Peace. Love. Unity. Respect.

I'm totally in love with my Squishy baby, my best friends, 3 am in the morning, doing this mom thing, feminism, and never shutting up.

[prettyravergirl]

"Oh you traumatised me when you woke me up and chased me into the closet" .....

Bitch you rolled over covered my mouth pushed.down told me i wouldn't of done that if i wasnt mad and fell asleep

Yes. I woke you up.to yell at you.

I. Should. Of. Called. The. Cops.

And i didn't and since.it wasnt bad enough.

The not sorry got me.

.... Apparently i was supposed to let it happen more since i waited a month. Should of done it that night

You ran into the closet to hide to be a bitch cause you knew you put hands on me

Not sorry

[prettyravergirl]

I mean not me in 2019 knowing what the fuck.but. it is what is it is.

[prettyravergirl]

That tracking app you made me add. Man. Weird. What chu doing on valentines day at an apartment. And. I. Knew. And decided that was ok.

[prettyravergirl]

And i didnt keep your last name cause i wanted to. I kept it cause squish learned how to spell it and write it and im not about to change that. So yeah you have a kid who calls you dad YOU CHOSE to abandon that WOULD NOT OF EVEN COST YOU MONEY TO STAY with your last name.

[prettyravergirl]

And if ANY MOTHERFUCKER comes at me i broke his heart taking squish

.that shit head had EVERY RIGHT to claim stepparent visitation and wouldn't of had to pay support just got visitation. But he didnt do that. Im sure hes pretending to be sad about it but he had to file one piece of paperwork i had no way to fight and he would of got it. And that makes me angry. Hes playing a victim in that and probably lying but hated the kid and was like lol NAH. And. You. Hurt..my. Kid.

[prettyravergirl]

" move with me youll get to go back to school"

Bitches lie.

[prettyravergirl]

A Mormon for profit diploma mill. Oh. Oh....THAT was the school that was so much more important then me? "Since you cant go back to school guess I get to again....."

"You mean you refuse to support me and wont LET me go back to school cause you control the money and wont watch OUR kid for a few hours. since you just wanna beat him and wont interact with him.cause youre an abusive asshole.... But go off."

:) fuck. Abusers.

The moment I should of left is when I went to visit him and he said he had wanted to date the 19 year old but she was engages. We were 26...... but he dated me instead. Stupid. Thats some.gross.bull shit Also why tell me that.

[prettyravergirl]

Am I dead? Or is this one of those dreams? Those horrible dreams that seem like they last forever? If I am alive, why? Why? If there is a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone and everything I've ever known? I've ever loved? Stranded. What is the lesson? What is the point? God, give me a sign, or I have to give up. I can't do this anymore. Please just let me die. Being alive hurts too much

[prettyravergirl]

You promised me a family. You promised love. You promised forever. You promised a bettern life. I left everything for you

Its so dark now. Why did you lie.

[prettyravergirl]

Its a sad day when you hide stuff cause you KNOW what people will say. I think knowing is pushing me closer to the right thing. Ugh.

[prettyravergirl]

Oh hey little secret corner of the internet. Im engaged.

Im also incredibly happy. I graduated therepy and my ptsd is as good as its gonna get. Squish gets his autism diagnosis in a few days, fiance is constantly amazing and supportive and a badass, I get to spend birthday week with Best Friend and see Unca David <3, probably gonna get a real wedding, made some awesome friends here, Im moving overseas, then were coming back and buying a house. Life is awesome.

[prettyravergirl]

Welp.. I feel bad for you... But

Probably should of know a marriage you help break up thats "all her fault" probably wasnt. Part of me wants to reach out cause it sucks to be lied to and manipilated. The other part is like... Yep.... Well.... Not suprised it ended in a protection order.

You may think shittly of her but that girl you ruined her marriage for this relationship was asked to be a character witness for his side and she told him no. She could of hurt you and didnt . Girls protect girls. Even girls we hate.

[prettyravergirl]

I mean. If youre still talking to a bitch who has had all 4 kids taken away for abuse. You probably have issues. If you pick a guy who raped and threatened to kill your friend over them. You have issues. You need some serious help with your mental state. And itll not be from me.

Your life must be so sad to need validation from shitty people.

[prettyravergirl]

Before tumblr goes to hell

My best friend.

She used me to make money hoping id sleep with dudes. It back fired and i got a friend for life.... But yeah

She blocked me and a boy in a room so id sleep with him had to ask him the next morning if we had sex he said yeah. They insisted.

Can't stop talking to the person who raped you and pointed a gun at your head. He sells me weed. Which youre allergic to?

Were friends again. Let me wear his clothes around you then rip your good friend off

Were friends again. I baby sit your rapists child l.

When we were friends it was because of drugs and i tried. You brought him up. Ill wait till you see. I miss you.

[prettyravergirl]

TRIGGER WARNING

Having dreams about the guy who raped me and pointed a gun at my head. Like, vivid as day flash backs. My therepist wants me to do some more intensive therepy to help with my PTSD and trama.

Scared with whats happening. Mad how Shitty it is. Its affecting the boy and hes done nothing wrong and I have no control over parts of it.

Mad it effects me being a good mom. Mad to realize i wasnt allowed to process it right.

Fucking shitty.

[ithelpstodream]

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[obeekris]

“Why did it take you 10 minutes to clean 1 window?” “There was a cat.”