RavenXendria

The floor felt wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no further. -Sylvia Plath.

[pixiepainless]

There was more for you than this. But who is left to show you?

- Raven Xendria.

[nightmareonjakesstreet]

Where are the drugs? I want to die "happy"

[im-sad-alright]

i can’t remember what it’s like to not feel like this.

[thepersonalquotes]

[bootlegpoem]

To be the one, to take one fresh breath of air. Letting my faith go on the line. Putting all my trust with it too. She knows how to disappear quickly when I even say one word, it’s only when she want to talk but never me.

-B.P. ❤️

[loverscallbrokenheartshome]

"Cinnamon" - Tyrell Crane

Finally back from hiatus, and super excited to share new material I've been working on for my upcoming book "Rooted to bloom". Thank you for being so patient as I continue to write and deliver my first cohesive project.

-loverscallbrokenheartshome

[loveless-poetry]

I’m too exhausted to even have it hurt anymore.

[pixiepainless]

In the choice of Heaven or Hell, you chose Hell every fucking time. Now you beg to see the snow.

- Raven Xendria.

[pixiepainless]

Once upon a time, I loved you. I haven’t for a while and I never will again, but once, only once, I needed you. And in a parallel universe, you never left. I never left. I don’t remember who really left. I don’t think we ever thought it would be the last time. I watched you growing, learning who to be. Strange, bewildering, that this is who you chose. Become what you hate the most; I never thought you would. And this is why I mourn you. I mourn the boy I knew. I mourn the girl who thought that boy would become someone other than this reflection of his scars.

- Raven Xendria.

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

you do things despite feeling afraid. you get out of bed when your mind aches. you ask for help when you need it and try not to stay inside all day. you try to talk yourself out of bad choices. you search for the good things and beauty that are hard to notice. you tell yourself that things will get better, despite feeling otherwise. you treat yourself gently, even though you’re never far from wanting to return to square one. you try your best despite feeling tired. you’ve come a long way from where you started. you want to heal and you’re getting there. that’s something to be proud of.

[pixiepainless]

Rationally Borderline

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Follow my bpd meme page: Rationally Borderline. Maybe some of the content will make your life slightly less unbearable.

[pixiepainless]

Am I okay or just numb?

Raven Xendria.

[pixiepainless]

“Here we are again, the ocean rising up above my head. I am fine. I am great. There is a weight in my chest dragging me down, down, down. But it’s no big deal. I lie in the sand and feel nothing. That’s ok. Traits of my personality fall away like the grains. That’s ok. Who am I anyway if not a fragmented shell of the girl I used to be? I’m fine, really. The salt fills my lungs, takes my air. But I’m okay. It’s getting bad again. But that’s ok. The night comes and never leaves. The ocean holds onto me. I am great. I am fine. I cannot breathe or feel or think. But that’s ok.”

— Raven Xendria.

[pixiepainless]

“Abandonment feels like abandonment, no matter what color it’s painted. A broken promise is a broken promise, whether it’s glass or stone. This is why I don’t trust people, cause I always end up alone.”

— RavenXendria

[blueblackdream]

Günter Brus, Self-Painting I, 1964

[victormalonso]

a journey towards infinity | víctor m. alonso

[goodnightsorry]

to be honest // 3.4.17