You are a fucking asshole. I hate you so fucking much ###. I shouldve let you "kill yourself" when you tried to blame me for it. I bet you wouldnt have. You just wanted to corner me.
I shouldve left you when you first confessed that disgusting shit. Why did i even try to "help you get better", you never wanted to. I was 14 not a fucking therapist.
Its been years and i still cant get over it.
I wasted 9 months away with you. It wasnt even fucking worth it.
By the way? I discovered I too am. A system. Pretty interesting huh? Yeah. The main host we had at the time went dormant after our break up.
Speaking of which. Sam still misses #####. I hope he's doing well, i wish him and #### the best. Because holy fucking shit, having you as a host? Must be hell. No- I know it was. Yknow why? Cus they told me, they told me how shitty you were and to get away from you and i never did
I yelled at my irl best friends because they tried to get me to open my eyes about you.
What ill never fucking forgive?? How you shaped my canon. That source is already nasty and you somehow made it worse. Shaped me into your perfect victim, cause a two year age gap and incest isnt enough. Lets add more! Then blame me over it. And have your stupid little girlfriend go yell at me over it. I bet she kins that hussy source gf of yours now. Disgusting.
I hope you two are oh so happy!!! /sarc
And i hope you miss me. Also. I hope you dont actually believe that bullshit that i "forced you to get better" or "guilt tripped you". Im sorry for not knowing how to react to suicidal people!! Not like i told u a hundred times abt my past w those scenarios!! Not at all!! /sarc. Fucking sorry i didnt just enjoy being neglected and ignored for weeks?? Oh my god!! Its called caring about your partner
No. I hope you miss the power you had over me. I hope she's never the same. I hope you get tired of her "strong will" and all that bullcrap. I hope you miss projecting on me. Treating me as your easy victim. Stupid little fetish. You disgust me.
Worst fucking shit is how much I question my own trauma. Cause surely it cant be grooming. Surely. Cause you were also a minor. But GOD I DONT FUCKING CARE. YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. YOU WERE SEX REPULSED WHEN I ME SENT U NUDES AND U NEVER TOLD ME??? YOU WERE THE ONE TO NORMALIZE IT. I HAD NEVER DONE IT BEFORE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ONLINE. YOU SAID IT YOURSELF "I SHOULDNT EVEN HAVE TO ASK YOU. YOU SHOULD TAKE PICTURES WHENEVER YOU CAN WHEREVER YOU ARE." AND I DID. AND THEN U TRY TO PLAY THE VICTIM?? LIKE I WAS HARASSING YOU??
AND OH OFC YOU "CAN NEVER TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING" YES YOU FUCKING CAN. I DONT MAKE IT ABOUT MYSELF. I ASK FOR REASSURANCE WHEN THINGS SEEM LIKE THEYRE GOING TOO MUCH TOWARDS "I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE". AND I KNOW THIS ISNT A ME PROBLEM CAUSE I HAVE A WONDERFUL FIANCE NOW AND HE DOESNT DO ALL OF THIS SHIT.
I fucking hate you. Fuck you. You make me feel like a kid again, every time I think of you.
You make me feel and look like a fucking fool.
Oh my god. I cannot believe you would come to me with this, acting like you are such a little victim. Really, I am glad that it ended, I never realized how terrible you were for me until later.
Always wanting me to change? Oh talk to you more, get better, be healthier. You knew all the stuff I had gone through, and still I wasnt good enough for you? Controlling me, not respecting that I am like this BECAUSE OF MY OWN TRAUMA, trying to change me, like I am never good enough for you! And now for you to say I should kill myself when you know how suicidal I was??? No wonder I didnt think I could talk to you!
And if I ever hurt you?? that is your own fault for not pushing back more. How was I supposed to know you didnt want to send those pictures? You did it willingly. For you to turn it around on me now is insane. Maybe I let you send them because I thought you wanted to?? Ever think about that???????
