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Hi, void. 🙃

Feeling dragged down, like so many. Just returned to work (from home) after two whole years of solely stay at home mom-ing and it is off to a rocky start. I feel guilty, excited, sad, relieved, etc. We can use the money (who can’t) and I am lucky to even have this position available to me. I am *only* 30 and somehow it feels like I’ve already exhausted my abilities. I know that isn’t true, but it’s hard not to spiral. The years are going by so fast and sometimes I feel like I’m not even here, like I’m missing half of everything. It’s hard to talk to anyone (aside from my therapist lol) about any of this because there are so many terrible things happening around us. Everyone is at their limit.

Yet we persist.

Also wanted to show you my sweet little baby Kevin, adopted last month and growing so fast.

No writing prompt tonight, just enjoy my snake baby. :)

#ball python #snakes of tumblr

Consider: becoming a blog dedicate to posting fun windows I see on my walks.

Also consider: getting a better phone that can take photos quickly and in focus OR actually utilizing the DSLR camera I spent a pretty penny on years ago.

To be continued.

#philly #window

I’ve decided I’m going to dedicate this page to getting back into writing in a variety of (yet undecided) ways. I picked up a book from a Little Free Library in my neighborhood - 642 Tiny Things to Write About…so maybe once a day here? As a little nighttime unwinding session? We’ll see how it goes, I’m not putting any pressure on it. :)

Oh, and Go Birds.

anxeious

I’m feeling bittersweet about this account. I made so many connections through these posts - there was so much pain and loneliness in younger me that was seen and heard by friends online that I hadn’t found offline. I’ve been through so many versions of myself since teenage me. I’m a full on partner and mother now, and a stay at home mom at that. Something I never thought I’d live to see, let alone accomplish if I was around to see it.

I don’t even really know why I’m posting this…I suppose it’s nice to have a place to write thoughts. A little like screaming into the void. Maybe that’s what this felt like? Screaming into a void that sometimes screamed back…I don’t know. Maybe I’ll write some more on here. TBD.

I hope your life is filled with joy and people who love you.

What is up my guys

thefuzzydave

The Headlines of 2020

Are we still on here hi

I got married in November :)

Love u bye

thuguke

when you make a self deprecating joke around someone who’s not depressed

death-420

does anyone have that gif of a penis growth ad thats a guinea pig that stretches out rly long and a girl says “hot!” and the guinea pig spins around pls i need it

raeuberkotzenrotz

I gotchu

death-420

YES!!! YES!! YES!!!!!

timefriend

the new and improved ouija board will now have emojis on it

timefriend

me: is anyone there… ghost: -slaps my hand over to the 😂-

archbudzar

follow my art on Instagram

(C.B)(4.19.19)

franzkafkagf

this is how we win

bimbogollum

Every post where it says “history books leave this out” and “historians are trying to hide this from us” is just code for “I have literally never picked up a history book outside of high school history class in my entire life”

nellygwyn

It’s very clear what Isy is saying in this post and yet, the absolute fuckery in the notes seems to think this is more complicated than it is. Isy is acknowledging that there is no active conspiracy amongst historians, especially historians who are operating TODAY i.e. in 2020, to cover up any aspect of history. Historians can *be* anyone and so they write about anything and everything. School curriculums are different, of course: curriculums have always been political, but historians are not responsible for what is on the curriculum (and what is omitted), and thus, that’s a different (albeit occasionally related) conversation. Isy is saying that taking unsourced, often entirely made-up Tumblr posts at face-value and 100% believing that you didn’t know said dubious fact because all historians are actively hiding it from you is absurd and shows you haven’t interacted with what historians in 2020 are doing and writing. It might be true that SCHOOL left out important details but like I said, that’s a new conversation (that needs to be had, fyi).

Plus, making up for that lack of historical knowledge by only using social media is bad. There’s nothing good about taking everything you read here as the God’s honest truth. I’m not saying you can’t find good history/historians on social media. You absolutely can. I’d like to think I count as a fairly competent historian who uses Tumblr and Twitter quite extensively. But be mindful and thoughtful always! Don’t always take things at face-value! Be curious, and expand your search beyond the confines of self-righteous ‘LET ME TELL YOU A THING’ Tumblr.

sandersstudies

There’s a reason lots of good parents say to babies stuff like

“You’re excited to go to the park!”

“Oh, it makes you mad that we can’t go outside.”

And then when the babies get a little bit older the parents can say

“You seem upset. Are you sad?”

“Are you excited that gramma is coming over today?”

Which lets the kid (who is learning to utilize speech) respond with yes or no, which may prompt more questions, like

“So you aren’t sad, are you angry?”

“Yes, does it make you happy when gramma is here?”

And then, finally, when the child is learning to use language in a more complex way, the parents can say,

“How does it make you feel?”

“Why are you feeling like that?”

And it’s all about teaching emotional awareness. I really reccomend using the process on yourself. Learn to ask, “am I happy?” “Am I sad?” “Am I anxious?”

Then practice identifying, out loud or on paper if you can, “I’m happy.” “I’m upset.” “I’m sad.” “I’m anxious.”

Final step: “Why am I feeling anxious? I’m still thinking about that awkward conversation earlier.” “Why am I happy? It’s such a beautiful day outside.” “Why am I sad? None of my friends are responding to my messages.”

It really helps you notice patterns (“I’m more likely to be happy when I’m around this person.” “When I haven’t eaten, I often feel angry.” “If I don’t plan ahead, I get anxious.”) which is the first step in avoiding things and people that are bad for you and encouraging things and people that are good.

sandersstudies

Basically don’t forget that you’re just a baby who got more complicated.