Ramblings of Another Lousy PreMed

Drexel college student, I want to go to medical school. Oh, and I'm a real person FYI

[pre-mdramblings]

Professor messed up my grade

At first I was like...

But then I emailed her and calmly asked her for clarification on how she calculated my "grade." Then went into detail about my exam and quiz scores. 

She responded saying- I changed your grade. 

 

BUT after I checked my grade it was still not right. 

Now I emailed her again. I hate this.

I know I'm so angry because she was rude during the term and often failed to treat me with respect. Otherwise I'd be more understanding. Just goes to show how you treat people alters their perceptions of you. 

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I'm too chicken to check my grades from this term. Whomp whomp. 

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Finals Week Schedule-

Today- Finish Final Paper

Tomorrow- Study for Stat Final in the morning- take Stat Final at 3:30pm 

Tuesday- Study for Human Physiology Final till 2pm take hard online final that I am already destined to fail at 2 pm and then go back to studying for Human Physiology after

Wednesday- Study until 3:30 for Human Physiology Final- which he promised to make impossible and that I'm so screwed for......and then at 3:30 pm. Resign myself to my fate of failure...and take it to get it over with but break my hand because it's so damn long. 

Thursday- First day of Break --> Study to retake the MCAT. 

[tokyogrey]

I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited

Sylvia Plath (via nonamesareleft)

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I am shy.

I am so shy.

My shyness was a much larger problem when I was a child. 

In college I was able to move past much of it.

I'm a friendly but in control volunteer. I'm pretty good at presentations, and although I'm nervous before public speaking I generally get through just fine. I can debate and talk science anytime...

In a group I'm generally a bit quiet but no biggie, you can't win them all....So given this information why this post? 

Because, today I was in put in a new group and I felt shy. I felt so shy and it was this weird vastly familiar yet unwelcome feeling within me. Was it because they were attractive? Was it because my insecurities are surmounting with each med school rejection? I'm not sure but I didn't like it. 

My problem is not with the fact that I felt such a large amount of shyness, it is more the fact that I don't know where it came from. 

[pre-mdramblings]

Lesson I learned this Thanksgiving. 

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Got rejected from my top choice today...

</3 Heart Fail. 

#but I'll be okay, I think, resilience is key. 

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Human Physiology Midterm

Premed Gunner: Can you put the grades back up I couldn't see them in class.

Professor: No, but I will post them outside my office.

Premed Gunner: How soon will you post them?

Professor: Please don't follow me again.

[whatshouldwecallme]

How I feel about grades

During the semester:

  When I see that they’re posted online:

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Gels, DNA, Ethidium Bromide! 

#the fun and easier part of lab! 

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I love the green bucket but everyone else does too...

scientists are territorial... :/ 

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I'm back!

Sorry that I took a very long break from tumblr. Real life sucks, people are assholes but I'm back. I will upload lab pictures that I promised forever ago (insert very guilty face) and update you guys on my med school process, where I am with apps and so on! 

Spark Notes- 

I'm back, I'm sorry

I'll post lab pictures

I'll update you on med school apps 

[pre-mdramblings]

Lab, Science, Bacteria! 

More lab pictures to come :D 

[we-live-and--breathe-words-blog]

“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…”

-Dr. Seuss (via we-live-and--breathe-words)

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Pie pets

5K team name for our lab, get it?

[panacea-mjjr-blog-blog-blog]

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My family is amazing

Me: I am putting all my eggs in one basket what if I drop it

Mom: I'll catch it

#totally corny but made me feel better