DOCTOR PLAGUE iS iN! [|87

EX-MEMBER OF DiCE . ORG WHO iS USiNG THiS SiDE BLOG TO EXPRESS EVERYTHiNG i CANNOT SAY ELSEWHERE . SiNCE THiS iS A SiDE BLOG , i CAN'T FOLLOW BACK OR LiKE POSTS BUT MY DMS & ASKS ARE ALWAYS OPEN !

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

SALUTATiONS ! HELLO , WORLD !

MY NAME iS DR . PLAGUE , BUT YOU CAN JUST REFER TO ME AS DOC OR PLAGUE OR WHATEVER YOU ' D LiKE !

i USE THEY / iT PRONOUNS ALONG WiTH ANY NEOPRONOUNS ! i LOVE NEOPRONOUNS BUT i DON ' T HAVE A SET LiST AT THE MOMENT . . . MAYBE LATER !

i USED TO BE A MEMBER OF DiCEORG AS A PRETEEN AND iT KiND OF RUiNED ME , BUT i WANT TO COPE WiTH THE TRAUMA THE BEST i CAN WiTHOUT ALERTiNG MY MAIN BLOG ' S FOLLOWERS ! ( DO NOT ASK FOR MY MAiN ! i WiLL NOT GiVE iT . . . SORRY :< ) iF YOU ARE CURiOUS ABOUT HOW MAKiNG A BLOG LiKE THiS HELPS ME , iT iS BECAUSE i KNOW THAT ME " MiSSiNG " DiCE DUE TO TRAUMATiC ATTACHMENTS iS BAD FOR ME AND COULD CAUSE ME TO SPiRAL AND DO SELF - DESTRUCTiVE THINGS , SO i USE MEMORABiLiA TO iNDULGE iN MY ATTACHMENTS WiTHOUT GETTiNG iNTO ANY DANGER ! i WOULD ALSO LiKE TO GiVE OTHERS A SPACE TO BE COMFORTABLE iF THEY HAVE EXPERiENCED SOMETHiNG SiMiLAR EVEN iF THEY WERE NOT BE HURT BY DiCEORG SPECiFiCALLY !

i AM VERY , VERY WiLLiNG TO TALK AND i WOULD LOVE TO MEET MORE PEOPLE ! i HAVE NO SET DNi , BUT i WOULD REALLYYYYYY PREFER iT iF ANY PEOPLE WHO ARE PRO - CONTACT FOR HARMFUL PARAS DO NOT iNTERACT !

THiS BLOG WiLL FEATURE ME BEiNG VERY PRONE TO VENTiNG , SO PLEASE BLOCK THE VENT TAG IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH SUCH THINGS ! i TRY TO TAG EVERYTHiNG WHEN POSSiBLE , FEEL FREE TO ASK ME TO TAG SOMETHiNG iF NEEDED ! <3

i AM A MiNOR ! i LiKE GOTHiC SCi - Fi LiTERATURE ( JEKYLL & HYDE , FRANKENSTEiN , ET CETERA ! ) AND i LiKE TO THiNK OF MYSELF AS AN ASPiRiNG MAD SCiENTiST OF SORTS! i ALSO LiKE ANiMATiON MEMES AND GACHA AND ANiMATiC STUFF ! i AM APART OF A PLURAL SYSTEM ! iF ONE OF MY ALTERS POSTS HERE , THEY WiLL BE TAGGED ACCORDiNGLY ! PROBABLY !! WE CANNOT ALWAYS TELL WHO iS WHO !!!

( PLEASE KEEP SYSCOURSE A MiLLiON FEET AWAY FROM MY BLOG ! ALONG WiTH MOST ANY DiSCOURSE ! )

i HOPE FOR THE BEST ! [|87

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Uhm hi. I know this is probably a lot to ask but is there anyway you could want to make a nother blog that talks about dice without the dice aesthetics? I really like to keep hearing you give support about this but the theme gives me flashbacks

Of course, anon! I can go make a sideblog right now. It probably won’t have much on it tonight, but I can try to add more tomorrow...this plague doctor is eepy /silly

I’ll tag that blog on this blog once I get it set up a bit

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

@plaguethedoctor here!!! Like i said, not finished yet, but I’ll get to it in a bit :3

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Uhm hi. I know this is probably a lot to ask but is there anyway you could want to make a nother blog that talks about dice without the dice aesthetics? I really like to keep hearing you give support about this but the theme gives me flashbacks

Of course, anon! I can go make a sideblog right now. It probably won’t have much on it tonight, but I can try to add more tomorrow...this plague doctor is eepy /silly

I’ll tag that blog on this blog once I get it set up a bit

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Hi, im not completely sure why im sending this, i guess i just dont have anyone who i can talk to about this - no one that can really understand atleast.

I dont even know if we've ever talked, but I was in dice and was a pretty active member back in the day. Lately I've gotten an influx of memories and ive been feeling really guilty about it - especially since, because of how young I was (9-10), I was one of the people fully brainwashed into thinking MORTiS was a god, I did everything they said or wanted people to do. I still had a few of the scars they made me do up 1-2 years ago when they fully faded. Hell, sometimes I wonder where they are or even miss them - which i know is a trauma response. I talked to them alot tho untill everything blew up and never really got closure.

Ive never looked online for other ex members untill today and now i guess im reaching out to maybe reconnect with friends i had at the time (which idk if thats possible since idk my user or remember alot from that time), or just finally process everything by talking to people who went through what I did.

Sorry for the bother.

iT ’ S OK , ANON ! i ’ M ALWAYS HERE TO TALK ABT THESE SORTS OF THiNGS AND i NEVER MiND AT ALL ! < 3

i GOT iN AROUND THE SAME AGE ( I got InvIted vIa somebody on Wattpad who was also In the Undertale communIty ) SO i GET iT . THAT WHOLE THiNG GAVE ME WEiRD PSEUDORELiGiOUS PSYCHOSiS THAT SEEPS iNTO EVERYTHiNG IN MY LiFE STiLL . i STiLL KiNDA MiSS THEM , TOO , FOR WHATEVER THAT iS WORTH.

i ALSO BLOCKED OUT A LOT OF MY MEMORiES , SO i ALSO HAVE VERYYYY SCARCE MEMORiES ABOUT THiS . i AM NOT ENTiRELY CERTAiN iF i AM RECiTiNG MY INFORMATiON CORRECTLY , BUT i THiNK MY NAMES BACK THEN MiGHT HAVE BEEN ALEX , PLAGUE , DOCTOR , OR SOMETHiNG ELSE . . . i CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT MY USERNAME MiGHT HAVE BEEN , BUT SOMETHiNG ALONG THOSE LiNES , MAYBE .

NOT SURE iF WE SPOKE BEFORE , A FEW PEOPLE HAVE ALSO CHECKED WiTH ME , BUT MY DMS AND ASKS ARE ALWAYS OPEN iF YOU WANT TO TALK !

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

CAN i VENT MORE THAN JUST ABOUT DiCEORG FOR A SEC ? iS THAT ALLOWED ?THANKS — i ONCE NEARLY TRiED TO USE ONE OF MY MOTHER ' S BELTS AS A ROPE FOR . . . WELL ! i KNOW WHAT THE WORD iS BUT IT STiLL HURTS TO VERBALLY ADMiT THAT i WAS TRYiNG TO PUT AN END TO WHAT LiTTLE OF A LiFE i WAS LiViNG . iT iS NOT A GOOD MEMORY TO LOOK BACK ON AND i HATE THiNKiNG ABOUT iT AND ugh

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

THE DOCTOR iS GONNA TAKE A MOMENT AND THEN WiLL ANSWER ALL ASKS ! iT iS SORRY FOR THE WAiT !

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

hi, i was never in diceorg and have no connection to it, but i've found it to be very interesting and i'm doing some research on what it is/was (?) and was wondering if you'd like to answer some questions i have about it. it's completely okay if you don't want to.

first, what exactly does "2051" mean? i've seen it a lot, but i haven't been able to find out if it had any specific meaning or if it was just chosen as a symbol of diceorg because it sounded cool.

second, is does dice still exist? from what i've found, it seems to be gone or at least inactive, but i've never gotten clear information on whether it's still around, and if so, so what extent.

thanks!

Hi ! i NEVER MiND THE QUESTIONS AT ALL , NO WORRIES ! ^-^

i DO HAVE DiSSOCiATiVE AMNESiA , SO SOME OF MY MEMORiES MiGHT BE A BLUR , BUT i ALWAYS TRY TO ANSWER AS WELL AS i CAN !

FiRST : 2051 WAS MORTiSFiLiC ’ S NUMBER TAG ( i thInk those were what those thIngIes were called ? ) ON DiSCORD SiNCE THiS WAS WAY BEFORE THE TAGS WERE REMOVED . iT BECAME A SYMBOL FOR THE GROUP FOR THAT REASON ALONE , i THiNK . ( on that note , the name DiCEORG lIterally came from the name of KokIchI Oma ’ s group in Danganronpa 2 )

SECOND , i HEAR THAT THE ENTiRE SERVER HAS BEEN GONE FOR YEARS NOW ( thankfully ) ,

BUT i MAYYY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN DOOMSCROLLiNG A LOT EVER SiNCE i LEFT AND FOUND A LOT OF PEOPLE ON TiKTOK THAT MORTiS HAD BEEN QUiETLY REMAKiNG SERVERS THAT WERE MUCH LESS PUBLiC AGAiN AND iT WAS GiViNG ME SUCH BAD PARANOiA THAT i DELETED THE APP FOR GOOD . LATER — BECAUSE i CANNOT STOP DOOMSCROLLiNG FOR THE LiFE OF ME . i AM SiLLY — i FOUND OUT THAT OTHER MEMBERS WERE TALKiNG ABOUT AND PROMOTiNG NEW DiCEORG SERVERS THAT WERE APPARENTLY RUN BY THE ACTUAL MORTiS AND NOT JUST SOME FULT OR SOMETHiNG ! SiNCE LATER COMMENTS FROM SOME OF THOSE MEMBERS MENTiONED THAT THEY LEFT THE CULT EVEN WHEN THEiR GiFTS TO MORTiS ( anImatIon memes , usually ) WERE LEFT UP ON THE CHANNELS , SO THE ANXiOUS PART OF MY BRAiN iS PRONE TO BELiEViNG THAT THEY WERE BEiNG HONEST ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY WERE iN THESE MORE PRiVATE SERVERS MORTiS MiGHT HAVE BEEN DOiNG SOMETHiNG LiKE THAT . HOPEFULLY NOT , BUT i HONESTLY WOULDN ’ T PUT SUCH A THiNG ABOVE MORTiS . ( honestly, I sorta doubt MortIs ever got better morally . that may be just my mInd beIng unfaIr , but I can never fully shake the feelIng , y ’ know ? )

SHORT ANSWER FOR THAT QUESTiON : IT TECHNiCALLY iSN ’ T PUBLiCALLY BACK UP FROM WHAT i KNOW OF HOPEFULLY NOT BUT SOMETHiNG SEEMS TO BE HAPPENiNG AND HONESTLY iT WORRiES ME BUT i AM GOiNG TO BE iN DENiAL ABOUT iT , LMAO .

iF YOU HAVE ANY OTHER QUESTiONS OR WHATEVER TO TALK ABOUT , i ’ LL TRY MY BEST TO HELP !

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Heyyy so...im sorry if this is way too invasive or anything but i was really curious about how large the dice.org server was?

You dont have to answer if you dont want to but i get why if you dont

/nf /gen

DON ' T WORRY , ANON ! i ' M HERE TO BE OPEN , iT HELPS ME OUT A BiT , ALL THiNGS CONSiDERED !

MY MEMORiES ARE ALWAYS SOMEWHAT FADED iN REGARDS TO THESE SORTS OF THiNGS SiNCE i WAS VERYYYY LiTTLE AND HAVE A LOT OF MENTAL STUFF THAT BLOCKS OUT MOST THiNGS , AND i ' M NOT SURE WHAT COUNTS AS A MEMBER . . .

THERE WERE VERiFiED CHANNELS AND A SORT OF NONVERiFiED WAiTiNG ROOM , AND WiTH THE POPULARiTY THAT DiCEORG GAiNED , PEOPLE WERE JOiNiNG LEFT AND RiGHT FOR THE SAKE OF MORBiD CURiOSiTY , SO THE AMOUNT OF CONSiSTENT MEMBERS iS KiND OF MESSY !

iF i HAD TO GiVE AN ESTiMATE AS TO HOW MANY MEMBERS THERE WOULD BE AT ANY GiVEN TiME , JUST A COUPLE OF HUNDREDS ! NOT MORE THAN 500 AT A TiME , i DON ' T THiNK , BUT iT WOULDN ' T SURPRiSE ME iF THERE WERE A LOT MORE . i ALSO HEARD ON TiKTOK ( BEFORE i DELETED iT OUT OF PARANOiA ) THAT MORTiS / ViL MiGHT HAVE BEEN BACK ONLiNE AND MAKiNG MORE SERVERS iN PRiVATE , A FEAR WHiCH HAS ALSO BEEN AMPLiFiED BY SOME PEOPLE i ' VE SEEN ON YOUTUBE WHO . . . APPARENTLY ARE iN NEW DiCE SERVERS RUN SPECiFiCALLY BY MORTiS WiTH MORE SELECTiVE MEMBER ACCEPTANCE ? i CANNOT ACTUALLY CONFiRM THAT BECAUSE , AGAiN , THE LiNKS ARE RARELY GiVEN ON YOUTUBE AND EVERYTHiNG i HEARD iS BASiCALLY JUST SPECULATiON OR VERY VAGUE MEMORiES OR CLAiMS BY PEOPLE ON TiKTOK BUT i SUPPOSE THEY WOULD BE iNCLUDED iN THE OFFiCiAL MEMBER COUNT ?

SORRY iF THAT WAS VAGUE OR ANYTHiNG BUT i REALLY CANNOT SAY ANYTHiNG FOR CERTAiN .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

THE PREViOUS ASK REMiNDED ME OF HOW HAPPY i AM THAT i GOT TO REALiZE HOW MANY SURViVORS WERE STiLL ACTiVE . SO FAR , i ' VE NOTED THAT THERE ARE AT LEAST NiNE - iSH THAT i HAVE SEEN AND THAT MiGHT NOT SEEM LiKE MANY BUT iT iS MORE REASSURiNG THAN ANYTHiNG ELSE HAS BEEN iN REGARDS TO DiCEORG .

i LOVE YOU GUYS VERY MUCH ( PLATONiCALLY , BUT STiLL ! ) AND i AM SO HAPPY THAT WE ALL GOT THiS FAR ! YOU ARE DOiNG GREAT AS YOU ARE , AND i AM SO PROUD OF YOU ! ♥︎

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

its a relief that other survivors are out here.i was. so young. too young tobe in dice.nthank you.

i GET iT , ANON ♡ THAT WAS SUCH A MiSERABLE EXPERiENCE AND MAKiNG THiS BLOG AND ACTUALLY FiNDiNG OTHER SURViVORS FELT LiKE A BURDEN BEiNG LiFTED . WiTH OUR HiSTORiES , iT CAN SOMETiMES FEEL LiKE THERE iS NOBODY OUT THERE WHO WiLL EVER BE ABLE TO CONNECT , WHiCH iS WHY i AM SO VERY GLAD THAT YOU CAN FiND FAMiLiARiTY WiTH OTHER SURViVORS !

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK ! i AM SORRY FOR HOW LONG iT TOOK ME TO REPLY [|87

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Did you ever have any runins with Birdie at all?

QUiTE A FEW . MY SYSTEM iS STiLL UNPACKiNG THAT PART A BiT . WE WERE TALKiNG FOR SOME TiME , THOUGH THAT WASN ' T TOO UNUSUAL FROM WHAT i KNOW ; i THiNK THAT BiRDiE KNEW HE WAS POPULAR WiTHiN THE ANiMATiON MEME COMMUNiTY AND TO OTHER FANDOMS HE MADE CONTENT FOR , AND HiM BEiNG CHEEK BY JOWL WiTH MORTiS ( AT THE TiME ) MADE iT EVEN EASiER FOR HIM TO GET A BiT TOO CLOSE WiTH OTHER MEMBERS — ESPECiALLY WHEN YOU CONSiDER THE MENTAL STATES AND MiNDSETS OF SAiD MEMBERS .

i CAN ' T REALLY SAY FOR CERTAiN JUST HOW MANY PEOPLE JACK GOT iNTO PRiVATE DMS WiTH BUT i KNOW FROM PERSONAL EXPERiENCE , VAGUE MEMORiES OF HiS CONVERSATiONS iN DiCE , AND SOME TALKS i ' VE HAD WiTH OTHERS THAT HE DID USE HiS REPUTATiON AS LEVERAGE TO HAVE BRiEF , MORE COVERT BRUSHES WiTH SOME OF DiCEORG'S MEMBERS .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

Oh gods is the other anon talking about The dice rev. fult ran by Kota cuz im in the server and I do not want it to turn out to be a bad place aaaaah </3

—🧃

i THiNK THE OTHER ANON WAS REFERRiNG TO A DiFFERENT SERVER ! THE OTHER ONE WAS RAN BY SOMEONE NAMED 70 AS WELL AS 70 ' S FRiEND GRiFFiTH .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

BY THE WAY , THE SYSMATE OF MiNE WHO MADE MY USERBOXES DiD UNFORTUNATELY GET THEiR BLOG TAKEN DOWN BECAUSE OF REPORTS RELATiNG TO THEiR VENTS , SO i WiLL PROBABLY BE REPOSTiNG THE DiCEORG RELATED USERBOXES WiTH MORE VARiATiONS . iF ANYONE WANTS ANY SPECiFiC CHANGES OR REQUESTS , FEEL .L FREE TO ASK OR DM ME <3

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

RANDOM THOUGHT :

i DO FEEL BAD FOR MORTiS / ViL iN REGARDS TO HER OWN TRAUMA BUT THAT WiLL NEVER MAKE ME FORGiVE HER FOR ALL OF THAT BULLSHiT SHE PULLED .

ALSO , UHM, AM i THE ONLY ONE WHO iS KiND OF BOTHERED BY THE " BEiNG AN iNTERNET NUiSANCE RUiNED MY LiFE " COMMENT iN HER FiNAL MESSAGE . . . ? PERHAPS iT ' S JUST MY BRAiN NiTPiCKiNG , BUT PEOPLE ARE DEAD , ViL ; NUMEROUS PEOPLE GOT HARASSED OVER YOUR BULLSHiT AND i CAN STiLL RECALL PEOPLE iN DiCE CELEBRATiNG WHEN SOMEONE MADE A POST SAYiNG THAT iT WOULD BE THEiR LAST BECAUSE OF THE HARASSMENT THEY RECEiVED FROM DiCEORG MEMBERS WHENEVER MORTiS SiCCED HER MEMBERS ON THEM . THAT ' S NOT EVEN THE FULL EXTENT OF THE HARM DONE BUT iT GENUiNELY SiCKENS ME TO MY CORE THAT , OUT OF ALL THE THiNGS SHE COULD HAVE WRiTTEN iN HER LAST MESSAGE , SHE CHOSE TO DESCRiBE HERSELF AS AN " iNTERNET NUiSANCE " WHEN PEOPLE ARE LiTERALLY DEAD .

SERiOUSLY , GO FUCK YOURSELF <3

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

so 70 was barely active, instead he gave admin perms to this guy named griffith who wasnt even in dice because it was dice he was just there to be edgy or whatever

the server originally wasnt supposed to be sharing tos breaking stuff so we wouldnt all get nuked but he turned it into this "free speech anarchy server" and threw any dice branding out the window. basically took over, a bunch of the active people left cuz they didnt like him, and then the server died lmao

SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY ! i HAVE BEEN SO TiRED AS OF LATE .

THAT iS SO ABSURD . . . YOU ' D THiNK PEOPLE WOULD HAVE THEiR PRiORiTiES STRAiGHT ENOUGH TO ACTUALLY DO BARE MiNiMUM MODERATiON FOR A SERVER LiKE THiS .

THANKS FOR THE iNFO ! THERE iS MUCH i NEED TO CATCH UP ON .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

lol i was in 70's diceorg revival server back in december. it was a shitshow

i HEARD OF A LOT OF DiCEORG REViVAL OR " FULT " VERSiONS BEiNG MADE BUT i NEVER KEPT UPDATED ON THEM ! WHAT HAPPENED , iF YOU DON ' T MiND ME ASKiNG ? :0

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

THE DOCTOR SHOULD DO MORE DiGiTAL ART ; GRANTED , THE DOCTOR SUCKS AT iT , BUT iT WAS GENUiNELY FUN GETTiNG BACK iNTO iT WHEN i MADE THAT STUPiD DRAWiNG TO JOKE ABOUT MORTiS .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

THE DOCTOR DOES NOT KNOW WHAT TO DRAW . . . OH WELL ! THE DOCTOR WiLL FiGURE iT OUT

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

THE DOCTOR ' S SONA iS TOO ANNOYiNG TO DRAW . HMMMM . THE DOCTOR WiLL FiND SOMETHiNG EVENTUALLY .

[plaguethedoctor-2051]

ART BLOCK FiVE SECONDS iN . NO iDEA .