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[pixelgutzbby]

UPDATED!

call me pixel

some basic info:

• 20 yrs old

• they/she/rot

• extremely mentally unwell

• neurodivergent

i'm a system, alter sign offs will go in the tags

If I've suddenly switched up, blocked you, etc, another alter did that to feel safer.

-> Alter intros can be found here

i'm pro-recovery and trying to recover atm!!

don't hit on me, only my dove gets my affection ❤️

In all honesty, I don't like referring to myself as a "yandere", I only use those tags for traction 🥹

Tags:

pixel posting 🫰 - Just regular blogging

pixel blood ♥️ - Obsessive love posts

pixelated tears ❤️‍🩹 - Vent posts

pixel after dark 🌑 - Adult posts, minors that interact will be blocked

pixel says... 💌 - Responding to asks and gimmicks

pixel tunes 🎵 - Lyric posts

More will be added as needed.

[moonlight-shadxw]

` And it was only ever

In your presence that

I've felt human .

Somewhere in the

Night sky, I search for

Your light again .

I think of eternity,

But without you,

It is nothing but

Emptiness .

[pixelgutzbby]

What's even wrong with cannibalism as long as it's consensual, like c'mon guys

[pixelgutzbby]

I miss it... where did you go? :(

(please don't be dead please don't be dead please don't be dead)

[goth-queen]

[digitalvampyr]

i’d be so good at stockholm syndrome

[pixelgutzbby]

"To love is not enough.

Desire's all the same."

Lyrics from TAKE CONTROL - LuLuYam

[psychodipshit]

jiraiblr

[pixelgutzbby]

It's sad to think about how easy I would be to hurt. Someone could kidnap me, harm me, but as long as they touched me gently and praised me, held me... I wouldn't run. I want to be special, I want to be held, I want affection, I want care, I want nothing more than to be a pet if that's what I must be.

[pixelgutzbby]

So lonely that I have a super strong urge to relapse in either SH or Chai... hgh

[pixelgutzbby]

I don't want you to be gone, is that selfish? I think I'm selfish. I don't want to lose you, I love you

this world isn't fair

[pixelgutzbby]

Why the fuck am I the bad guy for establishing boundaries? For putting my foot down? I hurt her feelings, and I wish it could have been resolved in a different way. But it seems that if I don't make it clear I CANNOT FUCKING HELP YOU, AS MUCH AS I WANT TO, I will end up right back in the position of baby sitter.

I cannot take care of kids. I cannot do it. My stress response is aggression, and I cannot risk hurting someone I love. I cannot continue to stress myself so much over this. IF I HAD TO TALK MYSELF DOWN FROM HOSPITALIZATION, THERE'S A FUCKING PROBLEM.

Eat shit. I am not the bad guy for doing my job in protecting this system.

[pixelgutzbby]

A is trying to move out with another friend, R is moving to another city with their friends, and we're just. stuck.

our sister was moved out right after high school. She had a house with her partner by now. She was married by now.

Everyone we grew up with has moved out, is going to school, is actually doing shit with their life and we're. just wasting away. if we died today, we would have nothing to show for our life other than "uhh she graduated from high school, barely". I'm so fucking sick of this I hate this place I hate this world

[pixelgutzbby]

HIHIHIHIHBI!!!! HRW?!??! ლ⁠(⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠ლ⁠) I MISSED YOU SM!!!

hiiiii we missed you toooo

we're doing pretty bad rn but it'll pass :[

[pixelgutzbby]

I have a crush on you from your blogs but im anonymous so youll never knowwww...ive never interacted with you before but just know I do <3

You're not my Dovee :((

[pixelgutzbby]

I hope they fucking die.

How dare they talk to it like that?? Threaten it??

I swear, I would butcher them like the swine they are if I could get my hands on them.

Disgusting fucks.

[pixelgutzbby]

these as inspo for one of our characters that we haven't drawn yet‼️

but in shades of yellow and brown

she has tiny little drones that she can direct to heal people, I think I could put those in a scarf she ties around her waist... they hide in the underside, and then fly out when she needs them

I'M GENIUS!!