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ㅡ ꔫ my "diary" vlog. anything goes here. you've been warned.

[yangwen-li]

[sonriu]

Loly the gothic rabbit !♡

[weirdgayenby]

@hoshi-neko-hikari

[pastelbatcave]

Magical Twin Comets are official Sanrio characters and it makes me sad they don’t do much with them.

[k4ngelcore]

“Yᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏᴛ ʙᴇ ʜɪᴅᴅᴇɴ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʀᴏᴏᴍ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴs. ⵊᴛ’s ᴏɴʟʏ ɴᴏʀᴍᴀʟ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ sᴏ !“

Mʏ ᴍᴏsᴛ ʜᴏɴᴇsᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ:

Cʀᴇᴅɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛ !!

[omghikikomoriangelchan-deactiva]

Me

[tetsunro]

CHU💕

[daily-spooky]

[know-fear]

Haunting Ground (2005)

[morbid-lycoris]

I feel like a lab rat that escaped

[pandoresque]

[plushygun]

[strawberrypillz0]

// mentally ill ryo / jirai here (i say Ryo as I don’t have BPD but am mentally ill).

You really need to quit w/ the gatekeeping of the term as it falls on a spectrum. I believe jirai is a term that can be flexible and it’s weird to be so… anal about how it’s used. Modifiers such as fashion / lifestyle jirai exist. This community’s urge to gatekeep and romanticize self harm is fucking crazy and why I don’t publicly associate w jirai bc I actually want to get better.

TL;dr like any other word of the language it can be used flexibly with modifiers.

You will live😚

Anyways, I’m using terms like lifestyle/fashion jirais and everyone does so why are you crying rn.

Romanticising your mental illnesses overall isn’t a good thing, there is nothing cute and nice about being mentally unstable.. but I will hold your hand when I will say it - it’s a coping mechanism 😱 I was always pro recovery and me saying “why do you guys want to be associated with people who are mentally unstable so bad? Yall should be happy that you don’t need to” is basically saying that I would rather call myself Ryo and be mentally stable than be pissed that I can’t call myself a LANDMINE (which is basically a word that is supposed to insult mentally unstable (mostly) women). Nobody want to be mentally unstable, no matter in what cute paper you will wrap it, I always hope everyone will get better and don’t associate myself with anti recovery people cuz they are bunch of weirdos who I don’t they are even mentally unstable, just edgy kids who think wanting to kill yourself/SH is so cool and they are so different.

There is nothing wrong that people want to protect their community where they find a comfort and they are not scared of being judged, there is so many fashion jirais complaining about jirais venting etc under tags. I said before that I don’t mind people wearing jirai as a style as long as they are respecting actual jirais (lifestyle) and don’t call them weirdos and shit. Yes, I said that a good alternative would be to call yourself ryousangata cuz this is what basically “fashion jirai” is - and is there anything wrong with wanting wear cute trendy clothes? Absolutely not, so why is it seem as something bad when I suggested it?

You don’t need to be associated with jirais, nobody care actually. I’m glad you want to get better - so me and other people who probably ask themselves everyday why they need to go thru it, why they can’t be healthy.. just because someone is trying to cope it doesn’t mean they don’t want to get better. I wake up everyday and ask myself why, how long and if I will ever be free from this - just because I will add funny image later it doesn’t mean that I absolutely hate being mentally ill and would do anything to get rid of it, my blog is just a little safe space where I can express it thru posting whatever I want to make myself feel better or people who go thru the same thing. I often go thru jirai tag and reply to people who struggle, cuz I wish they will get better.

Anyways, I hope everyone will have a good day today and remember to take care of yourself 💖 I’m really grateful to be a part of such an amazing community :)))

[plushygun]

Cw: losing it pt 2 :3

WHERE AE YOU WHERE ARE YOU WEHRE ARE YOU WHERE ARE YOU PLEASE WHERE ARE YOU WNEHRE ARE YOU WHERE ARE YOU

[plushygun]

CW: losing my shit :3

YOUF CUKIGN CUNT YOU ALWAYS IGNROE ME DIEDIED DIEDIEDIEDIEIDEIDIEDIEIDEIE YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS IGNORE ME WHY R YOU IGNORING ME WHAT MA I DOING WRONG IM SO TIRED OF THIS SHIT I CANT DO ANY MORE THAN THIS IM GIVING IT MY ALL IM SO FUCKLIN GTIRED PLEASE MAKE IT SOTP PLEASE PLEASE PLESE PLEASE

Do you even care??? R you putting effort into this relationship like I am? I can't always tell. Did I forget or do you actually not care. R you bored of me. What do I need to do differently. I don't understand. Why do you always do this. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm in so much pain

I don't know if I can hang in there. I don't know if I'll make it a day from now. I feel so bothersome just existing.You have more fun with others. You leave me when Itry to be fun. You dont care about me when I try to be fun. Do you care about me? We make plans but its like you don't care about them. You don't go through with them. Do you care about me?

And why do people always come to me when they're drunk? I have so many things to share, so much love to share, and it always comes down to this shit. To fear. To anxiety. To uncertainty. To, what's happening next? To, is this worth investing in? To, am I only tolerable with substancess? To, should I kms already? Maybe everyone is only pretending that they care. Maybe they don't care about me. Why do you all yell at me when I try to do something, why don't you tell me that you like I'm trying. Why do none of you care. Why do none of you see. Why why why why why why why why

Please put me down

[livingatadeadend-deactivated202]

nobody will remember:

- your salary

- how “busy you were”

- how many hours you worked

people will remember:

- your coords

- how unstable you were on main

- how many weird dms you got from creepy old men

[yayobabydoll]

i do not have any disorders . these r symptoms of being an angel

[jiraidanshi]

[lavenderpilled]

jirai girls editing their photos