let it be love.

JAC | 29. | Everywhere.

[elwenyere]

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and being alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You have to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes too near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself that you tasted as many as you could.”

—Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum

[positive-viibes]

When you’re just ✨understood✨ as a Taylor fan to everyone.

[positive-viibes]

What it feels like working two jobs, selling a home, getting divorced, grieving multiple losses, new realities ALL at once.

[positive-viibes]

A crack in the glass

This thing that allows entry

Broken, needs fixing

"We needed a new one anyway"

And we spend the day apart

Coming together only to clash

My anger and your defenses

Meeting like lightening

Jolted emotion

Leaving me to question

How did we get here?

Separate for three weeks and still unable to be

I think this is it

The crack in the glass

It seems so much bigger than anything before

My rage

Your infidelity

Pointing fingers

Coming undone

Broken

Beyond repair

[positive-viibes]

having my phone number wiped clean from this earth has been so damn annoying.

[positive-viibes]

[positive-viibes]

[positive-viibes]

[positive-viibes]

I didn’t realize how much these wounds would pop up. The cheating wound, the wound and pain of not being chosen despite my voice trying to communicate. The pain that lies in those moments, plummeting my self confidence and self worth.

you’re not worthy, what you’ve done and who you are is lacking.

the voices are so loud sometimes.

[positive-viibes]

writing poetry about a girl that you felt something for

on the plane ride home

to your wife and dog and house and life

and I’m supposed to let that go?

My pain sits in October and comes back in flashes

you chose her and you and anyone but me

and then acted surprised when the only person who chose me, me, does.

[young-studios]

[holistichealingg]

[megansknees]

note to self entry #05

[thehopefulquotes]

“If you break someone and they still wish you the best, you’ve lost the greatest thing for you”

— Unknown

[kosmogrl]

[theambitiouswoman]

[karlvsn-deactivated20240312-dea]