You should go outside its good for you \⁠(⁠ϋ⁠)⁠/⁠♩

Yo whats up im River and shit is wrong with me *Tw mental health things and all thats jazz*

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why so cold? me no like this kind of cold

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hey y'all its been a hot min i know but i wanted to tell yall I'm getting better. life has been good and that's y I took a step back from here and I've been mia. I'm actually ok for once and its crazy.

but rn I'm in a weird spot guys at school are telling me a guy in my grade likes me and he is also in that class. but I have a guy feeling it's all a lie, but i don't want it to be. it's always been on of the people who you know you like but you keep it so far down you tell no one its so crazy. the guys in my class RN are getting my hopes up and its crushing me..i know the kid i like is also hooking up with a girl 2 years younger too which is crazy. but he's really cute and has done no wrong in my direction or too my friends and it's such a crushing feeling. my whole world is shattering rn and idk how to feel

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

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i cant belive she dosent believe me

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work is gonna make me kms

[polluted-puddle]

I found myself within you even though Ill never see you again

ill never talk to you again but you saved me

you held me while I cried and made me laugh when needed

You helped me find peace in this hell and now you will never see it

never see me thrive in life

find my confidence or ever be happy

all because i messed up

you will never see who i can really be

You will never see me not be like my mother

I promised you I could be a good person and now im doing better than I ever have

im an amazing person because I found myself within you and now you will never see me really be me

[polluted-puddle]

I may still have my moment but im gonna do better without you here

Watch Me, oh wait you wont

[polluted-puddle]

I found myself within you even though Ill never see you again

ill never talk to you again but you saved me

you held me while I cried and made me laugh when needed

You helped me find peace in this hell and now you will never see it

never see me thrive in life

find my confidence or ever be happy

all because i messed up

you will never see who i can really be

You will never see me not be like my mother

I promised you I could be a good person and now im doing better than I ever have

im an amazing person because I found myself within you and now you will never see me really be me

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bro i work in a restarant and i cant even ask people to make me food wtf i said i would pay for it too

bro would make me lunch anytime i work durring then and does it for everyone but the one time its not lunch its a no

wth

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why is my life weird asf

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Holy shit the guy I work with is so hot

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so i know ive been super not here but i got yo say some shit

1 Broke up with my super toxic bf yay me

2 i turn 18 in like a weeks (holy fuck)

3 i have a new job

and 4 i some how just realized i got my first grey hair wtf

like im not even 18 yet and im going grey, is that even normal idk

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im so done with school, its so bad here and i was told by a professional in the field i want to go in that i could drop out of school rn and still make 6 figires or more a year

wtf man

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

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fuck man

my dad thinks im high asf bc friend was smoking in my room

FUCK ME IM SO DEAD

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

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bro is mad i dont really talk to him anymore but if i walk in a room he will fucking side eye me and stay silent like tf