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Poetic Instruments💋📝 I'm Eric..I Write..It's My Art..My love..My Words.. Understand that this is my home.. Anyone is welcomed.. Feel free from the outside world.. And listen to my.. "Poetic Instruments"

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FOR THOSE WHO REQUESTED A CHAPTER LIST:

Chapter List Part 1:

1 - Long Lost Lambo

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/53902390273/long-lost-lambo-1

2 - Time to Pay Up

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/53909985753/time-to-pay-up-2

3 - Notice You. Noticing Me.

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/53938622189/notice-you-noticing-me-3

4 - The Mood is Right. But the Person is All Wrong.

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/53979308371/the-mood-is-right-but-the-person-is-all-wrong-4

5 - Girl Talk. Boy Talk

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54021064289/girl-talk-boy-talk-5

6 - Sometimes You Have to get a Little Wet

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54062117951/sometimes-you-have-to-get-a-little-wet-6

7 - He’s the Perfect CENT

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54130699562/hes-the-perfect-cent-7

8 - That’s A Bad Idea 

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54390739482/thats-a-bad-idea-8

9 - A Poor Man’s Ciara

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54406684458/a-poor-mans-ciara-9

10 - A Fresh Start

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54484522332/a-fresh-start-10

11 - The ‘Ten Date Rule’

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54635463074/the-ten-date-rule-11

12 - He Can’t Be Trusted

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54722347018/he-cant-be-trusted-12

13 - Runny Eggs And Burnt Toast

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54737898976/runny-eggs-and-burnt-toast-13-cibandz-fanfic

14 - Lazy Love

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54875100021/lazy-love-14

15 - No Old Friends

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/54894498321/no-old-friends-15

16 - We Hit that Rough Patch in Life

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55141624952/we-hit-that-rough-patch-in-life-16

17 - Where Could He Be?

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55228521011/where-could-he-be-17

18 - An Accident Waiting to Happen

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55239902151/an-accident-waiting-to-happen-18

19 - Don’t Walk Away

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55486180392/dont-walk-away-19

20 - Right Where She Belongs

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55571840700/right-where-she-belongs-20

21 - CiCi Loves the Kids

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55655809266/cici-love-the-kids-21

22 - You’re My Little Secret (Part 1 & 2)

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55824767514/youre-my-little-secret-22-part-1

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55826957351/your-my-little-secret-22-part-2

23 - Follow Your Heart

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/55934081011/follow-your-heart-23

24 - The Last Time

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56026247334/the-last-time-24

25 - Surprise! Surprise!

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56161827941/surprise-surprise-25

26 - One Hell of a Party (Part 1 & 2)

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56207318351/one-hell-of-a-party-26-part-1

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56343384665/one-hell-of-a-party-26-part-2

27 - No More Secrets

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56481691843/no-more-secrets-27

28 - Missing You

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56569033521/missing-you-28

29 - The Brawl

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56740147647/the-brawl-29

30 - It’s Definitely Something Deeper

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56744286692/its-definitely-something-deeper-30

31 - The Calm Before the Storm

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56903149906/the-calm-before-the-storm-31

32 - The Storm

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/56935276430/the-storm-32

33 - Patching Things Up

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/57116963548/patching-things-up-33

34 - Being in Love Stinks, Sometimes

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/57299826412/being-in-love-stinks-sometimes-34

35 - Lights, Camera, Action

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/57377200759/lights-cameras-action-35

36 - One Last Thank You

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/57567051400/one-last-thank-you-36

37 - Permanent Love

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/57756484078/permanent-love-37

38 - Finally a Little Closure

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/58297634049/finally-a-little-closure-38

39 - Another Chapter Closed

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/58384204251/another-chapter-closed-39

40 - FaceTime

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/58765420545/facetime-40

41 - The Right Place

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/58839756871/the-right-place-41

42 - Silent Rooms Sometimes Speaks the Loudest

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/59050529663/silent-rooms-sometimes-speak-the-loudest-42

43 - Couldn’t Paint A Better Picture

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/59434027293/couldnt-paint-a-better-picture-43

44 - Paying Attention to Detail

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/59438331153/paying-attention-to-detail-44

45 - Sweating Bullets

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/59618353286/sweating-bullets-45

46 - Costumes Wars

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/59825998366/costume-wars-46

47 - Same Girl

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/60210354311/same-girl-47

48 - A Night to Remember

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/60425159740/a-night-to-remember-48

49 - Night Cap

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/60892757508/night-cap-49

50 - Keeping Up With CiCi

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/61258474397/keeping-up-with-cici-50

51 - Too Close for Comfort

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/61442582861/too-close-for-comfort-51

52 - Hollywood Smile

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/61795142558/hollywood-smile-52

53 - It’s A Small World After All 

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/62155501081/its-a-small-world-after-all-53

54 - I Missed You

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/62724662537/i-missed-you-54

55 - Wedding (Part 1 & 2)

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/63233627498/wedding-eve-55-part-1

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/63773386030/wedding-day-the-final-chapter-55-part-2

Chapter List Part 2:

56 - A Different Me

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68637349123/a-different-me-56

57 - Party Prep

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68697714517/party-prep-57

58 - The Party Don’t Stop

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68823568420/the-party-dont-stop-58

59 - Behind Closed Doors

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68837004545/behind-closed-doors-59

60 - Traffic Jam

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68932217868/traffic-jam-60

61 - A New Taste (Part 1 & 2)

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68992651598/a-new-taste-61-part-1

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/68998699568/a-new-taste-61-part-2

62 - Surprise Guest

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69115426956/surprise-guest-62

63 - I O U

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69219618777/i-o-u-63

64 - I Don’t Trust Her

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69319775704/i-dont-trust-her-64

65 - Making Headlines

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69523091322/making-headlines-65

66 - I Told You So

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69541395776/i-told-you-so-66

67 - Us Against the World

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69625028753/us-against-the-world-67

68 - Funny Running into You Here

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69724056424/funny-running-into-you-here-68

69 - Let’s Get Outta Here

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69828498816/lets-get-outta-here-69

70 - One Last stop 

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/69930895905/one-last-stop-70

71 - Love Her Until She Forgets

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/70132852786/love-her-until-she-forgets-71

72 - How A Minds Mind Works

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/70336876039/how-a-mans-mind-works-72

73 - Crazy About You

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/71270887048/73-crazy-about-you

74 - Parking Lot Disaster

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/71811340899/parking-lot-disaster-74

75 - Keys 

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/71916301443/keys-75

76 - Released

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/72366236955/released-76

77 - Hot Shot

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/72829734124/hot-shot-77

78 - No Worries

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/72930266281/no-worries-78

79 - Confront

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/73262546046/confront-79

80 - Much Needed Vacation

http://fanficgold.tumblr.com/post/74020212907/much-needed-vacation-80-final-chapter

[fanficgold]

Seems so long ago I wrote this! Love to all who took time and read it. And to those who gave me so much feedback!

[fanficgold]

Released #76

“Hey baby,” Future said pitifully on the phone after hearing Ciara’s voice. “Hey Nayvadius! Did they release you?” She asked excitedly. “No. The lawyer said he’s pretty sure everything will be over by tomorrow though.” “What? When I talked to his ass this morning, he was saying that the judge reviewed everything and they were supposed to release you soon.” Ciara responded with frustration. Future sucked his teeth. “I know. That’s what he thought. But I’m not about to sweat it. It’s just one more night.” “Are you crazy? It’s been three whole nights of you being in that place. It’s bullshit. And as soon as I get off the phone with you, I’m calling Peter to see why you’re not home with me yet. This is ridiculous.” “Calm down. You, being mad won’t change this shit. It’s a process babe.” Future said in a calm tone. “Ugh… You’re so strong babe. But I know if you weren’t in their with those big smelly ass men, you would be able to express yourself to me.” Future bust out in laughter. “Babe! What the hell are you even talking about?” He chuckled before continuing. “I’m in this small ass jail. It’s only been like four other people in here for the past two days. And they don’t let anybody near me because of who I am. I’m fine. I’d rather be home with you and my family. But it’s not like I’m in here serving hard time. Just stay calm and let Pete take care of it.” Ciara didn’t find the humor in it. Instead, she just listened as she grab a tissue from the dresser in her bedroom. “Are you listening to music babe?” She curiously asked. “Ummm… Yeah the officer has the radio on for me in the background.” He mumbled. “I have to call the phone service tomorrow because I swear we keep breaking up on this phone. It’s ridiculous to pay for a no good service like this.” She fussed. “Calm down. You’re just upset about everything that’s going on.” He said calmly. Ciara pushed her teeth together tightly before speaking. He knew her, so well. These past couple of nights have been extremely hard for her and she missed him like crazy.  A huge part of her felt she was the blame for all of this. If she had listened to him when he tried to warn her about Darren, none of this would’ve happened. “Baby, it’s so hard not to be upset,” she whispered. “Yesterday, Navayah asked where you were because she needed help riding her bike and I almost broke completely down. She wouldn’t let me help because she said you promised her that you would teach her.” Future sighed on the other end of the phone. “Imma teach her.”  Ding… Dong… “Ugh, Baby that’s the doorbell. How much time do we have left?” Ci asked as she jumped off the bed and started to walked towards the stairs. “We got time! But, were you expecting someone?” He asked.

“Probably, Melanie. She text me earlier to see if I was home.” She mumbled as she reached the bottom step and scrunched her eyebrows at the shadow in her front doorway.

“Oh my God baby!” She swung the door open in excitement after dropping the phone. 

Future handed the phone to his brother Casino right before Ciara jumped into his arms in excitement. 

After a few minutes of non-stop kissing, Casino cleared his throat. “Damn sis. I can’t even get a hello.”

They all laughed while Future carried his wife into the house.

She, finally, unwrapped her legs from around his waste and stood on her two feet.

“When did they release you?” Ciara asked excitedly.

Future and Casino sat down on the couch as Ciara sat in her husband’s lap. “Peter came to the station a couple of hours after meeting with the police and the judge. Every charge against me is getting dropped because they reviewed the surveillance cameras in the parking lot and saw I was only trying to protect you.” 

Ciara teared up in joy, before grabbing his face and softly kissing his lips, once more. 

“Why didn’t you call me?”

“Casino was coming for a visit when they were about to release me, so I didn’t bother to call. I was just trying to get outta there.” He smiled.

“Yo bro! Do you know what’s happening with ol’ boy?” Casino asked curiously, referring to Darren.

Ciara’s eyes got big as she waited for her husbands response. She knew that his Freebandz crew still had every intention on harming Darren for what he did. And with Scooter being around, things could get ugly. Unless, Future tells them all to let it go.

“My lawyer Peter said something about him having an outstanding warrant for domestic violence, taxes, and credit card fraud. So on top of all this bullshit, he looking to do some time. That nigga won’t see daylight for years.” Future answered, before tracing Ciara’s neck with his tongue.

“Aight… Well, I can see what’s about to go down here. So imma just help myself to whatever’s in the refrigerator and be on my way.” Casino mumbled as he walked into the kitchen.

“Where’s the kids?” Future was still chuckling at his brother.

“They’re with Ava, for Trinity’s recital." 

"Shit! I forgot all about that! I told her I was gonna be there. And Trin doesn’t forget shit like that.” He shook his head in frustration.

Ciara sighed. “Ugh… I’m sorry baby. All of this is my fault. I should’ve just listened in the first place.”

“Ci, we talked about this two straight days. I don’t wanna talk about it anymore. It’s not your fault. I’m ready to move on. I’m done with bringing it up.”

Ciara could only shake her head in agreement. They had hashed everything out over the past two days and agreed that when he got home, they wouldn’t bring the situation back up because they needed to move on from it.

“Imma check y’all later!” Casino hugged Ci and shook his brother’s hand while walking out with a plate of food.

“Are you hungry babe?" 

"Not for food,” he grinned childishly.

She could only giggle while walking into the kitchen. “I made spaghetti yesterday.”

“Nah.” He mumbled while pinning her body between him and the kitchen counter.

Weakened by his soft kiss, Ciara wrapped her arms around his neck and clinched her fingers.

He cupped her bottom and lifted her onto the countertop. After working on her neck, he reached down to unbutton her jean shorts.

“Baby no,” she whispered as she lightly pushed him away.

Future ignored her and softly nibbled on her neck as he rubbed between her inner thighs.

She hissed and bit down on her bottom lip as he pushed himself into her sweet spot. “Baby.”

“What?” He mumbled as he attempted to remove her shorts again.

“You need a shower!" 

He sucked his teeth at her words. “I’m clean!”

"Nayvadius, you smell like an old foot.” She giggled as he poked his lips out pitifully.

“You should help me!”

Ciara giggles as she began to walk away. “I don’t see any babies in here. Go get in the shower.”

He sucked his teeth at her response and smacked her butt before making his way up the stairs.

…

He stepped out of the shower and wrapped the towel around his waist.

Ciara smiled at him as he walked towards the bed that she laid on. “Ava called and said the kids wanted to spend the night with Trinity.”

Future never reacted to her words. Instead, he leaned in and kissed her lips. “Did you hear me?”

He smiled slightly and nodded his head as he used his left hand to pull the sheets that covered Ciara’s bare body.

“You’re so silly.” She grabbed his chin after watching him raise his eyebrows in approval.

Breaking his silence, he laughed before kissing her breast passionately.

His tongue slowly traveled from her chest to her waistline as she gripped a handful of his dreads.

After teasing her with a few kisses in the inside of her thighs, he allowed his tongue to reach treasure.

She gasped at his touch and tugged at his dreads. “Hmmm…”

His fingers made their way inside of her causing her to drip all over the bed sheets.

Several minutes went by before he used his mouth to clean up behind himself and change his position.

He was still straddled on top of her, but had moved himself closer to her lips as she pleased him.

Still laying on her back, she took full control of the bedroom. Future gripped the back of the headboard and moaned. “Damn baby.”

She smiled as she let him go and he moved down her body. He eased his way inside her treasure as he gripped her waist.

His stroke deepened, causing Ciara to grip his waist. Her nails pierced his sides as he bit down on her shoulder.

His lips moved towards her ear as he began whispering. “I love you baby!”

Future then laid flat on his back, allowing Ciara to ride his jewel with both hands on his chest.

“Fuck!” Future moaned while quickly changing positions. She was too much for him.

He kissed her back while he stroked her treasure. She screamed in her pillow in complete pleasure.

His stroke quickened, before pausing inside of her and gripping her waist. She gripped her pillow and bit down on her bottom lip.

He kissed her neck and back as he enjoyed the moment inside her treasure! “Damn.” 

She panted in pleasure as he laid beside her on the bed and allowed her to lay her head on his chest. 

They both laid silently. Partially, because they were exhausted. But also because they were in deep thought. It had been a crazy couple of months. And there were times when they didn’t think it was possible to have a peaceful moment to themselves. And that was frightening, but having nights like this made it all worth it. 

[poeticinstruments]

[poeticinstruments]

Don't ask for guidance, if you're not ready to be guided..❤️

-É

[poeticinstruments]

I Don't need concern from the empathetic face you put on for your own conscience...❤️

-É

[poeticinstruments]

Your Negative Words...Doesn't Effect My Loving Heart..✍️🏾

[poeticinstruments]

New Me 💙✍️🏾

New Me💙

The old me would’ve trusted your lies

The old me would’ve feared your pride

The new me doesn’t share their prize

The new me doesn’t allow more than three tries..

Tears followed by out loud cries, always seem to be the new normal for our lives..

Only before would I be scared of your type of love...

Not allowing myself to be involved with your kind of trust..

The type of trust that brings pain, the type to which you're the only party that gains..

The new me doesn’t need your opinion

The new me doesn’t need your heart

The new me just want to be happy...

The new me..is all about me...truthfully.....

sincerely..

genuinely...

[poeticinstruments]

My Heart 💙✍️🏾

My Heart💙

Beating for my existence..

Warming my soul for its happiness...

Chills run through my body when it’s left with pain..

A Sorrowful type of pain..

Mind as well be wrapped in chains..

Abandoned into the wrongs hands..

Entangled in bandages caused by previous circumstances...

I love it too much to release its warmth again..

Wanting to survive in this life..

Not suffer another conflict from another’s selfish pride..

Again I say, this is for me to decide..

Where is the lie?..

My Heart is my pride..

[poeticinstruments]

Don't 💙✍️🏾

Don’t 💙

I sit by the window seal,

Hoping you realized our broken deal..

I’ve Given so much..So much energy into our relationship ...

where’s your dedication?..

You said you wanted to have a break...

To Notice that break turned into a heartache...

A promise for me to stay strong..

A promise for me to stay true to my worth..

I was told a long time ago, don’t let pain consume into your work...

Still, still doubting myself..

Still letting it win, not giving in..

The fear that I’m letting consume into me..

eats away at my happiness..

Don’t let it suppress..

[poeticinstruments]

Fade💙✍️🏾

Fade💙

For when the sun rise..

To the lasting set..

I stand right here beside the memory that’s left of you inside my chest..

To only be afar, let alone apart of the other memory that fades away..

Day to day you stay to yourself, like the lines to a page...

you don’t allow to be phased by the erasing of my presence..

Like you were never there..

Can we be fair?

Were you really there?...

Let it all bare....let me speak to the soul you claim to never have..

Such a grasp...

Nothing left but the past....

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Escape💙✍️🏾

Escape💙

Middle Destination..

Sides of the path taken..

Truthfully Forsaken

An Abandoned Civilization

Day by day, Fate by fate

I’m living within a magnitude of some foul play..

From your way of care...

Left for me to be drowned in a unfair despair .

I want to hide, forget this mind..is this really now the time?

I have to make it mine..

My love, but it’s so hard to find..

To make a way somehow..

Protect myself by the pound..

Where is my middle ground?..

[poeticinstruments]

Unclaimed Judgment 💙✍️🏾

Unclaimed Judgment💙

I looked to your judgment as my guidance..

Only to find your judgement like everyone else’s...

meaningless silence..

So, What made your heart so special?

My pain was taken only to be reverted back to me in a softer place.

A place that would only come back in a later presence from a different residence..

Only When I feel down...I take a listen to my sound..

the one sound that I know I can run to...to cry to...even breathe to..

Just like a shattered glass, broken...

Even if repaired it would never be the same..

Before I wasn’t so sane...

But now I know your ways, doesn’t have a place in

my heart to claim..

[poeticinstruments]

Your Words 💙✍️🏾

Your Words💙

You asked me for my love..

So why would you run away?..

Abusing my vulnerability, chipping away at my soul each and every day..

You said that you would never leave..

Be there until the very end...no?

Is it that you didn’t want me in the beginning?...

Just what you could get out of me?..

Misunderstanding the words , the actions, by all means...

Is it all on me for not judging your heart correctly?..

You said yourself that you would be there for me...

So your words never meant anything?....

Could’ve sworn I heard you say that...

It was your words...

Words that you brought up, brought out..

You'd let it drown...

You'd misplaced my crown..

It was your words...

You rode that curve...and I let it disperse..

Silly of me to trust your words...

Your silly words..

Wouldn't be the first..

[poeticinstruments]

"Don't let someone's disapproval, guide you into a place where you don't belong."

💙✍️🏾 É

[poeticinstruments]

“Sometimes we have to walk in the opposite direction to where the wind blows..We have go against the odds..take risks..”✍🏾💙

[poeticinstruments]

Closure💙✍🏾

Closure💙

Waking up with a feeling of emptiness..

half of my soul in the ground and the other still

sitting in your heart..

you took the last part of me..

can I be me again?

you don't want me to be happy again?

just release my soul back to me...

I allowed your presence to consume my

judgment...which clouded my intelligence..

to which a mind that's lost since you came into my life..

as much as I want to cut you out...

My heart automatically fills with doubt..

let us have this closure so we can go our separate ways..

so I can trust my heart, I don't need your part.

[poeticinstruments]

Sad Melody💙✍🏾

Sad Melody💙

Melodies of the tears that fall to my pillow case...

A certain chase that belittles any waiver that comes to my way...

Scared to take flight on my own, from a pedestal

that’s already set as my home..

The door was always open, it was just up to me if I wanted to walk through or not...

It feels so cold to be in a place that doesn’t allow my heart to be warm...

I want to be great...let me be great..

At least for this day...

The melodies doesn’t stop..

Guess I need a new case...

Need to put a stop to this chase..

Stop giving this pain a chance, to have the satisfaction of winning my confidence....