Rebecca

Hi everyone :) My name is Rebecca and I have discovered in myself a very profound love for writing as of late. I think it's important to share our inner musings with the world and so here I am. My writings are marked with "R.L." at the end. I hope my words can reach you.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

I feel a new spring coming. I am who I am. Thank god for change. There is hope for change and then, there is change. Filling your senses with what livens your heart. Clinging to passion for dear life in hard times. Being brought to a place that begins to feel like ether. It's real this time. Come to me. I don't have to ask. Two blinded to what is tangible, but putting everything they have into wistfulness. A beautiful wistfulness. Eye closed, hearts open, hands reaching. The only kind of music we like is the music we can feel. The only kind worth anything to us. Let's remember before it's too late. Beauty in spring. The taste of what's to come Blooming more and more into something bigger with each sun-laden, golden day. There is beauty in springs. I am okay, I'm just fine. Can you believe it? Sure as a melody resolves to its last note, you are coming. So our two melodies may collide and resolve wondrously into one another.

11-26-18 // Juniper

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

A new point of view, I'd take for you Where nowhere else I've seen it through My own rebellion Is lost in its way Too much to handle, Not enough to pay Seeing in the way I see ocean spray And taking my time I'm doing just fine Where you've never heard of me "Well why ever rhyme?" It's not the words I feel the worst Down every hole Is a lane unexplored I can't bring myself To feel so implored All of a sudden it's put to rest Don't try too hard, but I'm doing my best To keep it away To keep it safe I keep it where it's never awake Too bad, I was just feeling it where you touched The lighter to my skin is just too much.

Anew // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

I used to beg for rain and it used to fall trickling down the glass walls of the glass box covering me keeping me dry and keeping what I wanted where I could see but not touch.

glass box // R.L.

[gothcostco]

not to be too millennial but

no money

[celanon]

no house

[clst]

just avocado

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

The wind whispers wistful promises across my pink skin The strange sensation eludes me before I can fully feel So deep, I find it, to be gone so soon But it might return when I am no longer expectant It was almost like fingertips Providing intimate consolation. Almost as though it was tangible. But nobody can expect such things to remain Or keep them warm for too long This is a most temporary world Where the air will always stand still for a blissful moment Before turning right back into the wind.

Promises, promises // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

Is everything going to be okay? Is it truly? Well, I know it's not at this moment But can it ever be? I'd rather taste the fire That rises from a pit in my stomach Than feel the way that I do. Where do you think I should go? There's a question you've died to hear. But instead of lying in wait, for it You've chosen to chew off my ear It's just blackness. Just blackness. Stop trying to figure it out. It's very simple really Not to you though, so you always go sit and pout. A fairy spoke to me last night And told me to embrace the poison I failed in my subconscious But succeeded when it came to reality. Lucky, Lucky me. Don't blame me, I've only been your pawn In this game But you can't change the moves you've made Surely you couldn't get mad at the pieces You placed With your own T w o Hands.

blame & who it belongs two // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

I can't think in the midst of background noise Under water I see things caught in involuntary slow motion Coming to a halt In their tracks After so long being alive and well The water rushes in and around How long has it been like this? The words escape me desperately No one hears No reply. They see my frantic movements Waving around like it's the last thing I'll ever do The deep blue surrounding all of my being And they sit on that rock underwater as well But they're fine and they sit and stare as if nothing is, or ever was, there.

coming down to it // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

Yeah, what ?

Well damn guys, I kind of disappeared off the face of the earth for awhile due to various reasons and I log back on here tonight and 40 more of you have appeared ?? Tbh I assumed I would have lost that many. You guys are cool, alright, and I'm thinking I might be coming back with some new stuff here. Maybe tonight. :) See you soon.

[atticuspoetry]

‘Magic’ #atticuspoetry #atticus #magic

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

something new is brought to mind I think I'm in your chokehold I can't help it though I don't mind but I wish I trusted in this enough to let myself run blind to you it's not like I haven't already done the thing that's the most involuntary You're a dream, but I won't say the one I never thought would come yet.

well hey there. maybe i’ll see you soon? // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

the truth of the matter will be revealed to us only once outside noise has been quieted down. our emotions cannot come to a true conclusion if bombarded with artificial inducers of feeling though the feeling might feel so beautiful in the moment the thing is that the only factor we can safely trust is what we hold within ourselves untethered unbiased uninfluenced the purest form of self and understanding of self.

clear your mind. // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

life throws me a curve-ball when you show up in my dreams on occasion and i struggle a little bit more that day i think about it a little harder than i usually ever do anymore and my heart starts to ache just a little that is until you're back to being just as small as the day before when the night has finally passed

not even tangible // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

"Put your thoughts to sleep, do not let them cast a shadow over the moon of your heart. Let go of thinking."

- Rumi

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

dragged me under with claws outreached digging into my pale flesh like daggers like daggers a little part of me died and it spread to the rest of me now i don't know where i put my head or where they made me lose it cover me under the way i am but it's too late for that i can't reach back it's the best i'm ever doing which is hopelessly and terribly sad.

trying my best, not enough i guess // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

In the understanding the end is falling it's under me the way You're calling don't underestimate as much as you're willing because I am not when the rest of you are dancing in the flames and drinking in the burn

Burnt // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

a little piece of ocean to keep you calm in winter to remind you of what you had and what may still exist again if you make yourself survive through the ever-returning cruel temperatures

don’t forget about the ocean // R.L.

[poeticmusingsofrebecca]

thinking about it feels how blood tastes in your mouth your head is losing sleep over something that's just not worth it anymore. and you got really sad hearing tiny reminders, bits & pieces only when your mind went there it's pain, but your mind still wanted to keep going there

too much lost sleep // R.L.