@pimpastro you have an unrivalled ability to empathise with the downtrodden and find yourself drawn to helping them in some way; you genuinely feel accomplished and fulfilled when you aid others or ease their pain through your interference. this is the chart of a noble philanthrope who is less concerned with materialism for personal gain and more focused on the karmic sacrificial healing of others, an individual who contributes to humanity through their altruistic service.. you may find your calling in the nursing industry / therapy-related careers, or any jobs that allow you to imbue your fervent compassion into the workplace. you have a love for harmony and beauty, but you are not afraid of fighting for peace. you find it difficult to back down easily. as idealistic and vulnerable you are, you are more than familiar with adversity and grim situations. you may have experienced many restrictions in your early home life - whether financial, educational, familial or otherwise - and felt robbed of the quintessential playful, easygoing childhood many people seem to have. perhaps you had controlling or overbearing parental figures who may have subdued your enthusiasm in some way. you may have felt much resentment or envy towards those who had the simpler things in life, or who had happy-go-lucky experiences. the overall ‘timing’ off your childhood seemed off… like people weren’t quite sure when to give you the space you required and when to give you the comfort you needed; open, tolerant communication likely wasn’t a big strength of your early environment, it was more likely a bit strict or achievement-oriented. there may have been a lot of ‘unspoken’ rules in the house, for example, so you’re never quite sure what’s certain and how to directly ask for some clarification out of fear of starting conflicts or exacerbating tensions - you may worry a lot about overstepping as a result or making the wrong move, so you test the waters a lot. you’ve developed a very strong intuitive awareness over time, a psychic perception that keeps you keenly aware of emotional undercurrents in the environment, for despite the fragility and kindness you reserve for those you find deserving, you are quite cautious and nervous at times… you may have experienced brutal betrayals or rejections in the past, and these past traumas haunt you, playing out in the present, trying to warn you to be careful of who you trust. regardless, you can be impulsive or naive at times with who you give your heart to. despite all the accumulated hurt, you deeply desire an intimate, moving bond with others. you want an intense emotional connection that changes you into a better, stronger person, a firm and resolute relationship that transcends this plane and provides you with the gentle understanding you’ve always craved. there may be a struggle between the side of you that wants you to have the upper hand, remain alert and distrustful of others’ intentions vs the side of you that wants you to be vulnerable and give in to the pleasures you desire, the side of you that wants to test the loss of control. you are incredibly caring and fiercely loyal to those you love, willing to sacrifice for those you hold dear. a protective, keen friend. you have a surprisingly wise layer to you that you may or may not be aware of, an inner voice that may plague you with questions of self-doubt and criticism but also an inner parental voice that nags you to pay attention, work harder, push yourself to growth and so on. a hidden mentor, if you will, that has many experiences beared on its shoulders, making you shockingly knowledgeable of things you really shouldn’t know. this gifts you with the resourcefulness and resilience to overcome even the most complex of situations. your parents may have had a fixation on what is pragmatic, criticising you for any impractical behaviours or distractedness. you feel quite comfortable and soothed by doing 'practical’ things and probably enjoy cleaning or adding order to your chaotic life in some way, not that you’re unable to thrive on some disorder. you can be disorganised and scattered in your thinking, and this may be apparent to others, although when articulated your messages can be undeniably original and thought-provoking. regardless, you have your fair share of secrets and hidden facets. the idea of remaining hushed or private about certain things has been deeply imprinted into your psych, perhaps you found yourself at a disadvantage when oversharing, or your environment made you feel misunderstood or uncomfortable with openly sharing your thoughts and feelings. your emotions are unforgivingly intense and exaggerated, your happiness is a joyfully uplifting high, your sadness grim and gloomy. this may feel out of your control when younger, and you feel much shame and guilt in any imbalanced reactions; you are easily irritated and provoked, but clamp down on your anger as much as possible for fear of losing your cool. this suppression inevitably leads to dramatic or intense outbursts and you can be relentless when you blow up. this comes off as quite confusing to others. you dislike it when people know things about you that you didn’t give them 'permission’ to know because your privacy is incredibly important to you and a source of safety; in fact, revealing knowledge and information is a way for you to show you trust someone. your love is on a high plane, pure and unconditional in its essence, freely accessible to those you deem worthy. you love love and strongly dislike superficiality. you are kind-hearted at your core and extremely charitable and generous to those you love. you have a wise tenderness to you that knows when to be harsh if needed and when to be gentle if needed. you have a natural affinity with beauty and the arts, with an incredibly subtle yet clever approach to things. if you are involved with art, your creations can be moving, appealing and nuanced, imbued with much precision and heartfelt devotion.
