It couldn’t be.
How could this be happening?
A lighthouse. A stone orphanage. The sounds of waves pounding against the shore, releasing itself upon the warmth of the sands. The crowing of seagulls that hovered above the winds.
The blonde swore if he closed his eyes, he could hear the serene melodies breezing through the wind chimes. The smell of freshly baked bread entranced him. But it couldn’t be real.
Before him stood the ethereal children that once grew up beside him. Entranced, he watched the way the children played, happily without concern. Without stress. They had no premonition of the future that they would be forced into. Though to his bewilderment, he hadn’t noticed himself running with the children. Or even teasing them. Nostalgic, his feet trailed down towards the beach where he frequented as an orphan.
Sure enough, the blonde parted his lips in bewilderment; there he knelt, grasping a stick as he fidgeted with the sand. The knight knelt down beside his former self, examining his lost youth and innocence.
“…” Though there was a desire, perhaps even a desperation to speak, words could not be formed. The lump in his throat shut in his words, much like his mirrored image had shut in his emotions. Despite the way the world had set him up to fail, the blonde figured in his head that he had done the best that he could. Had it disappointed the few he held dear? More than likely. The traumatic stress of the events left it’s mark more than the scar running down his face.
The grown man watched intently as the littler him trudged the stick through the sand. He was doodling. But what had he been doodling?
Aquamarine hues widened at the sight. It had shattered him momentarily, as he felt the rest of his heart drop deep within the depths of his stomach, making its final resting place in the pits of acid that were now certainly overactive. The blonde’s lips dropped into a heavy frown, eyebrows arching in. The ethereal child stood up from his drawing, looking at it grudgingly. Seifer couldn’t remove his eyes from it. He remembered this moment from his childhood.
What resided in the sand was none other than a stick man, and stick woman, and a child. Him.
The child stared for a few tense moments. Seifer glanced up at the pain that seemed to be written on the kid’s face. He didn’t understand why he was always so alone. Why he wasn’t good enough for the rest of the world. Why was it that he couldn’t even have the simplistic human function of having parents to run to when he was scared of the monsters in his closet? Instead of having the comfort, the now scarred man was forced to make friends with the monsters, and embrace them.
The child kicked sand atop the art, allowing the waves to eat away at his drawing. With a small smile, Seifer nodded to himself, turning to stand in front of the child. Composing himself, his seafoam optics looked into the boy, speaking gently and honestly.
“..You make it, kid. Wipe that stupid look off your face and don’t be such a baby, okay? Tough it out. You have a heart as fierce as burning flame. Believe in yourself, because no one else will."