SYNOPSIS, after a horrendous break up, you met a guy at a bar. you two instantly clicked and got close the whole night, so close that the two of you almost kissed. but you ran off, and planned to never see him again. but what will happen if one day, a commotion started at your university; girls going crazy over the new handsome guy in fashion design. and there you see the man standing with a butterfly tattoo on his nape. the same man from the bar, looking for you.
FEATURING, enhypen, mentions nct dream members, original characters
GENRE, college student au, angst, fluff, crack. half social media au half narrated.
WARNINGS! language, bullying, implicit mentions of s3x, mentions of having horrible parents,
DISCLAIMER! this is a work of fiction, none of these scenarios is an actual representation of the idol. this is an alternate universe. this is also heavily inspired by the webtoon/drama series nevertheless; but not entirely.
STATIONS,
profile 1, profile 2, profile 3
CHAPTERS,
prologue.
01. hello, stranger.
02. find my way.
03. in my mind. with narration
04. it’s you. with narration
05. no exit
06. interaction check
07. my babie
08. boyfriend?
09. beautiful in my eyes
10. pre-loved friends
11. special. naration
12. red flag
13. context
14. tolerate
15. ending
16. past
17. coming
18. wrong account
19. excited
20. remember. narration
21. just because
22. too much
23. kiss and tell
24. i'm the hoe
25. stealer
26. sunghoon, who tf are you
27. what even are we
28. good night sleep
29. i wonder who it is
30. news
31. taken by you. narration
32. normal. narration
33. seaside
34. ask her
35. the things you do to me
36. mini-break. narration
37. review. narration
38. darkest secret
39. deal
40. sneaky link
41. anything
42.
43.
44.
45.
love me like that, sam kim
so tender, say sue me
500 days, dept
lovers in the night, seori
mornings, alextbh
stoop so low, alextbh
beside you, keshi
like i need u, keshi
maybe we need a break, slchld
make up, sam kim & crush
like a fool, nive & sam kim
shouldn’t be, luke chiang
cruel, jeff bernat
keepyousafe, yahya
hello, i am soo sorry for being gone for the past 23 days. i’ve been very busy with academics and personal stuff. [ tmi: i’m preparing for my eighteenth birthday]
i’ve decided to put nevertheless on hold as i’m still trying to buy a new phone (my phone grew old and is acting up most of the times) so it’s really impossible for me to update my au. note that it is ON-HOLD and not DISCONTINUED. i will update and finish it once i get a new phone.
for the meantime, my request box is still open so feel free to drop your request/s. i write: angs & fluff. (sfw) + (i am currently working on the part 2 of the jungwon fic)
hello!! ive never been here for a long time. i was able to buy a new phone (last month. and i just finished my thesis defend yesterday, and just finishing up my ither requirements for graduation. then i'll be free!!! updates for nevertheless will be back by then <33
jei do u have like soft thoughts for enha rn? i wanna distract myself before my emotions get the best of me :3
ate riiice!! i’m sorry i’ve been either asleep for the past hours, cleaning my room, or reading my books the past days just so i won’t be clouded by the news. im also trying to distract myself too by using tiktok pero jusko lalo lang akong nalungkot but i saved some videos i can share that might make the mood lighter (medyo kinilig ako dito)
to all my non-filipino moots out there who probably have no idea what i’ve been sharing with my filipino anons right now,
OUR COUNTRY IS FUCKED.
imagine choosing a dictator’s son—whose family robbed many people’s lives, our nation’s funds, and even our people’s freedom of speech and expression—whose only platform is “unity”, faked his degree in oxford, has been jobless for six years, and is charged for multiple cases of tax evasion over a woman who has received a post graduate degree, is an attorney, is a strong mother to three daughters who are all successful, who has been the main proponent for the country’s solutions to covid-19, who is not afraid to take on any circumstances despite any hatred and judgement she has faced from misogynists, fake news peddlers, and misinformed people.
imagine choosing a mediocre actor and comedian who has no background in political science and law or whatsoever over an attorney whose platforms are evidence-based and are relevant to the country’s current struggles, just because of his looks.
i personally am worried for my future, and for the future of my fellow countrymen if this is the kind of mindset that majority of people will stick to. i am in pain. i am filled with anxiety about how the next six years will turn out to be for me if corruption and unjust governance will lead the country. though these might be the unofficial results of yesterday’s election, it shows everyone that people can be stupid and fucked in the head, letting themselves make the same mistakes they did decades ago.
stocks are plummeting with the spread of this sad news and the foreign investors are probably laughing at us right now. i know why. this leading candidate is banned in many countries for his crimes yet people are still voting for him.
the worst part is people believe that keeping a good character is enough to lead a country. sure, it is integral, but judging how people want to vote for an undergraduate and his evil upbringing, many people are starting to question if their hard work for getting a degree is still worthwhile, and this includes me.
i am speaking in behalf of many filipinos who are not satisfied with the results of the election. it’s very saddening for me to see selfish adults celebrating the “win” of a thief while their children are filled with horror and anguish.
fuck the marcoses. fuck the idiocy of the people of this country. i stand proudly to fight for what’s right and i keep my moral integrity in me. 💖🌸🌷
HUWAG NINYONG IDAMAY ANG BUONG BANSA SA KATANGAHAN NINYO.
“whose only platform is “unity”, faked his degree in oxford, has been jobless for six years “
You could not even do a simple google search for his platforms?
If he faked his degree, then how come he was a student of Miriam Defensor Santiago? Fake news peddler ka ba?
the worst part is people believe that keeping a good character is enough to lead a country. sure, it is integral, but judging how people want to vote for an undergraduate and his evil upbringing, many people are starting to question if their hard work for getting a degree is still worthwhile, and this includes me.
Undergraduate? saan? iba-iba po ang equivalence ng Special Diploma sa iba’t-ibang bansa. Equivalent na ng Special Diploma ay pre-law na sa Pilipinas. Nakapaglaw siya, yan ay totoo, sabi ni MDS na estudyante niya siya so paanong peke ang pagtapos niya ng isang undergrad degree.
“Evil upbringing” makapang husga akala mo kay linis.
“jobless for the past six years” wow, this and “ HUWAG NINYONG IDAMAY ANG BUONG BANSA SA KATANGAHAN NINYO.” are what made Leni lose the elections. You people made Marcos look like an underdog from all the insults flung around him and his supporters.
Meron pa yung “let me educate you” na house to house campaign ng anak ni VP at ibang volunteers. na napaka condescending ba. Ayaw ninyo sa dictator, pero kayo ang mahilig mag-dictate.
1. asan ang platforms na sinasabi ninyo? wala nang masabi yan sa hazard pay ng mga frontliners at ang solusyon nya sa mga single moms ay magtayo ng daycare? anong kagaguhan yan?
2. okay ka lang ba? oxford na ho mismo ang nagsabi na fake ang degree nya. kami pa talaga fake news peddlers, ah?
The University of Oxford has waded into a row waged on social media over the education credentials of Philippines presidential candidate Fer
3. kung walang marcos na nakadikit sa apelyido nyan ni alamano, ano ba sya? wala nga kong nabalitaang significant na nagawa nya outside ilocos. kung bilib pala kayo sa nagawa ng tatay nyang pagpatay ng tao at pagnanakaw ng karapatan nila, anong klaseng pananaw meron kayo?
4. apologist si miriam kahit sabihin mong nakakabilib ang prinsipyo nya.
5. nagpapaniwala ba talaga kayo sa potential ng candidate ninyonover their credentials? ano nang nangyayari sa pilipinas?
6. hindi ako magsasalita rito nang hindi nagreresearch. hindi ako tanga.
7. nagmamalinis kami? ipinaglalaban namin ang good governance at hustisya. hindi kami nagpapanggap dito. may pinaghuhugutan lahat ng pinagsasabi namin.
8. sabihin nyo lang na misogynist kayo at wala kayong tiwala sa kung anong kayang gawin at mga nagawa ni vp leni. palibhasa kasi exposed kayo sa fake news.
9. hindi kami tanga para magtiwala sa pamilyang may 203B estate tax na hindi pa bayad.
10. WAG NA WAG NYO KAMING HIHIRITAN NG “nabuhay ka na ba nung martial law”. kung hindi ka naapektuhan nun, good for you. magkaroon naman kayo ng puso. hanggang ngayon may mga desaparesidos pa ring hindi nahahanap ng mga pamilya nila dahil sa batas militar. hindi ba kayo natatakot?
11. kasalanan niyong mga bumoto sa mga hindi karapat-dapat na kandidato ang mga suliraning kakaharapin ng bansang ito. ipinagkatiwala niyo sa kanila ang kaban ng bayan knowing na may malicious intention’s sila. hanggaleng.
hello, i am soo sorry for being gone for the past 23 days. i’ve been very busy with academics and personal stuff. [ tmi: i’m preparing for my eighteenth birthday]
i’ve decided to put nevertheless on hold as i’m still trying to buy a new phone (my phone grew old and is acting up most of the times) so it’s really impossible for me to update my au. note that it is ON-HOLD and not DISCONTINUED. i will update and finish it once i get a new phone.
for the meantime, my request box is still open so feel free to drop your request/s. i write: angs & fluff. (sfw) + (i am currently working on the part 2 of the jungwon fic)
tagged by: @puphee (thank you for tagging me ceb!! <3)
nickname: i have a lot but they all go off of my actual name, not my alias
zodiac sign: pisces
height: 152cm / 5′0
hogwarts house: slytherin
last thing you googled: “what’s 5′0 in cm” 💀
song stuck in your head: about last night - monsta x
how much do you sleep?: surprisingly, a good 8 hours last night, but my sleep schedule is utter shit and i pull all-nighters pretty regularly
lucky number: 8 or 12
dream job: english teacher in south korea, author
currently wearing: pajama pants and a t-shirt
favorite song: right now it’s probably home;run by seventeen
favorite instrument: violin or bass guitar
aesthetic: light academia or dark academia (going off of what i’ve been told, and what aesthetic i try to aim for)
favorite author: ruta sepytys, min jin lee
favorite animal noise: when cats purr and meow, or when my cat makes that adorable little cooing noise. i love cats so much 😭😭
something random: i really want to buy this clio eyeshadow palette, especially since it’s one of the ones felix modelled for but i am broke and sad </3
tagging: @dreamescapeswriting @freckledwinterfalls @azure-arcanum @penny-quinn @summerrainwinterbreeze @heenuna @jsung01 @bruh-changbin & anyone else that wants to do it!!
(also mutuals pls tell me if you don’t want to be tagged in these lol)
thankyou for the tage my lovely @penny-quinn and @sweetrainwrites <3
nickname: none on my alias :) (molasses by @jayhopely but ignore ignore ignore)
zodiac sign: gemini
height: 160 cm
hogwarts house: i took the test thrice and i got 1st time-gryffindor; 2nd time- slytherine; 3rd time- ravenclaw so ..
last thing you googled: geal meaning
song stuck in your head: bon bon chocolat - everglow
how much do you sleep?: it varies from 3 to 8 hrs
lucky number: idk?? but i like 8 for many reasons
dream job: uhh..
currently wearing: pjs and a top
favorite song: new axis by nct
favorite instrument: synthesizer
aesthetic: it varies,, somedays dark, somedays pastel heh
favorite author: i don’t read
favorite animal noise: let’s say cat’s
something random: my url is based off on the name of the story i wrote literally years ago and i still remember that story lol (a little modified,, the name was azure-aurum)
Tagging : @levantea @0x1lovebot @fluffyydumplings @jayhopely @postalenha @madz-world-writing and open to everyone :)
pairing: bestfriend!jungwon x reader
genre: angst-ish
word count: 1.3k words
synopsis: jungwon’s confession to his longtime crush went downhill, you know you should be happy. but how could you when your heart is breaking to see the love of your life break his heart for someone else?
a/n: hii this is my second entry for the @ficscafe trope event! the trope i chose this time is heartbroken x patiently waits for them to heal hope you like it and tell me about it on ask!! [ps: italicized text = flashback | also, there is no portrayer for any characters other than jungwon being himself. the rest of the characters are up to you. ]
your heart dropped the same time the flowers did from jungwon’s grip. just as the laugh from everyone wasn’t enough, leo, the douchebag patted jungwon’s shoulder before saying, “that’s okay dude, i admire the courage though.”
his statement was followed by loud laughter of the students who, by chance, were able to surround the area to watch what was happening. you tried to reach out for jungwon’s hand, “let’s just go.” you whispered.
he shook your hand off before running away, “jungwon!” you tried calling him. “well that goes for his self esteem.” leo cracked. that’s it, that was your last straw.
“wow leo, so much for a guy who thinks so high for himself huh?” you said, “excuse me?” he blurted. “you do know that most of these people are laughing at you and not your jokes right?”
he was about to say something when you interrupted him, “or maybe not. cause your balls replaced your brain.” you dropped, that made the boy zip his mouth shut.
before walking away, you locked eyes with the person who’s root of this all. kim haneul. only if she knew how lucky she was to have jungwon’s heart.
you ran all around campus trying to find your best friend. and you knew that there is one particular place where you can certainly find him. as you open the door of the 8th grade building’s rooftop, you see jungwon staring into nothingness.
“wonie.” you quietly called him. he lifted his head to face you, trying to smile but his cheeks would just not let him. “you found me.” he whispered as you sat beside him. immediately resting his head on your shoulder.
he let out a very heavy sigh, “well that didn’t go as planned, huh?” he laughed without humour. you didn’t say nor do anything. you just sat there. because that’s what friends do.
though it wasn’t the same when it happened to you. well, it was foolish if you expect the person you confessed to to comfort you when he turned you down.
“y/n, why are we here?” jungwon asked as you dragged him to the 8th grade rooftop. your lips wobble a little as you feel your heart beat so fast from nervousness. “there’s something i have to tell you.”
he just raised one of his eyebrows, not taking you seriously. “this, is where we first met. right?” you asked him, holding both of his hands, “yeah, that was when you had that side bang.” you slap his arm as he laughs.
“stop, it’s not about that.” you said, “that was the first. the second time we met was when our biology teacher told me to bring the books back to her office as a punishment. and no one was willing to help me, but you stood and took half of them from my hand.”
“i mean- that’s what a decent human being would do, right?” he said, which just made you think that you’ve fallen for the right- scratch that, the perfect guy you could ever like.
“we’ve been friends since then. but then it started to change.” he gave you a worried look, “i don’t want to be friends anymore.” his grip on your hand became tighter. “why? did i do something wrong? y/n when i told you that your side bangs was awful, i didn’t really mean it.”
you laughed at his statement, “i know, silly.” you told him, “but why are you telling me this?” he asked, “i don’t want to be friends anymore because i want an upgrade.”
he looked at you confused, “huh?”
“i like you, jungwon. and if you give me a chance, may i be your girlfriend? not just a friend who’s a girl. but a girlfriend.” his eyes widened at you, slowly dropping your hand.
your smile fades away at an instant, you feel your stomach drop. this is it. this is where all those sleepless nights thinking what would happen if you confess to your bestfriend turns out to be.
“y/n, i..” he stopped, trying to construct a better sentence in his head. what you said just caught him off guard. and the last thing he wanted to do was to hurt your feelings. “y/n, you’re very dear to me. i would never want to hurt you. you know i love you, right?”
you looked at your shoes, “just not as much.” you whispered. “it’s fine.” you plaster a smile as you look at him, “it’s not like i expected you to like me in return.” yes you did. “i just had to let that out, you know?” you laughed trying to stop a tear to fall from your eye.
jungwon looked at you. you’re not the only one hurting. he is too, and he feel more awful knowing the fact that he’s the reason of your tears. “sorry y/n. i really loved you as a friend. but you know i have feelings for haneul, right?”
the mention of her name felt like a knife stabbed straight to your heart, “yeah. and i understand. she’s pretty, kind, smart. i mean, she’s everything anyone would want to have.” you said, telling the truth.
haneul really is that perfect girl, the walking angel around the campus. you can’t say anything bad about her because there’s just simply nothing to say. “bold of me to even think i’m worthy enough to compete.” you said before running away from jungwon.
the memory of that day made you smile bitterly. but after that, jungwon called and everything became normal. or that’s what you pretend it is.
jungwon became more cautious of talking to you about the person he likes and all that stuff, because he never wants to see you hurt again. but little did he know, your heart tears apart every time you see his eyes sparkle whenever haneul is around.
he was hesitant at first but last week, he asked you to help him out. he figured that after four years of liking haneul, he should finally confess. before any of you go to college.
and he thought that no one could help him better than you. his best friend, who also happens to like him. of course the idea sounded like noise in your ear. but what could you do, right? you’re in no place to get angry. all you could do was cry yourself to sleep.
he lift his head from your shoulder. you can feel his eyes stare at you, “stop staring.” you told him not meeting his eyes. “don’t even try to blame it on me, i tried my best to find a shop where they sell the flowers you told me to buy.” you said. he remained silent, not saying a thing.
“plus, we both didn’t know that leo was also interested in her- well that was a given considering who haneul is. but then again, who would’ve thought that haneul would want him as her boyfriend?” you questioned.
“like for god’s sake. they’re total opposites, she’s an angel and he’s satan’s pet sent from the ground. if i didn’t care less i would say that you and her would have looked so much better-”
jungwon stopped you mid-sentence asking, “why can’t it be you?” you looked his way, confusion evident on your face. “what do you mean?”
“why can’t you just be the one i like?” not really able to say anything, tears started forming into your eyes. well maybe because sometimes cupid runs out of bows and just shoots one person and not the other.
but you know better. love takes time and no matter how long it would take, you would wait for jungwon because he’s a person worth waiting for.
hello!! first off i would like to say thank you so much because we've reached 500 followers !!! AAAAAAA
and to show my gratefulness, i've decided to open my requests!! so drop them in the ask box whenever you want to! that is all tehee, again, thank you guys so much!!
thank u so much for the support even though i have been a little inactive for the past few weeks. i highly appreciate you guys taking time to read whatever i wrote and i'm grateful of that!!
pairing: bff!sunoo x reader
genre: fluff!! best friends to lovers
word count: 1.4k words
synopsis: things have been awkward between you and your best friend after he confessed to liking you, but how can you tell him that you feel the same way?
a/n: this is my third (yes third) entry for the @ficscafe trope event! the trope i chose is reaches out for their hand but hesitates and pulls away x grabs their hand before they could fully retract it. i hope you guys will enjoy reading this! don't be shy to tell me your thoughts about it, they're greatly appreciated!!
“should i pick you up?” sunoo asked over the other line, “no need to come here, i’ll just wait for you in the main gate.” you said before slipping in the sundress you bought last week.
it was an impulsive purchase because sunoo out of nowhere, asked you to have a picnic with him. “come on, i can drive up to your dorm.” he insisted.
“well then, do as you will. drive safely though.” you then hung up the phone and checked yourself in the mirror one last time. “you’re looking extra cute today huh?” your roommate pointed out.
you just laughed softly, “are you planning to tell him today?” she asked. she immediately got the answer she needed when you nodded your head.
she just squealed loudly, “yes! now there’s one less lonely person in here.” she exclaimed. you both laughed at her joke. the both of you were talking when you hear a sudden honk outside.
“well, there’s your prince charming.” she said, pushing you out, “have a safe date!” she whispered, you just slapped her arm lightly and said goodbye.
sunoo opened the door for you, not going out of the car, “that’s a cute dress.” he commented. you just smiled at him, trying to hide the fact that you just blushed from what he said.
“well, you don’t look bad yourself.” you pointed out, consequently, his pale cheeks turned pink as a peach with what you said.
you tried to change the topic, “where are we off to?” you asked, “you know where.” he answered.
“what? where- no.” you immediately said once a place pops into your mind. “yes.” you looked at him trying to see if he’s serious. “are you for real? we’re going to the place where you-”
“where i confessed? no! we’re going to the place where you turned me down.” he smirked at you, emphasizing his words.
“sunoo!!” you shout, trying to hide your face with both of your hands. “come on now, no need to be embarrassed.” he teased. “plus, if there’s someone who should be embarrassed, it’s me. so stop.” he added, trying to make the atmosphere not as awkward.
you never wanted to turn him down, nor embarrass him. if anything, you also wanted to tell him how much you liked him. it was just that you were caught so off guard that you forgot to speak.
when you were about to tell him your answer, it was too late. he fully convinced himself that you didn’t like him back so he said, as you quote, “it’s okay if you don’t like me back y/n. it’s totally whatever. but i’ll continue liking you nonetheless.”
yes, he had the audacity to sass the person he likes. but if you’re honest, you’ll admit that that’s actually what you love about him.
“we’re here.” sunoo said. he first got off the car and opened the door for you, “you should pick a spot and i’ll get our stuff.” he instructed.
you obeyed, picking a spot where there are not many people, especially children. but where the sunset shines right through. “nice pick.” sunoo said, before laying the cloth where the two of you can sit.
he also put the basket down, “you wanted a strawberry sandwich right?” he double checked, you simply nodded your head. he then passed you a cute bento box.
opening it, you are welcomed by the heart shaped strawberry sandwiches. “don’t think too much about the shapes. my noona helped on making those.” he side eyed you.
despite of what he said, you looked at him, eyes shining before saying, “thank you.” he just avoided your gaze, “just eat.” he scoffed.
taking a bite off of his chocolate filled sandwich, he looked over the horizon where half of the sun lays. his sandwich is supposed to taste sweet but why can’t he taste any of it’s sweetness at all?
maybe because the memory from this place had made his sandwich lose its flavour. why did he even pick this place anyway? oh right, he tried that maybe, he can replace that awful memory from the past with a good one.
but it seems like it’s impossible. looking around, he accidentally gazed over you, “what?” he questioned. “nothing.” you both just sighed. your palms were sweaty from finding the right time to tell him your feelings.
but all he saw was your eyes. he would always question the way your eyes would shine whenever your eyes meet. why would you look at him that way- when you can’t even say a word when he told you his feelings?
time passed and the sun is now almost nowhere to be seen. the only thing that kept the park lit were the dim post lights. “do you think we should go now?” sunoo asked you.
“i wouldn’t mind walking around.” you suggested, “okay, let me just put these back to the car.” he said.
while you wait for him to come back, you think of a good way to start your confession. “hey sunno- no, that’s a little awkward. how about, you know what, i actually like you- too straightforward-”
“hey, who are you talking to?” sunoo asked, making you jump from your place, “no! no one! you ready?” you jumbled on your words, showing how nervous you are.
sunoo looked at you strangely, but he shrugged it off. the both of you started to walk around, usually your hands would be clinging around his arm right now.
but after what happened, things were not the same. if someone would ask you, it seemed like sunoo became distant- a little. your thoughts were interrupted by a loud explosion followed by people’s “wow”
you looked up and saw fireworks, “they had fireworks here?” you asked sunno, “maybe on weekends?”
watching the fireworks in awe, you suddenly remember the important task you were supposed to do. “what more do you need y/n? come one, you have free fireworks, the only thing you have to do is to tell him what you feel.” you told yourself.
“sunoo.” you called him, he swiftly turned his head, looking at you. it’s like nothing else existed, he looked like he was staring at his whole world.
but just like the last time, you, again, couldn’t find the courage to tell him what you truly feel. “the fireworks are pretty aren't they?” you asked.
you see the shine from his eyes dim, “yeah, they truly are. breathtaking.” he commented, without breaking eye contact with you.
the both of you stayed there until there were no more fireworks exploding to the sky, “the show is done.” sunoo said.
“do you wanna go home?” he asked you. hesitant, you still nodded, cursing yourself in your head. “how dumb can you be y/n? you had your chance right then and there.”
disappointed, you walk past sunoo. you see him throw you a worried look, “y/n wait up!” he said, trying to go after you.
once he was able to follow your pace, you see him try to reach out for your hand but hesitates. you stop your tracks, facing him “sorry i was acting weird, i was preoccupied.” you said, grabbing his hand before he can put it in his pocket.
sunoo was a little taken aback by what you did, but again, he wiped off the tiniest hope from his mind. he knows that you’re just being kind because you’re his friend.
well that’s what he thought until he felt you subtly squeeze his hand three times. he stopped his trails, “wait-”
you looked at him confused, “why? did you forget something?”
“no, but can you do that again?” he asked you, “do what?”
“the hand thing.”
“y-you know what that means?” you worryingly asked.
“well yes, but do you know what it means?” he questioned back, “of course i do.” you confidently said.
he tilts his head, not believing you. “what does it mean then?”
losing confidence, you question if you were wrong about what it meant. good god- you learned that from taylor swift and you just know that she would never lie.
“i love you?” you answered. he smiled at you before saying, “i love you too.”
worth waiting for % jungwon
WHAT A FIC !!!!! WWYTKAJFKJASHDFJHDFHJDFKJFHAKJFAKJ MADE ME FEEL SOME SORT OF WAY
HURTS MY HEART !!! IN A GOOD WAY (good? idk am sad but ya )
WHY CAN'T IT BE Y/N ???!!!
YQJSGJAHSJAUHA here's a bandaid 🩹 for your heart. that's exactly what jungwon is asking himself , why can't it be y/n?? :(((
pairing: bestfriend!jungwon x reader
genre: angst-ish
word count: 1.3k words
synopsis: jungwon’s confession to his longtime crush went downhill, you know you should be happy. but how could you when your heart is breaking to see the love of your life break his heart for someone else?
a/n: hii this is my second entry for the @ficscafe trope event! the trope i chose this time is heartbroken x patiently waits for them to heal hope you like it and tell me about it on ask!! [ps: italicized text = flashback | also, there is no portrayer for any characters other than jungwon being himself. the rest of the characters are up to you. ]
your heart dropped the same time the flowers did from jungwon’s grip. just as the laugh from everyone wasn’t enough, leo, the douchebag patted jungwon’s shoulder before saying, “that’s okay dude, i admire the courage though.”
his statement was followed by loud laughter of the students who, by chance, were able to surround the area to watch what was happening. you tried to reach out for jungwon’s hand, “let’s just go.” you whispered.
he shook your hand off before running away, “jungwon!” you tried calling him. “well that goes for his self esteem.” leo cracked. that’s it, that was your last straw.
“wow leo, so much for a guy who thinks so high for himself huh?” you said, “excuse me?” he blurted. “you do know that most of these people are laughing at you and not your jokes right?”
he was about to say something when you interrupted him, “or maybe not. cause your balls replaced your brain.” you dropped, that made the boy zip his mouth shut.
before walking away, you locked eyes with the person who’s root of this all. kim haneul. only if she knew how lucky she was to have jungwon’s heart.
you ran all around campus trying to find your best friend. and you knew that there is one particular place where you can certainly find him. as you open the door of the 8th grade building’s rooftop, you see jungwon staring into nothingness.
“wonie.” you quietly called him. he lifted his head to face you, trying to smile but his cheeks would just not let him. “you found me.” he whispered as you sat beside him. immediately resting his head on your shoulder.
he let out a very heavy sigh, “well that didn’t go as planned, huh?” he laughed without humour. you didn’t say nor do anything. you just sat there. because that’s what friends do.
though it wasn’t the same when it happened to you. well, it was foolish if you expect the person you confessed to to comfort you when he turned you down.
“y/n, why are we here?” jungwon asked as you dragged him to the 8th grade rooftop. your lips wobble a little as you feel your heart beat so fast from nervousness. “there’s something i have to tell you.”
he just raised one of his eyebrows, not taking you seriously. “this, is where we first met. right?” you asked him, holding both of his hands, “yeah, that was when you had that side bang.” you slap his arm as he laughs.
“stop, it’s not about that.” you said, “that was the first. the second time we met was when our biology teacher told me to bring the books back to her office as a punishment. and no one was willing to help me, but you stood and took half of them from my hand.”
“i mean- that’s what a decent human being would do, right?” he said, which just made you think that you’ve fallen for the right- scratch that, the perfect guy you could ever like.
“we’ve been friends since then. but then it started to change.” he gave you a worried look, “i don’t want to be friends anymore.” his grip on your hand became tighter. “why? did i do something wrong? y/n when i told you that your side bangs was awful, i didn’t really mean it.”
you laughed at his statement, “i know, silly.” you told him, “but why are you telling me this?” he asked, “i don’t want to be friends anymore because i want an upgrade.”
he looked at you confused, “huh?”
“i like you, jungwon. and if you give me a chance, may i be your girlfriend? not just a friend who’s a girl. but a girlfriend.” his eyes widened at you, slowly dropping your hand.
your smile fades away at an instant, you feel your stomach drop. this is it. this is where all those sleepless nights thinking what would happen if you confess to your bestfriend turns out to be.
“y/n, i..” he stopped, trying to construct a better sentence in his head. what you said just caught him off guard. and the last thing he wanted to do was to hurt your feelings. “y/n, you’re very dear to me. i would never want to hurt you. you know i love you, right?”
you looked at your shoes, “just not as much.” you whispered. “it’s fine.” you plaster a smile as you look at him, “it’s not like i expected you to like me in return.” yes you did. “i just had to let that out, you know?” you laughed trying to stop a tear to fall from your eye.
jungwon looked at you. you’re not the only one hurting. he is too, and he feel more awful knowing the fact that he’s the reason of your tears. “sorry y/n. i really loved you as a friend. but you know i have feelings for haneul, right?”
the mention of her name felt like a knife stabbed straight to your heart, “yeah. and i understand. she’s pretty, kind, smart. i mean, she’s everything anyone would want to have.” you said, telling the truth.
haneul really is that perfect girl, the walking angel around the campus. you can’t say anything bad about her because there’s just simply nothing to say. “bold of me to even think i’m worthy enough to compete.” you said before running away from jungwon.
the memory of that day made you smile bitterly. but after that, jungwon called and everything became normal. or that’s what you pretend it is.
jungwon became more cautious of talking to you about the person he likes and all that stuff, because he never wants to see you hurt again. but little did he know, your heart tears apart every time you see his eyes sparkle whenever haneul is around.
he was hesitant at first but last week, he asked you to help him out. he figured that after four years of liking haneul, he should finally confess. before any of you go to college.
and he thought that no one could help him better than you. his best friend, who also happens to like him. of course the idea sounded like noise in your ear. but what could you do, right? you’re in no place to get angry. all you could do was cry yourself to sleep.
he lift his head from your shoulder. you can feel his eyes stare at you, “stop staring.” you told him not meeting his eyes. “don’t even try to blame it on me, i tried my best to find a shop where they sell the flowers you told me to buy.” you said. he remained silent, not saying a thing.
“plus, we both didn’t know that leo was also interested in her- well that was a given considering who haneul is. but then again, who would’ve thought that haneul would want him as her boyfriend?” you questioned.
“like for god’s sake. they’re total opposites, she’s an angel and he’s satan’s pet sent from the ground. if i didn’t care less i would say that you and her would have looked so much better-”
jungwon stopped you mid-sentence asking, “why can’t it be you?” you looked his way, confusion evident on your face. “what do you mean?”
“why can’t you just be the one i like?” not really able to say anything, tears started forming into your eyes. well maybe because sometimes cupid runs out of bows and just shoots one person and not the other.
but you know better. love takes time and no matter how long it would take, you would wait for jungwon because he’s a person worth waiting for.
pairing: bestfriend!jungwon x reader
genre: angst-ish
word count: 1.3k words
synopsis: jungwon’s confession to his longtime crush went downhill, you know you should be happy. but how could you when your heart is breaking to see the love of your life break his heart for someone else?
a/n: hii this is my second entry for the @ficscafe trope event! the trope i chose this time is heartbroken x patiently waits for them to heal hope you like it and tell me about it on ask!! [ps: italicized text = flashback | also, there is no portrayer for any characters other than jungwon being himself. the rest of the characters are up to you. ]
your heart dropped the same time the flowers did from jungwon’s grip. just as the laugh from everyone wasn’t enough, leo, the douchebag patted jungwon’s shoulder before saying, “that’s okay dude, i admire the courage though.”
his statement was followed by loud laughter of the students who, by chance, were able to surround the area to watch what was happening. you tried to reach out for jungwon’s hand, “let’s just go.” you whispered.
he shook your hand off before running away, “jungwon!” you tried calling him. “well that goes for his self esteem.” leo cracked. that’s it, that was your last straw.
“wow leo, so much for a guy who thinks so high for himself huh?” you said, “excuse me?” he blurted. “you do know that most of these people are laughing at you and not your jokes right?”
he was about to say something when you interrupted him, “or maybe not. cause your balls replaced your brain.” you dropped, that made the boy zip his mouth shut.
before walking away, you locked eyes with the person who’s root of this all. kim haneul. only if she knew how lucky she was to have jungwon’s heart.
you ran all around campus trying to find your best friend. and you knew that there is one particular place where you can certainly find him. as you open the door of the 8th grade building’s rooftop, you see jungwon staring into nothingness.
“wonie.” you quietly called him. he lifted his head to face you, trying to smile but his cheeks would just not let him. “you found me.” he whispered as you sat beside him. immediately resting his head on your shoulder.
he let out a very heavy sigh, “well that didn’t go as planned, huh?” he laughed without humour. you didn’t say nor do anything. you just sat there. because that’s what friends do.
though it wasn’t the same when it happened to you. well, it was foolish if you expect the person you confessed to to comfort you when he turned you down.
“y/n, why are we here?” jungwon asked as you dragged him to the 8th grade rooftop. your lips wobble a little as you feel your heart beat so fast from nervousness. “there’s something i have to tell you.”
he just raised one of his eyebrows, not taking you seriously. “this, is where we first met. right?” you asked him, holding both of his hands, “yeah, that was when you had that side bang.” you slap his arm as he laughs.
“stop, it’s not about that.” you said, “that was the first. the second time we met was when our biology teacher told me to bring the books back to her office as a punishment. and no one was willing to help me, but you stood and took half of them from my hand.”
“i mean- that’s what a decent human being would do, right?” he said, which just made you think that you’ve fallen for the right- scratch that, the perfect guy you could ever like.
“we’ve been friends since then. but then it started to change.” he gave you a worried look, “i don’t want to be friends anymore.” his grip on your hand became tighter. “why? did i do something wrong? y/n when i told you that your side bangs was awful, i didn’t really mean it.”
you laughed at his statement, “i know, silly.” you told him, “but why are you telling me this?” he asked, “i don’t want to be friends anymore because i want an upgrade.”
he looked at you confused, “huh?”
“i like you, jungwon. and if you give me a chance, may i be your girlfriend? not just a friend who’s a girl. but a girlfriend.” his eyes widened at you, slowly dropping your hand.
your smile fades away at an instant, you feel your stomach drop. this is it. this is where all those sleepless nights thinking what would happen if you confess to your bestfriend turns out to be.
“y/n, i..” he stopped, trying to construct a better sentence in his head. what you said just caught him off guard. and the last thing he wanted to do was to hurt your feelings. “y/n, you’re very dear to me. i would never want to hurt you. you know i love you, right?”
you looked at your shoes, “just not as much.” you whispered. “it’s fine.” you plaster a smile as you look at him, “it’s not like i expected you to like me in return.” yes you did. “i just had to let that out, you know?” you laughed trying to stop a tear to fall from your eye.
jungwon looked at you. you’re not the only one hurting. he is too, and he feel more awful knowing the fact that he’s the reason of your tears. “sorry y/n. i really loved you as a friend. but you know i have feelings for haneul, right?”
the mention of her name felt like a knife stabbed straight to your heart, “yeah. and i understand. she’s pretty, kind, smart. i mean, she’s everything anyone would want to have.” you said, telling the truth.
haneul really is that perfect girl, the walking angel around the campus. you can’t say anything bad about her because there’s just simply nothing to say. “bold of me to even think i’m worthy enough to compete.” you said before running away from jungwon.
the memory of that day made you smile bitterly. but after that, jungwon called and everything became normal. or that’s what you pretend it is.
jungwon became more cautious of talking to you about the person he likes and all that stuff, because he never wants to see you hurt again. but little did he know, your heart tears apart every time you see his eyes sparkle whenever haneul is around.
he was hesitant at first but last week, he asked you to help him out. he figured that after four years of liking haneul, he should finally confess. before any of you go to college.
and he thought that no one could help him better than you. his best friend, who also happens to like him. of course the idea sounded like noise in your ear. but what could you do, right? you’re in no place to get angry. all you could do was cry yourself to sleep.
he lift his head from your shoulder. you can feel his eyes stare at you, “stop staring.” you told him not meeting his eyes. “don’t even try to blame it on me, i tried my best to find a shop where they sell the flowers you told me to buy.” you said. he remained silent, not saying a thing.
“plus, we both didn’t know that leo was also interested in her- well that was a given considering who haneul is. but then again, who would’ve thought that haneul would want him as her boyfriend?” you questioned.
“like for god’s sake. they’re total opposites, she’s an angel and he’s satan’s pet sent from the ground. if i didn’t care less i would say that you and her would have looked so much better-”
jungwon stopped you mid-sentence asking, “why can’t it be you?” you looked his way, confusion evident on your face. “what do you mean?”
“why can’t you just be the one i like?” not really able to say anything, tears started forming into your eyes. well maybe because sometimes cupid runs out of bows and just shoots one person and not the other.
but you know better. love takes time and no matter how long it would take, you would wait for jungwon because he’s a person worth waiting for.
