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4.) How vain is your character? Do they find themselves attractive?
Max is quite vain and he loves his suits as he believes in making a good impression at all times. Having said that, there is more to this then meets the eye. Max came from a poor family and his first suit was made by one of his sisters, so now he can wear designer suits, he takes pride in it. He is classic when it comes to his suits and won't just wear any designers. He prefers ones that have been around for a long time.Ā
Ā He wouldn'tĀ criticize other peopleās looks or clothing style as he thinks its impolite. He likes others regardless of how they dress or what they look like. He thinks that variety is the spice of life and he doesn't care about the outside, as long as the person is nice on the inside.Ā
Please be warned there is triggers under the readmore.Ā
Hey guys, so you are probably wondering why I am writing this on here and not on OOC, well its because its a long story,Ā So firstly let's get things underway, yesterday I received an OOCĀ warning from main because I have been complaining about abusive anons. Let me show you them before I go any further, please beware they are hurtful and threatening.
Ā Ā This is what I have been receiving for a while now and instead of being helped by admin I was warned about discussing it, which basically means hey you are getting bullied but dont mention it.Ā Thatās really not a good role model for a roleplay.Ā
Moving on, the reason I am showing you all this was because I have been in two minds whether or not I should stay. As you may well have known, I have recently broken my foot and it hurt a great deal. While I was in the hospital and when I got home I kept getting messages like theseĀ
as you can see I am keeping the name in on purpose as I would like you all to see what I had to contend with while I was in the hospital. The matter Ali is referringĀ to is a girl called SarahĀ who was friends with this player in a 1x1 for years and spent every day together until the player joined the group and started mistreating her. This is not something that should have been sent to my roleplay account.Ā Being told that I was reporting back when I wasnt, was triggering for me as it has never happened and Sarah would also agree to that.Ā IĀ told Ali more than once to leave me alone and eventually, she did.Ā To me, this was uncalled for. For starters, this is not my fight and I do feel that this was a way of trying to upset SarahĀ further through me while trying to relinquish all the blame she should be admitting to. secondly, the situation between the characters of Quinten and Qhuinn emotional cruelty has been an issue for a very long time, since Ali dropped Sarah for Lecia on more than one occasion and instead of just admitting what was going to happen, she led SarahĀ on to believe that she would stillĀ wantĀ to write with her when she didn'tĀ want to. The fundamental fact is that Qhuinn is playing with Quintenās feelingsĀ in icĀ for some kind of plot and that means in ooc Ali was neglecting SarahĀ for a plot that may never happen,Ā if you are going to lead someone on it shows that you have no care for them, so it is best you leave them alone.Ā I also dont appreciate the guilt-tripping I am having forced on me,Ā by accusing me of things I have never done.Ā
Roleplaying is meant to be a form of escapism and enjoyment, it is not meant to be cliqueĀ groups who prey on each other, bullying people for fun and using other people till you are bored and want to play with someone else. These are people who put a lot of time and energy into their characters such as the 1x1 which ran for 4 years ( I may be wrong) until Ali got bored. When it comes to Rping, I like to keep busy and talk to as many people as I can, if there are upsets ( and there always is) I move away from the situation and then let the dust settle and RPĀ with people at a later date, I do not gang up on a certain person then go to admin to make them feel bad.
The holidays are a stressful time for everyone, but having this followed by anon threats that Quinten will have me thrown out (because they are close to admin) unless I stop talking to my friend Sarah is not something I am comfortable with.Ā I can alsoĀ categoricallyĀ state that the anons are coming from America although I am still at a loss of what state they are from.Ā I have met some wonderful people here, but with that, I have also met people who will go to any lengths to get what they want no matter who they hurt in the process and that doesn't sit well with me, I have had ships forced on me and characters who manipulate things to make my character look bad and when I called them out they said they had no control over their character, that is incorrect we all have control over our characters, that's why we write.Ā
75% of the teens and young people who come into my ward have had online bullying and mistreatment in some way and I will not be part of a roleplaying group the advocates that. And although the people above may be revelling in the fact that they told on me and now I am leaving, Iām strong enough to know that when one door closes a better one opens, the thing I will always remeber was how nice certain people were to me and for that, I am eternally grateful.Ā I am available at my skype account for those who want to talk to me it's live:zoeyandmaxwagnerĀ I believe that talking about a problem is a better solution than ignoring it orĀ āhidingā from it. I have also asked Sarahās permission to post the submit I received and she allowed it as I would never discuss something which has someone else involved. if you would like to contact her she is on Tumblr @thewhisperingplaces but neither of us will respond to any nasty anons and Sarah has a better tracker then I do so she will know who you are and report you.Ā
Lastly, anything to do with max from his home to his workplace I asked to be removed as it is my intellectual propertyĀ @the-institute-rpg. I dont want to leave but being strongarmed into things because Admin is being told to do things by a player who is a bully is not something I put up with, Like I said before Roleplaying is for enjoyment purposes and I will not be part of a roleplaying group the advocates bullying and online neglect which can cause suicidal attempts.Ā I have never sent any nasty anons as I just dont see the point of them ic or oc,Ā does it make you feel good to send hate? if the answerās yes then you are the problem.Ā
To all the people who were nice to me, I wish you all the best in whatever you do and to the people who are not so nice I wish you could be better but what goes around will come around.Ā
Zoey.Ā
Ps. just in case the admins put up a post in a different way to which I have requested, here is my leaving ask
please remove me from the group as per my request. please make it known publicly that Ā I chose to leave. Ā I no longer want to be a part of the group which advocates bullying. Please inform Lecia Ā that her actions have caused a great deal of distress to others and it isnt something to be proud of. Anything to do with max from his home to his workplace I asked to be removed As it's my intellectual property.
Sasha had her tongue stuck out slightly while she concentrated, all her focus on the video game in front of her. She just had to get to the end of the level andā¦āHa! Yesss! Take that, high score! Oh yeah, whoās the best? Woo!ā she cheered and danced around in front of the machine. She was so excited she hadnāt even noticed someone nearby.
Max dodged the young lady with a wide smile.Ā ā What you playing?ā He asked and looked at the machine.Ā ā I literally have no idea how to play this. Whatās it about?ā He asked.Ā
She bit her lip a little, thinking about his words. May shook her head a little.Ā āNoā¦ No, I think y-you can just claim them but I donāt think Iāve ever seen that happen before. And Iāve never seen anything in the rules about it,ā she murmured softly, tucking blonde hair behind her ear.Ā
May was just about to say something more on the matter when Max said something about there being a secret dom under her outfit and May felt her cheeks go red as she giggled and wiggled away from his tickling.Ā āNoāā She gasped out before pouting a little at him.Ā āNo s-secret dom hidden away, Maxā¦ Trust me,ā the tiny blonde murmured softly, biting gently on her lower lip before perking up, nodding with a little grin.Ā āIād love a New Years swim,ā she hummed, gently kissing his cheek.
Max smiled and nodded.Ā ā Then itsĀ let's go for a swim.āĀ He got up and walked to the cupboard and got some towels.Ā ā How about letting go of all the stresses, Iām not going to discuss claims anymore because it makes me feel a little stressed. Let's talk about something else. Something fun.ā He said and took her hand and walked to the pool. He smiled at her and then pulled off his top and dived into the water.Ā
When Max popped back up, he smiled and swam over to her.Ā ā This is just what the doctor ordered.ā Swimming around, he smiled at her and sighed.Ā ā Sometimes I wish I was human again.ā He said,Ā ā Just so I could sleep.ā He chuckled.Ā āSleeping was my favourite thing as a human. when things went wrong... sleep. When I wanted to be left alone....Ā sleep.ā He chuckled and then dived under the water and popped up a few metres away.Ā
May nodded her head. āI wanna bolt sometimes tooā¦ bu-But youāre right. It wonāt solve anythingā¦ it never has,ā she murmured before peeking up at him.
She felt a bit calmer, just being this close to Max and talking with him. When he asked about more about the rentals and claims, May bit gently on her lower lip.
āRentals and claims are ā well, I suppose theyāre supposed to be complicated, claims at least. Rentals are-are good for anything when it comes to the r-roles on the island. If you wa-want to punish a slaveā¦ā she winced a little at her own memories from experiences like that but quickly regained composure. āO-or if you just want to spend some time as friends or m-more than friends. Explore a-a fantasy. M-Maybe to give someone time to he-heal or a place t-to hide out; it varies with ea-each situation..ā
āClaims are- well, itās up to you really, a-according to the rules of this place but claims donāt have to be f-for relationship purposes. Th-They can be for protection, o-or in some of th-the crueler eyes; a permanent punching bag,ā another little shudder before she sighed. āTh-Theyāre watchingā¦ all the time. If they see you and a gr-grant student getting tooā¦ cozy, they are harder with the claims. Y-You have to set stricter rules than just a rental because, fo-for more or less, theyāre bi-binding. Not permanent but important. Th-They arenāt taken lightly an-and it can be a hard decision. I-I suppose they designed the rentals as a way to uhmā¦ ātest driveā first, but it doesnāt always work that way,ā she bit her lower lip.
āI-I couldnāt claim somebodyā¦ I-Iām not a rule se-setter or aā¦ an authority figure,ā May said with a little shake of her head. āIf you find so-someone you click with Ma-Max, d-do a short rental, four or five daysā¦ Ta-Talk it over with them,ā she murmured gently.
āBut dont you have to like rent for a certain amount of times before you claim? Like, say you were a slave and I wanted to claim you but I hadnāt rented you, I wouldn't be able to claim you would I?ā Max asked seeming a little lost in the idea of it. When she mentioned the rental, he chucked sadly.Ā ā I think Iāll take this month off from renting.Ā It was nice but like you said, you and I get attached way tooĀ easily, I need my next rental to be someone whoĀ I may want to claim in the future as I kinda take the rental thing seriously. I mean, if I wanted to take a slave and just use them I could. Its justĀ I have respect for them so I tend not to do itĀ unless Iām really sure I want them in my home and bed.ā
Max smiled at May and chuckled.Ā ā I dont believe that. I reckon there is a secret dom under that outfit desperate to peg me.ā He teased and tickled her.Ā ā Hey How about we do a new years swim?. Its almost dusk and the sea will be nice and calm or we could hang out by the pool with the fire pit. That way we can wash our sins away.ā
It seemed she had managed to turn herself around already. This place was much bigger then she had expected. Passing an open door she caught sight of someone from the corner of her eye and backstepped to his doorway,Ā āCould you possibly point me in the direction of the Law department? I somehow managed to get myself lost.ā she said offering him a smile.
@professormaxwagner
Max looked around and sighed. Perfect, just what he needed after a shitty new years eve, the illusion of his ex, this had to be the fourth time this had happened since he had died. The first timeĀ he freaked but now he was used to it, the other times it had been a djinn then a shapeshifter. He knew it definitely couldn'tĀ be her. He had cremated her into three different oceans.Ā āDown the hall third on your left.ā He said calmly and sat at his desk and picked up the papers he needed to get ready for the semester.
3.) Name one scar your character has, and tell us where it came from. If they donāt have any, is there a reason?
Being a vampire, Max doesnāt have any scars as he heals quickly but he has a tattooĀ from his human days, along with a small scar between his shoulder blades when he was stabbed as a human, its a reminder ofĀ the fact that once he was a human and that he should always look over his shoulder and be guarded.
āProfessor, please, Iāmā Iām fine. Itās fine. Itāsā It doesnāt matter, you know? In the grand scheme of things. I was so hung upā so damn hung up on people being fucking decent here. Because people in power, people like you, who were in power, who were something else, something more powerful than humans, were given like this pass in being just plain decent because theyāre supernatural or because theyāre masters. And none of that shit matters. I, especially, donāt matter. Iām the worst thing you can be here. Iām a slave and Iām human. The double whammy of nothing. I know youāre a good man. I know that, youāve proven that. At least to meā¦ā
Dhani took a deep breath and rubbed at his face. He looked almost more tired than before.
āWhat were we talking about again?ā He paused, āI didnāt mean to unload on you, Iām sorry. Butā¦ look, Iām here right? I have to deal with it. I canāt ā¦just ruin everyone elseās day because my master deals me a shitty hand most days. Itās not fair.ā He shrugged, āI mean, donāt you get tired of being worried? Especially when thereās nothing you can do? Iām giving you a pass here.ā
āOk Dhani...ā Max said and placed his hand on the humanās shoulder.Ā ā You need to breathe buddy. If you dont calm down you could do yourself some damage so take a seat and Iāll make us some drinks and you can untangle your thoughts and tell me whatās up.ā Max walked over to the bar and made them both a drink and found a quiet place to sit and chat.Ā ā Right.Ā Let's start that all again. Just call me Max, First of all, you are not nothing. And I used to be human, so donāt discount your species, they have made some incredible discoveries and inventions.ā
A small smile rugged at the corners of her lips and she nodded. āYou were acting a bit crazed. It was like your brain was running in a million different directions and you had no filter. It seemed like you were drunk or high honestly. One minute you were wanting to make out with me, then you wanted to do anal, then you wanted to fuck in front of everyone, then you were confessing your love for me, and then you just wanted to cuddle. All in the span of like 10 minutes by the way.ā She chuckled. It had been hard to keep up with him that night and his mood swings. āIām not holding it against you because one you didnāt really do anything bad to me, you didnāt hurt me in any way. And two, I know you were under a spell. Iāve been under enough of them here from their parties to know that sometimes they make you act completely unlike yourself.ā Putting her hands under her cheek, she watched him. āI made you calm? Funny, you seemed the opposite of calm. I really made you calm?ā She asked him, curious. A sad smile tugged at her lips. āIām not really so great at that, being able to see past things like that. Usually I try to see the worst in people. I wasnāt always like that though, this place changes people.ā She sighed. But as he proposed the rental, part of her was surprised he would actually want that. āYeah, Iād like that actually.ā She smiled at him, knowing she would enjoy a rental with him.
Originally posted by whenikisssedyou
Max laughed for the first time in what seemed a very long time.Ā ā Jesus Nat, why didn'tĀ you just slap me?ā He laughed.Ā ā From now on, I give you the right to slap me if you ever see me in that state again.ā He said and then smiled.Ā āI could do with the cuddling part, I miss cuddling people.ā Max mused.Ā ā Iām a genius at pushing people away, but keeping them I totally suck at,ā Max admitted.Ā āIf someone gets too close I just close down. Its like I am starting to feel so I need to switch off. Iām sorry if I scared you and you know I would never hurt you.ā He murmured and kissed her forehead.Ā
āH-He wasā¦ an absolute dick. Cruel a-and manipulativeā¦ Some here would probably go as far as sadistic..ā she took a slow breath and shook her head. āBut He was neverā¦ never any of those things with me. I-I saw a side of him he kept hi-hiddenā¦ locked away and I justā¦ I fellā and I fell hard. Even ā¦ Even after he left and came back the first timeā¦ I forgave hi-him so quickly. Ca-Cause He was my WolfDaddy an-and I was his Maybun an-and everything just felt so right with himā¦ all the timeā¦ā
She peeked up at him with watery blue eyes and she sniffled. āI-I get attached e-easily and I tr-try to push it down and-and push it down butā¦ th-that shit is hardā¦ā Shaking her head, she turned away a little. āYou must th-think Iām so sillyā¦ Or-or stupid and naiveā¦ o-or all threeā¦ Getting all worked up like that..ā she whispered, chuckling meekly and running a hand through her hair, shaking her head.
ā You and me both kid,ā Max replied when she mentioned getting attached too easily.Ā ā No, I donāt. I think its sweet and kind. It shows that you think other people matter and you have loyalty to them which is something not many people have these days.Ā With me, here, now it's just...Ā ā He tried to get the words.Ā ā I feel like everything is a minefield and I always say the wrong thing or act theĀ wrong way and people pick up on it, yet other peopleās actions go unnoticed, Iām not meaning anyone in particularĀ just in general.Ā ā He shrugged.Ā ā Sometimes I wanna bolt, but then it wouldn'tĀ achieve anything, I would be running away and nothing is ever solved from running away from a fight. Sometimes the best thing is to let the dust settle and then deal with issues like a grown up when calmnessĀ takes over.ā
āDid he claim you?ā He asked softly,Ā ā I donāt really understand all of that. Magnus helped me a lot and explained the whole thing to me but I still keep messing up. I get renting and claiming confused and I think I want to claim someone but then I have no idea who to choose and why and when I finallyĀ make up my mind something happens and I think ok maybe not. And then I get hassled about who do I want to claim?Ā It makes me just want to hide away.ā He took aĀ chocolate and ate it.Ā āI guess, claiming to me is like actually beingĀ in a relationship and renting is to see if its right for you. Am I wrong or right with that?ā Max asked looking confused.
She listened to him, almost smiled at his little joke but it didnāt quite get out there. Letting out a huff and looking away, she bit her lower lip. May shook her head, eyes narrowing a little. āD-Dont make me say a cheesy line likeā¦ Vampires are people too. You are a person, Max. Of course y-youāre going to careā¦ That just proves your humanity. But feeding an-and having certain kinks that others might not agree with or-or choose to partake inā¦ Th-That doesnāt make you any less of a person, M-Max.ā
Her blue eyes snapped back to meet his gaze and she wiped the tears forming in her eyes. āOf course itās easier not to care! But Iā¦ I-Iā¦ Fuck! Yo-Youād think Iād learn my lesson; coming back here. Youād think Iād know n-not to get close to anyone because of what this place isā¦ Because the sad fact is, people leave. All the damn time. Wi-With no regard for what happens to the on-ones they leave behindā¦ An-And then your just left with this gaping fuckingā¦ hole that they left a-and you have to pick up the pieces. Not themā¦ Never them.. And it sucksā¦ so so so damn much, bu-but thatās life, isnāt it? A bunch of pieces that you get stuck picking upā¦. cleaning up others me-messesā¦ And yetā¦ y-you love them anyway. And every fiber of yo-your being tells you not to bu-but you just canāt help it. B-Because you want to c-care an-and you want them to tooā¦ā she let out a shaky breath and looked back to him.
āNot caringā¦ isā¦ i-itās likeā Fuck, Itās blissfulā¦ bu-but thatās not the way people work, Maxā¦ Not me. Not you. I wishā Hell, Iāve e-even prayed for my feelings to just go awayā¦ but they donāt. All the pain, suffering, hurtā¦ All the love, devotionā¦ the anger and the guiltā¦ Weāre stuck with it. With all of itā¦ā she trailed off, realizing that she had small tears rolling down her cheeks, her hands trembling on her lap. She quickly looked away and hugged her arms around herself, sniffling. āI-I didnāt mean to ra-rantā¦ Iām sorryā¦ā came her soft whisper as she wiped her eyes.
āMay...ā Max interjected.Ā āMay...ā He tried again as she spoke,ā May, please....ā He pulled out a handkerchief with his initials on it and handed it to her. Max placed his arm around her and rested his head on the top of hers.Ā ā You have every right to rant,Ā You wanna talk about him or her? It could help?ā He asked.Ā āWas this the guys from the past who did my job?ā He asked again.Ā ā You were in love?ā He stroked her arm and sighed.Ā ā My momma used to say to me Maxwell my boy, you have to let the good in and sometimes with that a little bit of bad comes in too.Ā you just have to remember all the good and forget all the bad. And its hard, I know its hard, but time is a healer and the heart is a muscle. the more you use it the strongerĀ it becomes.ā He reached across his couch and found the chocolate box from Christmas and put it between them.Ā ā Feelings suck.ā He decided with a little laugh.Ā
āI know how hard it is. His name was Luke and he was my assistant. God he was clumsy and awkward and his tie were never straight, but he was sweet and I think that's where my daddy kink came from. He was the kind that just needed you to love them.ā He shook his head and laughed. āI remeber him coming into my office looking like he had just swallowed a fly and he sat down and just told me that he was getting married, I died again that day.ā He said sadly.Ā āAnd then I came here.ā
She wasnāt blind she could see the emotions his eyes held even if his face was neutral. Walking into the office she made her way to him, stopping a few feet away.Ā āOkay. I wonāt force you to talk about it, I just wanted to make sure you were alright. We can just forget everything that happened last night, neither of us weāreā¦. really ourselves.ā she said her own eyes filled with emotions but unlike him her face showed them as well as she worried her lower lip between her teeth.
Max could see she was emotional and immediatelyĀ got up and held her close.Ā ā Its ok,ā he whispered.Ā ā Whatever happened to you, you can tell me.āĀ Ā He stroked her hair and smiled down at her.Ā ā How about we make a deal. 2019 we forget what happened last year.ā
Natalie settled into the bed and stared at the wall, her brain running in a million different directions. āIt is an answer, just not one you wanted to hear.ā She murmured. She had been having a hard time sleeping the past couple days. āI want to go into criminal law though.ā There was something about it she loved, especially on the days they did mock trials and she was able to be one of the lawyers. The brunette had barely been at Gatsbyās that night, being able to leave it in other hands once she had things set up. āI didnāt really feel like going to either party.ā She admitted to him and turned over on her side to watch him. āYou werenāt that bad, Max. At least not to me. I mean, all you did was act a bit crazed.ā But she could tell something else was weighing him down from that night and she wondered what happened. āYou werenāt an asshole, Max. You were under a spell.ā
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āI was crazed?ā Max let out a breathy laugh.Ā ā How was I crazed?ā He asked and smiled at her.Ā ā Itās weird because I was totally out of control and yet you never held it against me. And it was strange because, with everyone else, my brain was screaming to pull myself together, but with you, just for a minute, there was calm.ā He closed his eyes and sighed.Ā ā I like calmness.Ā I guess I fear chaos because of who I can be.ā He murmured and looked at her.Ā ā But no matter how much of a dick I can be, you see through it and know its not me.ā He said and laced his fingers with hers.Ā ā You are my best friend Natalie. I dont want to pressure you into anything, but maybe this year I could rent you? I mean you dont have to but it would be nice if maybe for a week or something,ā
