Chaotic Bisexual

19 | any pronouns | blog is all over the place, don't expect me to organize it | Be bi get high | Fuck off and find me clothing with real pockets | poetry sometimes, mostly about murder and gay sex | you should check it out sometime | I don't support HP or JKR so please don't come at me with that shit |

[caffeineecold]

nothing has been more important to my being queer than when i went to my first pride parade, got seperated from my group, had a panic attack about it and was sitting on the side of the road holding a tiny genderfluid flag and freaking out. then this six foot five drag queen in four inch heels appeared from literally nowhere and sat down next to me. i, this scared-shitless trans bi kid at pride for the first time, very nervously told her she looked pretty and i told her my name and that i got lost and didn't feel like i should be at pride and she held my hand and said "oh, honey, everybody deserves to be here, especially you. pride is for everybody who's ever gotten lost, who's been scared of who they are or where they are. you think we never been scared before? pride's for you, honey, because you're scared. you don't have to be proud right now, but you're gonna be one day, honey, i'm sure of it."

i found my group soon after that and i never saw that queen again but to this day i am convinced i met an angel.

so yeah. pride is for you. pride is for all of us.

[plusfuckingultra]

While going on a tangent about Late Stage Capitalism to a (first) date, I had the thought of asking him if “you ever feel like an animal trapped in a zoo and now the world is continuously trying to sell you things to keep you from boredom and losing your mind?”

But I didn’t. Because we were both high and I still need to test how deep he thinks about things. If I bring up something like that and he doesn’t get what I mean, or says some dumbass shit it will ruin my entire week. Small steps

[plusfuckingultra]

Oh, you’re a woman. How easy it is for you to be sexy. Just pat a little blush, bat your little eyes, sway your hips. How beloved your body is. Your hands, thighs, tits, ass. So hot, look at you. So much better than before-

-Is it because you’re attracted to/appreciate women or is it because society has convinced you that a woman’s body is inherently sexual? It’s so easy for a woman to be sexy because she doesn’t even need a face. Just a perky pair of tits and legs to spread open.

Two trains of thoughts that happened to occur at the same time. I may write this one out.

[brightorangelover]

for eveyone sympathizing with bear being a fucking loser, he is a 25 year old man btw. a GROWN ass fucking man. who can not tell his feelings to a girl???? he cant as a girl out??? YOU ARE 25. thats a skill issue man. people solve that stuff in high school. i understand the fact that its his best friend and blah blah blah. but omfg just talk man. nikki DIRECTLY asked "do u like me" and he was "umm.. uhhh. um😰" VRO.

and anyone else that defends him bc u are like him (as grown ass adult), u are a loser too and have to be better. adults HAVE to be able to make uncomfortable and hard conversations. thats part of being an adult.

[acefuruya]

also all the sympathy from viewers for sarah over nikki is so weird like sure, she didn't deserve to die at all ... but imo she was an awful friend. like here's a girl you've known forever, who's told you that she's not into a man two days before she starts acting insane over him, is clearly having a mental breakdown (at the very least), and instead of checking in with her, or making sure she's okay, you try to shoot your shot with the guy she's with??? really??? not to mention her line to bear about 'how it wasn't fair for him to have to deal with her problems'. it pissed me off so much how ian and sarah were nikki's friends too and they never actually spoke to her once the wish kicked in and instead asked bear if she was doing okay or not. what sort of fucking friends are that??? every single one of her friends let her down. obviously what bear did to her was by far the worst but the others were awful to her too.

[glitterinmypussy]

Amen and god bless

[starvariety]

the fact bear only tried to cancel his wish after being told he couldn’t alter it (and, seemingly, because he was uncertain about how real nikki’s love actually was) - instead of wanting to do that from the start, as soon as it was clear that something was wrong with nikki - makes me so, so devastated for her. it’s clear he was more concerned with what he was getting out of the wish, rather than the detrimental effect it was having. and like, everyone could tell something was up with nikki, it’s not as if it wasn’t clear. him hanging up the phone as soon as nikki is out on the line (screaming) is so symbolic of how he is completely ignoring how he is ruining her life throughout the film

[sl0wdanced]

also let’s discuss the complacency of the customer service guy on the line, how most men who aren’t awful like Bear don’t really care to do anything differently other than not involve themselves

Nikki is still trapped in a veil of what’s expected of her and what she wants, and trying to get through. And like most men confronted with female victims, he “cares” enough to make Bear uncomfortable but truly couldn’t be MORE indifferent.

Just a complete lack of interest in her suffering and instead using her pain to tell Bear that he “was just testing him” complete and utter hellscape for Nikki

[nessa007]

so i just saw obsession

[starvariety]

oh and another thing that devastates me about Obsession is how much nikki is judged and blamed by those around her. sarah and ian repeatedly telling bear that he shouldn’t have to deal with her, that she’s not his responsibility, that they’re worried she’s taking advantage of him. as if they aren’t also her friends, as if they shouldn’t know her well enough to notice something is off. there’s no concern for why nikki is behaving the way she is, there’s just distain towards it. she starts acting out of character and so it must all be intentional. but bear doesn’t get questioned. bear isn’t gossiped about. nikki loses all her agency and autonomy, and all she gets for it is judgment

[jaypilled]

are those my only options

[notahorseindisguise]

do you ever say something and then think "wow this isnt even a bit. im just like this"

[post-uwuifier]

do yoo evew say someting and den tink “wow dis isn’t even a bit!! im just wike dis UwU”

This post has been UwU-ified!

[notahorseindisguise]

i feel dirty after reading that

[post-uwuifier]

do yoo need a scwubby wubby? OwO

[notahorseindisguise]

i think i do need a scwubby wubby to be honest but not from you

[post-uwuifier]

When is it my turn to be happy.

[worldheritagepostorganization]

​World Heritage Post

[barstoolblues]

mozzarella and parmesan is kind of like the age gap yuri of cheese

[lvmimis]

tbh i love hear me outs but i also love the opposite of hear me outs where it’s like nearly everyone thinks they’re fuckable except you

[loveridden1999]

my two mood these days

[tieflingkisser]

[rubydreamsuwu]

just checked and this doesn't seem to be a thing on windows 10, looks like you only have to worry if you're using windows 11

[elisadevelon]

I have it under Devices in the Settings on Win10. What does it actually do tho? Why is everything at 0 for me? Because I only have an old arrred 2007 (or even 2003?) version of MS Word and assorted apps? I'll laugh if that's the case...

[mawofthemagnetar]

What do you mean “chat” is now referring to ChatGPT and not twitch chat? What? What? What the fuck? No?

When I address chat I am speaking to a presumed Greek chorus of real human people shitposting on their lunch break, not a machine that devours lakes to covert electricity into slop.

[hewoweens]

u can be boiling alive in your mind for months and then on a random tuesday ur head gets so clear and life is worth living again and you're like damn what was all that about then

[theconcealedweapon]

[maarvarq]

Always bear in mind that there is absolutely no legitimate evidence that Luigi was actually the one who killed the insurance company guy.

[theconcealedweapon]

Of course he wasn't. He was at a party with me that day.

[tiny-space-whale]

No but like literally, actually. All bits aside.

He didn't do it.

The cops very clearly planted evidence on him because they had to make an arrest because all eyes were on them and whoever actually did the deed was making them look stupid.

Why would the real killer hero have kept the weapon on his person and traveled two states over while carrying it and a manifesto in his bag, conveniently turning the crime into a federal matter? The same guy whose bag they found in a park, filled with monopoly money? Why did the police turn off their bodycams, take Luigi's stuff, drive a block away, turn their bodycams back on, go back into the restaurant, and then arrest him?

From the moment of his arrest, even left-of-center media has been presuming his guilt without examining anything (e.g. calling him "the killer" instead of "alleged" or "accused") and then when I say he didn't do it, the nearest person chimes in with some quip that tells me they think he did do it but should go free anyway. Don't get me wrong, I would have the same attitude if he had done it. But he didn't. It makes me feel like the only sane person in the world, even among my staunchly leftist friends.