DISCLAIMER!!! this blog will be an exploration of topics such as alcoholism, self-harm, untreated mental illness, police brutality and incarceration, oppression and more. extensive rules below cut.
01. MINORS DO NOT INTERACT! i will interact with anyone under the age of 21 and will hardblock anyone who follows who is under the age of 18. there will be nsfw and heavy content on this blog. i will tag everything according to the standard ' trigger / ' format. i do not condone, support, glorify or romanticize any themes that may be explored here in real life. muse or content does not = mun or real life support.
02. NO UNDERAGE CONTENT! i do not condone writing explicit material of underage characters at all. it is a hardblock from me for anyone who does.
03. I WRITE VI AS TRANSMASC! you are welcome to disagree with that but i will be writing him as transmasc and exclusively using he / him pronouns in writing. i will not tolerate transphobia. if you disagree to the point of contention please feel free to simply block me and curate your space accordingly.
04. I WRITE VI AS AN ADDICT! as someone who grew up with addiction being pervasive in my life from immediate family and close friends, this is the take i am going with. whether he is an active addict or an inactive addict depends on the verse and timeline but he is and always will be an addict. this topic will be explored extensively and expanded upon in headcanon's and writing.
05. I AM A PRIVATE ACCOUNT! i will only write and interact with blogs that i am mutually exclusive with and i will be curating my space as i desire. i do not follow back everyone and i will softblock out of curtesy if i don't. i will read all rules before i follow or follow back so please allow me the time to do so as i work full time. i also do not tolerate drama of any kind and will be liberal blocking those that participate.
06. DUPLICATES / CROSSOVERS / AU'S! i am fine with all of them and do not have duplicate anxiety. that being said, i will not follow a single-blog duplicate first unless it is stated in rules that you are okay with it. i am always open to crossovers and au's.
07. REGARDING MAINS / EXCLUSIVES! i do practice both but only with people that i know well. i will not make this choice liberally and i do require a lot of plotting as well. exclusives mean that i will only write with that person's character. mains mean that their dynamic with vi is referenced in my writing and they are part of my main verse lore and development but i am willing to write with two others of that character.
current exclusives: jinx. caitlyn kiramman.
current mains: n/a.
08. IN REGARDS TO ARCANE / LoL! i would say that, while i am primarily writing influenced by the show, i do take inspiration from LoL. there are a few things that i even prefer to the show. those things will be explored further and i will make a more comprehensive post in the future.
09. ZERO TOLERANCE! if you are racist, transphobic, homophobic, a zionist, if you are anti-acab, if you are ableist or anything else that could fall into this list - you are not welcome here. i will liberally block.
FRUSTRATION & DISBELIEF ETCH THEMSELVES ACROSS THE HARSH LINES OF HIS FEATURES! make permanent home between his brows as he scowls. they - JINX! - could believe whatever the hell they wanted to believe. it didn't make it true. 𝙫𝙞 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙖𝙧𝙜𝙪𝙚 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩 𝙞𝙩, 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮. they were selfish, self-serving and. . . he doubted they had the capacity to do a favor for anyone if it didn't serve them in some way too. that was who they were now. that was what he had seen.
❝ right. ❞ vi cuts his drawl short, eyes boldly rolled & posture closed off as arms fold across his chest. he doesn't want to do this with them; a back & forth like this. nothing about their encounters were pleasant. and whose fault was that?
exasperation creeps in, tone of voice molded by the feeling. ❝ i gotta be honest, jinx. i'm not interested in a favor from you. ❞
who knew what that even entailed? nothing good, especially when their expression felt almost 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙮 to read. vi presses his lips together, gaze hardening further as he stares at them. as though he might be able to see what lays beneath. . . ( as though there might be something else to this whole thing ! )
the unavailing search provides nothing.
❝ why don't you just. . . leave it alone. ❞ whatever it could even be. vi untucks an arm to wave his hand dismissively, disgruntled nature prevalent - though not in its entirety aimed at them. ❝ i'm not interested in any of it. ❞
❛ i’m just trying to get used to these changes . ❜ acab vi……… acab
death of an optimist.
VI IS NOT IGNORANT TO THE LOOK IN HIS EYES! & really. . . he couldn't blame him. if the roles were reversed - would ekko do the same thing? vi doesn't want to feel the walls of defense rise up as they do, doesn't like that he can't help but feel the desire to excuse what he's doing. long ago things were so different. long ago he'd have the same look in his eye that he sees, a mirror image in his eyes of the disgust he couldn't rid himself of no matter the excuses he weaved.
❝ it's not - ❞ not like that, he wants to say! 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙢𝙨. he can't make himself say it though because it's disingenuous and it would tarnish something vi knows is little more than an intangible ideal. it's so fucking difficult though, especially with the way eyes bore into him. JUDGEMENT! & vi can't even blame him for it.
the world is at impasse, vi knows it. ekko certainly knows it too. no matter what the excuse. his throat feels tight, his nose wrinkles in self-distaste. ❝ you don't know what it was like, littl - ekko. ❞
& what a pitiful excuse! vi can feel the way his jaw clenches in silent punctuation. vi can feel the way his whole body tenses. vi can feel the heavy shame in battle with his want to explain it all away. to make it acceptable in some way.
❝ look, i don't have much choice do i? ❞ it's the denial of someone caught out on what they cannot make right. vi huffs in frustration. 𝙚𝙠𝙠𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙙𝙣'𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡! & that was the point, wasn't it? the point that he was sacrificing his own morals for. . . for something equally as intangible as the past was to him now. ❝ you said it yourself. powder is gone. . . i'm dealing with jinx now. ❞
TOPSIDE WAS EVERYTHING HE EXPECTED IT TO BE! & that realization left a tight, uncomfortable knot in his gut. to imagine it in his youth had been one thing but to see the blatantly lavish and wholly unnecessary excess of the city. . . was another entirely. that long-lived frustration, the proof of all of their differences blaring bold & brightly. there was only so much vi could take in before he found himself wandering - as far from the center of the city as he could.
it is there, closer to the fissure than not, that he finds himself under the shade of a lone, gnarled tree. arms tuck beneath his skull & eyes remain closed as he rests upon the grass: the only solace in this disgustingly opulent city.
vi doesn't move from that spot upon the ground. for hours it feels like he laid there, his mind just as twisted into knots as his gut about this whole thing. none of it felt right. 𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜.
it's only when he feels as though he's being stared at does vi crack open an eye, head tilting on axis of his arm towards the direction he believes it comes from - & his mouth thins into a line of contemplation. ❝ . . . can i help you? ❞
@pnchlined asked: ❝ why do you have to go? ❞ for vander. | ✧ 𓂅 cowboy bebop starters
"𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 . . . " a heavy sigh pushes past his lips, brows furrowing. how does he explain to vi that somethings are just. that some things are beyond what he should be explaining to someone so young, who shouldn't worry about these things. a hand rises, only to rest atop his head, offering an apologetic smile. " . . . it's what i have to do. i'll be back, vi. but do me a favor, yeah? keep the others out of trouble until i get back." he pulls his hand back to clasp it over vi's shoulder, squeezing. "i'm trusting you in my absence, vi. whatever you do, do not open the doors for anyone. make smart choices, son." his hand rises to poke at vi's forehead, the corner of his mouth twitching. "i know you've got a hard head on your shoulders, but you've got a smart one, too. use it."
LIFE WAS NOT FAIR! the bitter & brutal fact vi had been forced to learn early on; the singular UNDERCITY truth that could not be ignored. he hates it more than anything - selfishly, especially when it impacts those he cares about. he cannot find it in himself to look at vander when his hand presses atop his head. it's mean, maybe, the stubbornness that consumes him like this to ignore.
𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙮 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙝𝙞𝙢! why was it always vander who had to answer for things they all did. & why was it that everyone was so ready to let him? vi tries to keep his gaze away, to show without words he was frustrated with the situation. . . but then his shoulder is touched, grasped & he's drawn without demand to look up at him. to actually listen to the seriousness of vander's request.
❝ i still don't know why it has to always be you. ❞ vi grouses, though he's not truly clueless. of course. . . who else would it be? that didn't mean he had to like it. if fact, he was rather vocal about his opposition freely. blue eyes shut briefly at the poke, the scowl between his brows eased if only slightly for the moment.
then, because he doesn't want to disappoint vander and what he's asked of him, he adds. ❝ i won't let anything happen to them, i promise. ❞
𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑯 𝑶𝑭 𝑨𝑵 𝑶𝑷𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑰𝑺𝑻 . ( lyric starters originating from the works of grandson . mature & dark themes are present , tread with caution . )
❛ tell me what you’re trying to hide . ❜
❛ look me in my eyes , tell me everything’s not fine . ❜
❛ i’ve got a secret i need you to keep . ❜
❛ beg me for mercy . ❜
❛ i’m not so brave , & i’m not so smart . ❜
❛ i’m doing you a favor . ❜
❛ i did a lot wrong that i can’t make right . ❜
❛ i can’t cope . ❜
❛ there’s no difference between you & i . ❜
❛ there’s no way of stopping this . ❜
❛ is there anybody out there that’s paying attention ? ❜
❛ i try to do my part . ❜
❛ how did we get here ? ❜
❛ one day i know i’ll regret it . ❜
❛ i’m in love with the pain . ❜
❛ idle hands are the devil’s best friend . ❜
❛ won’t you help me , please ? ❜
❛ we might not make it ‘til the morning . ❜
❛ i’m a sick joke . ❜
❛ we’re stronger when we’re together . ❜
❛ it’s the same shit , just a different year . ❜
❛ i’m terrified none of it matters at all . ❜
❛ i’ve gotta get out of here as quick as i can . ❜
❛ there’s a knock at your front door . ❜
❛ beg me for mercy . ❜
❛ do exactly what you’re told . ❜
❛ don’t listen to them , you’re not free . ❜
❛ there’s nobody that can stop me . ❜
❛ i’ve got one life so i’m gonna live it . ❜
❛ i don’t want to move on . ❜
❛ where the fuck do we go now ? ❜
❛ my heart keeps fucking up the motherfucking plan . ❜
❛ i’m done playing games . ❜
❛ nobody make a sound . ❜
❛ the higher the crime , the harder the fall . ❜
❛ everybody told me ever since i was young , i should bite my tongue . ❜
❛ i don’t know where i’m gonna go . ❜
❛ i will not apologize . ❜
❛ i think it’s time for a change . ❜
❛ get down on the ground . ❜
❛ sometimes the bad guy wins . ❜
❛ this is my one shot at redemption . ❜
❛ i’m looking up at rock bottom . ❜
❛ i don’t want to get left behind . ❜
❛ is this what you wanted ? ❜
❛ i wish i’d read the signs better , ‘cause the writing was on the wall . ❜
❛ i’m just trying to get used to these changes . ❜
❛ i thought i had the upper hand . ❜
❛ one day you’ll understand why i pushed you away as i ran . ❜
❛ what’s your alibi ? ❜
❛ i’ve gotta get out of this town somehow . ❜
❛ the bad’s been slowly getting worse . ❜
❛ what’s your life worth ? ❜
❛ i’m still trying to find my identity . ❜
❛ somebody call the doctor ! ❜
❛ that which you fear is that which you become . ❜
❛ does any of this pain have meaning ? ❜
❛ i was in over my head . ❜
❛ should we just say ‘to hell with it all’ ? ❜
❛ i’m gonna get away with it . ❜
❛ you think that you can stop me ? ❜
❛ this isn’t gonna be some little fix . ❜
❛ i’m sick of being an optimist . ❜
❛ don’t resist the temptation . ❜
❛ we can all be saved . ❜
❛ i want to feel something . ❜
❛ i’m feeling all this pressure , it’s a weight on my shoulders . ❜
❛ i’m looking for the proof that i’m alive . ❜
❛ all i ever wanted was a little piece & quiet . ❜
❛ i am the thing you created . ❜
❛ i’ve tried getting better , did all of the twelve steps . ❜
❛ if you love me , let me go . ❜
❛ you deserve all you’ve got coming . ❜
❛ i spent my last dollar on a motherfucking cab . ❜
❛ i’ve got no hope , not a sliver . ❜
❛ sometimes the good things don’t last . ❜
❛ i’ll do anything for you , just tell me what you need . ❜
❛ the goodbye is the hardest part . ❜
❛ i never thought it’d come to this . ❜
❛ everything will be okay . ❜
❛ i’ve done bad things to good people . ❜
❛ i’ve got no self control , it’s the root of my evil . ❜
❛ if i were you , i wouldn’t love me neither . ❜
❛ i keep on looking at the world like i’m an optimist . ❜
❛ we can’t go back . ❜
❛ have you ever thought that you don’t know it all ? ❜
❛ i wish you would’ve called . ❜
❛ save me from myself . ❜
❛ nobody really cared , so it never really mattered . ❜
❛ what’s the point in fighting for a happy ever after ? ❜
❛ i’d rather drop dead . ❜
❛ don’t give up that easy . ❜
❛ i can’t keep my shit together . ❜
❛ life is a bitch , she doesn’t fight fair . ❜
❛ i want to live for something . ❜
❛ i want to die for something . ❜
❛ this won’t last forever . nothing ever lasts forever . ❜
❛ i think i need some guidance . ❜
❛ you don’t have to hurt anymore . ❜
&&𝑔𝑒𝓉𝒿𝒾𝓃𝓍𝑒𝒸𝓁! \\ Independent, private / mutuals-only, canon-divergent JINX from ARCANE with some League spice. An examination of mental illness, loneliness & crimes of passion. Spoiler heavy, season 2 interpretation only. Will not be tagging spoilers, but will tag triggers. Loved by HAUNTER, 18+, MDNI. TERFS DNI. Rules in pinned.
if you want to spread terf ideology then do that elsewhere. very odd behavior happening. lesbians can go by he / him pronouns. lesbians can be transmasc. butch lesbians can be transmasc + use he / him pronouns. writing a character as non-cis doesn’t take away from other things that are still true about them.
also to add off this, it has been outwardly stated by those making the show that these characters are queer and that labels do not exist in the universe.