Problematic-poet

CEO of trying to find the love of my life

[problematic-poet]

they tell me i am not of my own will

-BPD

[hipster]

Someone you met 2 weeks ago can have better intentions than someone you met 2 years ago. Don’t let time fool you

[problematic-poet]

you loved me

like the moon

and just like her

every time i woke up

you were gone

[whitepeopletwitter]

[mausspacearchive]

fuck summer i want it to be dark and misty and frigid and october

[heteronimo002-blog]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[chuckakot]

“The ongoing modern, my love, subtle pondering, the sweet syllables of consciousness, you are a name, a name of many doves, capacious, a beauty in a substance, spontaneous, elusively mundane: I ask for your silence, and you give two chosen breaths.”

— Chuck Akot, from Such Great Heights, SUBTLE PONDERING

[e-nigma]

renwick gallery: wonder (ft my sister)

[bryandaugherty]

[etteraths]

[the-memedaddy]

Meirl

[naturaekos]

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

—

[cinemaphileadict]

Annie Hall (1977) directed by Woody Allen

[theprocast]

“I am going to be more selective + mindful in who I choose to let into my life. I always assume the best of people so I don’t see why I shouldn’t let someone who wants to enter come in. Just because someone is nice to me, shares their secrets or sorrows, begs me to notice them, riles me up - as guys often do - or contradict me to get my attention, compliment me or are close to those I know is honestly no reason to let people be a part of your life. When I was younger and had more time than I knew what to do with, it was exciting and fun to get to know new people. It would also help build my perspectives, social skills and beliefs - knowing all these different people and having all these crazy, exhausting, roller-coaster-like experiences. Now, I’m honestly just trying to not hate my job, eat better and sleep well. And of course, do the little things that bring me joy like create and spend time with my family and learn Korean. Between doing all this I am also trying to not let my past trauma and pain sabotage my present and do a better job in building good habits in my present so my future self has some work cut out for her. So, no, Ashley, I don’t want to hear how he broke your heart. And no, Samarth, I don’t care how beautiful you think I am. And no, Ishan, I’m not interested in fixing you. And hey Tia? Your #firstworldproblems and you can go fuck yourself. You are in pain. You are dealing with shit. You feel heavy on the inside. I get it. I do. You know how? Because so do I. And I don’t want to talk about them to you and start a pity party that we never leave. Of course, I talk about it to my sister and my 2 friends. But the other times I try to deal with them or let them pass depending on which day of the week it is. Different people have different ways of dealing with difficult things. Mine has never been by discussing it with others because I never saw how they could help me - that’s serious disappointment mixed with 1% arrogance but trust me it’s just 99% of witnessing how useless others can be. And I’m tired of knowing people in only one way now - through their problems. I mean can’t we know each other through our love for the same books or discuss our shared unpopular opinions or just meet up on Saturday mornings and eat breakfast for the first time in the week and discuss our dreams? We used to do all that before but now I can’t seem to find it. Is that adulting? No, I think that’s just letting in the wrong people in my life. Not that they as individuals are wrong or shit but just that for me they are anything but right. I want people who can take ownership of their shit and deal with it without dumping it on me. I want people who manage to find things that spark joy in them and keep them excited despite how hard life can get. I want people who can make themselves laugh and then me. I want such people because I am trying to such a person too. God, I am trying. And I really can’t let people who are not into my life right now.”

— critical note to self, 4th March 2020 (via creatingnikki)

[myonlywayoutofhere]

“I no longer regret loving you or being with you, but I do regret letting you destroy for so long after we broke up”

-Day 521

[problematic-poet]

I really hope you find the happiness that you're searching for. - J.B