Come down and waste away with me

Spirit-companion blog for a wolfmonster and their husband main blog @alhazad_seawolf ★☆Find someone who grows flowers in the darkest parts of you☆★ ★☆Take heed when things get hard and don't you ever turn around☆★ ★☆You'll find someone, someday, somewhere that grows you to the clouds☆★ ★☆ ☆★ ★★

[poetandwolf]

🌊   Welcome to the island~ here’s my intro~ 🌊  

🐺 Greetings, hello, hi! I am Tala! You also may have heard of me as Grunge. This is my personal blog for my relationship with my spirit husband. Commonly known as Alhazad/Alhazred. (Google him.)

🌌 I am a real whole ass adult. With a normal job and a house and a mortgage and a car and all the fancy adult things and a 401k and glaucoma. If this makes you feel uncomfortable with me being a real adult feel free to block me. I don't care.

🎸 I draw and paint. Quite a bit. You're more than welcome to commission me if you want!

💫 Alhazad is one of the main antagonists of Wild ARMs. He’s also the infamous Alhazred. We’ve been together since 1999. He occasionally goes by the name “Aubrey” in other corners of the internet. If he's pissed you off for whatever reason; - He Doesn't Care. He's probably cackling about it.

Note: I call Alhazad "Aub" or "Al" interchangeably. Please do not mistake the Al for 'ai' and send anon hate/be a dick. Actually don't send any hate or be a dick to anyone, period. If you do he will restructure your genetic code and you'll grow a dick on your forehead head because then you can finally be a dick head.

[brofurin]

f/o helping you tie or hook your swimsuit, f/o helping you apply sunscreen, f/o cutting and feeding you fruit, f/o fanning you so you don’t get overheated, f/o & you having fun, cooling down in some body of water, f/o & you sharing a cold dessert, hurriedly, before it melts, f/o & you playing with sparklers, f/o & you in the summertime <3

[poetandwolf]

I spent so much money on my top surgery and time and babied it so the scars would be small and now the nf1 is turning it onto the texture of a popcorn ceiling and i am very upset about it.

al is being a saint and gentle as ever and weeps for me fearing this shit will spread to my face so thats how things have been going. hah.

[poetandwolf]

anyway when someone calls me "sweetie" I cant tell at first theyre being a total fuckung bitch so I just act like " :3c??oh okay! :D" and innocent and like 3 hours later Al gently addresses " I think they weren't genuine with that and kind of being mean" and then I argue and don't understand how someone calling someone sweetie would be mean and it turns into this whole thing of him having to explain to me that no, babe. people fucking suck and are very rude and dont explain what the fuck they actually mean to people when they want to be a bitch and yeah. I fucking remember that that one time and I hope that person never finds love. :) that one person specifically.

[poetandwolf]

the hidden blessing of having this disease is that I no longer even have the energy to read or give a single fuck about some of the discourse that happens with in communities where people look for things to get outraged about that arent even there because its so fucking nuanced

most of them would never even engage with me and see me as a person anyway because im just so fucking weird due to the nf1 and chiari malformation that make my flavor of autism extra fucking weird and awkward and i look like a regular dude who shops a bass pro. so its like im not faggot enough for anyone to like anyway. even though ive been [redacted per his request before holyshit we nasty] with this metal demon alien since 1999.

anyway Alhazad is really neat. Im gonna go day dream about my blorbos of him. -3- he thinks i'm the cutest sweetest tiny little human that he must protec

[poetandwolf]

" And of course, the more enchanted you get, the more certain you feel that you are not enchanted at all."

[poetandwolf]

channeling him to dig a piece of bamboo out of my finger was not in my bingo card tonight.

ow.

[takaholic]

“I’m terrified of showing you my heart” gf & “I’ve already seen it because you’re terrible at hiding it” bf

[citlali-lover]

f/o ask game !!!

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💒 — are you married ?

🍼 — any children ?

🐾 — what animal would they be ?

🌈 — what's their sexuality / gender ?

✨ — how do they dress ? (give images !!!)

🛍️ — what store do y'all go to first in the mall ?

💘 — any nicknames for them ?

💫 — their fav song ?

🎥 — y'all's fav show / movie / youtuber ?

🌞 — are they a morning or a night person ?

🧸 — [if you regress] are they your caregiver ?

💬 — do you guys have any inside jokes ?

‼️ — RANT ABOUT YOUR F/O !!!!!!

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made by yours truly 🧡🩷

[poetandwolf]

[nightlight-selfships]

Imagine your f/o sharing something with you. Their food, a blanket, some sort of song they love. It's their way of showing they trust you, a way of expressing their appreciation for you.

[poetandwolf]

that time I made a birthday cake for Aubrey and there were so many candles.

[alhazad-seawolf]

He sits close, and gently wraps his arm around me, positions me so he can scoop me up, there's a weightlessness to it and I'm a bit ridged, and he whispers in my ear, his rough old voice ageless and tired and 'seen it all' and gently he says "it's just me.." as he nuzzles against my cheek. His eye makes contact with mine, vulnerable for a moment, pleading almost, to not be afraid to not be stiff and nervous, because it's just him. And I shouldn't be afraid of him. So many others are, but not me, not when it's just us. Not like this. " Breathe... relax, it's just me.." and I nuzzle into him and relax, go limp, and he wraps his arms around me, holding me close. " I love holding you like this." his voice muffled as he buries his face into the side of my head a low purr vibrates from his throat, almost alien but comforting, as it has a relaxing affect on us both. " My little Tala.." he murmurs.

[alhazad-seawolf]

All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away Again

[yumee-topia]

𓎟𓎟 imagine you being your f/os f/o ♡ . they have shrines of you , plushies they sleep with , roleplay accounts of you , they give kudos & reblog every fic of you they can find , they can't stop thinking about you , wishing you were real , wishing you were here with them (⑅˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈ ) . maybe they excitedly talk to their friends & family about you , or maybe they're more closed off and keep to themselves but either way you're the person thats on their mind 24/7 . they're not shy or embarassed to pour their time , care & dedication into loving you . you motivate them to get up in the morning , to do things they're not that fond of . they are simply smitten & couldn't imagine their life with you in it !

[soracchaan]

Oh, my God, no, I love this concept. This is pure genius I love it.

[poetandwolf]

whenever i try and join anything i always feel like an awkward fucktard idiot that everyone views a some kind of threat or a creep or weird. and sorta just cold shouldered or whatever.

especially in queer and furry spaces.

[poetandwolf]