EYES DOWN / LOOK AWAY

the self which is actually seen, and the self observing that ( you've shut your eyes and turned a deaf ear to things you don't like )

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@amnesiacdreams​ || UNPROMPTED

“If I die, I’m haunting you first.” Amami joked lazily, watching the ice cubes in his water clink against the glass. There was something cathartic about joking about stuff like that, in their situation - as though if he joked about getting killed enough, it wouldn't happen. "That's a promise."

“YOU don’t have to worry about that, amami-kun.” even in his uneasiness, saihara tried to force the tiniest of smiles. a joke - that’s what this was. a joke, and he should just go along with it. agree that a ghost haunting him in a killing game would be pretty scary, and leave it at that. the single eye visible under the brim of his hat shifted its gaze to amami’s drink and lay fixed on that spot, unable to look any higher. “because it’s not going to happen. we’ll... we’ll get out of here.”

“SO... you don’t need to make morbid jokes, okay?” if akamatsu wasn’t here, then saihara had to push her promises in her stead. even if he was trying to convince himself just as much as he was trying to convince amami. but... the idea of someone coming back as a ghost, as horrible as it was, still had some level of comfort to it. “ah, though... if you could float through walls, if you died... maybe that would be useful for exploring the rest of the school. i’ll hold you to that promise. in - in the hypothetical scenario.” 

[somerabbitholes]

2.12.19 // vaguely wintery library days

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@amnesiacdreams​ || SENTENCE STARTERS [ accepting! ]

“Why are you awake right now?”

ISN’T it hypocritical of amami to ask something like that, when he’s also awake? that’s what saihara thinks, anyway, raising a hand to rub at eyes plagued by dark rings. there’s a moment where he considers ignoring amami entirely, or deflecting in an attempt to get him away. saihara doesn’t like company so much these days. at least, when there is company, it’s a choking sensation, ready to pounce on him for all the people he’d condemned to their deaths. 

BUT amami’s question is innocuous. 

“IF i could sleep, that’s what i would be doing.” but nightmares, but darkness, but the suffocating atmosphere of the room team danganronpa had given him. “why are you awake, amami-kun?” reading is too much of a bittersweet hobby, so he’s turned on a television in a room they’d been encouraged to use as a group space. it’s playing a drama that he doesn’t understand, but offers the comfort of white noise. “nightmares?”

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circumspecto‌:

   “ so, do you think you can solve this one, mr. detective? or am i going to have to pour myself a bowl of coffee? ”

   they stood in front of an empty cabinet, which was usually filled with mugs and cups of all sorts. amami didn’t think all of the school’s cupware would just go missing with no thought behind it, which meant it had to be some sort of a prank. unless the entire student body had decided to borrow one, there had to be someone pulling at the strings.

   he had stared at one student far too long than was necessary as they carried their beverage in a bowl. he guessed it was personal choice at first, until he saw other students doing the same thing. 

   amami just wanted his coffee for the morning.

THIS was... a strange kind of prank, definitely. not interesting. not good. just... strange. inconvenient. not as flashy as pranks usually are, and nobody had jumped out to claim the trickery behind this as their own, but...

“I... don’t think you need my help to pin this one on ouma-kun.” he didn’t want to think of this as a case for a detective to solve, but rather, a classmate that just needed his help. “but it bothers me that he hasn’t taken the responsibility for it. maybe he wants to be chased. that, or... it was an upperclassman.” there weren’t any with suspicious reputations... that he knew of. but it was too early to push the possibility entirely to the side. 

“WE also have to think about where they are, instead of just who did it.” if this really was the work of ouma, then saihara really didn’t feel like deal with his antics. “if we can retrieve everything, then even without knowing the culprit, you won’t have to drink coffee out of a bowl.” a pause, and then a wince. “ah, i might just be overthinking it, though. have you seen anything? i can go searching.” 

[honeyboychangbin]

Sentence Starters

“I’ve never seen one of these completely to my taste so i decided to make my own!

ANGST

“I can’t do anything right.”

“Please don’t cry.”

“Why are you awake right now?”

“Why are you lying to me?”

“Wake up! Please wake up.”

“Forget it, you’re a fucking asshole.”

“Don’t you ever do that again!”

“Is that blood?” “…..No?”

“Please don’t lie to me again, I can’t take it.”

“Do you even still love me?”

“Nobody’s seen you in days.”

“Why are you awake?”

“I’m worried about you.”

“Can you shut up for once in your life?”

“Holding everything in doesn’t help, you know.”

“Are you hurt?” “No.” “Then why are there bruises all over your face?”

“If you don’t hug me right now I think I might fall apart.”

“Leave! Me! Alone!”

FLUFF

“Go with me?” “As long as you hold my hand.”

“Is there a reason you’re blushing like that?” 

“Have you seen my hoodie?” “Nooo.” “You’re wearing it, aren’t you?”

“Have you always been this beautiful?”

“OH you’re jealous!”

“Can we stay like this forever?”

“Please just kiss me already.”

“I think you might be my soulmate.”

“Sleep over? Please?”

“Are we on a date right now?”

“I think I’m in love with you.”

“He’s so pretty I think I’m gonna faint.”

“Are you flirting with me?” “You finally noticed?”

“Am I your lockscreen?” “You weren’t supposed to see that.”

“I missed you so much.”

“Do you think the moon is jealous of how pretty you are?”

“I’m here for you.”

“I wish we could live together already.”

MISC

“All I do is drink coffee and say bad words.”

“Quit touching me, your feet are cold!”

“I think I just ripped my pants.”

“Sharing is caring, now give me the hoodie!”

“Can I pet your dog?” “Do I know you?”

“Did you seriously just get your foot stuck in a toilet?” “Maybe.”

“If I die, I’m haunting you first.”

“But I’ve never told you that before.” 

“Stop being grumpy, it’s lame.”

“So, uh, I locked the keys in the car.”

“Is the cat in a onesie?” “Uh, no?

“Can we please stop running? I think I’m dying.”

“You come here often?” “Well, I work here. So I think I’d have to say ‘yes’.”

“Aren’t we supposed to be working?”

“Give me attention.”

“YOU SAID TO BE HONEST STOP HITTING ME!”

“Okay, so maybe I didn’t see that coming.”

“I’m too sober for this.” “You don’t even drink.” “Maybe I should start.”

[mercyabove]

ability to do something that frightens one

[matamatamatata]

[izazya-inactive]

saiibo week: day 6 -  Chapter 6 / japanese traditions / children

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@amnesiacdreams​ || LEGEND OF ZELDA STARTERS (accepting!)

❝ i’m not doing anything suspicious. really! ❞

HORRID music playing over a horrid situation, saihara wonders if the countdown to monokuma killing them all for their defiance ticks as quickly as his heart. one, two, one, two, one, two - steady, unsteady, pulling at his breath, making him move just a little faster. he doesn’t know where akamatsu is, but his feet have carried him to the library, and he freezes at the sight he finds. 

“AMAMI-KUN.” breathless, but not afraid, saihara does not allow himself to turn to fear. is this it, then? they hadn’t even used the trap, but here amami is, undoubtedly headed to the secret entrance they’d found. “what are you doing?” he doesn’t want to believe it - that amami, mysterious but kind, calm and levelheaded, could possibly be the mastermind? it’s the only explanation that his mind can scramble for, but he allows a pause. he wants an explanation.

HE needs an explanation. he doesn’t want to believe it. all that he wants is for amami to provide him with reasonable excuse to be here like this. then again... can he really let this go? a pause, then a bluff, “akamatsu-san’s coming, too, and then... if you don’t explain yourself, everyone else is going to know that you’re here.” 

[edenmemes]

legend of zelda starters

❝ courage need not be remembered, for it is never forgotten. ❞

❝ you’ve met with a terrible fate, haven’t you? ❞

❝ am i so beautiful that you’ve got no words left? ❞

❝ forgive me. i’m a coward at heart. ❞ 

❝ you and i aren’t as different as we thought. ❞ 

❝ this time, we fight together. ❞ 

❝ if all else fails, use fire. ❞ 

❝ the history of light and shadow will be written in blood. ❞

❝ what makes you happy… does it make others happy, too? ❞

❝ it’s a secret to everybody. ❞

❝ do you ever feel a strange sadness as dusk falls? ❞ 

❝ tell them the war has ended. ❞ 

❝ many years ago, i felt so free… ❞ 

❝ we all deserve a happy ending, don’t we? ❞ 

❝ they were all good people…my people. ❞ 

❝ be careful about going around judging people by their appearance. ❞ 

❝ may the winds of fortune be at your back. ❞ 

❝ you have great eyes. they’re proud and wild…like a feral beast. ❞

❝ no matter what, a fake is a fake, and no matter how much you try to dress it up, the real thing always wins . ❞

❝ guess what? you got it for free. are you proud of yourself? ❞

❝ your true face… what kind of face is it? i wonder… the face under the mask… is that your true face? ❞

❝ you’re the bad guy. and when you’re bad, you just run. ❞ 

❝ you’ll come with me, won’t you? ❞

❝ this is your fate. don’t feel discouraged, even in the darkest of times. ❞ 

❝ may we meet again in another life. ❞

❝ you don’t have to look so sad. ❞

❝ everything. everything i’ve done up until now…it was all for nothing.. ❞

❝ i wonder, if you do the right thing, does it really make everyone happy? ❞

❝ whenever there is a meeting, a parting is sure to follow. ❞

❝ those who do not know the danger of wielding power will, before long, be ruled by it. ❞

❝ your friends… what kind of people are they? do these people think of you as a friend? ❞

❝ the flow of time is always cruel. ❞

❝ my bloodline endures the ravages of all the years. it survives. ❞ 

❝ the sight of your appalling hair makes my gorge rise. ❞ 

❝ we are fine here. we will greet the morning together. ❞ 

❝ i really am just a failure. ❞ 

❝ it’s dangerous to go alone. take me. ❞ 

❝ conquer yourself. ❞ 

❝ even though it was only a short time, i feel like i’ve known you forever. ❞

❝ it’s time for me to make up for my mistakes. ❞ 

❝ people are disgusting. my own father and mother are disgusting. you must be disgusting too. ❞ 

❝ there are some things in life you can’t change no matter how hard you try. ❞

❝ thought i chose the thief’s life, but it really chose me. ❞ 

❝ i’m not doing anything suspicious. really! ❞

❝ forgive your friend. ❞ 

❝ a man is an animal, too. ❞

❝ oceans…oceans…oceans as far as the eye can see. ❞

❝ heroes fade eventually but legends never die. ❞

❝ please…heal my sorrows. ❞

❝ i grant my eternal love to you. ❞

❝ he who wields such power would make a suitable king for this world, don’t you think? ❞

❝ i always believed you would come…because i know you. ❞

❝ it is destiny that you and i can’t live in the same world. ❞

❝ shadow and light are two sides of the same coin. one cannot exist without the other. ❞

❝ your slumber these past moons must have been restless and full of nightmares. ❞

❝ your gods have destroyed you. ❞

❝ your words are kind and your heart is true. ❞

❝ i believe this is what you call…happiness. ❞ 

❝ the mortal blow puts your life on the line. ❞ 

❝ your ears will bleed from the sounds of your own screams. ❞

❝ i consider the time spent with you some of the most special memories i have. ❞

❝ a sword wields no strength unless the hand that holds it has courage. ❞

❝ you fight like no man or demon i have ever known. ❞

❝ the thousand years of raindrops are my tears. ❞

❝ time passes, people move…like a river’s flow, it never ends. ❞ 

❝ it seems shadow has been moved by light. ❞

❝ the thunder that strikes the earth is my anger. ❞

❝ to tell you the truth, I’m feeling a bit frustrated, and right now I just need someone to vent to. ❞

❝ isn’t it petty? little battles like this? ❞ 

❝ wait! do not be so hasty. ❞ 

❝ a thing that does not change with time is a memory of younger days. ❞

❝ don’t ever forget me. if you do, i’ll never forgive you. ❞

❝ if it is something that can be stopped, then just try to stop it. ❞

❝ my hate never perishes. it is born anew in a cycle with no end . ❞

❝ we’ll be friends forever, won’t we? ❞

❝ do you have any idea how that made me feel inside? Furious. Outraged. ❞

❝ i’ve taken all that you had to give… though I did not want it . ❞

❝ i follow the strongest side. that is all i have ever known. ❞

❝ he wasn’t talking about strength, like lifting stuff. he was talking about being brave. ❞ 

❝ believe in your strengths. ❞

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@always-together​ || NON-VERBAL STARTERS (accepting!)

💧 

- 💧 Wipe away my muse’s tears -

“A-AH,” is what tumbles from saihara’s mouth, amidst the shaking in his shoulders. how is he... supposed to respond to this? it feels as though he should be thanking her, but the moment he opens his mouth to speak, he chokes on a sob. one dark sleeve rises to wipe at his new tears, and he tries again.

“THANK you,” he says in one moment, and, “i’m sorry,” in the next. there’s no eye contact to be seen. 

[critai]

bittersweet

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@amnesiacdreams​ || NON-VERBAL STARTERS (accepting!)

✨ from the non verbal starters it's amami time

- ✨ Playfully shove my muse’s shoulder - 

NOT often does rough play amuse saihara so, but a soft laugh bubbles in his chest at the gesture regardless. maybe because it’s amami, who’s always seemed so reliable and gentle. amami, who saihara believes has never acted out of malice towards him. it’s not like ouma, who would undoubtedly push to get a rise out of him, or momota, who he finds too rough and loud for his taste. 

“IS this how you normally treat your classmates, amami-kun?” the tease to his tone is clear. “with such... hostility?” it’s an accusation that holds no weight to it - playing along seems to be the best option. there’s only a moment’s hesitation before he reaches out and playfully shoves amami right back, albeit with less force. 

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@rosethroat​ || NON-VERBAL STARTERS (accepting!) 

😊 4 da nonverbal memes

- 😊 Sit down next to my muse -

IT isn’t as though saihara is averse to harukawa’s presence, so much as she’s surprised that she’s here at all. to be honest, he doesn’t really... like her, all that much. anyone could agree that harukawa maki is intimidating, but saihara believes that she’s downright frightening, at times. he doesn’t like her emotionless stares. he doesn’t like her blunt words. 

BUT he likes momota, and momota likes her, so saihara will hold on to momota’s belief and use it to steel himself - to keep himself from moving away from her, or otherwise making a wrong move. 

“HARUKAWA-SAN?” he’s not going to push his luck by asking why she’s chosen to sit next to him. “i think... momota-kun is somewhere else on campus, if you’re looking for him.” that’s the only link they have, after all. he can’t imagine that this is for... anything else. “i’m just reading. i haven’t seen him.” 

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@triptocaiine​ || NON-VERBAL STARTERS (accepting!) 

😢 hello it's time for teacher dad norman

- 😢Touch my muse’s shoulder while they are crying in secret -

SAIHARA startles at the touch, flinching away before he can even parse who it is, thoughts dulled by the hiccups and shudders and his best attempts to stifle the disgusting noises he’s making, the most he can do is furiously wipe at his eyes until he can see who it is. who it is that’s found him when he’d retreated from class to be alone. 

“I’M-” he starts, stumbling over the words he needs. “i’m sorry, i’m - i’m - i’m -” he stops stumbling and starts choking, breaths rattling in his chest. he can’t think. 

ONLY after his vision clears enough does he pause, stiffening with horror. momota or akamatsu, he can take - even in the humiliation of being caught like this, he knows them well enough to understand that they’ll always pass him encouragement. someone else in his class, maybe. but a teacher? it’s a special kind of fear in realizing that a teacher was the one to find him like this. 

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@wordplcyer​ || NONVERBAL RP STARTERS  (accepting!)

🤨 protagonist fight club

- 🤨 Sit down across from my muse -

ALWAYS the quiet one, saihara doesn’t make a comment, at first. one eye peeks through the brim of his hat, pulled down perfectly to obscure as much of his face as possible without hindering sight. saihara doesn’t talk to his schoolmates often, but he finds himself straightening in his seat, some form of curiosity pulling at his mind. 

“AH, himura-kun?” careful thoughts, careful words. saihara doesn’t project more than he needs to. if it’s rude to say anything now, then it’s a bit too late to take it back. 

“WHY are you here?” he’s aware that his wording is vague once the sentence leaves his mouth, but he trusts that it won’t be misinterpreted. there’s nobody else sitting by here, after all. 

[honeydewvalley]

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