Joe

[johnnyrainod]

life. growth. love. religion.

i wonder what life is sometimes…. weird thing to wonder i know. but i guess i just wonder why things happen the way they do. why we as humans take certain courses that we take. how growth can be experienced so quickly; painfully at that. and how some can experience it worse than others… although i never knew that i was born to be apart of that “some”, i always knew i was different.. over the coarse of 5 years my life has changed drastically. from my brother/bestfriend passing.. to numerous heartbreak.. to the feeling of isolation in my own family.. to suicidal thoughts.. that being my muse for creation… to drugs.. to putting music out.. to building a fan base that i never could have imagined having.. to meeting Tricky…. to love… to getting a record deal.. to wealth… to manipulative “friends” only around for what they could get out of me… to stress.. to depression.. to not wanting to make music anymore.. to leaving those “friends” behind.. to being dropped from the label… back to no money.. to support.. to sobriety… to happiness.. to reconciliation.. to starting from scratch with family and the people i love most… to making the best music i’ve ever made.. to labels calling me to take meetings.. to new deals on the table… and to making my way back to where i wanted to be in the first place….. through that i learned that, life is what you make of it; appreciate the ones apart of it that matter. believe none of what you hear and half of what you see. tragedy and bad company can come with money. and success is nothing if you have no one that you love there to share it with. speaking of that…… my love. my woman. my queen. my everything. without her i wouldn’t have made it through all of that alive. i mean that very literally. it was her who stopped me when i was ready to end my life. it was her who taught me how it felt to be truly loved. it was her who stuck by me when i had nothing. it was her who helped me find my love for music again. i write because she exists. i live because she chose to love me. no exaggeration. i love because she exists. it is because of her, God allowing, that i realize how important it is to love. i see the world and how people treat each other. treat themselves even. the war. the violence. the blasphemy. i’m disgusted. politics and religion… thats what has made our world the chaos that it is. imagine a world with no politics. imagine a world with no religion. faith, yes. belief, yes. but no religion. religion is man made. titles created to separate. divide. make one feel superior/inferior. i believe in God. i don’t believe God would support such division. imagine a world where people choose to love each other in spite of each other. love God. i once read that “when the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will then know peace”. i believe that. call me foolish. call me naive. call me soft. maybe i am. but i’m honest and i’m happy. i don’t intend to sway beliefs. my only motive is to enlighten and to love.  the lord is my shepherd. and love is my new religion.

blessings xx

[unbelievablysadghost]

she has a good heart,

she really does.

its just been broken,

a lot ⭐︎

[millemii]

I don`t know what`s worse. 

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Supporting a Friend with Mental Health Concerns

1. People with mental health problems are likely to need different kinds of supports at different times.

2. Probably the most important thing you can do is to listen in a caring, and non-judgmental way. That simple act will usually mean a lot as mental health issues are often misunderstood by the general population.

3. Always treated the person with respect, acceptance and compassion.

4. You don’t have to do too much – just stay in contact with your friend, invite them over, or hang out with them.

5. Remember that your friend is looking for a friend – and not a counselor, or psychiatrist.

6. Offering practical support can be the right thing at times, as going through a hard can leave you feeling overwhelmed.

[nintendowii2011]

[donn-nimhe]

the only political news I care about at this point

[theonion]

[just-shower-thoughts]

When I’m old, being older than Google will be a big deal.

[pneumaticaxiom]

Different Coping Strategies For Disorders

Anxiety: My counselor used to refer to it as the "McDonalds Milkshake" technique. Get a straw, preferably a bit thicker of one like a milkshake straw and take deep breaths through it. This will help focus your thoughts away from anxieties, engage your diaphragm and open your lungs to help stop chest tightening sensations. Additionally, wearing a wristwatch and counting seconds up to a minute can also help to center yourself. Always remember your deep breathing!

Dissociation: You need to encourage communication between your logical and emotional cognition. A neat way of doing this is if you can catch it as its coming on, stand on one foot, squeeze or fidget with something like a stress ball, and begin venting to yourself. Even just whisper quietly, talk about what you're feeling and thinking. Engaging yourself physically like this as well as emotionally will help keep you grounded.

Depression: Remember that while it's okay and totally necessary to take a day off sometimes and let yourself mentally recoup-- you do need to continue a routine. Even if it's uncomfortable get out and run errands, clean your house, phone someone. By pushing yourself to be proactive it can help to correct your brain. Additionally, about 20 minutes of exercise each day can help heaps as well.

Hallucinations: Call someone. Wish I could tell you some kind of super amazing coping advice for this, but honestly, the best thing you can do when hallucinations start happening is just avoid being alone. Text someone, Facebook someone, Skype, phone. Let someone know what's happening and allow them the liberty also to be able to contact ambulatory services if it goes too far. There's also many many helplines available that can assist you with this.

OCD: Exposure therapy, although in some areas a bit controversial, can be incredibly effective. It's often recommended though to have a counselor or worker with you while this happens if your OCD is quite severe. An interesting thing my counselor recently told me is to make yourself OCD-free zones. Draw out boundaries in your home and town where within certain areas you won't allow yourself and will stop as many compulsive behaviors as you can, and outside the boundaries you're free to do as you please. This can help teach management of negative symptoms as well as show that a little bit of compulsion is perfectly fine.

Borderline Personality: Thought challenging. Before you fly off with your emotions because someone says something that you take as invalidating, try and stop yourself for just a moment and force logic into the situation. Try and show yourself how this comment wasn't meant to make you feel bad, and while your emotions are always valid and you as a person are valid, this comment wasn't meant to be invalidating. Additionally, it's good to have communication about this but REMAIN CALM (as hard as it can be). By calmly sorting out your emotions and opinions you can shed a lot of relief onto a situation.

Bipolar Disorder: Mood tracking, so great. eMoods, Optimism, and a couple other apps for this stuff is out there and can be incredibly useful. Being able to map out your mood cycles and see them graphed makes it much easier to predict, manage and prevent negative self talk and other symptoms.

That's all for now. If you'd like more tips for anything not listed feel free to message me at illusoryacid any time!:

[wnq-movies]

I think the big mistake in schools is trying to teach children anything, and by using fear as the basic motivation. Fear of getting failing grades, fear of not staying with your class, etc. Interest can produce learning on a scale compared to fear as a nuclear explosion to a firecracker.

Stanley Kubrick (via wnq-movies)

[introvertunites]

23 Emotions People Feel But Can’t Explain

Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Opia: The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.

Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

Énouement: The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self.

Vellichor: The strange wistfulness of used bookshops.

Rubatosis: The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.

Kenopsia: The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.

Mauerbauertraurigkeit: The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like.

Jouska: A hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.

Chrysalism: The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.

Vemödalen: The frustration of photographic something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist.

Anecdoche: A conversation in which everyone is talking, but nobody is listening

Ellipsism: A sadness that you’ll never be able to know how history will turn out.

Kuebiko: A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.

Lachesism: The desire to be struck by disaster – to survive a plane crash, or to lose everything in a fire.

Exulansis: The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.

Adronitis: Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.

Rückkehrunruhe: The feeling of returning home after an immersive trip only to find it fading rapidly from your awareness.

Nodus Tollens: The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore.

Onism: The frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.

Liberosis: The desire to care less about things.

Altschmerz: Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had – the same boring flaws and anxieties that you’ve been gnawing on for years.

Occhiolism: The awareness of the smallness of your perspective.

Source John Koenig, writer and creator of The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows.

[pneumaticaxiom]

#Aryan lives matter

[purplebuddhaproject]

[mrbulian]

do u ever spend an entire day being really happy and then when night time rolls around you remember that you’re actually sad and kind of dead inside so you’re just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ well that was fun while it lasted

[purplebuddhaproject]

See if you can catch yourself complaining, in either speech or thought, about a situation you find yourself in, what other people do or say, your surroundings, your life situation, even the weather. To complain is always nonacceptance of what is. It invariably carries an unconscious negative charge. When you complain, you make yourself into a victim. When you speak out, you are in your power. So change the situation by taking action or by speaking out if necessary or possible; leave the situation or accept it. All else is madness.

 Eckhart Tolle  (via purplebuddhaproject)

[gamegrrl]

different types of drunks

1. Party Drunk:

will talk to anyone and everyone

only does shots

has to literally be dragged home at the end of the night because they refuse to acknowledge that the party has ended and they’re the only person still there

2. Blissful Drunk

does nothing but laugh

just happy to be included

too good for this world

loves you so much even though they just met you four minutes ago

probably also does acid

3. Emotional Drunk

not great at parties

is either crying tears of sorrow bc there’s no chips left or crying tears of gratitude bc someone showed them where the bathroom is

brings out everyone’s inner mother

4. Parent Drunk

keeps everyone’s shit together

everyone thinks they’re sober but they’ve actually had 5 shots in an hour

knows when u need to go home and will make sure you get there

holds back your hair when you’re vomiting at 3am

5. Slutty Drunk

never gets cold

makeup never smudges

never has to buy their own drinks

you think they’re sloppy and have no idea what they’re doing but every move is calculated and intentional

6. Sloppy Drunk

wasted by 10pm

needs to be taken home early

will drink anything you give them as long as there’s alcohol in it

a Mess

never learns from their mistakes

[skwad55-deactivated20171013]

VIDEO SHOWS HOW DANCING IN PUBLIC IN THE POLICE STATE IS HAZARDOUS TO YOUR HEALTH

Brendan Carter was on his way to see his sick uncle last week when he was detained by multiple security officers in the public RTS bus station in Rochester, subsequently assaulted by police and arrested — all over his dancing.

According to Carter, he was waiting for the bus to visit his uncle who is in the hospital. Apparently overcome by emotion, Carter said he put his headphones in and started dancing to avoid crying. This dancing got the attention of DHS employees and security officers at the station.

Carter had a bus pass and was breaking no law when the officers approached him. As he explained, when he was told to leave for no reason and the officers put hands on him, Carter became angry. However, as seen on the video, he never once became violent.

He was immediately accused of being drunk (which is not a crime, even if he was) and he was told to leave. A scene ensued after the initial confrontation as Carter refused to leave because all he wanted to do was get on the bus to visit his uncle.

Rochester police were quickly dispatched and the already tense situation would only explode from this point.

After he agreed to leave, Carter began walking out of the station. However, the officer was on an apparent mission to intensify the already-delicate situation.

When the officer arrives, instead of talking to the young man to get his side of the story, or letting him leave like he was doing, he immediately escalates to violence by grabbing Carter and then presenting his taser.

Within seconds, Carter is tasered, physically assaulted, slammed to the ground and arrested.

The entire scene was captured on video by NY Black Panther chapter member Daryl Appleberry. Had Appleberry not been there, this scene could have gotten far worse. Perhaps that is why we hear the RTS security officer’s radio go off, “Annie, get this guy out of there with the camera behind you. Get him out of there!”

Carter was arrested and charged with resisting arrest and trespassing. He was in a public space.

SOURCE

We can’t dance in a public places anymore. It’s like we live in the dystopia.

smh

Such charges as resisting arrest and trespassing are the way to put ANY MAN into a jail. Our criminal justice system is a crime.