things id never tell you

life may or may not be about finding true love but it’s certainly not about begging for it from someone. var sc_project=12321566; var sc_invisible=1; var sc_security="00beb736"; var sc_remove_link=1;

[anxietycherry]

Stirring the pot 👻💚💜

[julia-the-autumn-witch-deactiva]

[fallingforfall13]

[octobermourning31]

[pointlessnow]

F*ck Jobie Calderon from Beaumont

[pointlessnow]

Something that irks me more than anything else is: I had a grip on myself. I can distinctly remember being able to outthink my own emotions, my instincts. I remember being in control of most situations, even with adults, because I understood everything better than people assumed I did. People assumed that I couldn’t see right through them and it was my most efficient asset. 

Now.. I am overwhelmed with life and consciousness. I can’t get back to that girl — the reason she was so powerful was because experiences hadn’t tanked her. She was aware, and floating; a hell of a combination. 

Now.. I can’t find the stones in my pockets, even though I feel them getting heavier by the second. I can’t fucking breathe, let alone think straight. I don’t know how to find her again but until saltwater fills my lungs I will continue to call for her and hope and hope and hope and hope and hope and hope an-

[pointlessnow]

i always pick the guys who have “best friends”. i thought i had good taste in dudes, but damn. i’m blind as a fucking bat.

[pointlessnow]

it’s like hearing “he called dibs first” all over again. “you guys are so close, why haven’t you dated?” “well joe called dibs on her.” 

except this time, you guys are close, best friends, and you’d sleep together. “it just didn’t work. it was bad.” i saw you begging to see her. what happened was you moved. it wasn’t her, it wasn’t you, it was the location. i am the consolation prize.

you don’t need to lie.

[pointlessnow]

I drink to forget about you, but you’re always there at the bottom of the bottle, daring me to drink another.

- pointlessnow

[pointlessnow]

i told my dad she followed him and he said “oh god, again??” lmaoooo

even my dad better understands the situation, big yikes

[pointlessnow]

really really really should have seen it coming from abby also should have somewhat seen it coming from joey and this is what i get for expecting anything else. i suck.

[pointlessnow]

“i can change.” but they won’t. you know better.

[pointlessnow]

the choice between me and someone else has been presented several times in the last few months, and your decision has never been me

[pointlessnow]

this def came back to bite me in the ass lol

[pointlessnow]

a life update

1. ow, i am in pain.

2. ow, i am in pain, physically.

3. siri, can exes be friends?

4. siri, do we make room for people who make fun of us when we’re angry or emotional?

[apocryphics]

Susan Sontag

[pointlessnow]

you know i had a bad day because an earthquake just made me cry lol

how is my boyfriend the person who seems to care least?

[blossomfully]

“So I said: “please love me,” and what I meant was: please treat me gently. Please love me with a love that can be felt. That can be touched. A love that I can write about gracefully if and when it ends. Which I may look upon with pacific eyes, and say: “that was a good love. It had to end but it was good.””

Sue Zhao // Nothing but Strawberries