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[poisondmg]

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⟢ W H O

Hey, I'm Judas. You can also refer to me as Jude in polite company. I'm an artist, a friend, a lover, a weirdo, a fag, and so on.

⟢ W H A T

I am a goth latino that likes to post. In my day-to-day I'm a graphic designer, and in my free time I like to yap, write, draw, listen to music, cook, get high, hang with friends, roleplay, talk about and look at dark stuff, play D&D, love plague doctors, laugh about serious stuff, think about sex, contemplate death, dance at goth night, and more.

⟢ W H Y

I have NPD & autism. Demi-ish. T for ~10 years. Mixed White/Latino. Able-bodied. I'm a socialist of some kind. I believe in a Free Palestine. Anti-Organized Religion. Pro-Sex Work. Pro-Kink. Anti-Censorship. Pro-Online Literacy. Pro-Trans Rights. Anti-Exorsexism & Intersexism. Pro-Disabled Rights. Pro-Informed Complete Bodily Autonomy. Fuck online discourse. Being politically engaged or marginalized is not a free pass to be horrible to others, so be a respectful person or begone. I would fuck the block button if i could.

⟢ H O W

You will expect to see funny stuff, my interests, my ramblings, and more on here. I do not tag triggers, but i will tag things like flashing lights. This blog is meant to be positive outlet for the things I like. If you don't like the things I like, too bad. Unfollow me. This blog is NSFW for sexual discussion + topics.

⟢ T A G S

General #vid - Videos #journal - My ramblings #laugh rule - Things that genuinely made me laugh #srs stuff - Serious topics. These are routinely deleted. #kink talk - discussion of sex & kink that's too serious for my NSFW Interests #lolxh - The Legend of Luo Xiaohei #patho - Pathologic #nianah - No I Am Not A Human #f&h - Fear and Hunger #jerma - the streamer Jerma985 #nl - the streamer NorthernLion #vinny - the streamer/musician Vinny Vinesauce #penny - the steamer/comedian Snapcube

[poisondmg]

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I really appreciate the people that message me telling me that i can talk to them about things but i hate having to weep and tell my problems to strangers because what can you possibly do to help me? my immediate circumstances are not fixable or changeable, i already devoted half of my life and all of my early adult life to work and devotion to someone in hopes that the rest of my adulthood would be smoother sailing compared to my childhood and teen years and it was a complete waste of time. I went from being the happiest ive ever been in my entire life and thinking i was on track to getting married to having nothing to look forward to other than for the day that i can try to start over again, and i have no idea when or if that day will ever come. I have no idea how to interact with people no matter how much i try, i'm narcissistic and autistic and bossy and i'm unfixable. Who could possibly compare to fifteen years of devotion i committed myself to? Who else is ever capable of knowing me to such a degree? Who else can i possibly trust with my mind, much less my fucking body? I keep waiting and working and hoping that things will change for the better but it's not. I'm stuck and I can't do anything about it because i have people depending on me and I can't even depend on myself. Fifteen years. You cannot undo or make up for or fix fifteen years.

[poisondmg]

idk if i want to go to goth night tonight... I've just been feeling so bad lately. I don't know if dressing up and going to dance is something I have within me.

[poisondmg]

im going to take a shower and shave and see if i still wanna go

[doomdos]

[9e978e]

via

[poisondmg]

idk if i want to go to goth night tonight... I've just been feeling so bad lately. I don't know if dressing up and going to dance is something I have within me.

[natureell]

[landsccape]

[lierdumoa]

Every time an author reassures readers that the smut is skippable I sigh a disappointed sigh. This is not a reassurance. Why would anybody who likes smut want to read smut that was only included as an afterthought and has no impact on the narrative? Insulting. Just don't write it at all if you're not going to make it matter.

[poisondmg]

we gotta do something about climate change. Goths are already an endangered species

[akaaudrey]

Black Cicada hatching

[storm-of-feathers]

a severe thunderstorm warning that doesnt follow through is worse than orgasm denial

[rnismatch]

Smiles fondly at my memories

[rnismatch]

Deletes them all

[hutsonwoolyums]

It’s vitally important that people remember that no matter how many followers someone has on here they’re still literally just some person with a blog and not, like, The Authority on anything.

[poisondmg]

3am and im thinking of putting my passing privilege to the test (wanna walk around outside)

[poisondmg]

not walking around (yet) but i’m sitting outside and it’s very peaceful. Comfortable. Slightly humid. It might have rained, or perhaps the rain still clings to the clouds outside.

The crickets chirp away. I hear dripping water. The lights of the neighbors’ fairy lights pulsate above me.

i wonder what it would be like to just start walking and not stop.

[poisondmg]

Its nice enough i suppose

[bpdmutt]

the concept of your favorite person enabling all your toxic behaviors and encouraging it and accepting you as you are. the thought that they secretly enjoy how emotionally dependent you are on them, how much power they have over you, and see it as validation rather than something unhealthy. ah, to feel accepted and wanted without being judged or called "too much."

[poisondmg]

3am and im thinking of putting my passing privilege to the test (wanna walk around outside)

[poisondmg]

not walking around (yet) but i’m sitting outside and it’s very peaceful. Comfortable. Slightly humid. It might have rained, or perhaps the rain still clings to the clouds outside.

The crickets chirp away. I hear dripping water. The lights of the neighbors’ fairy lights pulsate above me.

i wonder what it would be like to just start walking and not stop.