Tramp with a rainbow instead of a brain

Thoughts and all this damn shit from my life. High sensitive, shy and awkward person, foolishly joking, a strange personality, overthinker, esthete. Enjoy if you are ready

[poeticdirewolf]

Grief is just love with no place to go. It aches. It echoes.

[poeticdirewolf]

It’s a bit heartbreaking when you meet a perfect match for yourself in all the possible ways, your friends and family are wondering “are you two together👀?” but you can’t be together ever because she is not gay 💔

[poeticdirewolf]

Some people really don’t know how a simple smile would of suit them.

[poeticdirewolf]

I just froze here for a second. Got up from my seat to get off the train and perfectly got into a beautiful girl. Like.. her eyes, her smile and dark chocolate hair. And we were slowpocking into each others eyes deeply. In about twenty seconds she asked me am I going out. And I was like yeah 😅 AND I WENT AWAY 😭

[poeticdirewolf]

Out of your 840 posts, you only look truly happy in the photos that I took for you. Out of your 840 posts, I sing for you in 4 videos. Out of your 840 posts, I smile for you in 9 photos. Out of your 840 posts, one photo was taken in my old kitchen.

You’re trying so hard to build a perfect family. You strive to create an ideal marriage, posting all this on your feed. You're lying to yourself. Hiding behind the standards. But I know that you will never stop loving me.

[poeticdirewolf]

Tell me is there a love for real or not?

I’ve just got a dream about my first love. Haven’t seen her for ages but when debating about love inside my head her image still appears in a first place. So here I am - an adult, sad and single, laying on a bed and can not snap out of my dream. Just because I saw her. I have had touched her hands. I hugged her. I kissed her lips, she kissed me back. And there were nothing but us in this world what could of have matter that much. Only the moment of our feelings. Sense of her skin under my fingers. Her scent inside my lungs. The way she touches my hair like only she does. That strength with wich she clamped me inside her arms to not to let go.

But in the end she left me. Like she have had years ago because she got scared. My soul is still bleeding. Thought I healed it, but turned out I haven’t though. I still miss you so much. Still love you. Please let go of me…

[poeticdirewolf]

Don't obligate people with your feelings. They are not in need of them. Don’t beg for love. She comes without your desire. Don’t ask for a hug. It would be given to you sincerely, without saying. When the right person will stand next to you.

[poeticdirewolf]

My boss knows that I do like a little bit brown bananas. So she was like „Nat, come to me“ and I was like „Yes, ma’am?“ and she said „I thought about you all the morning“ meantime she gave me that long look straight to the eyes and gave a banana afterwards😅. That was odd but oh well🤣. “She thought about me all the morning” - that sounds not the way I would of think about banana 🤣. This woman drives me crazy 🗡️

[poeticdirewolf]

You know, sometimes I feel myself so lonely. Literally if I will disappear no one will ask for me. It’s so empty and cold somewhere inside of me like I’m dead inside. It makes me cry.

Sometimes when I’m heading home from job I’m thinking of just to sit somewhere and stop breathing because all of this is so pointless and abusive. Our world is full of anger and jealousy, people are being overfilled with pride and bile. I don’t want to see this world like that. It’s just so.. unrealistically real.

Maybe I will woke up in one day and it will be another scary dream?

[poeticdirewolf]

It’s really sad when people says you can’t be together because you are into different religions.

[poeticdirewolf]

Past three weeks I'm working from home because on the new year I fell and turn off ligaments inside of knee. So I was on that meeting and while we were waiting for one more person i grumpy mumbled that couldn’t open damn juice and colleague we where waiting for just joined and was like “do you want me to open it for you”?🤣 Thanks mate, would be nice of you, let me invent teleportation first 🤭

[poeticdirewolf]

Even Siri tells me "Sleep tight" but not you lol

[poeticdirewolf]

Tragedy flows through the veins of women. You can hear it clearly every morning in my apartment.

[poeticdirewolf]

Usually in our dinner time we walking with colleagues in outside. Also my colleagues are gorgeous women, just saying to clarify this story. So at that time there were a lot of people walking in an opposite direction and I had to step back to make a way for them. Several times I walked behind my colleagues after that they look back on me and asked ‘why are you walking behind us?’ and innocently looking at their butts I replied ‘well, I’m just enjoying the view’ and they reacted with flirty laughing ‘owaow damn it, girl, now we know almost all about you’!

[poeticdirewolf]

Today in the morning I met a theoretically perfect guy. He was wearing all black, smelled like god, with deeply brown eyes and black like tar hair, his back was straight as warrior would have. It could of been me and you, man, but I’m gay.

[poeticdirewolf]

When I saw my ex’s type of girls I was like ‘what the.. why are you fell on me?!’ And she was like ‘oh baby I like when people don’t look like me and when we are not similar’. I didn’t get her in that time but now I get you, beauty, IN THIS COUPLE SHOULD BE ONLY ONE PRINCESS WITH APPEARANCE LIKE THAT AND THIS IS ME

[poeticdirewolf]

It taken for me a long time to accept myself in homophobic country. I tried to be straight for many years because of my family and I realised the main thing - it’s only my life and if i will live it in a lie i would be unhappy. You may not tell your family that you are gay every day, but you would not stop being gay. And in one day you will meet a gorgeous soul mate, who will take your heart and will not leave you in doubt.