g. marek / starkiller ( @xpprentice )
[ the moment that galen is on the ramp, he is sprinting towards the cockpit so he could give proxy instructions on where to pilot the ship. he knows they need to get out of here and need to get to a safe system before they do anything else. he could deal with mara and what had just transpired when they were in safety and he didn’t have to worry about them being shot out of the sky, or worse. the ship bangs around a bit as enemy ships nearby fire in their direction and hit their deflector shields. but it isn’t long before they are able to cloak themselves and make the jump to hyperspace. for the moment, they are flying towards a rebellion controlled system but they would never land there.
because they couldn’t possibly go anywhere near the rebellion. not with the precious cargo that was sitting, shaking inside of the cargo hold. he did not miss the gaping hole crying out for understanding that was mara jade in this moment, but getting them to safety had to trump her emotions initially. but after he handled that tasking, he sought out mara, hoping that he would be able to offer her some kind words at the very least. but when he sees her barely standing, really leaning against the wall, he’s got no words to speak to her. instead, he just stares there, unsure of what to say to her. ]
a sense of loss, partial to herself felt as if palpatine reached in and took hold of her organs and ripped them out. all events that happened after she held galen’s hand through their escape was a blur. frankly, she would’ve died on vader’s ship without much emotion. she’s trapped in a strange haze, floating in a large grey area. there wasn’t any means to lash out or to crumble -- she felt galen searching around to find her on the ship, not that she ventured very far. if she didn’t know him, she would’ve been much more alive and aware. mara didn’t have to second guess galen’s survival.
a single look in his direction and she’s sure to be struck with guilt once more. attempting to kill him and not trying her hardest to do so still felt wrong; treacherous, even. mara couldn’t face him as she felt his presence in the same area, glancing down at her boots and crossed limbs. a huff passes. baffled about her numbness, she breathed out to him, “ .... he really does take every inch of light, doesn’t he? ” knowing to solve a problem was to eliminate the heart of it, and not getting to that heart had a powerless effect. if the emperor forced her enough, pushed her through her willpower, she would’ve succeeded. instead, her guess was to spar galen with an inch of his life to torment vader and kill her in the process, just to search for another child from another planet to snatch up and train.
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