Bel !!

18 — She / It Honestly, just a blog for my moods n feelings as a person with BPD

[pileofthembonez]

PILE OF THEM BONEZ !!

🦴Welcome to Bels BPD blog!

🎀I’m 18 and my pronouns are She / It

🦴I am queer unlabelled and happily taken

🎀I struggle with other mental disorders and disabilities but this is specifically about my experience with BPD.

🦴This is not inherently a vent blog, however negative feelings along with triggering content may be discussed.

🎀I would prefer to not directly interact with anyone under the age of 18. So if you’re a minor please do not dm me.

🦴I will not disclose personal information so do not ask.

🎀My post are in no way a diagnostic tool, that being said I do support educated self DX.

XTRA !!

• I am autistic and my special interest is pop culture! Especially music and it’s history!

• I really enjoy thrash metal!

• I like all things pink and fluffy! Bonus if it’s my melody!

• My favourite character ever is Asuka from Neon Genesis Evangelion

• I collect records and shoes!

DNI if you are ___ !

•Homophobic

•Transphobic

•Sexist

•Ableist

•Racist

•MAP

•AAM

•Proship

•Anti Anti

•Pro ED

•Anti Recovery

•Gore blog

•Fatphobic

•Zoophile

Ultimately I cannot police who views my page but if you follow me despite being any of the above I will block you.

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Sorry, it will happen again.. :(

[pileofthembonez]

Got in a fight with my boyfriend and told him to fuck off so now he thinks what I needed was space when all I wanted was for him to comfort me but I can’t admit that because that makes me look weak. Frustrates me that he could comfort someone else but didn’t even think for a moment that might have been what I needed. I’m just left to deal with a trauma trigger on my own now.

[pileofthembonez]

Anyone know how to deal with losing an FP? I’m fucking exploding and don’t know what to do anymore.

[pileofthembonez]

I wish u the best throughout everything, as hard as it gets you can do it even if it’s days where you can’t imagine yourself going on I believe you and I can’t promise there will be better days but I will always wish for them to come to you

This is probably the nicest thing I’ve heard from someone I don’t know, thank you for that :( I am definitely trying and will keep trying as long as I can

[pileofthembonez]

I have no purpose anymore.

[bpdcrybaby213]

I have a brain disease that causes me to severely hate myself and is constantly trying to make me murder myself. Try fighting that shit all day every day. It's like having a psycho stalker you need a restraining order for, only it's yourself.

[pileofthembonez]

Splitting so violently that it’s making me physically ill. I feel as though if I don’t drastically self destruct then I am not going to survive.

[pileofthembonez]

Starting to become more and more content with being alone. I really don’t see the point in human connection anymore. If I didn’t have this dumb disorder that made me reliant on others I’d seriously be on my own forever.

[pileofthembonez]

Been in and out of episodes for the past 2 weeks I seriously can’t take this anymore someone end the misery

[pileofthembonez]

Having an FP is the worst pain anyone can ever experience. It’s having every fibre of your being and every last drop of your soul get poured into a person only to get fuck all back. No one will ever care about me as deeply as I care about them. It is truly the greatest pain in existence.

[pileofthembonez]

Every minor mistake I make just reminds me that I’m a failed attempt of a human and I shouldn’t be here at all.

[pileofthembonez]

I wish I had words to express the feelings I feel without threatening suicide. I wish I could fully explain exactly what I feel. I wish I could say something other than life is meaningless and I want to kill myself.

[cquirly2]

I’ll say things like “oh I’m just not in a good place mentally right now” like when have I ever been in a fucking good place mentally

[thiabeagoodgirl]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[pileofthembonez]

Me when I jumped from incredibly euphoric to a suicidal breakdown within 20 minutes yesterday. BPD is fucking insane. Wish I could turn this shit off.