my gf, cats, forests, pastel colours, moodboards, cinnamoroll, sanrio, pinterest, tumblr, taking baths, beaded jewelry, art, digital art, museums, picnics, makeup, listening to music (clairo,beabadoobee), commentary youtubers, bunnies, stickers, strawberries
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Side note: I lack social cues and that often leads to misunderstandings irl. When I'm interacting with someone online, I'm often anxious that I misinterpreted sth etc. I sometimes overexplain in fear of sth accidentally coming across how I didn't mean it
I'm happy whenever I'm mutuals with someone and would gladly make friends but I'm very anxious bc I used to get bullied/spent my teen years isolated at home, so I feel like I'm awkward with people at first
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yeah, so that's me! or at least, the most important things I could think of right now...
B-17 bomber is riddled with German anti-aircraft fire but miraculously survives. Later they discover the explosive shells were all inert; sabotaged by Nazi slaves working in armament factories.
Inside one empty shell is a written note: it's all we can do for you now.
The most important part of all this is that these small acts of bravery and noncompliance cannot be known as long as the enemy still stands, and might never be known. Just because it doesnβt seem like anyone is doing anything doesnβt mean itβs true. The best malicious compliance or subtle sabotage is the one thatβs never detected, but makes ravages nonetheless.
"there comes a time when the operation of the machine becomes so odious, makes you so sick at heart, that you can't take part. You can't even passively take part. And you've got to throw your bodies upon the wheels and upon the gears. Upon the levers. Upon all the apparatus, and you've got to make it stop!"
it's not acknowledged enough that a lot of the sleep deprivation, a really big number, that is seen in children and teenagers is due to their parents. "my kid's up all night on their phone" and why exactly is that? because nighttime, the time when they're supposed to be sleeping, aka unconscious in bed, aka not causing you any trouble, aka unable to be immediately put to work by you, is so much of the time the only true "free time" they have. that's what it is. if the moment they step out of their room you give them something to do and berate them for breathing; if every moment they're in their room you're calling them out to do work, and then chiding them for trying to lock their door ... when is there a moment for them to just do what they want? to have fun? to be happy?
there isn't one. not unless they're awake when they're meant to be asleep.
drug dealer ellie who finds out reader gets horny when they get high dom ellie
π«‘ dom ellie you sayβ¦
pretty girl
dom! drug dealer! ellie x sub! stoner! reader
summary: you move to a new city, a new apartment, new people. and dispensaries here are expensive. you catch the βneighborβ you share a fire escape with smoking one day. itβs a hot, disheveled red head, and youβve been looking for a dispensary that isnβt insanely over priced. lucky, for you, sheβs a dealer. after weekly buys, and lingering tension she offers to smoke and you finally cave.
youβre always hesitant becauseβ¦ she is so insanely hotβ¦ and smoking makes you so insanely hornyβ¦
warnings: 18+, mdni, smut, female reader, fingering(r! receiving), strap on use(r! recieving), oral(e! receiving), ellie calls reader pretty girl (sorry thatβs so specific, i just couldnβt get it out of my head when i started writing this).
you didnβt think moving would be this lonely.
back home, everything had rhythm; one main road, one grocery store, the same faces youβd known since childhood.
but because of that? you were suffocating.
because where you were from, it felt like everybody already knew who you were supposed to beβ and there wasnβt much room to become anything else.
so you traded pine trees and quiet nights, for the concrete jungle. traffic. sirens and light pollution bleeding into night skies.
new york is louder than you had imagined, bigger too. yet somehow, despite all the space; your apartment is smaller than anywhere youβve ever lived. itβs 4 flights up, no working elevatorβ not since youβve lived here. thereβs mismatched flooring, and peeling paint, radiators hiss like theyβre mad at the buildingβ but you think all the quirks add character.
at least thatβs what you tell yourself.
youβve only been here 3 days, thereβs still boxes all over your apartmentβ some half empty, others untouched; the clutter starting to become slightly overwhelming. at this point, you walk inside and the boxes feel like theyβre attacking you.
so⦠you made a deal with yourself: finish the bedroom; all the boxes empty, clothes hung up and organized.
just one room.
as motivation, you roll up the rest of the weed you brought from home and set it aside like a promiseβ once the bedroom is finishedβ¦ youβll smoke.
butβ¦ itβs also the last of the weed.
fuck.
3 days in and something you didnβt happen to take into consideration before moving to a big city: how brutal the dispensaries are.
youβd known things would be more expensive here. itβs not like you were that naive; rent, groceries, coffeeβ whatever. all of that made sense.
but dispensaries? that felt personal.
back home, weed was simple. affordable. something you could pick up without having to mentally prepare yourself to check your bank account afterwards. here? everything is a fucking luxury itemβ glass jars, minimalist labels, budtenders that act like theyβre selling fine diamonds.
youβd shopped around online, been into a few places; but spending double, maybe triple the amount of money on half the amount of product? hard no from you.
you didnβt wanna have to quit, but in this economy? youβre starting to think it may be your only option.
you hang the last hanger, and shove the last empty box out of the way with your foot; chest falling with a tired sigh. close enough to done. good enough for tonight.
you grab the joint, lighter already sparking in your hand. you make your way over to the window, not patient enough to wait until youβre on the fire escape to light it. you take a hefty drag as you slip out, but immediately freeze.
someoneβs already out here.
sheβs leaning against the railing like she belongs there, joint nearly finished between her fingers. smoke curls lazily around her face, sharp features catching in the dim light. messy red hair, worn band tee, relaxed stance.
she is breathtakingly hotβ you canβt help but stare.
then she looks up and catches you.
instead of calling you out, she just raises a brow, mouth twitching like sheβs amused.
βheyβ¦ didnβt mean to steal your smoke spot.β
βohβ no! itβs fineβ i meanβ i donβtβ i can go back inside ifββ
she laughs, itβs low and warm. βrelax, iβm kidding. youβre good.β
you nod shyly, suddenly hyper aware of your posture and the way youβre holding the joint like you might drop it. you take another hit, eyes flickering anywhere but her.
she watches you for a second, clearly entertained. βnew?β
βyeah, i just moved in.β
she hums, βmakes sense. iβm ellie.β
βy/n.β she smiles like sheβs finds it endearing.
she nods toward your joint, βyou buy around here?β
you snort softly, βgod no. i havenβt yet.β
βoh? why not?β
βbecause dispensaries out here are scalpers.β you shake your head, βi took one at the prices and immediately reconsidered all my life choices.β
ellie laughs full and genuine, taking a final hit of her joint before flicking onto the street below. βwhereβre you from?β
βsmall town in michigan. way smaller than this.β
she studies you curiously for a moment before it seems to click, βthought so.β
you glance at her, βhow could you tell?β
she smiles fondly, βyouβve got this look. like everythingβs a little too loud.β
βitβs that obvious huh?β
βit isβ¦ but itβs cute.β
your face heats instantly, you take another long hit; trying to force your heart rate to slow down. ellie continues.
βwellβ¦ since youβre new to the buildingβ¦ i can give you a βwelcome to the cityβ discount.β
you blink, throughly confused. βwhat?β
she tilts her head, grin widening. βi sell.β
βyou sell?β you repeat her words, suddenly feeling a little stupid.
she nods like itβs nothing. βyeah. and iβm not a scalper.β
you canβt help the smile that spreads across your face, βwell, thatβsβ¦ awfully convenient.β
βiβm usually stocked up, so just come tap on my window when youβre running low.β
you nod, looking down at the half smoked joint in your hand, your buzz finally setting in. your grip on the railing loosens, thoughts coming easier than a moment ago.
ellie notices the shift. youβre even quieter, moving a little slower, looking down at the street like itβs more interesting now than it was a few seconds ago.
βyou okay?β
βyeahβ¦ just tired i think.β
she hums, clearly unconvinced but doesnβt say it out loud.
you become painfully aware of yourself againβ how close she is, how high you are, how this is your first interaction with your new neighbor and youβd really like to make a normal impression.
you straighten slightly and clear your throat. βso uhβ have you lived here awhile?β
βsome years, long enough to know which buildings have the best fire escapes.β
that earns a smile from you, βgood to know.β
she tracks your hand as you bring the joint to your mouth and take another hit, βmichigan weed?β
βyeah, it felt like iβve been rationing it up until this point.β
ellieβs eyes widen a little, βohβ shitβ do you need a bag now?β
you toss your hands up, giggling softly, βonly if youβre available.β
she motions her head towards her open window, βiβve got a scale inside if you wanna grab some?β
your heart skips, but you nod, βthatβd be great actually.β
her smile comes easy, βcool. cβmon.β
you put out your joint on the brick and drop it on your windowsill, before sliding through ellieβs window.
her apartment feels drastically different from yours. itβs warmer, more established. a floor lamp glows in the corner, casting a soft light over a couch that looks actually lived on, posters and tapestries line the walls.
thereβs records stacked lazily next to a turntable, shoes kicked off by door like theyβve never been organized.
βmake yourself comfortable.β ellie moves around her kitchen counter and opens a cabinet. she glances at you over her shoulderβ youβre hovering, hands tucked into your hoodie sleeves, awkwardly lingering behind her. βsoβ¦ whatβre you thinking? indica? sativa? a hybrid?β
you answer quickly, βindica.β ellie quirks a brow, βsorryβ¦ sativa makes me paranoid.β
ellie nods in understanding, βthatβs fair. how much you thinkinβ you want?β
βmhmβ¦ maybe a half?β
she doesnβt respond with words, just a bob of her head. you watch as she measures it out carefully, even though her eyes look focused; most of her attention keeps drifting back to you. but even then, her hands move nimbly; unscrewing the lid to a large jar, and dropping buds on the scale. you find yourself fixated on how steady she is; clearly she does this often.
βyou been selling for awhileβ¦ or?β
she shrugs, βi didnβt come to the city planning to sell,β she slides the weed off the little tray and into a ziplock bag. βbut one thing led to another andβ¦β she closes the seal and pushes it across the counter to you. βitβs what pays the bills.β
shit. speaking of paying the billsβ¦ you donβt have anything on you.
βfuckβ i, uhβ¦ donβt have any cash on meβ¦β
ellie doesnβt skip a beat, βyou got apple pay?β
βohβ yeah, actually. that works.β
she pulls out her phone, then looks up at you with a small knowing smirk, βiβll need your number tho.β
your stomach drops, but you keep your voice steady, trying not to sound flustered, βright! of course.β
she hands you her phone, and puts her hands in her pockets, an open text thread already waiting. you type in your number and hand it back; her thumbs tap on the screen before your own phone buzzes in your pocket a second later.
a payment request.
$35 β maybe: ellie williams.
your head snaps up, βonly 35?β
she just chuckles as the jars go back in the cabinet, βi said i was giving you a discount. βwelcome to the cityβ and all that. remember?β
your cheeks warm up for the second time this interaction, your legs feeling wobbly. βi didnβt realize you were being seriousβ¦β
βi donβt lie.β then after a beatβ¦ βespecially not to pretty girls.β
you laugh breathlessly, blush traveling all the way up to the tips of your ears. βthank you again. reallyβ¦β
βanytime. like i said. just tap on my window.β
you tuck the bag into your hoodie pocket and glance back at the fire escape, gesturing to it with your thumb, βi shouldβ¦ get homeβ itβs lateβ¦β
she nods, walking you over to the window, and holding it open as you climb out, βtext me what you think of the batch. whenever you try it.β
βoh! uh, sure, yeahβ no problem.β
she leaves the window open behind you, but retreats back into her apartment. you take a deep breath when you shut yours, resting your forehead against the cold glassβ heart is still beating a little too fast.
the half of a joint still sits on the windowsillβ long forgotten.
her voice, her hands, her mannerisms; theyβre stuck in your head. a familiar feeling blooms in your abdomen.
itβs just the weed.
probably.
the weeks skip by quietly at first.
texts about buying a bag every few days:
you around?
same stuff?
please?
you notice she never stopped giving you a βdiscountβ.
your paths cross on the fire escape more than you expected.
youβve started to recognize the sound of ellieβs opening window and her steps; the soft scrape of metal, the pause before her lighter sparks.
youβve never joined herβ not that she hasnβt asked.
if she saw you inside, sheβd tap on the glass, ask if you had timeβ¦ but you always had a reason.
too tired. already high. maybe next time.
ellie never presses, just lifts her joint in acknowledgment and looks back out at the city.
then you start running into her at other places.
the coffee shop on the cornerβ early mornings when youβre still half asleep, curled around a paper cup hoping the caffeine will save you. ellieβs already there, leaning against the counter with a latte, pretending like she didnβt notice you the second you walked in.
the laundromat across the streetβ she walked in with an overflowing basket and you were folding clean laundry at a machine. she dropped into a chair right next to you, βi didnβt peg you for a midnight laundry kind of person.β you shrugged, βiβm full of surprises.β she smirks, but doesnβt pry.
the bar two blocks overβ dim, loud, crowded. you spot ellie from across the room; hair undoubtedly her, familiar silhouette. you recognize her instantly. when she turns and sees you, she saunters over; a lazy grin and glassy eyes. βeither weβve got the same routineβ¦ or this is getting weird.β your laugh comes out softer than youβd hoped, βi was thinking the same thing.β
it feels coincidentalβ you think.
youβre from the same building, your paths overlapβ it makes sense. and yetβ¦
ellie always seems a little unsurprised to see you. like she was half-expecting it. like she enjoys running into you more than sheβs letting on.
the texts between you change slowly; less about buying, more about nothing at all.
the weather, a complaint about work, a late night βyou up?β message.
ellie never double textsβ but itβs not often sheβd have to.
you notice how she remembers things; you only smoke indica, you hate the sirens at night, you blush during most conversations with her.
she notices how you hesitate anytime she asks you to smoke. she starts teasing you about it gently, βone of these daysβ¦ youβre actually gonna take me up on it.β
you laugh it off, heartbeat already picking up, βweβll see.β
before you know it, ellie is more than your dealer; sheβs a constant in your life, a familiar presence thatβs always lingering. and everytime you smell that aroma drifting through your window, your body reacts before your brain can catch upβ anticipation pooling low and warm.
you swear it doesnβt mean anything.
but your eyes always manage to catch hers.
today was no different.
your date had gone horrendously. not in a dramatic wayβ there wasnβt any shouting or thrown drinks, just the slow realization that you were playing a roll you didnβt fit into.
laughing when you thought you were supposed to, answering questions that felt rehearsed, smiling even though you felt like you shouldnβt.
by the time you bid your goodbyes, your social battery was out and your chest felt tight. the second you stepped onto the sidewalk, you released a breath youβd been holding in all night.
the walk home was quietβ something you didnβt experience much nowadays.
an occasional taxi driving by or another new yorker silently slipping past, your heels clicking softly against the pavement.
you donβt bother turning on the lights when you get home; just kick off your shoes and walk straight into your bedroom to roll a joint. you drop your keys on your dresser, only flicking on the small lamp by your tray so you can see.
you roll haphazardly; paper sticking to your bottom lip, the filter is loose, it needs a patch in the middleβ¦ but itβs smokable.
you donβt feel like changing out of your dress right now, it can wait until after you smoke away the memory of your date tonight. so you just slide on some slippers and grab a throw blanket.
the window glides open and it feels like the city was waiting for youβ and apparently someone else too. ellie sits in her window, legs dangling casually, lighter clicking as she tries to spark up against the wind. she looks up when she hears you, expression instantly shifting to something attentive. she does a once over, examining your outfit choice, then your face, βyikesβ¦ that bad?β
you huff, leaning back against the railing in front of her, βyou have no idea.β
she watches you for a second, then holds up the joint she was attempting to light when you came out here. βyou uhβ¦β she pauses and laughs quietly, knowing how this conversation normally ends. βwanna smoke?β
and just like always, you hesitate.
she doesnβt rush you, she doesnβt try to pressure you; she just waits patiently. you look at the joint between her fingers, then up at her face; her eyes are on you, but they hold no expectation.
you finally nod slow, βiβ yeah. fuck it.β
her composure cracksβ eyebrows shooting up, surprise flashing across her features before it smooths into curiosity. but she keeps her thoughts to herself.
for now.
sheβs finally able to shield the wind from the flame and successfully light the joint; she takes a long drag before offering it to you. dropping your monstrosity back through your window, you accept ellieβs carefully. you pauseβ not really sure what youβre getting yourself into.
but after the first inhale settles in your chest, that nagging feeling dissipates. when you exhale, your shoulders droop and your muscles relax.
you when pass the joint back and your fingers brush hers, it sends a shiver down your spine; you clutch the blanket tighter, convincing yourself itβs a chill in the night air.
ellie pretends not to notice.
she takes a long slow hit, watching you from under her lashes; you try not to squirm under her gazeβ but youβre failing miserably.
ellie passes the joint back again and you glance over your shoulder at the ground below, trying to keep your thoughts together.
your head snaps back to her, then you shrug, βyeahβ¦ i think so. i justβ¦ i donβt know.β
you take another hit and hold it, a buzz beginning to set in. you shake your head, placing the joint back between ellieβs fingers. she waits for you to continue, βiβm so over dating.β
ellie chuckles, flicking ash over the side of the railing next to you, βwhat made this one so awful?β
you sigh, dropping down to sit on the metal below you, βmhm, where do i start?β
she drops down with you, blowing out a whistle, βthat bad?β
you hold out your palm, βokay, iβm being dramatic. it wasnβt like the worst thing in the world, but i felt like i was performing the whole time.β
she nods, βi hate that.β
βright! i shouldβve known it wasnβt gonna go well when they made reservations at a wine bar.β
she responds immediately, βmistake number one.β
βthatβs what i said. i donβt even like wine.β
her brow lifts, βthen whatβd you get?β
βwhatever our server recommended. whichβ¦ shouldβve been another red flag.β
ellie snorts and passes the joint back to you, βyouβre killing me already.β
you barely finish taking your hit before youβre speaking again, βi guess, it wasnβt completely awful? i meanβ¦ it was, butβ¦ at least they were nice?β
ellie shakes her head, βnice is dangerous. nice gets you stuck on a 2 hour date you canβt escape from.β
βthatβs unfortunately trueβ¦β you take another puff, blowing it through your nose, βit wouldβve been fine if the questions they asked didnβt make me feel like i was in therapy.β
ellie takes the joint back, βjesusβ¦ what kind of questions?β
βmy career, my 5 year planβ¦ oh! my favorite childhood memory? like? sorry but i donβt wanna unpack my trauma over tapenade and crackers.β
ellie laughs out loud, head dropping forward, βthatβs fucking diabolical.β
βisnβt it? i swear they had a notepad under the table and wrote down everything i said.β
she watches you with half-lidded eyes, smoke curling between you. βwowβ¦ that sounds exhausting.β
you shift and rest your head back against the railing, βit was. i just kept thinking about leaving, and then iβd feel bad for thinking that!β
βsee, there you go with that βniceβ shit again.β
you scoff playfully, βi canβt help it! i didnβt wanna be rude!β
βthatβs never stopped me.β
βellie!β you gasp and start giggling; then you canβt seem to stop. it bubbles up out of nowhere, light and unguarded. she smirks at the sound, then bites her lip.
you look at her thenβ really look. the way the building lights catch her eyes, her lax posture, the way sheβs watching you like sheβs actually listening.
your stomach flips and you look away too late.
but once again, ellie pretends not to notice.
at some point, the joint has dwindled down to nothing and the conversation has quieted; the two of you just enjoying each otherβs presence.
but⦠unfortunately⦠your body is betraying you.
ellie sits right across from you, hands tucked into her hoodie pockets; but she seems closer now, and youβre leaning in without realizing it.
you canβt stop yourself, she smells so goodβ not perfume or cologne, something cozy, something clean and slightly smokey.
then you notice her lips. not intentionallyβ¦ youβre just high, and theyβre right there. they look soft, yet skillful.
ellie suddenly pushes off the brick, sliding over next to you, and dropping the tail over the railing; but her eyes are still locked on yours.
βcan i ask you something?β
your heart skips, βit dependsβ¦β
she laughs softly, βyou donβt really like to smoke with people, do you?β
you pause, so ellie adds, βor is it more likeβ¦ you donβt like the way you feel when you smoke around other people?β
that hits a little closer to home.
you stare down at the a street, then run your hand through your hair, βit justβ¦ amplifies thingsβ¦.β
βyeah?β
you huff out a breath, βyeah, if thereβsβ¦ something already there, i feel it more. if iβm uncomfortable, i canβt ignore it. itβsβ¦ incredibly frustrating.β
you feel a little embarrassed to just have admitted that out loud, but ellie nods slowly, βmhm, so itβs a bad thing?β
you shrug, βit depends.β
ellieβs interest is clearly piqued, she tilts her head and encourages you to continue, βon what?β
you almost lie, but the joint has softened your edges, so the truth slips out, βon who iβm with.β
ellie stills for a second, rubbing the back of her neck and laughing softly. βthat makes sense.β
you furrow your brows, βit does?β
she smirks, βyeah, it explains why youβve always turned me down.β
your breath hitches, mouth opening then closing againβ you canβt deny it. the silence the follows is louder than anything youβve said all night.
she scoots closer, twisting towards you; you can feel her breath on your face, one of her knees bumping yours. βso, when youβre highβ¦β ellie speaks slow and deliberate, like she wants you to feel every single word, βand you start feeling all that stuff you try so hard to push downβ¦β her gaze drops to your lips, lingers, then lifts back up, βdo you think about me?β
her question hangs between you, thick and electric, the tension is unbearable. she leans in closer, nose to nose, lips almost brushing, but not quite.
you swallow, releasing a shaky breath, βyesβ¦β
her hand reaches up, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear; your fingers curl into the blanket.
the way her thumb brushes along your skin makes heat flare up your neck. ellie doesnβt move fast, she doesnβt need to; sheβs in control by just letting you react.
βmhm, all that wantingβ¦ all that thinkingβ¦β
youβre losing any and all self-control; thighs clenching together, slick pooling in your panties. βi canβt help it, when i smoke, i getβ¦ needyβ¦β
ellie stills again, not because sheβs unsure, but because sheβs taking it in. the way your voice has softened into something that resembles a whine, the way your body is curling inward, the way youβre leaning into her touch.
βneedyβ¦β she parrots.
you nod, eyes glossyβ embarrassed, but honest.
βand iβ youβreββ you stumble over words, ellie waits for you to find them, βi knew i wouldnβt be able to control myself around youβ¦β
βwhyβs that pretty girl?β
god, sheβs really gonna make you say it?
βbecauseβ¦β you reach up to her shoulders, twisting the fabric of her hoodie in your fingers, ββ¦you make it hard to think.β
her hands find your waist, firm and grounding; both of you teetering on the edge of something lethal. her forehead falls against yours, βiβve got you all worked up, huh?β
your lips part, you nod desperately, trying to pull her closer, βellieββ
her lips brush yours, and you feel like youβre going to explode; so you whimper, your chest rising and falling like you just ran a mile.
βshhhhβ¦β she coos, the sound forcing your walls to flutter, her lips still hovering over yours. βyou want me to help you out pretty?β
your fingers tighten on her shoulders, mindlessly grinding your hips against the cool metal underneath you. βpleaseβ¦β
thatβs all the invitation she needs.
she closes the sliver of space between you in an instant; the kiss is messy, urgent, sloppy with weeks worth of tension unraveling as your lips collide.
thereβs no thinking, just instinct and emotion; you press further into her, nearly in her lap as the blanket pools around your hips. your hands tangle in the hair against her neck. when you tug softly, she groans into your mouth and pulls away; her teeth biting into your lip, gasp rising in your throat.
βgodβ¦ youβre a mess.β her voice is raspy and thick with desire.
you lean in againβ needy.
before you have a chance to get your bearings, ellie stands and hauls you to your feet, pulling you into her chest. she leans down again, whispering against the shell of your ear, sheβs just as breathless as you.
βyouβre coming with me.β
you barely make it through window, ellieβs hand tight around your wrist as she pulls you inside. it slams shut behind you and suddenly youβre pinned against it. her mouth crashes back into yours like she couldnβt stand the distance.
the kiss is all teeth and muffled sounds you donβt realize youβre making. ellie walks you backward without breaking away.
youβre bumping into furniture, something clatters softly, but neither of you stop until the back of your knees hit the couch.
youβve been in here before, more than once; but it feels different now.
the cushions dip under your weight, familiar in the way it feels lived onβ hoodie thrown over the arm, blanket shoved in the corner, something distinctly ellie. none of it registers for long as one of her knees sinks into the cushion between your legs and her hand lands by your shoulder.
your slippers lay scattered on the rug, your dress hitched up to the top of your thighs. she pulls back to look at you, hair a little wild, lips swollen. for a split second, she just staresβ like sheβs realizing this is actually happening.
she exhales sharply, βfuckβ¦β
then she leans down, kissing you slower this time, deeper. itβs less frantic, but heavier. the hand that rests on your waist, slides lower, brushing the exposed flesh of your inner thigh. you spread your legs wider, and arch your back slightlyβ desperate for her touch.
she pinches the sensitive skin there, as a warning; but you moan against her lips and buck your hips up.
ellie pulls away, locking out her elbow to take a full look at you.
βheyβ¦β her voice is quiet, but commanding. you freeze.
her thumb presses into your thigh where she pinched before; you sigh, eyes fluttering shut.
βlook at me pretty girl.β you submit instantly; a slow smirk spreads across her face.
βoh babyβ¦ youβre already gone.β her tone isnβt mocking, or teasingβ itβs almost reverent.
and sheβs rightβ¦ you are gone. youβve fully melted in her hands, desperate, highβ needy.
she straightens her spine, one arm caging you in, the other still between you legs, traveling closer and closer to your center. you grip her hoodie tighter, trying to pull her down further.
βellieββ
βrelaxβ¦β her voice cuts you off; firm, yet soft. she sits back on her heels, both hands caressing the tops of your thighs as she rests between them.
βiβm gonna takeβ¦ reallyβ¦ good care of you...β she trails off when her eyes flicker over your core; your dress bunched up, panties soaked through. ellie lets out a low exhale, eyes darkening; sheβs barely touching you and youβre already falling apart underneath her.
your hips are restless, your chest heaving, your mind fuzzy; the only thing you can think about is ellie.
βheyβ¦β she says even firmer this time. βslow down.β
you still, taking a slow breath.
βthatβs itβ¦β she grabs both your wrists, one of her hands pinning them above your head on the arm of the couch. βi need you with me. not floating off.β
you nod fast. too fast. ellie tuts softly.
your breath stutters one last time before forcing yourself to be calm, locking your eyes on hers like she asked before.
she nods, giving you a small smile, βgood girl.β
you mewl, the nickname causing your walls to clench. youβre aching for her, at this moment you feel like you could cry, you want her to touch you so badβ¦
then a single digit trails up your dripping slit through your panties. you bite your lip, the feeling is too much, but not enough.
ellieβs grip tightens around your wrists, βjesus, fuckβ youβre soaked.β
βmm hmm. all for you els.β youβre panting, head dropping back against the cushion.
but your eyes are still on hers.
and ellie is barely holding herself together.
her lips brush yours, you can feel her uneven breaths, βyouβre this worked up because iβm allowing it.β she presses her finger down a little harder.
her voice crackled and low, βdonβt rush, donβt chase itβ¦β her words are hardly registering, but youβre filing them away somewhere. βjust take what i give you, when i give it.β
your entire body is vibrating.
very nerve tuned into her voice, her hands; the way her eyes track you.
βellieβ¦ pleaseββ itβs broken, vulnerable in way youβve never let yourself be. βiβve never felt like this beforeβ please els?β
she slowly bunches your dress up past your belly button, then hooks a finger in the waistband of your panties.
βhereβs the deal. you donβt have to think. i do.β your heart stops for a second, before it kicks into overdrive; her voice grounds you again, βi lead. you listen.β she starts to drag your panties down your thighs, βthink you can you do that for me?β
you nod, in an instant; sheβs barely done speaking.
ellie shakes her head, pulling your panties off your ankles, and tucking them in her hoodie pocket. βi need words pretty girl.β
βyesββ deep breathβ¦ βyes, iβi can!β
βgood. now let me enjoy this.β
her lips are on yours again; dominant, erotic.
her hand grips one of your inner thighs and pushes it up against the back of the couch; opening you up wider. her fingers squeeze the flesh there before slipping down and ghosting over your folds.
her tongue forces its way into your mouth when you gasp. you twist your wrists in ellieβs grasp, desperate to touch her skin. she reinforces her grip, kissing you harder.
finally, her middle finger glides through your slit, and she groans deep in her chest when she feels how wet youβve gotten. she moves her lips down your jaw and sucks purple marks onto the flesh of your neck.
her finger gathers your slick, slides up slow, and circles your clit.
you arch into her touch, a whimper escaping as she traces lazy shapes; the pressure light but consistent. the ache in your core starts building.
ellie nibbles softly on your skin, her body weight pinning you against the cushions.
βfuckβ youβre dripping all over my couch pretty.β ellie murmurs against your throat, voice rough with lust. her finger dips lower, coating it in your wetness before pushing in slow, letting you feel every inch before she curls upward.
you stomach clenches, walls fluttering; she adds a second finger without warning, stretching you open.
ellie pumps skillfully, lewd noises filling the room, mixed with your ragged breathing and whiny moans. she lifts her head to watch your face, green eyes locked on yours, intense and commanding.
when your eyes roll back in pleasure, ellieβs voice grabs your attention, βlook at me while i fuck you with my fingers.β your eyes shoot open, heat floods your cheeks, hips bucking up to meet her thrusts.
her pace quickens, her thumb moves to rub firmly over your clit. your thighs tremble, muscles spasming as bursts of ecstasy ripple through your body.
she spreads your thighs even wider with one of her knees and grinds her palm against you with each pump of her fingers, hitting that sweet spot inside you.
βelβ ellie! oh fuckββ
βthatβs it. take it. let me hear how good it feels.β
you moan louder, high-pitched and unrestrained. she drives her fingers faster, twisting them against your walls. sweat beads on your skin, your dress is bunched up and pulled down, the top of your chest spilling out.
ellie leans down, yanking the fabric lower with her teeth, exposing your nipples. she takes one in her mouth, swirling her tongue around the bud.
her hand still works against you relentlessly, the sensation pushing you closer and closer to the edge.
βnot yetβ¦β ellie slows down, her warning dripping with mock condescension. this draws a frustrated whine from you as you teeter on the brink of orgasm.
she stops, pulling her hand free, your pussy clenching around nothingβ trying to suck her back in. she brings her fingers to your lips, forcing them into your mouth; your own arousal leaking down your bottom lip.
you suck eagerly, tongue lapping up every drop. ellie watches you through hooded eyes, her chest heaving; she pulls her fingers from your mouth with a wet pop.
she grips your chin harshly, βso fucking prettyβ¦β
ellie finally releases your wrists and rises from the couch, standing beside it. you go to sit up, but she stops you, βstay there. iβll only be a second.β
βno els, pleaseββ
her voice is firm as she turns and walks down a small hallway, βdonβt think. just listen, remember?β you nod even though she canβt see you.
you close your eyes and inhale deeply through your nose, trying to steady yourself.
thatβs when you notice itβ your dress bunched under your chest, twisted up and forgotten. the realization sends a warm rush through you; you pause for half a second, then tug it the rest of the way off.
you drop the skimpy red dress on the floor beside the couch. you sit there waiting impatiently, every sense tuned in towards the hallwayβ¦
toward the sound of footsteps approaching.
the air shifts when ellie steps back in then living room; purple strap on hanging low on her hips. her hoodie is gone, black sports bra snug on her chest.
your eyes widen, jaw dropping slightly; a fresh wave of arousal floods your cunt.
her steps falter when she sees your dress in a pile on the floor; she curses, barely audible. βfuckβ¦β
her jaw is tight as she steps closer, her fingers grip your chin again, forcing your gaze to meet hers.
she kneels down next to you, fingertips possessively tracing your sternum, βhey pretty girl?β
words fail you, only able to squeak out a sound, βmhm?β
βi want you to get up on your knees, faceββ ellie points towards her kitchen, βthat way, and lay your headββ then she taps the arm of the couch with two fingers. βright hereβ¦β
ellie leans back, a predator stalking its prey, and watches you spring into action, doing exactly as she asks.
so perfect. so submissive.
once youβre laid out exactly how she wants, face pressed into the rough fabric of the couch, ass high in the air; she moves behind you.
one of her legs is bent at the knee on the cushions, the other planted on the floor. she kneads the flesh of your ass in her hands, pulling the skin roughly, spreading you open. she gives one cheek a soft smack, pulling a sharp moan from you.
ellie snorts, βyou are a needy little slut, arenβt you?β
the smooth tip of her strap dips between your folds, and your focus slips, mind hazy with want. her hand comes down on your other cheek, the sting making you dizzy. βthat was a question pretty girl.β
βfuckβ sorry! yes! i am.β
βgood fucking girl.β
she pushes the tip in, just enough to make you shudder at the weight of itβ a preview of whatβs to come. her hands grip your hips tightly, holding you still. you moan loud, trying to push your hips back to take more of her.
ellieβs fingers flex against your skin, βyouβre already falling apart for meβ¦ and i havenβt even fucked you yet.β
she starts to push in at an agonizingly slow pace, teasing you on purpose. a slow torture designed to break you down. you sob against the fabric, words muffled, βelβ pleaseβ¦β
βaw, please what?β she taunts you, her voice a low purr as she finally buries herself to the hilt. once her hips sit flush against your ass, she pauses; you feel so full, the stretch overwhelming. βtell me what you want.β
βi want more,β you barely choke out the words, βplease, fuck me ellieβ¦β itβs barely a whisper.
she reaches up and grips the back of your neck, chuckling softly.
βas you wish pretty girl.β
she pulls out almost completely, then snaps her hips forward, setting a pace that steals your breath. the sound of skin slapping echoing in the room; along with your moans and ellieβs breathy grunts.
each thrust shoves you forward, you move your arms to brace on the couch, digging your nails into the fabric.
the pleasure so intense it borders on pain.
tears are streaming down your face now, youβre babbling strings of curses and pleas.
your body is at her mercy; so close, the coil inside you wound impossibly tightβ but itβs still not enough to fall over the edge.
you have no idea what you need, but ellieβs words ring in your head, βyou donβt have to think. i do.β
so you beg.
βellieβ iββ you struggle to articulate what youβre feeling, but ellie knows you need something else.
βwhat pretty? whatchu need?β
βi donβt know!β youβre crying for real now, the pleasure is too much, yet not enough and you canβt take it any longer. βi need to cum, please els!β
with a rough groan, ellie pulls out, the sudden emptiness makes you cry out, but her hands are on you instantly. she flips you onto your back with surprising strength.
and youβre a mess.
legs spread wide. flushed skin. tears staining your face.
ellie kneels between your thighs, eyes hungry as they rake over you. she visibly shivers when she reaches up and wipes tears from your cheek with her thumb, βso fucking beautiful when you cry for me.β
before you have a second to process, sheβs lining up again. but this time, thereβs no prep, no easing in; just one fluid motion, filling you completely. the sudden intrusion rips a strangled moan from your throat.
even with the force behind her initial thrust, she doesnβt set a brutal pace. instead, bracing one hand behind your head, the other snaking down between your bodies.
your nails claw at the skin on her shoulders, dragging down her biceps as her fingers find your swollen clit. ellie moves in tight circles, dipping her lips to your throat again, darkening her previous marks.
the fullness of the toy inside you, the targeted pressure on your clit, her mouth on your skinβ itβs too much.
itβs everything you want.
itβs exactly what you need.
your body locks up, back arching violently off the couch. a shrill, desperate sound tears from your lips when the coil inside you finally snaps.
itβs explosive, overwhelming; a release that whites out your vision entirely. your orgasm is intense and all consuming, sucking all the air from your lungs.
your walls are clamping down hard as you shake uncontrollably, the pleasure making you delirious.
ellie doesnβt stop her movements; drawing out every last spasm until youβre sobbing, completely ruined.
when she finally slows, both you are panting, bodies tired. her green orbs watch you closely when she eases the toy out, wet and glistening with your slick. you whine, the loss leaves you feeling empty and aching.
your body is still buzzing, mind still reelingβ youβre still high.
ellie straightens, unbuckling the harness on her hips, and wiggles free before dropping it on the floor next to your dress.
your gaze travels up her body, clad in black soffe shorts that fit her perfectly, abs flexing at every inhale, sports bra still straining against her small breasts. thereβs a faint sheen of sweat on her skin that makes her glow in the dim lighting; she looks painfully hot.
youβre falling restless againβ not because you want ellie to touch you, but because you want to touch ellie.
she stands now, looking down at you on the couch, youβre still gathering your thoughts. your hands tremble as you sit up, reaching for the waistband of ellieβs shorts; she raises her brows.
βellieβ¦ can iβ¦ can i please touch you?β
she pauses, a smirk spreads across her face, but her body betrays her; pupils blown wide, hands shaking, breathing uneven.
βyou sure you can handle it pretty girl? you look like youβre still spacey.β
you nod frantically, running your hands up her sides, then dragging your nails back down. βi can do it. i want to so bad, please?β
a low chuckle rumbles through ellieβs chest, βwellβ¦ since you asked so nicelyβ¦β her voice is rough around the edges, βbut youβre gonna do exactly what i say, think you can do that?β
you nod again, βyes. i promise.β
she hooks a finger under you jaw, tilting your head up to meet her eyes, βgood girl. now get on your knees, right here.β she motions to the ground in front of her as she moves to sit on the couch; you down between her legs.
you scramble to comply, the plush rug soft under your sore limbs. you look up at her from this new angle, and the sight makes your breath catchβ ellie looks godlike.
sharp features. soft skin. her athletic frame causing your mouth to water.
her hands rest on her hips, thumbs hooking in the waistband on her shorts. her command comes out softly, βtake them off pretty.β
your fingers waver as you reach for the fabric and slowly pull them down her toned thighs. the cotton is warm, you can feel the heat radiating from her skin. you drop them next to your dress, leaving her in her black sports bra and black boxer briefs that cling to herβ already dark with arousal.
when you reach for them, she stops you with a hand on your wrist, βah ah. i want you to use your teeth.β
your cheeks flush bright red and bite your lip, but you lean forward without hesitation; gripping the elastic with your teeth and working them down.
once sheβs left in nothing but her sports bra, you canβt help but stare, mesmerized by the sight of her, slick already seeping. the scent of her, warm and raw, floods your senses; your head is spinning.
βeyes up here pretty.β you force your gaze up, her tousled hair and flushed face now drawing your attention. her eyes are glossy but wide, lips parted as she watches you.
βi want you to start with your fingers. get them wet for me.β you bring them to your mouth, sucking and coating them with salvia.
βgood. now one finger, just slide it through my folds. donβt go inside yet. justβ¦ feel.β
you obey, tracing the length of her slit. sheβs impossibly wet, the feeling of her arousal on your skin has you twitching in pleasure.
ellie lets out a shaky breath, shifting her hips forward slightly. βadd another one and circle my clit. slowly.β
your fingers find the hard nub, languid motions just as she instructed; she groans, her head falling back against the back of the couch.
βfuck, just like thatβ¦β she whimpers. βnow go a little faster.β
you speed up, your fingers covered in her slick as she starts grinding against your hand. her breath is ragged, lip caught between her teeth. she gasps.
βpleaseβ your mouth. i need your mouth.β
you lean in, replacing your fingers with your tongue. you lap at her, savoring the tangy taste, and she yells out.
βyes, fuck, just like that.β her hands tangle in your hair. βyeah, suck on my clit. make me cum.β
your lips wrap around her, sucking gently, she bucks against your face. when her grip tightens in your hair, you moan against her. her eyebrows furrow, jaw falling open.
βharder.β she demands, her voice nearly a growl. βiβm so fucking close.β
you suck a bit harder and flick your tongueβ then she shatters.
her breath seizes up, her body convulsing as her orgasm washes over her. you hold her through it, slowing down but not pulling away.
after ellie falls limp underneath you, she hauls you up, hands cupping your face as she kisses you, hard and deep.
βyouβre such a good girl.β she whispers against your lips, βso fucking good for me.β
youβre still in her lap when everything finally settles. your forehead tucked against her shoulder, her arms are wrapped loosely around your waist, fingertips tracing undistinguishable patterns along your spine.
ellie exhales softly against your temple, lips brushing the skin there, βyou feeling okay?β
you only hum a response, not ready to move just yet. but ellie sits up, one hand falling to your lower back, the other nudges your knee softly.
βcβmon. bathroom. iβll help you.β
you both stand up carefully, her hands stay on you the entire short trip down the hallway, your head lolling against her shoulder. she flicks the bathroom light on and lets you step inside.
she opens a linen closet and pulls out two small towels, then she turns on the sink to warm up the water.
ellie faces you again, her voice hushed, βtake a second, use the bathroom, and iβll be right back, okay?β
you give her a subtle nod and take a few steps towards the toilet; plopping down and closing your eyes as ellie shuts the bathroom door behind her.
the peak of your high has pretty much worn off now, leaving you tired and sore. you finish your business, but canβt bring your legs to stand you up. your thoughts begin to drift; you almost start reflecting on this decision, the words: βdid i justβ¦β when the door opens again and ellie walks in with a small stack of clothes for you.
sheβs wearing a pair of black sweat pants and a faded pbr shirt; she sets the clothes on the countertop, leans her hands against it, and looks at you.
βletβs get you cleaned upβ¦ ready?β
when you can only manage a weak nod, she softens and takes a step closer. she helps you stand, then wraps an arm around your waist.
βcome on, letβs get you up here.β
she helps you climb into the bathroom counter; you canβt help but flinch as the cold surface makes contact with your heated skin.
ellie sticks her fingers under the water, testing the temperature; she adjusts it slightly, wets one of the towels, and wrings it out.
βshould be nice and warmβ¦β she trails off, her voice gentle and focused.
she starts with your cheeks, wiping away any sign of dried tears and running mascara. she moves down to your neck and chest, her touch is careful and attentiveβ your eyes close and you rest your head back against the mirror. when she reaches your core, you tense up; but quickly relax into her touch, allowing her to take care of you.
she lays the wet cloth on the edge of the sink and picks up the other one, patting you dry; her movements even softer than before. her hands linger on your knees, the now damp cloth also set to the side, her thumbs brushing slow circles.
βhow you feeling pretty girl?β
you sigh, smiling softly, βreally good elsβ¦β
she smiles back, βalright, letβs get you dressed.β
ellie helps you down from the counter, hands on your middle until your legs feel steady enough to stand on.
she lets go, but doesnβt step far; sheβs not necessarily hovering but her presence is solid.
almost protective.
you pull on a gray pair of soffe shorts and an oversized nirvana tee, shaking out your tired limbs. ellieβs hand falls on your lower back as she reaches around you to open the door.
she guides you into her bedroom, and just like the rest of the apartment, itβs unmistakably her.
itβs dark, but illuminatined by mismatched table lamps. the air smells faintly of weed and something woodsy. the bed sits low to the floor, dark gray sheets crumpled on the mattress. a variety of framed and taped posters line the wall right above the headboard, the colors are worn down and the corners are curling. a guitar leans against a bookcase thatβs stacked with cds and old video games.
ellie clears her throat behind you, βsoβ¦ uhm. do you, maybe, wannaβ¦ stay tonight?β her arm reaches out, hand finding yours, and interlacing your fingers. βi donβt want you to go yet.β
something in your chest blooms, giving her hand a small squeeze, βyeahβ¦ iβd like that.β
she lets out a breath, pulling her lips into a crooked smile when she finally looks at you, βokay, cool. yeahβ cool.β
you both stand there for a moment, a little unsure of what comes next. she eventually gestures towards the bed, βgo ahead and get comfortable, iβm just gonnaβ¦β she waves vaguely towards the door, βiβll be right back.β
you crawl onto the mattress, sinking into the soft sheets, the cool fabric soothing you. you listen to ellieβs footsteps outside, the creak of the bathroom door, and the muffled rush of running water; the sounds fading into white noise.
your eyes flutter closed before you even realize it, everything feels pleasantly heavy; your body nearly giving into sleep.
youβre barely aware of the bed dipping again, warmth pressing against you from behind, an arm slides around your waist. ellie pulls you against her, careful not to wake youβ you fit together like youβve done this before, maybe in another lifetime.
you feel her head tuck into the crook of your neck, breath soft against your skin. her thumb flexes against your stomach, before slipping under the shirt youβre borrowing, and tracing mindless patterns.
she inhales slow, breathing you in, βiβmβ¦ really glad youβre here.β her words are lower than a whisper, like theyβre only meant for herself instead of you.
you donβt open your eyes, but you push yourself impossibly closer to her, the words spilling out before you can stop them, βme too.β
ellie freezes, you feel it instantly; the way her arm stiffened around you, breath stammering. the silence only lasts a moment before she huffs a silent laugh, βgoodβ¦ now go to sleep pretty girl.β
her response barely has time to process before youβre dozing off, safely wrapped in ellieβs arms.
that next morning, you wake slowly; the morning light streaming through a slit in the dark curtains, your consciousness is coming back in pieces. before you open your eyes, memories of last night come rushing backβ ellie.
you take a deep breath, trying to settle the fluttering in your stomach, when you feel fingers brush hair from your face.
your eyes squint open, ellie pulls her hand away mid-motion. sheβs sitting up against the headboard, hair tangled, hoodie wrinkled and hanging off one shoulder, her eyes still heavy with sleep.
βohβ hey.β
you stretch your arms above your head, rolling onto your stomach to get a full look at her, βgood morningβ¦β
for a few minutes, neither of you move; sitting comfortably in a silence thatβs holding words you donβt really know how to say. it feels fragile, like the wrong thing could ruin it all.
eventually, ellie clears her throat and sits up straighter, βyouβ¦ uh, probably wanna get home right?β
you nod, even though your body is begging you not to move.
the two of you shuffle back into the living room, your slippers, dress, and ellieβs clothes still lay on the floor in front of the couch. you slide on your slippers as she moves around you to open the window when a laugh bubbles in her chest.
she turns to face you, pointing at the fire escape.
βwhat?β
you peer around her, your blanket from last night is still out there. twisted and caught in the railing; one end is secured, the other flaps in the wind, smacking against the brick of the building. at first, you just stare.
then start giggling, ellieβs laugh tangling with yours.
βoopsβ¦ you kind of just abandoned it, huh?β
you groan, palm landing on your forehead, βi was a little distracted.β
she snorts, βyou had a good reason.β
she steps out of the way so you can climb out, dress tossed over your shoulder. you stumble a little when you yank the blanket free and tuck it under your arm. she leans against the window frame, watching you with a smirk.
βall good?β
you nod once, pulling your window open, βyep. got it.β
as you lower yourself inside, your eyes search for ellieβs one more time; sheβs still watching you with an unreadable expression.
she sends you a wink, βheyβ¦ text me?β
you grin, almost shy, βi always do.β
ooouuuu my first request! thank you anonymous:)
letβs chat about dom ellie for a secβ¦ i personally think as much as sheβs like this big dorky loser, when it comes to this type of dynamic, she locks tf in. when youβre laid out in front of her naked or close to, sheβs not thinking about her comic books or dinosaurs, sheβs thinking about fucking you into next week. i think sheβd loveee taking control, thatβs not to say she also wouldnβt like to relinquish it but for the sake of this ficβ¦
anyways sorry for my rant, opinions are just that!