Rue

I need a diary 🫦

[princessra2000]

Before the storm

[princessra2000]

Im going out.

[veryluckyclovers]

[princessra2000]

I need to get it together I have a good job, a nice apartment, a nice car. I am educated. I am beautiful. I am young and my body is tea! I can sing, I am a kick ass writer. I am funny, bilingual, bitch im rly tea.

[princessra2000]

When I sit back and think about it, I couldn’t have held on for much longer.

He just kept doing things. New women, women from his past, women he claims he didn’t have a relationship with. And I wasn’t supposed to feel any kind of way about all that?

I did not have the mental or emotional fortitude to handle the impact of his impulsive behavior with women.

He knew it was a matter of time. Those “I love yous” felt so hollow and flat.

At least I have Ash. A great parting gift ig

[princessra2000]

To add to the the mess!!! Im tryna figure out did I just see nicki and the orange man behind a podium together ?????

That sent me into a spiral that really did me in I swearrrrrrrrrr

He was holding her hand!!!! My shayla!!!

Im sickkkkkkkk

All for a raggedy ass gold card???

[princessra2000]

They aren’t working yet

3-4-6 weeks and maybe some sunshine

🤞🏾

[princessra2000]

I came across a video that had a song from his playlist in the background.

I couldn’t contain it this time.

I have to get out every last tear just to be safe.

My heart feels sore

[princessra2000]

Day idk no contact

My brain chemicals will rebalance soon right? I’ll start writing again and everything I learned will foster creation.

Now…….when will the rest of me catch up with my brain?

[princessra2000]

Day 7 no contact

He liked Raven from teen titans

He took this picture

I’m looking through old photos trying to figure out what to do with them.

[princessra2000]

Do you blame me for letting go of fire?

This was the day I saw that picture. I knew that ring. His callused palm down, fingers extended to her french tipped pinky.

He then painted that exact picture.

I saw the underpaint hanging to dry on the wall.

I cried

I ran away

I came back

We weren’t together, he said

He lied to me the whole way.

[angelsentfawn]

[princessra2000]

High waisted everything

[princessra2000]

Day 6 no contact.

I am working from home today. Maybe I won’t feel so drained then. Its like a year and a half worth of healing I have to do and every morning It hits me like a truck.

[mymyarchives]

[princessra2000]

Day 5 no contact

I thought about it less this morning. Still the first thing on my mind, but it was dull pressure on my heart instead of a stabbing jolt.

Progress ig

[mymyarchives]