Teacher of History and Leader of men

Modern SnK rp account * Erwin Smith * 38* History professor at University of California * Currently single *

[professor-smith-blog1]

If Jean ever wants to talk through his PTSD with someone ho has had it for quite a while now…I’d be happy to offer my services. I know we got off on the wrong foot, but I understand what it’s like to be young and to have something like that happen. 

If ever he would want to, I’d be willing. 

[kirschfine-blog]

That sounds really nice…it’s exhausting and I hate bringing it up because I know none of my friends really understand or probably want to hear about it.

[professor-smith-blog1]

I totally understand. I’ve been out of action for years now but those nightmares still shake me to my core. I’d be happy to listen if you’re willing to tell me.

[kirschfine-blog]

I’m sure that’s really tough…I can’t imagine what a war would be like. I’m wholeheartedly sorry that we got off on the wrong foot. I really look up to and respect soldiers. I wasn’t raised to act that way and I hope we can look past it. 

I guess it’d help to talk about it. It’s just so exhausting, I can’t go an hour without reliving the incident in some way..the worst parts are when I have nightmares and people I love are involved. That’s horrific.  And I’ve been so irritable lately, Idk how anyone puts up with me? I just snap on everyone for the smallest things. I just wish it would stop. 

This probably sounds really morbid, but do you ever wish that you hadn’t lived through what you did? I think about it all the time and I feel so disgusting for it..

[professor-smith-blog1]

It’s alright, I appreciate your apology and I am more than happy to move past that all. Yeah, it’s really rough especially when you can still feel the physical pain. I was the same way. I snapped at anyone who tried to help… Somehow I was desperate for them not to see how I had failed. And yeah, it’s an awful feeling. Bit still…sometimes l feel so broken that I wonder if dying would be better.

[kirschfine-blog]

I know what you mean and I’m assuming it doesn’t really ever completely go away? It’s so hard because I know I need help but I have a pregnant fiance so I feel guilty because I should be the one taking care of her. Not the other way around.And I know she’d be better off without me, that sucks a lot because I refuse to let go of her but I know she’d be happier without me. Did the medication help you? Because it doesn’t do anything except for leave me out of it.  

[professor-smith-blog1]

Well…It’s been about seven? Years? Maybe longer…But no. No it hasn’t really stopped. I’m sure she needs you more than you think. She would be devestated. My meds just made me more depressed

[kirschfine-blog]

Damn. I’m genuinely nervous about everything. We should meet for coffee sometime, I feel like talking to someone who isn’t a therapist. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

I understand completely. Let me know when you’re free and we’ll work from there. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

If Jean ever wants to talk through his PTSD with someone ho has had it for quite a while now…I’d be happy to offer my services. I know we got off on the wrong foot, but I understand what it’s like to be young and to have something like that happen. 

If ever he would want to, I’d be willing. 

[kirschfine-blog]

That sounds really nice…it’s exhausting and I hate bringing it up because I know none of my friends really understand or probably want to hear about it.

[professor-smith-blog1]

I totally understand. I’ve been out of action for years now but those nightmares still shake me to my core. I’d be happy to listen if you’re willing to tell me.

[kirschfine-blog]

I’m sure that’s really tough…I can’t imagine what a war would be like. I’m wholeheartedly sorry that we got off on the wrong foot. I really look up to and respect soldiers. I wasn’t raised to act that way and I hope we can look past it. 

I guess it’d help to talk about it. It’s just so exhausting, I can’t go an hour without reliving the incident in some way..the worst parts are when I have nightmares and people I love are involved. That’s horrific.  And I’ve been so irritable lately, Idk how anyone puts up with me? I just snap on everyone for the smallest things. I just wish it would stop. 

This probably sounds really morbid, but do you ever wish that you hadn’t lived through what you did? I think about it all the time and I feel so disgusting for it..

[professor-smith-blog1]

It’s alright, I appreciate your apology and I am more than happy to move past that all. Yeah, it’s really rough especially when you can still feel the physical pain. I was the same way. I snapped at anyone who tried to help… Somehow I was desperate for them not to see how I had failed. And yeah, it’s an awful feeling. Bit still…sometimes l feel so broken that I wonder if dying would be better.

[kirschfine-blog]

I know what you mean and I’m assuming it doesn’t really ever completely go away? It’s so hard because I know I need help but I have a pregnant fiance so I feel guilty because I should be the one taking care of her. Not the other way around.And I know she’d be better off without me, that sucks a lot because I refuse to let go of her but I know she’d be happier without me. Did the medication help you? Because it doesn’t do anything except for leave me out of it.  

[professor-smith-blog1]

Well...It's been about seven? Years? Maybe longer...But no. No it hasn't really stopped. I'm sure she needs you more than you think. She would be devestated. My meds just made me more depressed

[professor-smith-blog1]

If Jean ever wants to talk through his PTSD with someone ho has had it for quite a while now…I’d be happy to offer my services. I know we got off on the wrong foot, but I understand what it’s like to be young and to have something like that happen. 

If ever he would want to, I’d be willing. 

[kirschfine-blog]

That sounds really nice…it’s exhausting and I hate bringing it up because I know none of my friends really understand or probably want to hear about it.

[professor-smith-blog1]

I totally understand. I’ve been out of action for years now but those nightmares still shake me to my core. I’d be happy to listen if you’re willing to tell me.

[kirschfine-blog]

I’m sure that’s really tough…I can’t imagine what a war would be like. I’m wholeheartedly sorry that we got off on the wrong foot. I really look up to and respect soldiers. I wasn’t raised to act that way and I hope we can look past it. 

I guess it’d help to talk about it. It’s just so exhausting, I can’t go an hour without reliving the incident in some way..the worst parts are when I have nightmares and people I love are involved. That’s horrific.  And I’ve been so irritable lately, Idk how anyone puts up with me? I just snap on everyone for the smallest things. I just wish it would stop. 

This probably sounds really morbid, but do you ever wish that you hadn’t lived through what you did? I think about it all the time and I feel so disgusting for it..

[professor-smith-blog1]

It's alright, I appreciate your apology and I am more than happy to move past that all. Yeah, it's really rough especially when you can still feel the physical pain. I was the same way. I snapped at anyone who tried to help... Somehow I was desperate for them not to see how I had failed. And yeah, it's an awful feeling. Bit still...sometimes l feel so broken that I wonder if dying would be better.

[professor-smith-blog1]

If Jean ever wants to talk through his PTSD with someone ho has had it for quite a while now…I’d be happy to offer my services. I know we got off on the wrong foot, but I understand what it’s like to be young and to have something like that happen. 

If ever he would want to, I’d be willing. 

[kirschfine-blog]

That sounds really nice…it’s exhausting and I hate bringing it up because I know none of my friends really understand or probably want to hear about it.

[professor-smith-blog1]

I totally understand. I've been out of action for years now but those nightmares still shake me to my core. I'd be happy to listen if you're willing to tell me.

[professor-smith-blog1]

If Jean ever wants to talk through his PTSD with someone ho has had it for quite a while now...I’d be happy to offer my services. I know we got off on the wrong foot, but I understand what it’s like to be young and to have something like that happen. 

If ever he would want to, I’d be willing. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

// I hate when they get like this. You talk and talk and talk about how you need to pass- I fucking get it, Crys. I get it. Your schoolwork is important but so is mine. Your schoolwork is important but so is our relationship. But no. No...You don’t have time to deal with me when I’m upset or angry or whatever. Only when I’m happy am I not a distraction.

[professor-smith-blog1]

//I’ve notices a lot of my muses have musical ability- Let me break this down. 

Erwin: Can’t sing- Plays piano though 

Hitch: Can’t sing. Can’t play an instrument but can dance 

Bertholdt: A passable singing voice but his voice is still changing- He’s a music major and plays both cello and violin 

Annie: Very good singing voice- Plays no instrument

[professor-smith-blog1]

//I’ve notices a lot of my muses have musical ability- Let me break this down. 

Erwin: Can’t sing- Plays piano though 

Hitch: Can’t sing. Can’t play an instrument but can dance 

Bertholdt: A passable singing voice but his voice is still changing- He’s a music major and plays both cello and violin 

Annie: Very good singing voice- Plays no instrument

[professor-smith-blog1]

There’s a large amount of students with hangovers in class today. It was good on them to show up at all so- I wont be playing music very loudly to them. Although, it’s very tempting.

[professor-smith-blog1]

For some reason I was thinking about this today. After I got an honorable discharge for my arm being blown off- I lived in my childhood home for a while...The dog that we had got when I was in high school....She was constantly by my side after the accident. Licking my stump and nuzzling up to me if I ever had nightmares.

Wow- Hah. That was heavy. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

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The fact that he used Ymir to learn more about Erwin makes me laugh - Mike is a total loser

[professor-smith-blog1]

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Tbh Erwin being so uptight and professional lowkey scares Mike and makes him paranoid because what if he sounds stupid to him lol

[professor-smith-blog1]

Spreading lies, how cute. 

Don’t worry, guy with the beard and mustache, I’m not remotely grumpy and his childish little games don’t effect me. If spreading false information about anyone who remotely questions him makes him feel better, than he can continue all he likes. It doesn’t bother me. 

But thank you for sticking up for me. 

[detectiveoldass-blog]

Just call me Mike-

And I’m sorry about Jean he’s actually- well was- my partner , he still will be once he can get back in law enforcement. Jean is really cool guy though, you just need to get to know him.

[professor-smith-blog1]

It’s a pleasure to meet you, Mike. I’m Erwin. 

I believe that he’s an alright person, just needs to get his attitude under control is all. But, if you say he’s a good guy than he must be. 

[megamagicalpizzacollection-deac]

He’s kind of a dick, prof, but he’s a good guy. I’ve known him since I was like 12. Just a lot to take in.

[professor-smith-blog1]

Well, if he has Ymir as a friend, then I’ll certainly give him a chance. He just has to know that I’ll respect him, I just expect the same in return. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

Spreading lies, how cute. 

Don’t worry, guy with the beard and mustache, I’m not remotely grumpy and his childish little games don’t effect me. If spreading false information about anyone who remotely questions him makes him feel better, than he can continue all he likes. It doesn’t bother me. 

But thank you for sticking up for me. 

[detectiveoldass-blog]

Just call me Mike-

And I’m sorry about Jean he’s actually- well was- my partner , he still will be once he can get back in law enforcement. Jean is really cool guy though, you just need to get to know him.

[professor-smith-blog1]

It’s a pleasure to meet you, Mike. I’m Erwin. 

I believe that he’s an alright person, just needs to get his attitude under control is all. But, if you say he’s a good guy than he must be. 

[professor-smith-blog1]

Spreading lies, how cute. 

Don’t worry, guy with the beard and mustache, I’m not remotely grumpy and his childish little games don’t effect me. If spreading false information about anyone who remotely questions him makes him feel better, than he can continue all he likes. It doesn’t bother me. 

But thank you for sticking up for me. 

[cheeburgbastard]

Would he stop harassing older people :\

[professor-smith-blog1]

What he’s doing is annoying but it’s not harassment. He can make up how I feel all he wants. It doesn’t bother me.

[professor-smith-blog1]

It’s funny how this kid thinks I care how ‘perfect’ his relationship is. 

[kirschfine-blog]

Ur like those old wolves that get their asses kicked by the new alpha wolves on the nature documentaries 

[professor-smith-blog1]

I’m not salty- It’s a simple fact and it’s amusing.