mentally ill artist

cw: 170 hw: 198 lw:165 ugw:120 gw:160

[pinata66]

I think I'ma start posting my drawings

[exhaustedborderline]

[keicalss-deactivated20220417]

i think my purpose in life is to just skip from one unhealthy coping mechanism to the next. its like fucking pokémon, gotta catch em' all

[troubledmistake]

[sle-nderman-deactivated20220517]

past few months

[pinata66]

It is so much easier to get better for someone else. I can't get well if no one cares that I'm well. I don't know how to care for myself , I want someone to care enough to tell me to stop harming myself. I can't do it for me.

[finelineborderline]

i want people to care but not too much but if they don’t care enough it triggers my fear of abandonment and rejection. i want to be alone but i want to be surrounded by people who admire me but i don’t really feel worthy of admiration. and how i can simultaneously want these things that are at opposite sides of the spectrum really just wreaks havoc on my brain

[daily-reminders-that-ur-enough]

addiction does not make someone a bad person

[pinata66]

It can make someone do bad things tho

[pinata66]

I Love getting high and losing weight . I just risk binge eating if I can't control myself when I'm high .

[mia-is-a-fuker-deactivated20230]

[us3rg1rlb0ss-deactivated2023101]

i feel sick when i remember how i opened up to you

[m-mortality-rate]

It’s hard to starve yourself when someone’s constantly shoving food in ur face and watching you eat

[pinata66]

What do you all watch or do to trigger yourself ???

[zackisontumblr]

do you ever sabotage your own free time? like wtf is that about? i want to play this game or read or do something specific but instead i will just stare out the window or scroll mindlessly???

[pinata66]

I either get so depressed where I never want to eat or so depressed all I want to do is eat

[cinnamongirlinawhitemustang]

Lying down and feeling your ribs and hip bones>>>>>>>>>>>

[faintlysufferingchaos]

Why tf do I keep telling myself it’s okay to eat like no bitch you’re fucking fat go starve 🥰