postponed distress

🌸 they/them | polyamorous 🌸 ( counterpart blog to: polyami ) an anonymous sideblog to record my thoughts when i can't address them properly in the moment; i cope primarily with ptsd, depression, & general anxiety. i'm always open to speaking with strangers.

[please-wait]

my toxic relationship feels healthy and happy now, it doesn’t feel toxic anymore. things are back to the way they used to be. its blissful. but i know things will get bad again. i hate that i know that.

[karina-padilla]

For anyone who might need this right now ❤️

[fempersephone-deactivated201804]

I’m here for the girls who unwillingly consented to sex or sexual acts because they were in a situation where they didn’t feel as if they had the right to say no and now feel violated but don’t feel like they can say they were raped or molested.

[666ter-deactivated20171116]

this is probably one of the most important text posts i have ever seen because i feel like this is a HUGE issue among teenagers especially young girls in today’s social culture and nobody talks about it. nobody tells you that you were in fact abused and sometimes it takes you years to finally realize what happened to you was wrong, and it’s really scary and confusing! we need to teach each other that “rape” or “molestation” can happen in many circumstances and not just the ones we are taught!!!!

[polyhorror]

How’s this for a poly horror: “When you start getting flashbacks to sexual abuse when having sex with one partner, but not the other.”

[please-wait]

Every sexual encounter I have lately is such a ride, I'm so tired of wading through dissociative episodes like this.

[please-wait]

@samismostlywrong

Hi, I somehow deleted your ask. Sorry, oops. 💤 I’m coping as best as I can; I’m just afraid and uncertain about my relationships and my future. I’m self sabotaging a lot, but I don’t think I’m at risk of hurting myself. Thank you or reaching out.

[please-wait]

Hi! I just want to say.. I don't know if you believe in God or not (and my intention here is not to offend you). But God loves you. And I love you, too. And you deserve amazing things in life and I pray that you get them. I'm sorry I can't do more for you personally - with finding a therapist and all. But what I can do is pray and hope for the best for you. God bless you, love!

Thank you. 💕

[runningxmascara]

The worst part is when you are aware of the abuse and your mind is telling you that you should run as fast as you can and get away but your heart is just not ready and you’re so confused because even you can’t understand why you’re allowing someone to do this to you and you hate yourself for it but you just. can’t. stop.

[dynamicblonde]

This. Me, right now. Literally sitting in this room with this person. feeling exactly this.

[wordsnquotes]

Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your wellbeing a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful — you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.

Daniell Koepke (via wordsnquotes)

[please-wait]

My anxiety: somethings off

Me: how so?

Anxiety: somethings wrong

Me: what

Anxiety: something

Me: like can you give me a general idea

Anxiety: somethings off

[please-wait]

Does anybody else suffering from depression/anxiety convince themselves they're "faking it" and don't deserve to have help

[moonchildsecrets]

Friendly Reminder: Every day you survive is a day that you’ve won ♡

[doomface]

does someone ever say something to you and you can just feel the

figuratively pop up over your head 

[floornostroszek]

this is not based on my personal experience, just on observation, but i think it’s really important for people to realize that you can be in an unhealthy relationship with somebody that’s a good person. you can be in an unhealthy relationship with a person you really like and love. some people just bring out the worst in each other, or sometimes people just…have shit they gotta work out and it causes the relationship to be bad for one or both people.

it happens.

[polyami]

I need to know that it’s possible to salvage my now toxic relationship; things used to be so healthy and beautiful, but we’ve lost a lot of trust and stability. I keep telling myself that things will be better again some day as long as we both strive to communicate with each other and better ourselves.

Can things really get better?

[please-wait]

i want to talk to my ex metamour so badly sometimes and it hurts so much to know that i just can’t. i desperately want someone in my life who understands what i’m going through. i’m so frustrated that she locked me out of her life.

[please-wait]

things would be so much easier if everyone could just give up on me, stop caring, and leave me alone.