a couple stolen hours.
The words are background noise until theyâre not.Â
George leans forward suddenly, the wood of his chair creaking beneath him, fingers interlaced and jaw tight. âThe islandâs defenses are thinner than they let on. North ridge has blind spotsâbad ones. If we approach at nightfall, we can cut across undetected.â
Yuki nods, a little too eagerly. âAnd thereâs a shipping schedule. They only run day patrols. No one watches the docks after sundown.â
Something hard and cold settles in your gut. You turn your head, staring at your friends like theyâve started speaking another language. âWhat?â
George gives you a glance thatâs too casual. Then he turns to Max. âYou said to gather intel. We did. The Isle of Formulae is vulnerable. Nowâs the time.â
âTime for what?â you ask, even though you already know.
Max finally stops pacing. His eyes find yours, sharp and bright with something dangerous. âAn assault.â
The breath leaves your lungs like youâve been socked in the ribs. You stand, your chair scraping against stone like a scream. âYou canât be serious,â you stammer. âLewis welcomed us. He agreed to peace talks. Theyâre not enemies.â
Maxâs expression hardens. âTheyâre dragon sympathizers. They pretend theyâre taming those beasts, but theyâre training them. Theyâre preparing for war, whether they say so or not.â
âThatâs not true,â you say, even though your voice shakes. âYou donât know that.â
Max raises his chin. âAnd what exactly do you know? You think I havenât noticed your sudden interest in solo missions? Your mysterious detours? You think I didnât see the way you looked at him?â
The room stills. The world tilts. Your heart thump, thump, thumps in your chest.Â
George straightens in his seat. Yuki stiffens beside him.
Maxâs voice goes quieter, colder. âWhat would you do, huh? Warn your lover? Send a raven, or maybe meet him at your little hideout? Iâm not a fool, soldier.â
You try to keep your voice level. âYou donât know what youâre talking about, Max.âÂ
But Max only nods at Yuki, who shifts beside you. âI know exactly what Iâm talking about. And I canât have you interfering.â
âMaxââ
âIâm sorry,â Yuki murmurs.
You whirl, but not fast enough. Something hard cracks against the side of your temple. Light explodes across your vision. The war room swims, stone and parchment swimming together into a blur. The last thing you see is Max, standing there like heâs already made peace with betrayal. Like itâs easier when it comes from someone else.
The floor rushes up to meet you, and everything goes black.
You wake up on cold stone, cheek pressed to the floor, head pounding with a low, dull ache. For a moment, you think youâre in the cove. You half expect to hear the Triple Stryke snoring beside you, or Lando humming some out-of-tune tune under his breath. But then the iron tang in the air creeps into your nose, and you open your eyes to the damp grey of the islandâs prison.
This cell is nothing like the rickety wood-slatted one in Formulae. This one is sophisticated. Carved deep into the mountainside, the walls are smooth-cut stone reinforced with grates that glint with metal laced through. The door isnât even barred. Itâs solid, with only a narrow slit at eye level and a little grate at the bottom for food. Youâre not getting out of here without help. Max made sure of that.
You groan, shifting to sit up, and thatâs when you spot George. Heâs slumped on a stool just outside the door, arms crossed, expression unreadable.
âWow,â you croak. âBabysitting duty. Bet this wasnât in the war hero job description.â
George doesnât flinch. âYou should be lucky I volunteered. Max was ready to tie you up and leave you in the dark.â
You pull yourself up, pacing to the door, pressing your forehead to the cold metal. âGeorge, this is insane. You know this is insane. Iâm not a traitor.â
He looks away, jaw tight. âThen what are you?â
You try pleading. You try logic. You try reminding him of all the times you fought beside him, bled beside him. âYou know me,â you say at the end of it all. âYou know I wouldnât throw everything away forââ
He cuts you off. âFor Lando?â
Your silence is answer enough.
George sighs. âYouâre not thinking clearly. Heâs the enemy.â
âHeâs notââ You slam your hand against the door. âHeâs not the one planning to ambush a peaceful island! You were there, George. You saw their dragons. They were... named Prada, for godsâ sake. That was your home once.â
George winces but doesnât budge. That hurts worse than anything.
When the pleading doesnât work, you switch tactics. âYouâre a coward,â you spit. âYouâre just following orders, like you always do. Youâre Maxâs good little soldier. He says jump, and you hold the rope.â
He doesnât flinch this time. âBetter than being a fool,â he snipes, and like a fool, you try every trick in your book to change your fate.Â
Eventually, your words run dry. You slump down to the floor, back against the wall, knees drawn up. Your head throbs. Your chest aches.
Of all the horrible, aching thoughts gnawing at you, the worst one rises to the surface like rot: Lando will think you ran. That you chose a side. That you lied when you kissed him and promised youâd be back.
You close your eyes and let your head thump back against the stone. The cell is quiet except for your breath and Georgeâs distant shifting.
You whisper to no one, âHeâs going to think I left him.â
And thereâs no one to answer you.
Time moves differently in the jail cell.
Sometimes itâs a drip of water from the ceiling that keeps the hours, sometimes itâs the way your stomach clenches into itself, reminding you youâve missed a meal again. Itâs colder than you remember it being when George first shut the door. Or maybe thatâs just you, getting smaller.
You think about the way Lando looked the last time you saw him. All sun-warmed curls and that ridiculous grin as he kissed you behind the latrine stalls like a schoolboy. He probably thinks youâre running. That you got scared and left. That maybe none of it meant anything.
You groan and flop back onto the stone floor, exhaling at the impact. It knocks the air from your lungs and your pride from your chest.
Then, the sound of boots. Shuffling, uneven. You sit up, blinking in the dim torchlight.
âBack for another round of emotional torment, George?â you call, voice raspy but still flavored with bite.
The key clinks in the lock. The hinges groan. And there, framed in the doorway, is not George.
Itâs Lando. Perched on your Triple Stryke like he owns it, the smug bastard. His curls are wind-whipped, and his cheeks are flushed like he flew through a storm to get here. His prosthetic glints silver in the flickering torchlight, and thereâs dirt smudged along his jaw.
âOh, thank gods,â he breathes, sliding off the dragon before you even think to move. He doesnât say anything else. Just pulls you into his arms as if itâs muscle memory.
You freeze for half a heartbeat before melting into it. He smells like ash and spring and a little bit like strawberriesâlike maybe he had brought some to your rendezvous, after all.
âI had a feeling something was wrong,â he murmurs into your hair. âYouâre stubborn, but youâre not cruel. And then I got a raven. No name, just a message. Saying you were in jail.âÂ
You pull back to look at him. âWho sent it?â
âI think I have a guess.â
Behind him, a familiar figure emerges from the shadows. George. He doesnât look at you directly, but he tosses a coil of rope onto the floor between you.
âTie me up,â he says gruffly. âMake it look good. If Max asks, you broke out and took me hostage.â
Lando whistles low. âI owe you one, Georgie.â
George finally meets your eyes. âDonât make me regret it.âÂ
You nod. Lando starts wrapping the rope around Georgeâs wrists with a wink. âNow, how tight do you want it, darling hostage?â
In less than seven minutes, the ropes are snug around Georgeâs wrists, his expression one of long-suffering patience as you adjust the knot with unnecessarily dramatic flair. âYou could at least pretend this is uncomfortable,â you mutter, tugging one final loop tight.
George raises an unimpressed brow. âOh no. Whatever will I do. Iâve been bested by a criminal mastermind and her dragon-taming rogue of a boyfriend.â
Lando snorts from where heâs swinging a leg over the Triple Stryke, the beast flicking one tail lazily like it's already bored of the jailbreak. You glance over your shoulder, the low lantern light catching the shine of Landoâs curls, the slight grin tucked into his cheek.
But then you turn back to George, hand hovering over the last knot. The questionâs already in your mouth before you can stop it. âWhy?â you ask.Â
George exhales through his nose, gaze fixed on the stone wall for a moment. Then, quietly: âBecause I donât really care about the dragons.â
That throws you off-kilter. âWhat?âÂ
âThis warâit was never really about dragons. Not for me. Itâs always been about control. Politics. Territory.â He shifts his shoulders, the ropes creaking. âWe painted it in honor and survival, but deep down, we just wanted to be the ones on top.â
His voice softens, a thread of something like regret winding through it. âYouâre right. Formulae was my home once, too. Before Max. Before all this. I made my choice, but that doesnât mean I want to watch it burn.â
You stare at him, the weight of his words pressing down heavy on your chest. Thereâs no time to respond properlyânot with the shouts already echoing from somewhere aboveâbut your fingers squeeze his shoulder once before you leap back.
Landoâs hand is waiting, and you grab it without hesitation, letting him pull you up onto the Triple Strykeâs back. The saddle creaks under your combined weight, and the dragon snarls low before launching into the night with a gust of wind that whips through your hair.
Below, George slumps convincingly against the wall, the ropes neat and tidy. Above, the stars are wide and blinking, the horizon just beginning to bruise with dawn. You grip Landoâs waist tighter and breathe deep.
Youâre flying toward your rendezvous point. Toward whatever comes next. Toward Lando, always.Â
The sky is ink and indigo when you land in the cove, the Triple Stryke spiraling down with practiced grace. Lando slides off behind you, boots crunching against gravel as Lucky bounds forward, letting out a chirp that rumbles like a purr.
âSomeone missed you,â Lando says, grinning. Lucky nudges at your shoulder, then snorts and goes bounding off toward the shallows, tail flicking like an overgrown cat.
You barely register it. Landoâs hands are already on you, brushing leaves from your hair, fingertips lingering at your cheekbone where Yukiâs strike left the faintest bruise. His brow furrows. âYou okay?â
Your breath catches. Something wild and feral stirs inside you, something that wants to devour the ache and the fear and the betrayal all at once. âClean me up later.â
âWhaâ?â
You kiss him hard, teeth knocking into his. Itâs graceless, a little frantic, but he groans against your mouth all the same. The tension breaks in the warmth of his touch, in the press of his body against yours as your back meets the mossy cave wall. He tastes like brine and berries, like flight and risk and something far too precious to lose.
Lucky and the Triple Stryke disappear up into the rocks, perhaps sensing the heat rolling off you both. Maybe dragons are smarter than humans.
Later, youâre tangled in the blankets Lando laid out, his arm draped over your waist, your fingers brushing over Luckyâs prosthetic fin. The water outside laps softly, like the cove is breathing along with you.
You tell Lando.
About Max. About the raid. About the fact that your home is plotting to burn his.
Lando doesnât interrupt. He only turns onto his side, curls brushing your shoulder, eyes unreadable in the dim.
âYouâre coming with me, right?â he asks.
The question slices clean through the quiet.
Your throat tightens. You stare up at the cave ceiling like the answer might be written there, etched into the stone with all the old gods and foolish lovers before you. You say nothing.
In that silence, Lando doesnât press. He only laces your fingers with his, and waits.
The fire has long since dwindled to glowing embers, but youâre still curled beside Lando, your fingers absently tracing the edge of a half-healed scar over his ribs. The cove is hushed, save for the gentle tide and the slow, sleepy breathing of two dragons lying not far off.
Luckyâs snores are soft puffs, like bellows sighing. The Triple Strykeâstill unnamed, still stubbornârests its braided tail in the water, letting the current comb through it. Salt lingers in the air, clings to your skin, and the sand beneath you is still faintly warm from the day.
You havenât said anything in a while.
Lando watches you, propped up on an elbow, curls a halo of wild gold around his head in the moonlight. He breaks the silence gently. âYou havenât answered me yet,â he says, and you close your eyes as if you might be able to close yourself to the question. It clutches at your spine anyway.
âBecause I donât know,â you say eventually, voice low. âIâve seen what dragons can do. Iâve seen fire swallow homes. Seen bones in the wreckage. Iâve seen mothers cry over blackened cradles. Iâve seen a child with skin like scorched parchment, and I had no answer for her pain.â
Lando doesnât interrupt. He waits, eyes soft, unreadable in the low light but never unkind.
You inhale through your nose, trying to find balance between what youâve lived and what youâve come to believe. âBut Iâve also seen Lucky nudge you awake like a dog wanting breakfast. Iâve seen the Triple Stryke hold its tail still so I could pull a thorn from it. Iâve seen peace between human and beast. And I⊠I believe in that. I just donât know if itâs enough.â
You sit up, pulling your knees to your chest. The wind combs through the trees above the cove, the leaves rustling like distant applause. Somewhere in the distance, a seabird calls, long and plaintive.
âIt doesnât erase the deaths. Doesnât undo the grief. How do I tell someone like Max that dragons can be gentle when heâs seen his family burned alive?â You laugh, bitter and small. âHow do I tell myself that, when Iâve buried friends of my own? When I still dream of teeth and smoke and wings that block out the sun?â
Lando shifts beside you, brushing his hand along your back. âThen donât choose a side,â he says. âChoose a life. With me. We donât need an island. Not if weâve got each other. Weâll make our lives on the go.â
You stare at him, something breaking wide open in your chest. The kind of break that makes space. For hope. For madness.
âRun away with me,â he says into your shoulder, so softly you almost donât hear it. âWe can fly until weâre free.â
You donât answer with words. You just lean in, kiss him slow, one hand curled in the fabric of his tunic, the other pressed to the warm, strong line of his jaw. He kisses you back like a promise. Like a start.
Then, before dawn, he mounts Lucky. The Night Furyâs prosthetic fin gleams faintly in the moonlight, mirroring the glint of Landoâs leg. He looks back at you only once, his face unreadable but his eyes burning. It feels like something sacred, that glance. Youâve made your choice. He makes his.Â
And then heâs goneâswallowed by the sky.
Youâre left with the Triple Stryke, who grumbles and noses your shoulder like itâs annoyed he didnât say goodbye to it, too. You scratch under its chin, smiling faintly. âWhat do you think?â you murmur. âAm I a fool? Or just the brave kind of stupid?â
The dragon flops dramatically onto the sand, its tail flaring like a fan, spraying a bit of water onto your leg. You yelp and swat at it.
You huff a quiet laugh and lie down beside it, eyes fixed on the stars. They blur slightly, and youâre not sure if itâs the mist or your own eyes betraying you.
You still donât know where you stand.
But dawn is coming fast, and youâll have to choose something. Even if itâs just which way to run.Â
The return is not triumphant.
You land on the edge of camp just after midday, the sun high and unflinching as a blade overhead. The Triple Stryke, whose name you still havenât spoken aloud, snorts once as you dismount, and disappears into the trees with an annoyed flick of its tail, like it wants no part of the drama about to unfold. Fair.
Max is the first to spot you, arms crossed so tight his shoulders look like they might snap off. Yuki stands just behind him, squinting at you like he isnât sure if youâre real or a hallucination born of heatstroke. George, who was midway through cleaning a blade, just⊠drops it.
âBold of you to come back here,â Max says. No greeting. No pleasantries. Just cool suspicion in his voice.
âI brought gifts,â you say, reaching into the satchel slung over your shoulder.
Max doesnât look amused, but his eyes flick toward the bag.
You pull out a small pouch first. Inside, a clump of dark, glassy scales. Iridescent black with a blue shimmer when the light catches right. Night Fury scales. Rare. Impossible, unless youâve been close. You hold them out.
Max doesnât take them right away. Yuki steps forward first, lifting one delicately between his fingers. âYouâre not lying,â the barbarian gapes. âThese are real.â
âTold you,â you say, tone deliberately breezy, even as your pulse thuds against your spine. âI know where it is. I know how to get close. I can help you bring it down.â
Maxâs jaw tightens. âAnd why would you do that? Didnât seem so eager to follow orders before.â
âBecause,â you say, lifting your chin, âif my grief is going to be a weapon, Iâd rather it be aimed at something that earns it. You want the Night Fury dead? Fine. Then let me be the one to do it.â
Thereâs a long silence. Wind rushes through the trees behind you. Somewhere in the distance, someone hammers metal. Sharp, angry, fast.
Max looks at you as if heâs trying to solve a puzzle he doesnât like the shape of. Then, finally, with a voice cold as steel: âYuki watches you,â he proclaims. âEvery breath, every blink. You so much as flinch wrong, and heâll put you down.â
Yuki gives a little wave. âHi again.â
George still hasnât said anything. He looks a little green.
You pocket the pouch of scales again and let yourself exhale slowly.Â
You donât expect George to corner you, not on the eve of the raid. But sure enough, while youâre fitting your bracers and checking the sharpness of your blade, he sidles in like a shadow made of stone and suspicion. âFunny,â he says, voice low, arms crossed against his chest. âI thought traitors didnât have a conscience.â
You donât look up right away. Instead, you give your blade one last inspection, catching the glint of torchlight down its edge. You say, as evenly as you can, âIâm here, arenât I?â
George doesnât flinch. âYou escaped with him. With Lando. You ran.â
You slide the blade into its sheath with a clean, decisive snap. âI came back. Thatâs what matters.â
He stares at you, and for a moment you think heâll call for Max, haul you back into that cell, this time without the leniency of rope tricks and sympathetic shrugs. Instead, he says, almost like an afterthought, âYou love him.â
Your jaw tightens. You shrug. âMaybe. Doesnât change anything.â
âDoesnât it?â
You meet his gaze now. âYou know what this war is, George. Itâs grief in armor. Iâm just putting mine to work.â
He exhales, slow. Thereâs a beat where you both just stand there, surrounded by clinking metal and the scent of oil and leather. âIt just doesnât make sense to me,â he says, âhow you could turn on him so easily.â
âWeâre nothing but pawns in this, George,â you answer, and he leaves you alone after that.
The sky above the island is gray and heavy with promise, the kind of pre-storm stillness that makes even the wind second guess itself. You find Yuki perched on a crate, threading small knives into hidden loops on his vest. He gives you a long, unreadable look when you approach.
âYouâre not going to cry again, are you?â he says casually.
You bite back a grin. âThat was once, and it was wind in my eye.â
âSuuure it was.â
Max appears, all grim posture and command, and the joking evaporates like breath on cold glass. He surveys the three of youâhis closest fighters, his most trustedâbefore speaking.
âWe strike before sunrise. Quiet. Fast. No survivors unless I say so.â
The map unfurls across the table like a wound. Formulaeâs shoreline, its towers, its cove. You donât look too hard at the place you know Lando might be. You donât let your fingers hover near it. You just nod along with the rest.
And when Max says, âEveryone clear?â
You say, âCrystal.â
Even as your heart mutters Landoâs name like a secret prayer, you strap your helmet tight and prepare to burn through his defenses.
The boats slice through the mist like knives through silk. The sea is dark and churning, the moonlight fractured across the waves. Spray kisses your cheeks, cold and salty, and you press your hood closer around your face, stealing one last glance at the quiet silhouette of Formulae rising like a fortress from the sea.
No dragons. No wings in the sky. No rumbling roars. That was part of Maxâs plan: to make a statement. The dragons were to be kept behind, replaced with stealth and force. You arrive not with fire, but with steel and silence.
Max stands tall at the prow, wind snapping his cloak like a banner. He points to the cliffs ahead, voice cutting through the hush.Â
âWe land by the east ridge, where the rocks keep the surf low. George, youâll take two squads up the trail toward the stables. Hit them where they nest. Yuki, keep eyes on our flanks. I want the cove sealed and their dragons trapped.â
He doesnât look at you, but he doesnât need to. Yuki is already planted beside you like a shadow. George hasnât spoken since you boarded, but his glances are much like blades flicking under your skin.
Formulae looms closer. The jagged cliffs are laced with flame-lit watchtowers, orange light bleeding into the fog. Your warning has done its job. Defenses are doubled, maybe tripled. Ballistae dot the ridge like skeletal teeth, and even in the gloom, you see silhouettes moving fast, stringing bows, oiling fire.
You breathe in, grounding yourself in the the creak of oars and the rhythm of your own pulse. You can almost feel Landoâs breath against your ear again, soft and pleading: Run away with me.
Instead, you tighten your grip on the hilt of your blade.
âYou ready?â Yuki grunts, not unkindly.
You nod. âAs Iâll ever be.â
Because this is the part you chose. The part where you play your role.
The boats bump softly against stone. Max is first to leap out, boots hitting wet rock. The others follow, swift and silent. Yuki grabs your arm when you hesitate, but you shake him off with a thin smile. âIâm not running.â
You step onto Formulae soil.
The raid begins, and the sky becomes like fire and shadow.
Smoke curls upward like dark ribbon, snaking into the clouds that have turned the same dull color as ash. The clang of metal rings out across the cliffs of Formulae, pierced by the shriek of dragons and the war-cries of men. Everything smells of smoke and brine, blood and burning leather. The sea crashes violently against the islandâs edge, tossing foam and bodies onto black sand.
You sprint through the outer defenses with Maxâs hunters, your boots pounding against the stone, throat raw with the smoke you keep inhaling. You catch glimpses of movement above.
Oscarâs orange-winged Monstrous Nightmare streaks through the sky like a comet. Alex, steady as ever, commands his Timberjack to shield a cluster of younger riders behind the treeline.
But itâs Lando who draws your eye.
He appears over the ridge, silhouetted against the sky with Lucky beneath him. The Night Fury cuts a smooth, beautiful arc across the battlefield, its prosthetic fin gleaming even in the haze. Landoâs curls are soaked to his neck from sea spray and sweat. Heâs scanning the chaos, jaw tight, eyes sharpâuntil they find you.
You hold your ground as Lucky lands in a spray of gravel and dust. Lando dismounts with practiced ease, and for a heartbeat, the rest of the battle falls away, tucked behind the roar in your ears.
âReally?â Lando calls out, advancing. His voice cuts through the din, hoarse but strong. âYou brought them here? After everything?â
You keep your shoulders square. Yuki is somewhere behind you, George to your left, but neither steps in.
âI warned you,â you say. âYou had time to prepare. Consider that mercy.â
He snorts. âMercy? Is that what you call this? Bringing Maxâs glorified butcher squad to our door?â
You step closer. The heat between you two is not entirely from the fire. âDonât act like you didnât know this was coming. You told me to run. I didnât,â you say, fingers sneaking into your pocket. âThat doesnât mean I chose you.â
âNo,â Lando says, bitterly. âYou just chose the ones who would kill everything I care about.â
Lucky shifts behind him, snarling low. The dragonâs pupils narrow, locked on your figure. Not with hatred, but confusion. Its claws knead the dirt. It edges sideways, almost as if trying to get between you and Lando. The Night Fury hasnât yet registered that this is not play time.Â
You see the moment Lando notices.
âHe remembers you,â he mutters, eyes narrowing. âEven now. You really think you can fool both of us?â
You draw your weapon. The one thatâs yet to have a drop of bloodâdragon or humanâon it. Lando doesnât flinch. Lucky growls again, but doesnât move. The wind shifts the hair from your face.
âThen donât let me fool you,â you call out, just loud enough for Lando to hear. âFight me. Like you mean it.â
âWhat if I donât want to hurt you?â
You flick your blade up, catch the light on the edge. âThen you better aim for my heart, because thatâs the one part of me youâve already got.â
Lucky bucks between you both, letting out a conflicted snarl. For a split second, it all stalls. A brief, uncanny quiet that seems to settle between one heartbeat and the next.Â
Lando stares at you from astride Lucky, his expression shifting from betrayal to uncertainty. Before he can make a move, you slip your free hand into your cloak and pull out the carved wooden whistle. Itâs barely the size of your thumb, etched with crude swirls youâd scratched yourself. You lift it to your lips and blow.
The shrill note pierces through the chaos, cutting across the clang of steel and the shriek of dragons overhead. For a second, nothing.Â
Then, the sound of thrashing leaves and snarled branches explodes behind you. The earth practically trembles.
Your Triple Stryke bursts through the edge of the jungle, hissing and gleaming in the firelight like a polished onyx trident come alive. You catch it mid-charge, scrambling onto its back, your limbs awkward and graceless. It grumbles beneath you, impatient. You're still not quite used to this. The way the saddle tilts, the way its body moves in lurches and slithers, the way its barbed tail coils possessively.
You find Landoâs gaze again across the field. Max is already shouting something, likely a mix of disbelief and profanity. Yuki just whistles lowly. George has this strange smile on his face, like heâd always known.
Lando arches a brow at you. He is trying so hard not to smile, and heâs failing spectacularly. âFinally picked a side, huh?â
You tug the reins, still too tight. Your dragon, ever dramatic, flicks its tail like itâs flipping its hair. âFigured I might as well make an entrance,â you shoot back, wind whipping your hair, cutting your vision into strips.Â
Lando lets out a startled laugh. His face lights up, tension bleeding from his shoulders like itâs nothing. âHer name?âÂ
You nod, patting the Triple Stryke's scaled neck. âMeet Charm. Suits, right? A little vain. A lot of flair. Not unlike a certain someone I know who named his Night Fury âLuckyâ.âÂ
âLucky and Charm,â Lando says, grinning wider. âWe sound like a tavern act.â
âOr a bad omen,â you mutter, though youâre smiling too.
Somewhere behind you, Max bellows your name, fury crackling in every syllable. Charm hisses back, teeth gleaming. Yuki watches the whole thing unfold, idly spinning a blade in one hand.
You and Lando keep staring at each other from across the battleground, your dragons circling, coiling, daring the war to reach them. And maybe it will.
But right now, it feels like the fight has only just begun.
Max charges like a bull, all fury and grit, and it takes every ounce of control to keep Charm from reacting on instinct. The Triple Stryke arches up like a scorpion, tail weaving with the dangerous intent of a predator protecting its own. You squeeze your knees against its sides, urging calm.
âNot yet,â you tell it. âDonât kill him. Just scare him a little.â
The air is thick with fire-smoke and brine. Wind gusts off the cliffs, catching on the ragged edges of sails and torn banners, sweeping through the battlefield with the cries of dragons and men. Behind you, Lucky dives and spins in the sky above the burning coastline, Lando and Yuki locked in a clash of flame and agility.
Max barrels toward you, axe raised, his eyes blazing. âTraitor!â
Charm rears again, hissing, and you twist the reins just enough to avoid a direct hit. Max swings and catches the edge of Charmâs saddle, his blade sparking against the iron buckles. He lands hard on the rocky shore but rolls up like itâs nothing.
âI shouldâve drowned you the second I saw you looking soft!â Max hisses.Â
You wince, mostly from the accuracy of it. âMax, I didnât betray our people. I just stopped believing that revenge is the only way forward,â you try to reason, but there is only so much pain a man can take before reason falls flat.Â
He laughs, bitter and wild. âYou didnât stop anything. You just picked a prettier enemy to kiss.â
Charm snaps its tail, coiling it between you and Max like a wall of gleaming red. Still, Max presses on, and you're quickly realizing that no dragon will stop him from getting to you. Only you can.
You throw your leg over the saddle and dismount, boots crunching onto the dark wet rock of the shore. Alex swoops down almost instantly, skidding through ash to take Charmâs reins.
âIâve got him! Go!â Alex shouts.
You nod, eyes never leaving Max. Heâs panting, already singed around the edges, his armor dented and blackened. The fire in him burns too hot to feel it. You draw your blade.
âFine,â you say, lifting your weapon between you. âNo dragons. Just us.â
The fearless Max Verstappen squares his shoulders. âGood. Letâs see what all that love has taught you about war.â
You donât bother replying. The ash swirls between you. The cliffs stand high above, scorched and watching. You duck a swing from Maxâs sword, the steel hissing through the air where your head used to be. Heâs relentless. Rage burns in the whites of his eyes, and you feel every ounce of your betrayal pressed into each strike.
Youâre not fast enough. Not good enough. Not when your muscles are already trembling, lungs burning, arms heavy from deflecting blow after blow. He catches you with the flat of his blade and sends you sprawling into the dirt, your kirtle ripped, your shoulder screaming in pain.
âYou think youâre a hero now?â Max snarls, looming over you. âYou think naming a dragon makes you one of them?â
You spit blood to the side and scramble up to your knees. âNo,â you rasp. âBut Iâd rather fight for something alive than die for your ghosts.â
He swings again.
And then Lando is there.
He bursts through the haze like a reckless gust of wind, no dragon in sight, just him and a dagger in each hand. He intercepts Maxâs blade with a clang, their weapons locking.
âThought you might need backup,â he grunts, glancing sideways at you, a flash of teeth in a wild grin.
âYou couldnât have brought Lucky?â you groan, dragging yourself to your feet.
âHeâs busy being dramatic.â
Max is quicker than either of you expect. He shifts his weight, knocks Lando off balance with a swipe of the leg. The prosthetic gives under the force. Lando hits the ground with a grunt and rolls away just before Max brings his sword down where his chest had been.
âStay out of this, Norris,â Max barks. âThis is a family matter.â
âNo,â Lando spits, pushing himself back up with a grimace. âYou said it yourself. This is about love.â
Max is already swinging again, and this time itâs at both of you. You parry with everything youâve got, the vibration of the impact rattling up your arms. Lando flanks to the side, slashing with quick, fluid strikes, but Max is a wall of anger, solid and immovable. He backhands Lando hard enough to send him sprawling again.
You barely duck in time to avoid a follow-up.
Your heart pounds. The sounds of dragons screeching and swords clashing echo all around. You catch a glimpse of Oscar locked in battle with George, Alex soaring overhead with Yuki in pursuit.
And here you are, teeth gritted, bloodied, back-to-back with Lando, staring down the man you once called your commander.
âAny brilliant ideas?â Lando pants.
You glance down at the dirt, the blood, the mess. Then up at Max, who never hesitates, who never breaks.
âJust one,â you mutter. âDonât die. Yet.â
âThatâs the plan.â
You both know plans donât mean much when Max is swinging like heâs ready to bury the past and you along with it.
The ground shakes beneath his charge. Dirt kicks up, sharp with the scent of ash and blood. You and Lando scramble, but youâre both slower now. Bruised and battered. Your limbs scream with every movement, your back slick with sweat and the faint sting of torn skin. Lando grits his teeth, a cut blooming across his cheek, and pushes himself up again.
Max is unrelenting. His blade gleams crimson under the war-lit sky, the fire from a nearby blaze catching on the edge. âYou think this makes you noble?â he snarls, swinging down.
Lando throws his prosthetic leg up to block the strike, but it knocks him to the ground with a dull thud. You dive, grab a rockâanythingâbut Max kicks you back. Pain flares through your ribs. You taste blood.
âYouâve betrayed your people,â Max spits, standing over you now, towering and furious. âOver a boy. Over a beast. Youâve forgotten our dead.â
Your fingers scrabble for your whistle. You blow, and the shrill note cuts through the chaos.
Charm answers with a roar, streaking in from above like a meteor. It lands between you and Max with a crash that sends the ground rippling. One braid of its tail lashes out, and Maxâs weapon goes spinning into the dirt.
Charm pins Max with a clawed foot, a low growl reverberating through its chest. Max thrashes beneath it, kicking up dirt and rage. âYou donât have the stomach to finish me,â he spits up at you. âYou never did.â
You limp toward him, the whistle still in your grip, blood trickling from the corner of your mouth. Charm huffs, still holding Max down. Lando groans somewhere behind you, breathing hard through his nose.
âYouâre right,â you say, crouching beside Max, your voice like flint. âIâm not going to burn you. Not going to let Charm crush you either.â
Max glares up at you, sneering. âThen what? Going to talk me to death?â
You smile, slow and sharp.
âIâm going to prove you wrong.â
Then you kick him in the face. Hard enough that his head snaps sideways and he slumps, out cold in the dirt.
Charm grumbles approvingly, lifting its foot. Lando drags himself to your side, breath ragged.
You meet his eyes. He grins, bruised and crooked. âRemind me never to piss you off," he croaks. The cliche of all cliches.Â
Just because you can, you grab a fistful of his tunic and pull him in for a blistering kiss.Â
You taste blood. It could be his. It could be yours. Either way, it reminds you that youâre still both alive, alive, alive.Â
The wood walls are as cold and familiar as ever.Â
Damp moss curls between the panels, and the faint trickle of water echoes through the chamber like a lazy clock. The cell is smaller than you remember, or maybe youâre just more tired than youâve ever been. Charm had nuzzled your hand before you were taken away, one last huff of warm breath on your palm before you were led back here in chains.
Lando leans against the opposite wall, arms crossed, a crooked smile on his lips. His cheeks still flushed from the aftermath of battle. Thereâs soot along his jawline. âWe really have to stop meeting like this,â he sing-songs.Â
You roll your eyes and flop down on the wooden bench with a groan. âWhat, not charmed to see me?â
âOh, utterly. Nothing like a bit of treason and light jail time to keep the romance alive.â
You laugh, too tired to muster anything biting. Outside the cell, someone coughs. A sharp, annoyed sound. George, in the neighboring cell, pacing like a restless dog. Yuki lounges in his own corner, chewing on what looks like a dried mango slice he probably stole off someoneâs plate. Max is somewhere else entirely; last you saw him, he had a purple bruise flowering across his cheek.
It all comes back in flashes: the clang of steel, the shriek of dragons, the moment Max had you and Lando cornered before you managed your whistle. Charm, swooping in like a vengeful star. The satisfying crunch of your boot against Maxâs jaw.
And then, the riders rallying. Alex and Oscar flanking you, dragons circling like sentinels. Lewis descending from the ridge, cloak billowing like a verdict. He looked at the four of you, wounded and defiant, and gave the order: âTake them to the cells. The council will decide what to do with them.â
Now, here you are. Again.
âSo,â Lando says, dragging the stool closer to your bars, âany chance youâll finally tell me if you picked our side for the dragons or for me?â
âYouâre assuming I picked your side at all.â
âYou named your dragon Charm to match Lucky.â
âThatâs circumstantial evidence.â
He grins, eyes glinting. âSure. And me sleeping in this dungeon instead of my own bed is just me exploring alternative lodging.â
You bump your head lightly against the bars and sigh. âWhat happens now?â
Landoâs smile fades a little. âDepends on the council. Theyâre deciding whether you all deserve mercy, or if this truce was just another battlefield.â
You meet his eyes. âAnd what do you think?â
He reaches through the bars and takes your hand. âI think mercy deserves a chance,â he says, his fingers finding the spaces between yours. âFor all of us.â
The days bleed into each other. Your comrades disappear one by one to face their juries. They donât come back, and youâre left with Landoâs visits, with the faint roar of Formulae spinning madly on beyond you.Â
Youâre picking at the frayed hem of your tunic when the door creaks open. Light spills in, along with a familiar silhouette and an all-too-familiar smirk.
âYou know,â Lando drawls, leaning one shoulder casually against the frame, âyou couldâve escaped by now. I left that lock practically begging to be picked.â
You glance up at him, eyes narrow. âMaybe I was waiting for someone to bust me out. Preferably someone pretty.â
He scoffs and walks in, keys jingling on his hip. âFlattery. Gonna add that to your list of crimes.â
Formulae really knows how to standardize incarceration. You stand as Lando reaches for the lock, his fingers brushing yours a moment too long before the cell door swings open with a satisfying clunk.
âYour comrades have been sentenced,â he says, his voice lighter than the words themselves. âMax is exiled here. Lewis says if heâs going to be trouble, at least weâll know where to find him.â
You snort. âThatâs not exile, thatâs surveillance.â
âPotato, potato,â Lando shrugs. âGeorgie, meanwhile, has inherited your island. Lewis calls it a punishment, but George looked vaguely thrilled. Something about finally getting the good tea imported.â
A smile almost breaks out on your face. The man who cared not for the dragons, but only about politics. âI always knew he had delusions of grandeur,â you say, rubbing your wrists absentmindedly.Â
âYukiâs now our shared defense minister,â Lago goes on. âHe complained until Lewis said heâd get to yell at everyone in both places. Then he seemed oddly pleased.â
You stretch your arms over your head, wincing at a sore muscle. âAnd me? What wonderful future awaits the great traitor?â
Lando clicks his tongue. âYou got off easy. I may have⊠testified that you warned us before the raid. Which, by the way, is the only reason Lewis didnât have you thrown to the dragons.â
âAnd here I thought he liked me.â
âHe does. In a bureaucratic, suspicious sort of way. So heâs giving you community service. Youâre to report to the dragon academy.â
You blink. âTo do what?â
Lando grins. âHelp train the recruits. Muck the stables. Feed the dragons. Try not to get singed.â
You stare at him. âYou mean I go from traitor to dragon wrangler?â
âExactly. Full circle.â
There are worse things to be.Â
âThis better come with hazard pay,â you huff.
Lando presses his lips to your forehead. âYouâll be paid in dragon breath and adolescent chaos,â he coos.Â
You follow him out of the jail. The sunlight hits you like a slap and a kiss all at once. Too bright after the jailâs damp dimness, but still welcome, warm on your cheeks and shoulders. You blink against it, stretch, and hear the clang of the outer gates closing behind you. Lando waits there, arms folded, curls a little wilder than usual. His mouth twitching around something he canât quite say.
âYou look like a bat who just saw its first sunrise,â he says, tone light but eyes watchful.
âYou try living in a box that smells like wet leather and regret,â you mutter, rubbing at your temple.Â
He walks beside you as you descend the steps into the village square. The stones are warm underfoot. Formulaeâs dragons wheel lazily in the sky above, casting shadows over the thatched rooftops. Children laugh in the distance, somewhere near the training cliffs. It almost feels normal.
Almost.
Lando clears his throat.
You glance at him. âYouâre nervous,â you say, eyes narrowed. âYou never get nervous. Whatâs going on?â
He scratches the back of his neck, then shoves his hands in his pockets. âTechnically, you donât have to stay here,â he says. âYou could just⊠do your sentence, sleep on the ship, and head back home. Yâknow. If you wanted.â
You squint at him, bemused. âWhy do you sound like youâre trying to break up with me at my parole hearing?â
âIâm not. Iâm not!â he exclaims, flustered. âItâs just⊠you havenât really saidâI mean, we havenât saidâŠâÂ
He trails off, then tries again. âI know you fought with me. That was huge. That meant something. But you still havenât⊠said it.âÂ
A pause.
You raise an eyebrow. âYou want me to say it.â
He looks at his boots. âOnly if you mean it.â
You snort. âNorris,â you say slowly, enunciating each word. âI committed minor treason for you. I defected mid-battle. I rode a dragon I didnât know how to steer just to name it something to match yours.â
He gives you a sheepish grin. âLucky and Charm. Weâre about to be the most annoying riders ever,â he says, aiming for nonchalance. You donât let him hide behind it.Â
You step in close. Take his face in your hands, the heat of his skin, the freckle at the edge of his cheekbone. You kiss him slow, and when you pull back, your lips brush against his as you do it. As you say it.
âI love you,â you whisper.Â
His breath catches like he forgot how to breathe.
Then he whoops, loud and gleeful, and lifts you off your feet in a wild, spinning hug that makes your ribs ache from smiling.
Lucky has snuck in behind him, tail twitching like a catâs, eyes bright. Charm is at his side, swinging its tail idly. Knocking over a stack of gear you hadnât even noticed. Clearly, the dragons are in on this.
âYou hear that, Lucky?â Lando giggles to his dragon, arms still wrapped around your shoulders. âShe loves me. She loves me!â
Lucky snorts. It doesnât roll its eyes, but itâs a close thing.Â
You swat Landoâs chest, and he puts you finally puts you down. âIâm so happy, I could fly,â Lando says giddily, face buried in the crook of your neck.Â
âThatâs what dragons are for.âÂ
âSays the one who has avoided flying more than five feet off the ground.âÂ
You squint up at the sky. The clouds are wispy today, stretching like pulled cotton. The sun is high, casting everything in gold. The wind lifts the edges of your tunic, tickling your skin. Itâs a perfect day for flight. If only you werenât still convinced youâd end up as a splatter on some cliff face.
âIâm not avoiding,â you mutter. âIâm strategically delaying.â
Lando snorts. âThatâs called fear.â
You elbow him lightly in the ribs. âItâs called trauma, actually. Some of us didnât grow up launching ourselves off ledges for fun.â
Lando turns toward you, expression softening. âHey. I get it. Really. But youâve got Charm now. And me. And youâre already halfway in love with the sky, I can tell. You just need a little push.â
He walks over to the Triple Stryke, running a hand affectionately along the dragonâs segmented side. âLet me teach you.â
Charm rumbles, like itâs also suggesting you quit being a coward.
You exhale, nervous and warm all at once. âIf I die, Iâm haunting you,â you grumble, the hammering in your chest only secondary to the affection you have for both this man, these dragons.Â
Lando grins. âI wouldnât expect anything less.â
He mounts Lucky with practiced ease, and you climb onto Charmâs back with considerably less grace, gripping the ridges of the dragonâs spine like a lifeline. The dragon is hot beneath you, muscle and sinew shifting as it adjusts to your weight.
âEase into it,â Lando calls from a few feet away. âCharmâs sensitive to tension. You tense, it tenses. Just breathe with him.â
You close your eyes. Inhale. Exhale.Â
The scent of sea spray and dragon oil and sun-warmed leather fills your nose. Then, with a surge of wings and wind, you launch.
The world falls away.
Your stomach drops, but Charm steadies you, wings catching the currents with instinctual ease. You cling tighter. Lando whoops beside you, carving circles through the sky. The wind screams past your ears, but thereâs laughter there too. Your own.
You shout into the sky, wild and breathless. Below, the ocean gleams like glass. Lucky flanks you on one side, Lando grinning like heâs just won the world.
And maybe, maybe youâre starting to understand the feeling.
EPILOGUE.Â
The cove is quiet this time of year, the water as smooth as oil and just as dark, curling gently along the shore like it knows not to interrupt. The air smells of sea salt and dried herbs from the dragon academy garden. The long grasses near the tree line wave lazily in the breeze, and the clouds roll slow and low across the sky, like theyâre too tired to rain.Â
Somewhere behind you, Lucky gives a contented snort, the Night Fury lounging in a sun-dappled patch of grass like royalty, his tail twitching just slightly with every breath. Charm, naturally, has taken up three times more space than necessary, sprawled on the warm sand with its tail coiled protectively over a cache of shiny rocks itâs deemed treasure.
You hear the sound of boots on stone before you see anyone. Lando spots them first, narrowing his eyes with a playful squint as he shades his brow with one hand. âVisitors,â he says gruffly. âSeems like Georgie brought backup, too.âÂ
You squint into the sunlight. Sure enough, George is descending the winding path toward the cove, his coat slightly windswept and dusty. Two unfamiliar figures flank him. The first is tall and curly-haired, all effortless charm and sun-bright confidence, with a grin that suggests mischief is a part of his daily routine. The second is buffer, paler, with the kind of stare that reads through your thoughts like an open book and dares you to lie.
George raises a hand in greeting. âHope Iâm not intruding.â
âYou? Always,â you call back wryly, âbut weâre learning to live with disappointment.â
Lando chuckles beside you, nudging your shoulder. âBe nice, honey. Heâs technically a guest.â
âTechnically,â you repeat with a smirk.
Introductions come easily enough. George gestures to his team. âThis is Isack,â he says about the buff one. âHeâs studying diplomacy, unfortunately. And this is Kimi. Heâs mostly here to make sure Isack doesnât start a war with a smile.â
Isack grins like heâs absolutely going to start a war with a smile. âSo youâre the dragon tamer turned almost-traitor turned academy assistant,â he says without preamble.Â
âOnly on weekdays,â you reply. âWeekends, I moonlight as Landoâs handler.â
Lando slips an arm around your waist with absolutely no shame. âShe means to say wife,â he says, as if itâs a title heâs been dying to throw around.
You elbow him, though itâs half-hearted. âWife-to-be,â you amend.Â
âStill counts.â
Kimi arches a brow. âMarriage of political convenience?â
You pretend to think about it. âSomething like that,â you scoff. âHe offered a dragon, a roof over my head, and a lifetime supply of sarcastic commentary. I figured, why not?â
âExcuse you,â Lando cuts in, clearly wounded. âI also offer excellent foot rubs, dramatic sky picnics, and weekly serenades Lucky tries to sleep through.â
âHe does,â you admit fondly, glancing at your fiance sideways. âHeâs very committed to the theatrics.â
Charm lets out a low, pleased trill like itâs claiming credit for all of it. Lucky, not one to be outdone, lets loose a sharp, melodic whistle before flopping over and pretending he doesn't care.
Kimi watches the dragons with a thoughtful expression. You get the sense heâs taking notes, mental or otherwise. Isack, meanwhile, points to the gleam at your hip. âNo ring?â
You draw your hand to the sword sheathed at your side, the hilt polished and gleaming under the afternoon sun. âFormulae tradition. We carry what protects us, not what decorates us.â
âRomantic,â Kimi deadpans.
âIt is,â Lando says without missing a beat. He looks at you with something soft and secretive. âJust not in the way youâd expect.â
George sighs with the long-suffering air of a man whoâs endured one too many of your shared jokes. âYou two are insufferable.â
âAnd you,â Lando replies, already grinning, âneed to get laid.âÂ
You laugh as George sputters excuses. You lean your head against Landoâs shoulder, letting his warmth soak into your skin. The sea laps gently at the shore, rhythm steady and sure. Charm shuffles in the sand, tucking one wing over its back. Lucky yawns, baring rows of sharp teeth and letting out a soft whuff that ruffles your hair.
Georgeâs diplomatic mission is quick and efficient. Isack and Kimi are already leagues better than you could ever be for the island that you left behind. You and Lando stand on the dock, waving them off as they sail back home.Â
You and Lando donât speak for a while after the ship vanishes behind the curve of the horizon. The silence isnât heavy; it settles between you like a familiar cloak, worn soft over time. He wraps his arms around you from behind, chin resting lightly on your shoulder. The wind plays with the ends of your hair.
âSo,â your husband-to-be murmurs, âthink theyâll be fine?â
âTheyâll be alright,â you say, hand resting over his. âGeorge knows how to pick his battles. And his people.â
Lando hums his agreement, the sound low and content. You both stay like that, looking out over the water, until the clouds break just enough to spill a swath of golden light across the sea.
Behind you, the dragons stir. Charm rolls dramatically onto its back, demanding attention. Lucky stretches his wings, letting out a soft croon as he ambles toward the edge of the cove, eyes fixed on the sun.
You turn in Landoâs arms and rest your forehead against his. âYou know,â you say, voice low, âwe could leave the academy. Disappear into the mountains. Or the coast. Raise baby dragons. Raise hell.â
He grins like you just handed him the world. âTempting. But youâd miss bossing the recruits around.â
âNot if I get to boss you around instead.â
He laughs, full and warm. âDeal.â
The sun dips lower, brushing the sky in hues of apricot and rose. You walk back up the slope together, his fingers laced with yours, the path dappled with shadows of swaying grass and flickering dragon wings.
Back in the cove, Landoâs sketchbook lies open on one of the rocks. Half-full and smudged. The charcoal, catching every line of movement like wind caught in a sail. Lando picks it up and goes back to what heâd been doing before being interrupted.Â
His fingers move slower now. More sure. The page in front of him is almost finished. A dragon perched on the lip of a cliff, wings furled tight, gaze locked on something unseen. The figure beside it is small, hooded, posture unyielding.
âYou made me look brooding,â you complain as you lean down to peer at the parchment.Â
âYou are brooding,â he replies without looking up.Â
âIâm thoughtful.âÂ
âYouâre a menace,â he says fondly, âbut I like drawing you like this. The still moments.âÂ
You donât have anything to say to that.Â
You just drop down beside Lando, shoulder against his, engagement sword clanking on the stone floor. The warm hush of almost-summer settles into your bones as you stare at his sketches.Â
The drawing really does look like you. Not in the features, but in the way the figure is braced for something, even at rest. Itâs a piece of you, the way he sees you. You wonder, briefly, if you will always have fire and war in your veins.Â
But then Lando draws a clumsy, anatomically incorrect heart right next to his charcoal version of you, and you know youâre more than grief and fight.Â
Youâre love, too.Â
Youâre loved.Â
âYou do that all the time,â you say affectionately, resting your cheek against Landoâs shoulder.Â
He smiles and leans in close, as if heâs about to tell you a secret.
âIâve done it since the very first one.â â
I hate when I'm reading fanfics, like already blushing n all, then I remember it's not actually real??? Like bitch wdym I'm not a witch in my 7th year at Hogwarts?đ
sometimes i wonder how it must feel to be logan sargeant. you grow up across europe and make friends with one of the only other kids there who understands how it feels to be oceans away from home. you fight each other for championships. you lose. you get to the highest category of motorsport in the same year. you're stuck in a losing car while you watch him get his first podiums. his first win. you crash and it's not a blaze of glory, it's not anything but the sinking knowledge your time is up. you have to leave.
then he wins a world championship. and you test an indycar in your home country and you do so so well, but it's never good enough, is it? and your fellow floridian is there in indycar, too. you fish together underneath the blazing florida sun. it's the only time you get to compete on his level.
and the next season starts, and you pull out of the series you were supposed to race in. you don't really ever say why. and the kid you were foreigners alongside is now foreign to you and far from you. he's leading championships, he's fighting for wins and for glory and for everything you've dreamed of. and your friend from back home is winning, too--only one of two winners in his season so far. he's got three wins and third place in the championship.
how long ago was it that you were doing that too? do you even remember how it feels?
and you're happy for them, you are. but it's june and you're in florida and the ache stings like your weary skin left under the sun too long. you're probably tired.
One of the things that kills me about Loganâs time at Williams is that so many people were underestimating Alex and calling him a mid tier driver which made Logan look even worse and now that Alex is performing better than Sainz (8th in the standings compared to 13th with 30 points between them) people are realizing how good he is but not reevaluating how good Logan was and I wonder how different the perception would have been if people really understood
Logan was never a bad driver, he was a mid tier driver in a shitty car with a shitty team who probably would have improved so much if he had just had the support he needed
When your mother and uncle, who can barely exist in each other's presence, pretend to be civil because it's Christmas, lunch is almost ready, and it's time for the child's recital
in motion /// oscar piastri x reader /// a college hockey x f1 au
Oscarâs a certified hockey prodigy, and the new kid on the block. Youâre the adopted best friend of his new hockey team. You take it upon yourself to make him feel welcome. What could possibly go wrong?
all chapter titles (and fic title) from various songs from âwhen facing the things we turn away fromâ by Luke Hemmings
COMPLETED 6/14/2024
Chapters
1. Starting Line: moving in, family dinner, and the first game of the season.
2. Change Of Heart: Max Verstappenâs Pizza Theory, breakfast for dinner, and an attempt at a passing grade in physics
3. Losing The Dream: a walk in near the park, a surprising team photo, and the semester comes to a close.
Winter Break: A social media au/ blurb bonus part!
4. Baby Blue: a very bad snowstorm, bears in the ice hockey arena, and a one night only poster board pick-me-up.
5. Take Bloom: one plane ride, a little sunburn, and far too many margaritas to count.
6. Back To Course: a museum visit, one far too observant teammate, and the beginning of the end of hockey season.
Pre Playoff Pandemonium: social media au blurb! you land a relationship, max and lando launch an investigation
7. On My Way: a hockey watch party, one last data point for the pizza theory, and one last chance at the national title.
Celebrations: some celebratory social media posts, and a peek at life for you and Oscar
8. All Here, In Color: end of semester celebrations, graduation shenanigans, and the final family dinner of the year.
hey.. can you.. idk.. add another part.. please.. I yearn for more đđ Maybe some extra blurbs too just anything to fill the void in my heart đ„č
r/aita · @awenthealchemist asked, âaita (m24) for constantly avoiding my coworker because iâm (hopelessly) in love with them?â & @landoscarino asked, âaita (m24) for being so emotionally constipated that i made my coworker think i hate her because i canât function properly when sheâs around?â
êź starring: oscar piastri x mclaren mechanic!reader.
êź word count: 5.3k.
êź includes: romance, humor, teensy bit of angst. mention of food; profanity. oscar is so emotionally constipated itâs absurd, idiots in love, miscommunication. title from nedâs declassified school survival guide.
êź commentary box: this was initially supposed to just be a ha-ha funny fic (as evidenced by the title!!!) but uhhh. this oscar pic hit my timeline and the prospect of a little angst became a little tew good,, the fact that oscar got two requests of this nature is very telling :D đŠđČ đŠđđŹđđđ«đ„đąđŹđ
GUIDE TO: TALKING TO YOUR CRUSH.
Step one: Donât be weird about it.
Oscar fails this step almost immediately.
Youâre standing by the garage bench, sleeves rolled up, elbow-deep in telemetry notes and gearbox data. Thereâs a smudge of grease near your jawlineâa perfect crescent moon of imperfection that Oscar wants very badly to ignore and also memorize forever. His first coherent thought upon walking in is that the lighting is unfair. Too cinematic. The way the fluorescents hit your skin makes this look like the opening scene of a doomed romance.
He clears his throat. Thatâs a thing people do when they want to talk. Right?
You glance up. âMorning, Oscar,â you greet. âCarâs ready for install checks. We made a few minor tweaks on the rear wing.â
Professional. Efficient. Like this is your actual job or something. It is. Oscar nods too quickly. âCool. Great. Rear wing. My favorite part of the car.â
What?
âRight,â you say after a momentâs pause. âWell, weâve adjusted the flap angle slightly. Should help with balance into Turn 12.â
âYep. Downforce. Love that stuff. Big fan.â
Step two: Form actual sentences.
He tries again. âI mean, yeah, thatâsâthat sounds good. Smart. Like you. Not that I think about you being smart. I mean, obviously, you are, thatâs why you work here. With me. I mean, not with me, with me. Just⊠adjacent. Garage-adjacent."
You stare at him.
Step three: Pull the emergency eject before you combust.
âAnyway,â he says, voice cracking like heâs fourteen again, âIâll just go⊠check the tire blankets.â
He doesnât even know where the tire blankets are. To top it all off, he spins too fast and knocks his elbow against the table. The telemetry tablet wobbles. You reach out, stabilizing it with reflexes honed over years of high-stakes pit work.
âCareful.â Your voice is neutral, but your brow twitches. Confused, maybe. Or mildly concerned. Youâre not used to seeing Oscar flustered. No one is. Heâs known for being unshakably calm. Cool. Tactical, even.
Except around you.
Around you, he forgets how to be human.
He ducks his head and mutters something vaguely apology-shaped before disappearing behind a stack of Pirellis. Once hidden, he presses the back of his hand to his forehead like a fainting Victorian heroine.
Step four: Get it together.
Heâs been telling himself for months now that he can handle this. That youâre just a coworker. That itâs fine if his pulse races when you say his name, or if he finds himself inventing excuses to linger near your workstation. Heâs an F1 driver. He can do impossible things at 300kph. Surely he can speak to you like a normal person.
But then you smile at him. Or call him mate in that easy way that suggests you donât think twice about it. That you donât know what it does to him. And Oscar just short-circuits.
He peeks around the corner. Youâre already back to work, focused and capable and utterly out of his league.
Step five: Try again tomorrow.
GUIDE TO: HAVING DINNER WITH YOUR CRUSH.
Step one: Itâs not a date. Repeat that. Out loud, if necessary.
Oscar repeats it three times in the mirror before leaving his hotel room. âNot a date. Not a date. Team dinner. Totally normal. Totally fine.â
He still changes his shirt twice.
The restaurant is one of those trendy-but-trying-not-to-look-trendy types. Ambient lighting. Concrete floors. Eucalyptus in glass jars. Half the grid has probably eaten here before a photoshoot. But tonight, itâs just McLarenâengineers, mechanics, and the drivers who secured a front row lockout. A reason to celebrate.
Oscar usually doesnât come to these. Heâs good at the post-race Irish exit. Ghosts away after media, catches up on debriefs, crashes early. Heâs got his routines. But then he heard you were coming.
So.
Now heâs here.
And youâre across the table. Not directlyâthank Godâbut diagonally enough that he can see you without making it obvious. (Itâs not working. Heâs being obvious.)
Youâre laughing. The real kind, not the polite kind people do when someone from aero makes a weird joke. Youâre talking to one of the tyre techs, relaxed, shoulders loose, sipping from a glass of white wine like you havenât spent the entire week elbow-deep in machinery.
Oscar can hear the way you say âbrilliantâ with that low, amused lilt. It hits him somewhere soft and stupid.
Step two: Do not stare.
Heâs staring when you glance over. Just a flicker, like you felt him looking. Your eyes meet his.
Oscar immediately looks down at his menu like it personally offended him. âThey have food,â he mumbles to no one in particular.Â
He hears Lando snort beside him. âOf course they have food,â the Brit huffs. âItâs a bloody restaurant. What were you expecting?âÂ
Oscar kicks him under the table. Misses. Hits the table leg.
Step three: If youâre going to suffer, suffer discreetly.
The food comes. Oscar picks at his. Conversation floats around him in waves. Banter, stories from pit wall chaos, someone making a joke about Zakâs karaoke voice. He hears you again before he sees you: a low, amused hum, your elbow lightly nudging someoneâs arm as you tell a story.
Youâre magnetic without trying. You talk with your hands. You tip your head when you listen. When you laugh, Oscar feels it in his molars.
It should be illegal.
Then the check comes.
âWe splitting this or what?â someone asks.
Oscar, caught mid-thought (the thought was âwhat would happen if I accidentally knocked over this glass of water and needed someone to help clean it upâ), says without thinking, âI got it.âÂ
Thereâs a brief silence. Then a round of delighted surprise:
âWeâve got a big spender over here!â
âP1 perks, huh?â
âLook at our golden boy!â
Oscar wants to crawl under the table. âI didnât meanâI just meantâitâs not a big deal,â he protests weakly as he scrambles for his wallet. âI can afford dinner. Occasionally. Once a fiscal quarter.â
Lando claps him on the back. âGenerous king.â
Oscar groans, fishing out his card, muttering something about regret and financial ruin. But then you stand. Shrug into your jacket. You touch the back of his chair as you pass, a gesture so casual it might not mean anything, and say, soft and warm: âThanks, Oscar. That was really sweet of you.â
You smile.
And Oscar?
Step four: Die quietly.
He watches you walk toward the door, your voice joining the others as the team filters out into the night. The air smells like grilled steak and good wine. Lando says something else, probably teasing, but it doesnât register. Oscarâs still frozen in place.
He tucks your thank-you away like a note in his back pocket. Something small. Something priceless. Something thatâs just his.
GUIDE TO: CELEBRATING YOUR CRUSHâS BIRTHDAY.
Step one: Arrive at the garage like itâs any other Friday. Practice sessions ahead. Tyres to scrub. Data to collect. Emotionally perilous scenarios to avoid.
âDid you sign the card?â
Oscarâs brows furrow. The engineer in front of him is grinning like he knows something Oscar doesnât. Which, clearly, he does. âWhat card?â Oscar asks.Â
âFor her birthday. Come on, mate, thereâs cupcakes in the sim room and a paper crown someone stole from hospitality.â
Step two: Panic.Â
Birthday. Your birthday.
How had he not known? Had it come up and he justâblanked? Had he repressed it, maybe, in some strange bid for self-preservation? Was he supposed to know? Was this a fireable offense?
He drifts toward the sim room, trying to play it cool. (He is not playing it cool.) A few crew members shout greetings to you. One even sings. You laugh, tucked half over your laptop, pen behind your ear, and it does something violent to his chest.
You look good. You always look good. Itâs unfair, really. Something about the daylight against your cheekbone, the way your smile tugs to the side when youâre caught off guard. Oscar catalogues these moments in real time, all while internally spiraling.
Then someone asks if anyone has a lighter.
Someone else says, âOscar, didnât you say youâd pay for the cake?â
He feels his brain fizzle like a light bulb. This happens a lot around you, apparently. âI did?â
âYou did. Earlier,â one of them mechanics notes. âVery loudly, in fact.â
He had blacked out, clearly, and now everyone is looking at him with the coercive energy of people who know he canât say no. Thatâs how Oscar ends up standing in the center of the garage, clutching a cake topped with flickering candles like itâs a live bomb.
Youâre pulled away from your work and corralled into a semicircle of clapping and whistling. You look bewildered but amused, and then your gaze lands on him. Oscar almost drops the cake heâs apparently footing the bill for.
You smile. Gently. Kindly. Like you donât notice the way heâs standing too straight, too still. Like he isnât seconds from combusting.
You blow the candles out in one breath.
The crew cheers. Oscar exhales.
Step three: Try to recover from Step two.
Later, in a lull between tire tests and telemetry readouts, you find him by the stacks of unused slicks. Youâre still in your overalls, arms crossed, expression soft. âThanks for the cake,â you say.
Oscar shrugs, one shoulder up, eyes flicking away. âWasnât a big deal.â
âStill. It was nice.â
âYeah, well. People like cake.â
There is a beat of silence. You nod. Not hurt, exactly. Justâpulling back. Stepping away from the space between you like it doesnât belong to you both.
âRight. See you at briefing,â you say with a half-wave thatâs pitifully awkward.Â
Oscar watches you leave. Feels the quiet settle like dust. He wonders if there was a better version of that conversation in a parallel universe. One where he said something funny. Or sincere. Or even just not dumb.
Step four: Contemplate the merits of baking lessons and time machines.
Both feel equally out of reach.
GUIDE TO: TELLING YOUR CRUSH YOU LIKE THEM.
Here is where the steps fall apart.
Where the feelings overtake, trying to squeeze in some nonexistent gap. Where everything that could be doesnât quite cover for everything that is.Â
Here is the thing Oscar Piastri will never say out loud, not to his engineer, not to Lando, not even to the digital diary he sometimes keeps on long-haul flights when no one else is awake: he is having the most emotionally taxing race weekend of his life.
Because of you.
Because you smiled at him on Thursday morning like nothingâs wrong, like he didnât all but flee the birthday conversation two weeks ago with the grace of a malfunctioning espresso machine. Because you handed him a tablet during FP1 with your usual gentle efficiency, your fingers brushing his for half a second, and he forgot every single line item on the run plan. Because he cannot focus, not when youâre around the car, around him, around.
Heâs been trying to keep his head down. Driving smooth. Avoiding Landoâs sideways glances and Andreaâs knowing comments. But heâs a little haunted this weekend. Haunted by the way your laugh travels across the garage. Haunted by the suspicion that this whole crush thing might be undoing him in ways telemetry will never explain.
It bleeds into everything.
He takes corners with the kind of deliberation that feels almost holy. He treats the car like something sacredâlike itâs borrowed, like it matters. Like if he takes care of it well enough, it might return the favor. Maybe he thinks if he drives beautifully enough, you might look at him and see more than a stammer and an awkward joke about tire deg.
Heâs not proud of it, but he does glance at the pit wall. During pit entry, during yellow flags, during brief moments when the world slows just enough to allow him a glimpse. Youâre always focused, always impossible. You never notice him looking, which is probably why he keeps doing it.
Qualifying is a blur. He finishes P1.
P1.
He can barely hear his own breath for how loud everything is. The crowd, the crew, the cheer that rips through the garage like lightning. All he can think about is how you donât look surprised. He catches itâbarelyâa flicker of calm satisfaction in your eyes, like you always knew he had it in him. Like it was inevitable.
They take photos of him, hands braced against the halo, head bowed like heâs praying.
He is.
Not to the gods. Not to the MCL39. But to the parts you touched. The bolts you torqued. The wings you adjusted. This ridiculous machine he fell in love with, because falling for the person who builds it felt impossible.
He can love the car, love the process, love the speed. He can show love to everything but the hands that build him up for failure and success.
You beat him to it. âNice one, Piastri,â you say, soft and sure. Your voice is his favorite post-session sound.
And he justâblanks. All he says is, âWasnât bad,â like a fool. Like a man who just won pole and still canât summon the courage to say, I like you. I like you so much itâs inconveniencing me.
You nod, faint smile flickering. Then someone calls your name and youâre gone again, swallowed by tire blankets and telemetry screens and the rest of your life that doesnât include him.
Oscar exhales. Presses his palms back to the car. Prays again, maybe.
Or just thinks of you. Nowadays, they feel a lot like the same thing.Â
GUIDE TO: NOT GETTING JEALOUS OVER YOUR CRUSH.
The thing about emotional maturity, Oscar thinks, is that it always sounds like a good idea until you actually have to practice it. Like yoga, or flossing. Or staying calm when the person you like is laughing with your teammate in a corner of hospitality like she didnât just cause you to nearly fumble a front wing this morning with one offhanded smile.
He tells himself itâs fine. He tells himself distance is good. Necessary, even. Heâs tried talking to you. Tried the whole dinner thing. The birthday fiasco. And after all that? Still pathetically infatuated. Maybe this new strategy is the answer. Avoidance, detachment, sheer willpower.Â
So far, itâs been working. Heâs been diligent. Professional. Leaves the room when you enter, pretends to be very busy with tire data when your voice floats too close. Rewires his brain to treat you like an ambient noise: the quiet whirr of a fan, or the distant hum of the garage. Background.
Itâs working until it isnât.
Itâs a humid Thursday afternoon in Barcelona. The whole team has gathered in the McLaren hospitality unit. Engineers swapping notes, marketing handing out itineraries, Lando dramatically recounting some dinner party in Ibiza like heâs auditioning for a reality show. Youâre there too, sitting with one knee pulled up in your chair, giggling over Landoâs animated storytelling.
Oscar should look away. He tries. But then you say something, and Lando bursts out laughing, and the two of you lean close in that way people do when they share some unspoken shorthand. Oscar feels it again, then. That thing heâs been pretending doesnât live under his ribs.
Someone teases, âYou two should start a podcast or something. Oscarâs missing out.â
And Oscarâlike an idiot, like a boy whoâs forgotten every chapter of his own guideâsays, with a half-laugh and a mouth moving faster than his brain: âNah, theyâve got the flirting covered without me.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. The one that feels like a collectively sharp inhale, like a breath being held, as Oscar realizes this may not have been his best moment.Â
Lando raises his eyebrows. Someone coughs. Your eyes shift, and Oscar catches itâthe flicker of surprise, the hint of hurt. It hits him square in the chest. âI was joking,â he says quickly, forcing a laugh. âKidding. Just tired. Jet lag or whatever.â
You give him a small smile, the kind that doesnât reach your eyes. Then you excuse yourself, something about checking telemetry. Your chair scrapes softly against the floor. The room breathes again.
Oscar wants to disappear.
Later, he corners Lando by the espresso machine.
âHey,â he starts, voice low. âAbout earlierâsorry. That wasnât about you.â
Lando sips his coffee, tilts his head. âYou sure? âCause it sure felt that way.âÂ
âIt wasnât,â Oscar says again, firmer now. âYouâre not the problem.â
Lando looks at him for a moment. Then shrugs. âIâm not the person you should be apologizing to.âÂ
Oscar rubs a hand over his face. âYeah. I know. I justââ
He breaks off. His throat is dry. Lando watches him. Patient. Curious. This is how Oscar knows things are particularly bad; when even Lando can clock his shit, then the world must truly be ending in some bird-flapping-its-wings-over-in-Asia way.Â
Oscar exhales, then mutters, more to himself than anyone else, âCan you keep a secret?â
GUIDE TO: ASKING YOUR CRUSH OUT (WITH ADVICE FROM LANDO NORRIS).
The only step: Catch her when sheâs not holding a wrench.
Oscar thinks this around the same time you duck out from under the chassis, motor oil on your sleeve and a very specific look on your face. Not annoyed. Not exactly. Just very focused. Which, for some reason, is even more intimidating.
âHey,â he starts, already flinching at how loud it sounds in the garage. âI, uh. Was wondering if you maybe wanted to grab a coffee later?â
You look up, eyes narrowed in a scrutinizing way, before gesturing vaguely to the side pod thatâs still half off. âKinda in the middle of something,â you answer, tone a touch clipped.Â
Right. Free practice. The clipped barrier. The unscheduled hands-on aftermath of a momentâs lapse.
âRight,â he echoes, because repetition is his only coping mechanism. âNo, yeah. Obviously. Justâlater? Not like. A date. Or, I meanâunless you want. Itâs fine. I wasnât planning anything major.â
You stare at him for a second longer than he can reasonably survive. Then you sigh and nod toward hospitality. âYou want coffee? We can do that. Ten minutes.â
He shouldnât feel winded by that. But he is.
The McLaren hospitality is empty enough to echo. Late afternoon sun flares in from the side windows, painting long, golden lines across the table where Oscar sits stiffly, gripping a branded paper cup.
Youâre seated across from him, still in uniform. Still with a faint smudge of something along your jaw. He doesnât point it out.
You take a sip. He takes a sip. There is sipping.
âThis is weird,â you say after a moment, not unkindly. âYou donât usually do this.â
He raises his shoulders in a shrug. âI could surprise you.â
You lift an eyebrow. âThis wouldnât happen to be about that thing you said last week, would it?â
The jab. The Lando thing. Oscar nearly drops his cup, swallows hard, grasps at straws. âYeah. No. I meanâyeah. Iâm sorry. For that. It was⊠dumb.â
You watch him, quiet.
âI didnât mean it the way it came out,â he adds. âIt was more about me than it was about you. Or Lando.â
You nod slowly. Then tilt your head. âItâs alright. Iâve heard worse.â
That should make him feel better. It doesnât. You finish your coffee in one long sip. The silence creaks. âWell,â you say, standing, âif this was HR-mandated bonding time, I hope you got to check it off your list.â
Oscarâs stomach sinks. âWhat?â
You offer him a smile. Tight-lipped. Cordial. Evasive in that already-halfway-out-of-the-door way. âNothing. Thanks for the coffee.â
And then youâre gone, leaving behind the faint scent of motor oil and roast beans, and Oscar sitting in a chair that suddenly feels much too big. He stares down at his hands.
No matter how bad he thought that might go, it still went worse.
GUIDE TO: COMFORTING YOUR CRUSH ON A BAD DAY.
Itâs a shit weekend, full stop. The kind thereâs no guide for.
The rain is unpredictable, the carâs balance is off, and Oscar ends up P17 in qualifying after a messy stint that leaves his engineers speaking in apologetic tones and his helmet visor fogged from the inside out. The debriefs go long, too long, and he peels his race suit down to his waist as he stalks through the garage, feeling every part of his body buzz with the kind of frustration that hums in his bones.
Heâs halfway to the motorhome when he sees you.
Youâre tucked behind some crates near the back of the McLaren garage. Your shoulders are hunched, your head bowed. Thereâs the unmistakable tremble of someone trying not to cry. It makes him stop cold.
He wants to back away, pretend he didnât see anything. But heâs rooted. And then he pads over slowly, careful not to startle you. You hear him anyway, looking up too fast, wiping at your eyes in a quick, practiced motion.
âSorry,â you mumble, eyes already flicking away. âJust needed a minute.â
He doesnât say anything, just slides down to sit next to you. He pulls a handkerchief out of his pocket. He never means to carry one, but his mum insisted he keep one during his rookie year and now itâs a habit. He offers it to you without a word.
You glance at it, then him. Then take it.
The silence that stretches out isnât awkward. Itâs something gentler. Steadier. The muted thrum of activity around the paddock feels distant from this makeshift alcove. You cry, not heavily, but enough for it to stretch. He stays.
When the tears subside, you laugh a little under your breath. âBet this is the last thing you need,â you say, voice watery around the edges. You say it like itâs a joke, except itâs not really.Â
Oscar blinks. âWhat?â
You huff out a breath too brittle to be a laugh. Thereâs something tired in your eyes, but also wry. âOscar, you avoid me like Iâm contagious. You barely talk to me. You make digs about me and Lando, remember? The dinner thing? My birthday?â You shrug. âItâs fine, really. You donât have to explain. You canât be expected to like all of your co-workers.âÂ
He opens his mouth. Then closes it. He feels like heâs back in boarding school again. Clumsy. Helpless. Trying to solve a maths problem with the wrong equation.Â
The words donât come right. They never do when they matter most.
You smile softly, a little sad. âWe probably couldâve been good friends,â you say, and somehow thatâs the shittiest thing about all of this.Â
You stand before he can figure out what to say, his handkerchief balled in your fist. âThanks for this, though,â you say. âFor staying.â
You leave. Oscar stays, hands limp in his lap, wrinkled from the type of day heâs needed to weather.Â
Rain taps against the metal siding of the garage. For once, he doesnât know what part of him feels more soaked: his suit, or the inside of his chest.Â
GUIDE TO: CONVINCING YOUR CRUSH TO STAY.
Oscar is riding a high. P17 to P1 is the kind of miracle they talk about in the Bible.Â
His visor is still flecked with champagne spray, a towel around his neck, every other teammate slapping his back with unfiltered elation. He grins for photos with the trophy and McLarenâs social media team, answers questions at the press pen with a string of rehearsed lines, all while his brain starts drifting somewhere else entirely.
âThe car was good,â he tells everyone, in different variations. The car was perfect. The car was flawless. The car was the best itâs ever been. Underneath it all, he is saying thank you, thank you, thank you to the crew. To you. To the extra work you put in to make sure he could make this impossible comeback.Â
He doesnât clock your absence until the cool-down lap is long over. Thereâs no familiar click of your boots in the garage, no sharp clap on his shoulder, no dry comment about how he took that one apex like a cocky bastard. No handoff of telemetry sheets. No nods between you and the race engineers. Usually, youâre grumbling about how long podium ceremonies take, arms crossed and grease still on your collar. But nowânow youâre just not.
He overhears it from Paul. Offhand, casual. Itâs not even directed at Oscar. Itâs a piece of information passed on to some intern, and Oscar just so happens to be passing by when he catches your name and hears, âBit of a shame sheâs moving to Landoâs side by the next race.â
Oscar stops walking mid-step.
His towel slips off his neck and hits the floor with a wet, forgotten thump.
He finds you in the shadowed end of the motorhome, half-tucked behind a storage shelf, clipboard in one hand and scribbling notes while half-listening to someone from logistics. Thereâs a pen behind your ear. Your brow is furrowed in that way that means youâre troubleshooting something in real time. You look like you built the whole operation from scratch. Today, you probably did.
When you notice him, you straighten, expression unreadable. âCongrats,â you say. âP1. Smooth drive.â
âYouâre transferring to Landoâs pit crew?â he blurts out, voice just a touch too sharp.
The logistics person excuses themself and hurries off. Rumors of Oscarâs feelings towards you have been greatly exaggerated, and it irks him more than he cares to admit. Even more than you coolly saying, âYeah. Guess you heard.â
âWhy?â
âJust felt like a change.â
Itâs meant to come off light. Detached. It doesnât. Not to him.
Oscar doesnât believe it for a second. Not when the car felt like it had been designed to read his mind. Not when every corner today had felt like grace. Not when he could feel your work in every single turn.
He says your name like it means something. (It does.)
You look away, your gaze catching on something behind him. âYou made it clear you didnât want me around,â you say. âI figured itâd be easier for everyone if I just... moved.â
Oscar exhales. He wants to pace. He wants to grab you by the shoulders and shake you. He wants to review every stupid mental guide heâs made insofar and chart where it all went to shit.
Instead, he starts talking. Or ratherâhe starts panicking, but with words.
âGod, thatâs not true. Thatâs completely wrong. I havenât hated you. I havenât even come close. Iâveââ He stops, shakes his head, tries again. Tries harder. âIâve liked you. I like you. Like, a lot. Too much. To the point where I could barely function normally. So I avoided you, or made some idiotic joke, or froze. I thought I was hiding it. But apparently I just came off like a complete asshole. I didnât want you to know because I didnât want to make things weird. It got fucking weird anyway. And now you think I hate you, which is justââ He gestures, helplessly. âItâs backwards. All of it.â
He finally stops, chest rising and falling like heâs just come out of the car again.
Silence follows. Heavy and exposed.
You stare at him. Your mouth parts slightly, but you donât speak right away. When your words finally form, your voice is rough with disbelief. âYou have a weird way of showing you like me.âÂ
He laughs deliriously, his hands dropping to his sides. âYeah. I know.â
You shift your weight. And then, a little quieter, a little less sure: âI wasnât exactly straightforward either.â
Oscarâs eyes snap to your face. Thereâs an uncharacteristic flush of red high in your cheeks. Youâre blushing. Why are you blushing?Â
âI really thought you hated me,â you admit. âSo I kept my head down. I threw myself into work. Every upgrade, every tweakâI just kept thinking, okay, maybe I canât fix whateverâs between us, but I can at least give you a good car. Something that works. Something that will get you what you want.â
Sometimes, Oscarâs sisters liked to wax poetics about âOh.â moments. Exactly like that. Capital âOâ, italicized, full stop with a period. The realizations of all realizations. Epiphanies that hit like a train. Oscar called them all hopeless romantics, but nowâ
Oh.Â
Your confession is a lot more sophisticated than his, but itâs still that. A confession. Rationale for the endless chances, the delicate smiles, the car that put him on the podium most weekends. Before he can overthink it, before he can try and consult the guides that have failed him spectacularly so far, Oscar reaches out.Â
Your hands are not soft. Theyâre rough with work. Calloused, nicked, a little stiff around the joints. Oscar loves them. Oscar loves you. Theyâre the hands that have made him, the hands that heâs thought of holding for an impossible amount of time. He should tell you that. Instead, he says:Â
âYouâre something that I want, too.âÂ
GUIDE TO: DATING YOUR MECHANIC.
Step one: Be subtle about it.Â
Oscar likes to think heâs subtle.
He likes to think heâs smooth now, too. That something about crossing that invisible threshold from oh God, I canât even look at her to I get to kiss her now!!! has imbued him with a serene sense of smugness.Â
He brings you coffee when he knows youâve been up since five. Waits for you after debriefs like it's protocol. Accidentally-on-purpose grabs your hand when you pass tools. You nudge his ankle under briefing tables. He swears you winked at him once in parc ferme, but youâve denied it. The same way you denied canceling your transfer to Landoâs pit crew because Oscar was, in fact, just someone terribly down bad for you.Â
Youâre both very professional. Very secret. Very subtle.
Everyone knows.
Oscar hears it in the way Lando coughs pointedly every time he sidles up next to you during a garage walk-through. In the way the rest of the crew suddenly finds reasons to give the two of you space at lunch. In the deadpan way Zak says, âTell your girlfriend good job on the diffuser setup,â and walks away before Oscar can sputter out a reply.
Oscar insists to Lando that itâs not a thing. âNo one thinks weâre dating,â he says one evening, the words muffled around a protein bar.
Lando doesnât look up from his phone. âMate, you smiled like it was your wedding day when she tightened your front wing.â
Oscar goes red. Deeply, irrevocably red.
Still. He likes it. The way you catch his gaze across the garage, shake your head just a little like youâre both in on a long-running bit. The way your fingers brush his when you pass him telemetry sheets. The fact that he knows youâll be there at the end of the day, leaning against the doorframe, helmet bag in hand, looking at him like heâs still something new and ridiculous and kind of wonderful.
He knows it wonât always be this easy. That the season will twist and tighten again, as it always does. That one of you will slip up eventually. That the world might want to chew on this thing that should be worshipped.
For now, Oscar will win races and kiss you behind stackable crates and pretend that no one knows youâre the heart on his sleeve.Â
He gets to call it subtle, gets to hold your hand.
And he steadfastly follows the only step that really matters: he gets to be happy. â