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@prince-steffan
My problem was not Not being good enough, My problem was Thinking I had to be.
M.S. (via coffee-crinkled-pages)
Among the guests is STEFFAN KINGSON who hails from THE LOWLANDS. He is EIGHTEEN years old and is known as the privileged one. He is TAKEN by Wolfie.
"Being a king entails more than gold and power— a nation and a people have been set on your shoulders."
B I O G R A P H Y
no one man should have all that power
He was born and raised to be king, the golden son who would take on a nation of millions someday. Even from day one, the amount of responsibility resting on Steffan’s shoulders was like the weight of the sky. Instead of playing with toys as other noble children did, he was made to organize toy soldiers as if preparing them for battle; instead of reading fairytales and hearing of the great Aelosian legends, private tutors read from the history books of the Great Kingdoms and the young prince memorized tales of past kings— their faults and their victories. (He was never supposed to commit any of the things on the ‘faults’ list.) Despite having everything he wanted, from prize stallions to the finest swords available in Aelos; Steffan didn’t quite remember being a child. Friends were not forbidden to him, but only those of high enough rank could dare to befriend their children with those of the king, and the boys who were pushed towards their crown prince were too afraid and cautious to be of any fun. Therefore, in Steffan’s free time, there were no games of tag or moments of horseplay…his companions were his tutors, his fencing and riding masters, the king, and the advisors who seemed to be everywhere and anywhere, always whispering about him and to him Loneliness was a great and terrible thing, but in time, he got used to it. Steffan knew that he was destined for greatness and that everything being done for him was for the good of the future generation; if not for his own good. With war looming closer and closer as tensions increased on the borders, the Aelosians needed a strong and wise king— and so he pored over the textbooks, memorizing, absorbing, becoming the prince whom everyone expected him to be. “History of the Great Kings: page 1456: Aelos has not traded with Olis since the year of the fifth moon due to the slaughtering of the Aelosian king by a Olisian assassin.” Although he kept to himself most times when he was not needed in court, Steffan’s life was constantly in danger, and even while in his study; there were guards at the doors, watching. He was never alone…and yet always lonely. It wasn’t until he was twelve years old that he made his first true friend, and even she was stripped away in time.
It was on his eighteenth birthday that the priests rang the city bells and called upon the court to hear to their proclamation— and it was the worst luck possible for a nameday. Though the king had always been strict and more of a commander than a father to him, Steffan had expected the great man to live forever. The day he would take the throne had seemed so far away…and yet now it was here, looming before him, a mere year’s time and he would be king and his father would be dead. The king is dead, long live the king was a thing of the historybooks, not of reality. Steffan didn’t quite know what to make of it, his mind was so overwhelmed with the suddenness of it all. He would be forced to choose a wife from strangers, Highlanders whom he had never seen or known before that day when he went to meet them. How could he determine his wife, his best friend, his companion for the rest of his life—not to mention, the next queen of Aelos in one day’s time? How?! He could not understand the thinking behind it, and thus after heated discussion with the magistrates, priests, and the king himself (one of few times in which he had ever raised his voice against his elders); he made his decision. He would go to the academy along with the Lowland entourage— under disguise. He was not Steffan Kingson, crown prince and heir to the throne of Aelos; but Erik Carison, one of the kingsguard. Or, he would pretend to be; and all the Lowlanders would treat him as such. He had always put his people first. He gave up his childhood for them, adopted the mindset of a king when he was just a boy; shouldered all that was piled upon him with dignity and grace…but not this time. He would choose his queen from the Highlanders, yes, but he would get to know her first; without his title hanging over their heads. He wanted to know her for who she was, not who she would become in order to impress a prince. And so, despite the vehement warnings that it would be ridiculous for him to live among commoners, Steffan persisted, donning his fine linens for coarse armour to be not a prince, but a guard among guards. Announcements were made, that the crown prince was studying abroad, traveling the seven kingdoms to broker peace in stead of his father, and beneath the cover of the lie, he slipped into the academy walls, to be for the next year.
with these responsibilities that they entrusted me
T R A I T S
+ dignified, loyal, sincere, incorruptable - impassive, cryptic, enigmatic, serious
C O N N E C T I O N S
FARAH TARENDAUGHTER - He loved her and hated her all at once, because though she was his best friend and the only person outside of the Kings whom he was so close to; there was something about her that drove him mad— something unattainable and too bright for him to truly have. They often were at odds, but they were also often inseparable, and the years he knew her were the best in his life. When the Tarens were killed; Steffan hated himself for following the example of his father and turning Farah away. Every day he has regretted it, and now as he travels to the academy, he can’t help but wonder if she will be there.
PARIS KINGSON/AMBROSE KINGDAUGHTER- He knows what they think of him. The envious stares of his sister, the wall that was always in place when Paris spoke to him…and now they think him mad to disguise himself as a kingsguard. Paris and Ambrose had always been closer to each other than to him; but then again, they did not have a kingdom resting on their shoulders. Only fur capes and golden gowns. As the eldest of them, Steffan doesn’t truly care what they think, but he is afraid that with their mischievous natures, they might give him away.
JAIME PARTHASSON - He was contracted as Steffan’s personal guard a few years ago, and despite the other man’s duty to keep him safe; Steffan has always felt on edge when it was Jaime watching over him; as if something was hidden between them. He couldn’t quite figure it out, but his efforts to hire another guard were shot down by his father, who called Jaime the best of the best. On the other hand, Loras Adarsson also gives him chills…something strange about the way he stared so intently, as if Steffan owed him something. He doesn’t feel quite so safe with those two accompanying them on the journey, but there’s nothing to be done about it.
F A C E C L A I M
↳ Paul Wesley
jaime-parthasson:
There was something humiliating about being inferior to his charges, although Jaime knew that inferiority was what being a guard was about— the military was nothing but endless inferiors, that is, unless you were the commander. Perhaps he was too proud or too headstrong, but generally, he despised serving and enjoyed leadership much more. It was a skill that from what he had seen, no other guard possessed. Excluding Steffan, but that was a different kind of leadership. “I agree. Despite the daily drills, the general lack of progress is…disappointing. Half of them are looking for wives of their own here. Or the promise of three meals a day and board. They’re not serious.” Jaime knew that he shouldn’t be so blunt, but somehow, out of Arvos, he felt like he had the right to be. After all, he hadn’t held back on the field when he made Steffan do the drills and run the courses that the others had. No reason to do so now. At the sudden sternness in the prince’s tone, Jaime glanced up briefly and then looked away before the irritation he felt showed. Composing himself, he answered simply, “As you wish.”
It wasn't difficult for Steffan to understand Jaime's ambitions, he knew the man had his eyes set on his father's job one day. Steffan's father trusted his commander, Jaime's father, implicitly. Would Steffan be able to do the same one day? Jaime was a hard man to fully trust, there was always something hiding behind his eyes, and the polite but curt responses he always gave Steffan. Still, Jaime was the best and that's why he was here and why Steffan didn't fight his father on the subject anymore. Maybe, one day, when Steffan was king and Jaime was given the job he'd been trained for his entire life, Steffan wouldn't feel so threatened all of the time. Ambition could make fools of even the best of them. "Perhaps you should increase the amount of time we spend training then. These men, these boys, need to be ready if they have any plans on joining you in the Lowlands when this year is up. If anyone is here looking for a wife, and you have proof of that, I'll have them sent home." He was dead serious, the guards had an extremely important job, trying to flirt their way into a marriage with Steffan's potential wife was infuriating. "As for the food and safety, I can't blame them, not after the reports of all the problems going on in their homes. But if they wish to remain here, safe and fed, they need to adjust their priorities. That is your job Jaime, to make sure the men you're training are worth your time." Sometimes authority came naturally to Steffan, sometimes it didn't, but around Jaime he sometimes felt he had something to prove. "You would torture a girl of sixteen over a slice of bread and cheese?" This was why Steffan had trouble trusting Jaime, his ruthlessness seemed to know no bounds and it was terrifying.
Steffan had just received news of his Father's improving health. A million questions were swirling in his head. Would he need to remain at the academy? Was the academy necessary now? Would Steffan be king in a year if his father was doing better? And how did he feel about the answers to those questions? In truth he was conflicted though he was elated his father was better. The prospect of losing the man did not give Steffan any warm feelings, even though the man had withheld his love for Steffan's entire life. The good outweighed the bad right now though and he hoped to be able to correspond with his father in the days to come. It wouldn't do Steffan any good to brood now, he had classes to get to and girls to protect and get to know. "It is truly happy news, yes." He said in response to the question asked, hoping it would suffice.
jaime-parthasson:
Looking up at the man who he was charged to protect at all costs, Jaime felt a slight irritation at how good Steffan always acted. Always polite, morals always aligned, rarely losing his temper— surely it was all an act? No one could be that disciplined— even he, after a lifetime in the barracks, had to let off steam sometimes. Maybe there was a part of him that wanted to do everything better, better even than the crown prince. Even so, he had to grudgingly accept the thanks. “Who else would, your highness?” It was in moments like this when he was reminded of his position that Jaime actually used the proper term. “Though I hardly call a loaf of bread and a slice of cheese a big steal. Whoever did it won’t be having either for a while.”
Steffan shifted a bit uneasily, Jaime always made him a bit uncomfortable. Maybe it was the mans ruthlessness, or the hunger in his eyes when he would look at Steffan this way. But Jaime was the best, and Steffan's father, the King, had put him in charge of Steffan's safety. "None of the other guards are good enough, and none I trust." Yet, he put in mentally. Though he didn't really trust Jaime either, he knew the man wouldn't steal bread and cheese. "No Jaime, that won't be necessary. The point of this investigation is to discover why someone would feel the need to steal food when it is so readily provided. No action will be taken until you get an answer, and when you do you will contact me immediately. A decision will be reached after questioning." He said sternly. No one would be tortured or locked up or starved without good reason.
damien-lirson:
"Did I imply that?" Damien was tempted to make a 'whoops' face but simply found a way to recover.”From the girls that I’ve met here they’re all far too preoccupied with three things: themselves, the beauty of the academy, or what this prince looks like. I’m sure their fascination with my eyes will pass quickly enough that I’ll melt into the scenery as they begin their daily lessons on whatever is they are to learn. As for myself, it doesn’t suit my needs, getting kicked out of the academy for such paltry tricks.”
"Bored easily, don’t we all. What could possibly be so interesting in here?"
"Perhaps." He smirked, this guy was a very particular breed of charmer, not unlike the types Steffan had come across before. Or rather, the kinds he'd heard of, the ones he'd caught leaving rooms of visiting imperials. "I've met a handful that seem to care about learning to read, and the good of the country." He countered, feeling offended though he wasn't sure why. "They're interest with you will only pass if you let it." He licked his lip, did that sound like a threat? He wasn't sure if he wanted the answer to be yes or no. "I hope that's true, it would be a disappointment to lose any qualified guards." That bit was true at least. "In here? The library, or, one of them. There is more to find in here than any other place in this castle."
jaime-parthasson:
"You stole the bread and cheese. Yes or no."
Steffan glanced at the door behind Jaime, making sure it was shut tight. "Thank you for handling this Jaime." He said sincerely. It was distressing that someone felt they had to steal food here. Was the academy not providing enough food? He knew Jaime would get to the bottom of it, he just hoped the man wouldn't upset anyone in doing so.
jaime-parthasson:
Jaime backed up apologetically, hands in the air. In the half dark, his charge seemed rather miffed, though even so, there was that godsdamned kingly air to him. “Sorry sir, I heard a particularly loud snore and wanted to make sure you were alright.” He bowed his head, conveniently excluding the part about how it had been the pockmarked boy to the right who emitted the ungodly sound. “I’m glad to see you still alive and breathing.” He then proceeded to turn around and begin to undress.
Steffan squinted, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. Had Jaime been that close to him? How odd. "A snore?" Steffan didn't snore, he knew that much, he was in top health. In fact, no one in his family snored, though the kid in the bed nearest Steffan's had a real nasal issue. Jaime always made Steffan bit uncomfortable, he did not enjoy sharing a dorm with the man, but he had no other choice. "I'm sure you are." He frowned at Jaime, what was the meaning of this? "Well, I'm up now, I might as well go for a run before breakfast."
maeve-keelan:
"I did! These classes go into so much more detail then the ones back home did, it’s nice learning a bit more about everything. Also I hope to learn to read better soon so that I can read to my little siblings! I’m sure they’d get a thrill from hearing a tale written by an actual writer from Aelos rather then something I make up.” She chimed happily. She’d been nervous about the lessons previously, but now after taking a few she was rather enjoying them. It all opened so many new doors for them, weather they’d be queen or not. “Do you enjoy them as well? I’ve seen you sit in on quite a few.” Se smiled.
Steffan smiled, Maeve was so bright, he was sure she'd learn to read soon enough. "You made up stories for them? That's intriguing, perhaps when you learn to write you can write a book of stories and read it to them, or anyone." The gift of storytelling wasn't one just everyone had. "I would love to hear one of your stories someday, if you'd indulge me." Any excuse to spend more time with her really. Although, despite his eagerness he half wished she would look more to her future than her past. "I do, actually. I already know much of what is being taught but it is interesting, to watch all of you." He wondered if that sounded odd.
"That was a rather enlightening class, did you enjoy it?" He sat in on the lessons when he had the opportunity and he was very much enjoying doing so. Some of the girls seemed bored, others enthralled and others just lost.
"My apologies, was there something you needed?" Steffan glanced at the window, it was still dark outside, he hoped nothing was wrong. Though if there wasn't there would be no reason for anyone to have woken him.
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