Your Worst Nightmare

Charlotte “Lottie” Gothel Twenty Not just a pretty face

[takenbystxrm]

prettynastylottie‌:

“Oh…” that was the reaction she had received from her best friend. It could have been a lot worse, but it still stung deep in her chest. Lottie swallowed hard, eyeing him carefully. And then he said ‘okay.’ She let out a small, almost bitter laugh. “Is that all you have to say? I mean, I have my first boyfriend, Casper. An actual boyfriend. Someone who really likes me for me. Isn’t that exciting?” She couldn’t help but feel as though she wasn’t going to get the reaction she’s looking for. So she decided to drop it. “Never mind,” she waved her hand dismissively. “It’s fine.”

Casper wasn’t expecting the hostility that came from Lottie, but he should’ve, and as soon as she responded, he knew he had fucked up. He was happy for her, happy that she had someone in her life, but he couldn’t seem to form those words. His mouth became very dry and uncomfortable. If he spoke now, he was going to fumble over his own tongue. Then, Lottie dismissed him and Casper felt awful. “Crap, Lottie, no. That’s not what I- what I meant to-” He was fumbling alright. “I’m happy for you. It is exciting. I just wasn’t expecting it. Not because you’re not wonderful because you are. Ash is lucky to have found you. I just didn’t realize you had become so close.” 

[prettynastylottie]

And suddenly, Lottie felt like the jackass. She knew Casper didn’t mean it like that, he wasn’t trying to be a jerk about it. And she was wrong for being upset over the reaction. “No, Casper, it’s okay. I.. I just haven’t been this happy in.. I couldn’t tell you how long. Ash makes me feel wanted, something I haven’t felt.. like ever,” she let out a small laugh. “I just want my best friend to be supportive of this. Without your support, I.. I don’t know. I’d feel wrong. I care about you and your opinion, always.”

[ash-stoashes]

At his wish, she would surely grant it. Nodding, Lottie ushered the waiter over and asked for their order to go, which they kindly fulfilled. A few moments later, their food was in a bag, they payed their bill, and were out the door. That was the usual routine though. Either attempting to cook something at home, or ordering out and staying in for the night. It was more comfortable, and she knew Ash felt more like himself and more at ease. That was what was truly important. Within no time the two had arrived back at Ash’s apartment. A place that Lottie spent more than enough time at. It was as if her own dorm didn’t even exist. She spent most of her nights here, mainly because she knew if she went back to her dorm, she’d be all alone. After being with Ash for some time, Lottie became a bit codependent and craved his presence. Was it healthy? Probably not. But after not receiving love or attention for practically her whole life, who could blame her? She took a seat on the couch, placing the bag on the coffee table in front of her as she looked over to Ash, ‘Home sweet home.’

Ash hated that he kept shying away from being in public, espeically when it caused Lottie to be kind of a homebody as well. She didn’t deserve that. She seemed like she didn’t care, but he felt like he wasn’t giving her a normal relationship at times and he felt guilty about that. As they walked into his apartment, he gave her hand a little squeeze and then went to sit on the couch. He took off his shoes and then looked at her, a small smile on his lips. ‘Home sweet home,’ he signed back to her, moving so he was angled towards her. He placed a hand on her side, pulling her a little closer and kissing her cheek, gently.

[prettynastylottie]

His touch was everything to her, leaving her feeling completely and utterly safe and wanted. Nothing felt better, nothing. She smiled softly, slowly turning her head to return his kiss, placing her lips on to his. Lottie was always on cloud nine when she was with Ash. Things were going so well, she felt like at any moment he would be taken away from her or he would decide that he didn’t want her. It was all way too much for her sometimes. But she trusted him, and his promise to her. Foolish? Maybe. Did she care? Not at all.

[takenbystxrm]

prettynastylottie‌:

Lottie tensed up a bit, wondering if now was really the time. Casper was clueless on most fronts, and while right in the present time he might not think much of the news, who’s to say it won’t cause problems in the future. But they were best friends, and she didn’t keep anything hidden from him. “Actually,” she began slowly, pushing herself off of the counter. “Ash and I are sort of.. more than friends. He’s my boyfriend. Has been for a while now,” she looked to him with a unsure smile, “It was kind of obvious to everyone else, I didn’t even think to officially announce it or anything.”

Casper should’ve noticed that way Lottie tensed up at his question, but because of his lack of knowledge when it came to social cues, he thought nothing of it. In fact, he didn’t even really notice it. However, he was definitely surprised at her words. “Oh…” He hadn’t meant to say it in a bad way, but it was all that came out of his mouth. He didn’t know what there was too say. Instead he just froze, nodding his head as if he were saying “Okay.”

[prettynastylottie]

“Oh...” that was the reaction she had received from her best friend. It could have been a lot worse, but it still stung deep in her chest. Lottie swallowed hard, eyeing him carefully. And then he said ‘okay.’ She let out a small, almost bitter laugh. “Is that all you have to say? I mean, I have my first boyfriend, Casper. An actual boyfriend. Someone who really likes me for me. Isn’t that exciting?” She couldn’t help but feel as though she wasn’t going to get the reaction she’s looking for. So she decided to drop it. “Never mind,” she waved her hand dismissively. “It’s fine.”

[ash-stoashes]

Lottie noticed his line of vision, following it towards two people who seemed to have an issue. She took a deep breath, smiling once he looked back to her. Of course she could read right through him. She could see he was hurt, he was bothered, he was upset. And that destroyed her. But she needed to remain calm, be a good support system. I love you, she signed back. And she did. She loved him more than she ever thought she could love someone. And with a love that strong, of course she was extremely protective. Which was why she wanted to distract him and put him in a good mood. Lottie leaned forward a bit, making sure to lock her eyes with his, her lips curling into a smirk. She used her free hand and reached out to brush his hair back, her fingers slowly dragging down the side of his face to rest against his cheek. “So handsome,” she whispered, “And all mine.”

Ash leaned into her touch, nibbling on his lower lip as he looked at her. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed the people’s faces go completely red. Obviously they figured out that Ash had noticed them whispering and felt embarrassed. Rightfully so. They should feel embarrassed.He tilted his head a little, taking her hand and kissing it gently. ‘Can we take this to go? I just want to go home with you.’

[prettynastylottie]

At his wish, she would surely grant it. Nodding, Lottie ushered the waiter over and asked for their order to go, which they kindly fulfilled. A few moments later, their food was in a bag, they payed their bill, and were out the door. That was the usual routine though. Either attempting to cook something at home, or ordering out and staying in for the night. It was more comfortable, and she knew Ash felt more like himself and more at ease. That was what was truly important. Within no time the two had arrived back at Ash’s apartment. A place that Lottie spent more than enough time at. It was as if her own dorm didn’t even exist. She spent most of her nights here, mainly because she knew if she went back to her dorm, she’d be all alone. After being with Ash for some time, Lottie became a bit codependent and craved his presence. Was it healthy? Probably not. But after not receiving love or attention for practically her whole life, who could blame her? She took a seat on the couch, placing the bag on the coffee table in front of her as she looked over to Ash, ‘Home sweet home.’

[takenbystxrm]

prettynastylottie‌:

“Listen, I’m in the same boat, sweet cheeks. If I didn’t have you, I’d have no friends,” she chuckled, though both knew how absolutely true it was. He was her first friend, and sometimes it felt like her only friend, despite having Ash. “To be fair, I would bullshit my way to get peoples money for charity, not for my own personal gain. It’s not like I’m seeing any of that money,” she sighed, “but I guess you’re right. I’ll probably stick to selling cider or something.”

Casper knew it was definitely true on his end, but he was pretty sure he’d seen her hanging around with other people. She was such a likeable person, he didn’t actually believe he was her only friend. “Aren’t you friends with Ash?” He asked casually. “The Tarot Reading sounds way cooler than selling cider, but whatever you want to do.” 

[prettynastylottie]

Lottie tensed up a bit, wondering if now was really the time. Casper was clueless on most fronts, and while right in the present time he might not think much of the news, who’s to say it won’t cause problems in the future. But they were best friends, and she didn’t keep anything hidden from him. “Actually,” she began slowly, pushing herself off of the counter. “Ash and I are sort of.. more than friends. He’s my boyfriend. Has been for a while now,” she looked to him with a unsure smile, “It was kind of obvious to everyone else, I didn’t even think to officially announce it or anything.”

[ash-stoashes]

Lottie rolled her eyes, shrugging her shoulders and motioning a so so motion with her hand. Class was class, and that was about it. She didn’t work, she didn’t have an abundance of friends at her dispense. Her life was mainly school and Ash. Better now, she signed and gave him a warm smile. She looked around the room, eyeing the people who sat at the surrounding tables. Everyone was chatting away, enjoying their lunches and their company. It was a cozy joint, something Lottie always appreciated. When the waiter came around, Lottie ordered for both of them, their usual orders of course. As the waiter walked away, Lottie ran a hand through her hair and glanced back at Ash.

Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed two people staring. He hated that. He knew that a lot of people didn’t know much about the deaf community, but wasn’t it basic manners 101 that staring wasn’t okay? He tried not to let it get to him, but he just couldn’t help it sometimes. He took a deep breath, brushing his fingers through his hair and trying to calm himself as Lottie ordered. As she look back, he faked a smile and took his hand in hers. ‘I love you,’ he signed to her, giving her hand a little squeeze.

[prettynastylottie]

Lottie noticed his line of vision, following it towards two people who seemed to have an issue. She took a deep breath, smiling once he looked back to her. Of course she could read right through him. She could see he was hurt, he was bothered, he was upset. And that destroyed her. But she needed to remain calm, be a good support system. I love you, she signed back. And she did. She loved him more than she ever thought she could love someone. And with a love that strong, of course she was extremely protective. Which was why she wanted to distract him and put him in a good mood. Lottie leaned forward a bit, making sure to lock her eyes with his, her lips curling into a smirk. She used her free hand and reached out to brush his hair back, her fingers slowly dragging down the side of his face to rest against his cheek. “So handsome,” she whispered, “And all mine.”

[themightyhcra]

LOTTIE

“Being royal is completely overrated,” Lottie rolled her eyes, not ever being jealous of those who had more. She just didn’t like that many people who had more than her rubbed it in. It was absolutely aggravating and she wanted nothing to do with it. “And princes? They’re nothing but conceited jerks who think they can charm their way out of trouble and in someone’s pants. I mean, just look at that Westergaard kid. He’s a total scumbag and somehow charmed himself into the Queen’s son’s pants? It’s a joke.”

“I don’t even know why people even assimilate me with them,” Nora said with a slow shake of her head, “We’re so different… it doesn’t even make sense…” Neither did she have the best interaction with princes, or just any beautiful men at all. She’d once had several crushes on so many princes, watching them from a distance with a wistful sigh. Much like the Westergaard as well as that guy, Lars, taking her fancies past that afar stage resulted in nothing but heartbreak… but what else was she to expect? In her mind, she was practically as assemblage of broken parts. “I’ve talked to a princes before… can’t really say it’s ended well…” she shrugged, “What do you expect from people who were born perfect? They look at people like us… people like me… and all they can see is what’s wrong with us…” She shook her head, “You’re so luck you have Ash… he treats you better than any prince ever could…” She sighed once again, her head tilting to one side. 

[prettynastylottie]

Lottie gave her a small smile. She felt for Nora, she really did. She’s a gorgeous girl with an even more beautiful soul. A much better person than Lottie could ever be. And she was right. Lottie was extremely lucky to have met Ash, to have someone like him in her life, someone to love and care for her like no one ever has before. But did she deserve him? Probably not. Nora did, Nora deserved to have someone love and treat her like a queen. It was just a matter of time before someone worthy enough swept her off of her feet. “Someone is going to come into your life and treat you amazingly, you know that. And for all you know.. they might already be in your life,” she shrugged, not wanting to be too cryptic. She linked her arm with Nora and rested her head on her shoulder, “How about we go and grab a sweet treat?”

[prettynastylottie]

👤 Bae Rae ( @noirkittcn )

🎶 “Yeah, I kinda wish I got paid cause my card got maxed out yesterday. Could you give me a shot? And I’ll work with what I got. Not a dollar in my pocket but I rock it like I ain’t broke.. You know?”

💬 No, you can’t physically die from lack of attention, if so I’d be dead a while ago.

[prettynastylottie]

👤 La La ( @atinla )

🎶 “I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint. I do not feel ashamed. I'm your hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between, you know you wouldn't want it any other way.”

💬 If I were to pay you, would you kill a man for me?

[prettynastylottie]

👤 Boo Thang ( @takenbystxrm )

🎶 “Take me out tonight because I want to see people and I want to see life. Driving in your car.. Oh, please don't drop me home because it's not my home, it's their home, and I'm welcome no more.”

💬 It’s impossible for me not to worry about you. You know I’m always here. You have my number. Use it.

[themightyhcra]

LOTTIE·

Lottie turned to the girl who spoke to her, grinning as she tucked her hair behind her ear. “You think so?” She glanced back at the jewelry, letting out a sigh. “It’s probably the nicest necklace I’ve ever seen. But maybe in another life it’ll be mine,” she turned away from the window and faced the other. Nora and Lottie had a friendship that Lottie has only ever dreamed of having. She didn’t get along with most girls, nor did she have many friends in general. Her number ones as of late were Casper, Nora, and Ash, of course. But Ash was her boyfriend and Casper was.. Casper. Having Nora was a blessing. They built each other up, were always there for one another. She didn’t know what she would do without the girl.

“I’ve only ever seen royals wear that kind of thing…” Nora said wistfully, attaching her left hand to her right wrist in front of her body as she continued to stare at it, feeling much more comfortable to take another step closer to Lottie. Of course, Lottie was nothing to be afraid of, ever. But that wall of caution was up for everyone at least until she felt like she was safe. “Well… real royals,” she corrected, “Who live in actual castles and get to wear big ball gowns and… princes and such.” Not princess who live in muddy pumpkin patches and rusty old towers wearing dresses sewn from scraps. And a prince… well… she thought she had something much better than that in Casper, and she didn’t want to spend her time with Lottie bothering her about her petty little crush that broke her heart on a daily basis. There were more joyful things to talk about with her; things that would make her feel safer and more loved. 

[prettynastylottie]

“Being royal is completely overrated,” Lottie rolled her eyes, not ever being jealous of those who had more. She just didn’t like that many people who had more than her rubbed it in. It was absolutely aggravating and she wanted nothing to do with it. “And princes? They’re nothing but conceited jerks who think they can charm their way out of trouble and in someone’s pants. I mean, just look at that Westergaard kid. He’s a total scumbag and somehow charmed himself into the Queen’s son’s pants? It’s a joke.”

[takenbystxrm]

prettynastylottie‌:

“As one of your closest friends, it’s my job to bother you at all times,” Lottie grinned as she folded her hands in front of her against the counter. “I’m thinking of volunteering for that Halloween festival, but I don’t know exactly what would be my forte. I was thinking of doing like tarot card readings or something silly like that. What do you think?”

“Yeah, yeah I know. Just be thankful you are my friend right? Cause if not I wouldn’t have any?” Casper laughed awkwardly, trying not to make it seem like he was being hard on himself. He eyed Lottie for a few minutes, judging her most recent statement. “Do you even know how to read tarot cards? Like, actually read them? Or would you just bullshit your way to get people’s money.

[prettynastylottie]

“Listen, I’m in the same boat, sweet cheeks. If I didn’t have you, I’d have no friends,” she chuckled, though both knew how absolutely true it was. He was her first friend, and sometimes it felt like her only friend, despite having Ash. “To be fair, I would bullshit my way to get peoples money for charity, not for my own personal gain. It’s not like I’m seeing any of that money,” she sighed, “but I guess you’re right. I’ll probably stick to selling cider or something.”

[ash-stoashes]

Nodding, Lottie leaned herself into him as they walked. Pretty soon she would be turning twenty one. Which meant that not only would Lottie be able to go to the stores to buy the alcohol for them so Ash wouldn’t have to all the time. But she could buy her own drinks at the bar without risking getting herself into trouble. She was never big on birthdays, but this one was one she couldn’t wait to celebrate. They continued to walk until they began to approach the restaurant, Lottie’s stomach beginning to scream, not realizing how hungry she had been. Looking around, Lottie saw their usual table was empty and squeezed his hand, ushering them to the booth. Taking a seat opposite of him, she folded her hands on the table and smiled at him, “Hi.”

Ash tilted his head a little, kissing Lottie’s temple and smiling gently. He also gave her hand a little squeeze, then reached to put an arm around her shoulders. He really just felt a sense of relief as he walked into the restaurant. He took his place, smiling back at her. ‘Hi,’ he signed back. ‘How was your day?’

[prettynastylottie]

Lottie rolled her eyes, shrugging her shoulders and motioning a so so motion with her hand. Class was class, and that was about it. She didn’t work, she didn’t have an abundance of friends at her dispense. Her life was mainly school and Ash. Better now, she signed and gave him a warm smile. She looked around the room, eyeing the people who sat at the surrounding tables. Everyone was chatting away, enjoying their lunches and their company. It was a cozy joint, something Lottie always appreciated. When the waiter came around, Lottie ordered for both of them, their usual orders of course. As the waiter walked away, Lottie ran a hand through her hair and glanced back at Ash.

[museinspo]

“i am afraid that if i open myself i will not stop pouring. (why do i fear becoming a river. what mountain gave me such shame.)”

— Jamie Oliveira (via lazypacific)

[ash-stoashes]

With his body language relaxing and tension melting away, Lottie smiled softly as she squeezed his hand. She nodded, urging him to follow her, though of course he knew the way. They walked side by side in silence, which was always something she appreciated. After her whole life dealing with her mother nagging her, a little silence was nice every now and then. Though when Ash had one too many, his voice was like a warm hug, always making her smile. She elbowed him a bit to get his attention before signing, Drinks at home tonight?

Ash intertwined his fingers with Lottie’s, smiling gently to himself and biting his lower lip. He let out a deep, solid breath as he continued to walk. There was something calming about being around Lottie. Even when he was stressed about school, work, or just life in general, all of that seemed minimal when she was around. He loved that about her. He looked over when he was nudge and gave a little nod. ‘I can go to the store and get us some stuff.’

[prettynastylottie]

Nodding, Lottie leaned herself into him as they walked. Pretty soon she would be turning twenty one. Which meant that not only would Lottie be able to go to the stores to buy the alcohol for them so Ash wouldn’t have to all the time. But she could buy her own drinks at the bar without risking getting herself into trouble. She was never big on birthdays, but this one was one she couldn’t wait to celebrate. They continued to walk until they began to approach the restaurant, Lottie’s stomach beginning to scream, not realizing how hungry she had been. Looking around, Lottie saw their usual table was empty and squeezed his hand, ushering them to the booth. Taking a seat opposite of him, she folded her hands on the table and smiled at him, “Hi.”

[themightyhcra]

LOTTIE

Lottie wasn’t one for materialistic things. One would think otherwise after being raised by the queen of vanity, Gothel herself. Always having to be the picture perfect young lady was exhausting. She hated it. But she had an imagine to uphold, and if she didn’t? Well, she’d never hear the end of it.

Even still, Lottie didn’t focus on things of that nature often. So when she did? Well, she was completely enchanted. Just as she was now, standing in front of a store front, eyes fixated on a necklace. She probably shouldn’t have been pressed up against the glass, considering who her mother was. She was sure the authorities would be called soon. But she didn’t care. This necklace was stunning and she couldn’t break away.

“What I would give..” She muttered to herself.

Nora found herself staring at the most amazing item she had ever seen in her life. There was nothing like that where she came from, and while she had seen things like it falling onto the necks of the richest and most beautiful people in existence, she could never ever imagine herself in something like that. She wasn’t worthy of it. She was the Pumpkin Princess and she belonged in the muck of the pumpkin patch and her parents rusty old tower, not in a lavish castle on silk sheets with the most extravagant gowns. Not when her mother sewed all of her dresses. Yet the other girl who stared at that beautiful necklace looked so stunning and so exquisite. How could someone like her not be worthy of an item like that? “It would look so beautiful on you…” Nora said quietly, just in case she overstepped so she could hide away if need be.

[prettynastylottie]

Lottie turned to the girl who spoke to her, grinning as she tucked her hair behind her ear. “You think so?” She glanced back at the jewelry, letting out a sigh. “It’s probably the nicest necklace I’ve ever seen. But maybe in another life it’ll be mine,” she turned away from the window and faced the other. Nora and Lottie had a friendship that Lottie has only ever dreamed of having. She didn’t get along with most girls, nor did she have many friends in general. Her number ones as of late were Casper, Nora, and Ash, of course. But Ash was her boyfriend and Casper was.. Casper. Having Nora was a blessing. They built each other up, were always there for one another. She didn’t know what she would do without the girl.

[takenbystxrm]

prettynastylottie‌:

“Oh no, I’m not here for the show, I’m here for you, my little ghoulfriend,” Lottie smirked as she leaned against the booth, looking to her friend behind the glass. Normally, someone wouldn’t bother their friends at their workplace. Lottie on the other hand, she had no shame and actually really wanted to bother Casper right here, right now. Plus, she needed help with something.

Casper flinched at the nickname, it wasn’t the worst Lottie had come up with, but it wasn’t great either. “Come to bother me at work?” He smirked. Normally Casper would be annoyed, but it was a slow day and he could use the company. “So what’s up with you?” 

[prettynastylottie]

“As one of your closest friends, it’s my job to bother you at all times,” Lottie grinned as she folded her hands in front of her against the counter. “I’m thinking of volunteering for that Halloween festival, but I don’t know exactly what would be my forte. I was thinking of doing like tarot card readings or something silly like that. What do you think?”