Post partum, the struggle for health & confidence.

Made this blog to share my experience of being a mother fighting to get in shape again. Putting it all out there to show people the truth behind post partum bodies. Fuck societies false expectations of perfect weight and no stretch marks. Every mother's body is beautiful! Disclaimer: Other than reblogging, please do not claim to own my photos or use my photos without my permission. This will result to legal issues which you do not want. It would also be very hurtful to me. Thank you.

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Ive lost weight, but i havent weighed myself in months. Ive been so busy this semester I havent had time to work out. But i have been eating healthier.

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*Sigh*. You would think looking through the post partum tag would make me feel better but it just makes me annoyed at all the girls with the perfect stomachs weeks after having their baby. Seems there isnt any with as bad of skin or stretch marks as mine. Maybe its just cuz those who do have it bad dont want to post pics. Oh well. Just have to remind myself that I had twins and its genetic...

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Im at the 8 week point. Dont know if people actually can notice but I know they will by 12 weeks if I stick with it. My motivation to keep going.

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I know my pics probably gross people out, but I felt like I needed to share. Not only so I can see my own self progress, and so I can accept my body; But also to lead others to their own personal body acceptance. With the severity of my stretch marks and twin skin Ive spent countless nights searching for other women's post partum journey and its hard to find ones that relate. You always have the girls with no stretch marks or stretched skin at all, bragging about their progress or still complaining about how they hate themselves. (way to make ppl like me feel worse). Or people with way worse situations still hating themselves and basically coming to the conclusion that there is nothing you can do about it, its genetic, you have to get a tummy tuck so you might as well  just give up. While Ill admit a tummy tuck seems nice I dont know if it is something I would do. I always said when I was pregnant I would later, but now I dont know if I would want to. For one, too expensive, for two I dont know if I want to go through surgery again after having a c section. Yeah it went smoothly but it was still hard. The recovery was terrible being a mom with twins with barely any help that first month. Also my hospital didnt even give me enough pain pills for a week and i still had to go out to take my twins to their appointments and constantly bend over to pick them up so I was always in terrible pain. I even had one part of my incision come open and it took much longer to heal. Well anyways I dont know if i want to go through the pain of surgery again. Also with all the stretchmarks its not like my stomach will look great anyways. Then theres the fact that If I get pregnant again later that could mess things up.  My s/o still thinks I look great and he makes me feel great. Ive accepted my new body. If I could fit clothes as good or better than I used to I think I will be confident. Society needs to stop showing all these perfect celebrity moms and acting like we all should look that way. For some people you can do all the right things and its still not possible. My mommy scars dont make me any less of a person. If anything it proves Im strong because I was able to grow two babies inside of me. When all is said and done and Ive lost the weight, at least I will know I did everything I could to be healthy and do my best. Also I will have something to show for those women in the same predicament as me. I can show them my struggle and success step by step.

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I hate when other mothers post pictures in bikinis and then have the nerve to constantly post how depressed they are about their bodies. Im just like really YOU ARE LUCKY that you even wear a two piece. I even tell them that. Yet they are right back at complaining again with in no time. Its annoying as hell, when I have all these problems and I am being body positive. I feel like it just breeds all this negativity. I mean I try to stay positive I really do. Its just hard some days. Especially when I feel like I am doing everything I can to be healthy by eating right and exercising and barely seeing progress. Even if I do have tons of progress that doesnt even guarantee that I can ever wear a two piece ever again. Of course I can say yeah fuck what people think I love my body. But that still wont change the fact that I have all the stretch marks and extra skin. If I see someone with a great post partum body bitching about how horrible they look then how should that make me feel? Im just sick of seeing it in my face all the time. Like im supposed to feel bad about myself because of something that i cant control.

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Last one. I promise ;)

Stretch marks or not… You are beautiful.

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1 Month Progress:  -18 pounds. This is the first and probably the only time I will show my stomach online, for the reasons that you can see. The horrid pooch and stretch marks. I was pretty healthy before I got pregnant. I didnt eat the best but I worked out and had a pretty flat stomach and overall body fat distribution.  I gained over 50 pounds during pregnancy. Most of the reason being that i had horrible morning sickness and when i had that carbs were pretty much the only thing I could stomach without puking. Then once the morning sickness went away, my appetite was insane. I was ravenous and had to eat 5 meals a day and lots of snacks in between.  I did everything I could to eat healthy and use cocoa butter everyday. I didnt see stretch marks for most of my pregnancy. Then my belly started growing huge quickly. I also know stretch marks run in the family so they were pretty much inevitable. (I even gained a few stretch marks on my thighs when I was thirteen and started puberty.) Sucks, but I knew what to expect from the day I got pregnant. The only thing I wasnt expecting was to have such a big "pooch" and gut afterwards. I also gained some stretch marks under my arms, on my inner thighs and behind my knees.  Anyways, this is my progress from 1 month of healthy eating drinking tons of water and moderate exercise. (walking more than a mile everyday and exercising at the gym 2-3 times a week). Also other exercises such as push ups, squats and reverse crunches and butterfly kicks at home. I think I see a little bit of improval but of course im never completely content. Ive been doing what I can to improve the stretch marks by scrubbing them in the shower to improve circulation and using cocoa butter or bio oil on them 3 times a day. They do appear to be getting lighter although you cant tell in the pictures because of the lighting and looser skin. :/ I put my belly button ring back in since it makes me feel better about my stomach appearance. I feel more like myself with it. I know there is a chance that my skin wont snap back but I still want to lose weight. I would rather look better in clothes than feel huge. And my s/o loves my body and I know I will be accepting with it even with extra skin if I can get rid of the flab. 

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Well I decided to start a weight loss/health blog.

Im a mother of twins via c section, currently 5 months post pardum and a month ago I started my weight loss journey. At the least my goal is to get to my post partum weight of 160 pounds. Ive started by doing everything I can to eat healthy and drink water. Eating from all the recommended food groups everyday, limiting my carbs and increasing my protein intake. Im hoping to get back to my post partum weight by summer. I created this blog because I feel like I need somewhere to post my progress so I can stay motivated in seeing changes. I know once I do start to see changes I will want to share that with people. Although I wouldnt go as  far as to show my stomach if I werent anonymous. The stretch marks and extra skin is embarrasing and I know other people wont want to see it. Its a shame that I have to feel shamed and embarrased by my body. Child birth is beautiful. And my body looks this way because of genetics and child birth that isn't my fault. But this is the implications of the expectations society sets for women.   Its so hard because while I have the determination to get in shape at the same time I have alot of expectations. Some days I love my body and other days I look at it and cant see any progress at all. I do know that falling back into unhealthy lifestyle will make my body image even worse, so at the least Im telling myself to stick with it, in the hopes that im getting closer to actually seeing dramatic changes.