Reflections on the Gohonzon
I had lapsed in my Nichiren Buddhist practice for awhile. But recently I was out somewhere and there was...things happening (this is intentionally vague for reasons) and I felt this deep seated jealousy. Like someone planted a seed and it had planted roots that wove through my veins. I could feel it in every aspect of my being; it was dark and enveloping. In that moment I didnt recognize myself. It was also in that moment that I decided I would be going to the SGI Cultural Center the next day, buying new Juzu beads, a new liturgy book and doing some transformative Daimoku.
If you’re reading this and you’re new to Nichiren Buddhism, this practice involves chanting Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo. This translates to “I dedicate myself to the Mystic Law”. Mystic Law = Cause and effect = Karma. We chant NMRK and do Gongyo, a twice daily practice of reciting the 2nd and 16th chapters of the Lotus Sutra to the Gohonzon (more on this later) in order to attain Buddahood. This is what separates Nichiren Buddhism from other types of Buddhism; the belief that you can attain Buddahood in this lifetime.
There are Ten Worlds referred to in Buddhist writings. I knew that based on what I had been going through the past few months, being financially unstable, overwhelmed, ill, I was in probably what’s considered Hell and moving through the other six lower paths. I needed something to change.
When I came before the Gohonzon that Sunday I found myself wanting to close my eyes. What does it mean to close your eyes before the Gohonzon, a sacred object of devotion? The Gohonzon serves as a mirror to reflect our innate englightened nature and cause it to permeate every aspect of our lives. When I was reluctant to open my eyes and essentially face myself in the mirror, I realized that I must not like who I was seeing.
It was also after attending a discussion meeting the next day, that I remembered Causes are made by actions, words, and thoughts. It’s easy to forget that thoughts are part of your karma, because they’re not negatively impacting anyone in a way that you can see the effects. With these reflections in mind I went to the Gohonzon to chant Daimoku as you’re supposed to, with a strong and steady rhythm. I chanted for courage, I chanted to rid myself of self-doubt, and I chanted for others’ happiness. I felt light overtaking the darkness and I was able to gather my courage and do something I had been putting off out of fear.
I can always count on turning inward to find what I need to achieve my goals through the power of chanting Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo. I’ve been chanting with my eyes open and I’m glad that I can look at myself in the mirror again.