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Fucking your way through your 20's

Ok so I've had a BF ever since I was 16 dating guy left and right and never really giving myself a break in between. Now just because I dated young doesn't mean my body count is as high as you'd think. But that's all besides the point. The point is about a year and a half ago I thought I found the one. I know all of you are thinking well damn bitch you're only 21 which is true. But I was applying to work at this restaurant and one of the servers recognized me from HS. So he approached me and we started chanting, I did amazing at my interview and got the job. So I started training and then it became my everyday routine. The server and I became close and started dating everything was good or so I had thought until 1 year and three mini break ups in between I found myself finally single in Oct 2015. Why did we break up you ask well as simply as I can spell it out its all because I was ready for our future the next step and he was not. So we went back and forth for a couple of months of being with each other with out a title until he found out I was sleeping with someone else. Now I will remind you I was SINGLE guys! I could do what I wanted and who I wanted when ever I wanted! Right! No shame in my game. Well anyways we quit talking then we started it up again in Feb of 2016. We needed things yet one more time in the beginning of May. Now while I have always said I LOVE YOU he has never said it back because he thinks it's scared and should only be said to the "one". So tell me how I haven't talked to this nigga in 4 almost 5 months he hits me up on FB we chat and then BOOM that same day we are hanging out having a great time. Now here is the best part! 😂 Tell me how at the end of the night this nigga tells me he is IN LOVE with me and that I am the ONE?! Like are you kidding me. I'm going through an emotional whirlwind RN. There is no way this can be possible right, right? I have no clue. But I legit thought this was the guy I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I just wanted to fuck my way through my 20's after we broke up but now o have no clue what to think. He wants to take things really slow and show me he can be the man to make all my dreams come true but I am so conflicted. Like why now? After all this time why now? I have no clue what to do! I'll always love him but a second chance at forever?! Do I give it a try?

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With bae @sherry_elf23 at the Rays game! #tampabayrays #girlsnite #friday #friends #beer #goodtimes

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Use me for Morphe Brushes!!! 💋 #morphebrushes #morphe #makeup

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#motd #mixedgirl #fkatwigs #inspiration #goodvibes #omw #movingonup #livinthedream #lovewhatido #selfconfidence #selfienation

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Decided to wand my hair today think it came out cute. And of course my #motd #makeupaddict #maccosmetics #suttlelips #anastasiabeverlyhills #selfmadepalette #cocoa #lovewhatido

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Only light can eliminate the darkness. #lumos #blackandwhite #mixedgirl #light #drakness #choices #life

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Yesterday's picture at #buschgardens #tampa #fl #familytime #bffs #funtimes

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Using my #carlibybelpalette I'm in love with all the colors. For anyone who likes neutrals this is a MUST palette! ❤️😩👏 #carlibybel #bhcosmetics #inlove #motd #anastasiabeverlyhills #dipbrowchocolate #betterthansexmascara #toofaced #nyxcosmetics #nyxconcealer #lorealinfallible #matte24hrs #makeupaddict

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It's a new year so that means new beginnings. #selfconfidence #girlpower #mixedgirl #believe #loveyourself #newstart #freshstart #happybeginnings

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My babes @kristenvitone 😍😙😘😚😋

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Trying out some #nyxcosmetics pump it up lip plumper! I have to say I love it more than #toofacedcosmetics their lip injection is amazing but a little bit too much tingle while #nyx has just the right amount. It has a thicker consistency but I love that honestly! I also love how they come in different colors. Glad I picked this up the other day at #ulta

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Yesterday I added new designs to my store (link on my profile under Book Merch Store) but this one is definitely my favorite. It’s also available in pastel colors.

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I still love you....@justinvega

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I'm breaking to the point where I don't know if I can keep going. I don't know who I am anymore and I've gone to a tremendous dark place. I get quite and don't answer people I have isolated myself from the outside world. I feel like someone looking from the outside in. Idk what to do I'm drowning.

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When you wish you hit that 1 year... Missing you, missing us. I'm sorry I fucked up.... 💔