Ice They/Them

Some idiot that writes a lot of poetry

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Words

My words out loud are simple

The words in my head, complex

My thoughts balancing on a thimble

Making it difficult to find the correct format

I find it easier to write out on paper

My thoughts slower and concise 

I take my time to interpret metaphors and similies 

From my broken and battered mind 

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Life Unjust

Have you heard the stories 

of those gone without justice?

I have one of my own.

Would you like to hear of this crisis? 

I tell a tale of a young girl

Not even a decade old

She lives her life carefree

Until forced into a mold

Betrayed by those meant to protect her

Ignored pleas by those who should’ve helped her

Unbelieved by those meant to hear her

Unjustified justice to the one who harmed her

She lived with this pain

It never went away

Time forced with an abuser

Likely looking for ways to use her 

She accepted this treatment as truth

This was what she deserved

She accepted harm from others

Believing it to be earned

The girl met someone adored

Someone who could “do no harm”

Whatever he said, she was on board

She had fallen victim to his charm

Used again

She felt dirty

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LOML

I look in their eyes

and they look into mine

to no one's surprise

our heart rates incline



My darling owns a heart of gold

with looks to match

I pray their soul never grows old

for this one is truly a catch



Freckled face and speckled irises

I feel my face warming at the thought

This may just be what my bias is

But their eyes truly have me caught



The love of my life

Light guiding me at sea

I'll never be caught in strife

So long as it's them and me

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Cravings

Not even a day without

And yet I’m feeling the drought

My body craves the sensation

The feeling of high elevation



My mind craves but I detest

It’s the last thing I want inside me

Though it made me feel blessed

Of it, I want to be free

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Test Anxiety

Tests, quizzing,

Assignments missing

Many things pilling 

My mind spiraling

Lectures combining

Hours inclining

Missing the timing

Attempting rhyming

Will I complete this with success

Or will I end up like the rest? 

Can I prove that I am worthy? 

Or will I fail this endless test?

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Think and Ponder

Think and ponder,

yearn and longer,

for the things I long for,

for the things I can't have

A steady mind

A steady hand,

A fragile ego

is all I have

Yearning for my simple beginnings

Trapped in my humble present

I'm lucky, I'm gifted,

yet still stuck in this prison

My mind is a cage

I've long lost the key

golden objects just out of reach

wondering if I'll ever be free

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Time Flows

I sit and think

driving myself to the brink

Insanity is a delicate thing

I'm wary of taking its wing

Too many changes to track

Too late to go back

I'm caught in unhealthy addictions

Trying to count the additions

Awake one moment

Just waking the next

Time is going too fast

Terrifying knowing we're never going back

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Giving Too Much

I gave it my all

but I still take the fall

I make my decision

plan it out with precision

but as I make the first incision

I encounter a collision

I gave you my all

you call me a doll

never once did I stall

and yet, I still took the fall

I never get what I give

just forget and forgive

don't lash out, let them live

why can't I ever get what I give?

I gave you my all, be it big or small

winter or fall, Nepal to Montreal,

haul or install, it didn't matter I always gave you my all.

And you always let me take the fall.

[adreoss]

Strength

Alone in my room Just remembering how gorgeous she was And how her face overflowed with life Ice skin but fire eyes Tough nature but the brightest smile Explosive but tender at the same time

I can’t imagine her being afraid I can’t even remember a tear on her face I was just seven when she left

I want to think that these memories exist But I can’t remember much of her Apart from being a force that couldn’t be stopped Apart from that smile, I wish I could see it one more time Apart from that last hug that still warms my soul Apart from those last words, she shouted through the phone: “Something happened - I’ll call you back, bye.”

But she couldn’t call me back But I couldn’t hear her nevermore But he made her disappear from this land And I forever lost her from my sight Even though now she is She is The strength that keeps me alive Goodbye.

Adrian G

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College Years

Grade, Middle, High

All the years have flown by

I walk in looking toward the sky

Processing the times, I try

I feel like such a child

Yet am perceived as an adult

Looking back at how much I smiled

Wondering what changed my result

I so want to be motivated

To be successful and eager

But all this work is quite hated

My mind thinks of it as meager

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People Watching

I watch people pass me by

I wonder where they’re going

As I ponder, and my mind wanders, I think;

“Do they wonder the same about me?” 

I begin to avert my eyes as people strut on

Hoping they don’t notice my unease

I just don't want anyone

To continue to notice me

I see movement in the corner of my eye

I resist the urge to look

Do other people think the same,

Are we all caught in this hook?

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Wishes

I wish I could be anything

Other than what I am

Sometimes I wish to be a songbird

Singing in the A.M.

Perhaps I could be a dog

Snoozin’ by the fireplace

Or perhaps I could be a tiny frog

Just chillin’ on a log. 

Alas, I must live with what I was assigned

As well as this restless mind

I need to learn to leave these thoughts behind

Before reality, I come blind