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allie. 25.

[prosandnons]

You want to talk about my anxious attachment. Look to peg me for what I am. I know it and I try not to let it play in my mind. 

But you do.

I picture you exasperated looking at another unanswered, unprompted message and it makes me feel like an idiot. 

How do I move past this obsession. Looking at messages. Dwelling on a feeling that surely will go away. 

Feel like numbing myself is the only answer. The only logical thing I have left. 

Everything else seems like a fantasy now. 

I don’t want this. I never really did. I wanted to let it go but now it feels like I can’t. Feels like I’m a second, third, fourth, option AGAIN and it make me want to go away. 

WHY. 

WHY.

WHY.

I want to find someone who loves me. I want to find someone who loves me. Not out of convenience. 

Or desperation. 

But really sees me.

I’m sad now.

Because I always hope for the best. 

This isn’t it. 

[just-shower-thoughts]

Just realized that Elon Musk is the real life version of Bruce Wayne/ Tony Stark

[prosandnons]

or lex luthor

[timbllr]

[ghostsandgoblins]

[prosandnons]

just jealous cause we're young and in love/06.09.16/brand new (at Sound Academy)

[paulruddaily]

I don’t know if you’ve seen these, but these are your action figures.

[dumbgay]

i may be a terrible person but at least i say please and thank you and use my fucking blinker

[weloveshortvideos]

Didn’t expect that.

[prince-snoozy]

No you don’t understand okay my husband is in the Navy and he told me stories about doing shit like this. They would just make up their own shit, as long as they were yelling SOMETHING then they didn’t get in trouble, and even the drill instructors would make shit up like this. And they got WEIRD.

[ltc-kilgore-deactivated20181027]

[foolish-masterm1nd-deactivated2]

[kushykuarters]

When you meet someone equally as weird as you

[sodamnrelatable]

[livesstillposed-blog]

I feel like this is essentially how all of my friendships start.

[sizvideos]

[brutereason]

I find it fascinating that people who choose not to have children are generally assumed to feel really strongly about not having children (or even to feel really strongly against children, anyone’s children, in general). I am probably not going to have children, not because I REALLY REALLY HATE the idea of having children, but because I don’t really really love it. Out of all the major decisions I will make in my life, this one is the only irreversible one. I can sell a house, quit a job, divorce a spouse, whatever. I cannot unhave a child. I cannot opt out of being a parent once I become a parent. I can’t even take a step back for the sake of self-care or whatever, or else my child will suffer.

So for me, having children is fuck yes or not at all. The default will be to remain childfree. Having children should be an opt-in decision, not an opt-out one. Until/unless I develop really strong feelings about wanting to have children, I won’t have them, even if that means I never end up having them at all.

[papertownsy]

[alegbra-deactivated20150724]

this guy is like chris pratt’s much meaner older brother

[prosandnons]

Hospitality workers be like... #sundaynofunday #friendsmemes #hotels

[alicia5167]

Today,Oscar Isaac gets his very own Poe Dameron Comic series!!😆👏😂 #officialpoedameronday #april6th #poedameron #starwars #episode7 #theforceawakens #oscarisaac #bestpilotinthegalaxy #theresistance #bb8