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Rejection

I replayed the scene over and over in my head. How I'll tell my friend about the news. While I was busy on my phone with the locker door opened, she popped up behind me and said my name with excitement. I turned around and saw the person I could confide in. The one person I'll tell everything to and this time she'll be the first to know. With sympathy she asked, "What's wrong?" She must have known that something was off about me. Well, I wasn't doing my best to mask it. The moment she asked, I slowly felt the tears making its way up. I swallow the pain down as my voice begins to shake. I close my locker door while trying to calm myself down but my throat feels tense and hoarse. "Can we go upstairs," I asked. She nodded and we both walked up the stairs. As we got closer to the top of the staircase I slowly began to say, "I got rejected." I followed that with, "I found out this morning." Now that I've said it. The pain of it cut deeper than a knife. Telling yourself what happened seems a lot easier than telling someone else what happened because now I accepted that I got rejected. Accepting it is a lot harder. Then I found myself ranting about all the bad news I've received throughout the morning and it wasn't even 9am yet. To be honest, I've already accepted that this day would be a bad one. I thought to myself. "Why did I check my mail for the acceptance letter? Why couldn't I wait until the day was almost over?" The bell rang and stopped my train of self punishing questions. I walked down the stairs and this time I let the tears flow. I couldn't have pent up anger and sadness inside. I walked down the halls with my head up and told myself, rejection closes a door to one path but opens another to a different path.

#rejection #letters #best friend #moving on #life sucks

Music can't fill the void in my heart. Only yours can.

#music #quote #saxotelephone

#207

I promised you I would do it. Or at least try. I did. I did try in the end. But I couldn't do it. Not without you. Because the whole time, I tried holding it back. Laughing as if I was fine. But the truth is, being there hurts me. Because who could I expect the same experience without you. You've always been there for me. And I will always love you. That's the truth you have to hold onto. Hold on to it. I'll find a way back to you.

#original writing #letters #friendship #to you

turning back the clock

it's funny how it's been two months and i can't get over you. I don't know why i just can't. i watched you leave that door. i watched as i said goodbye. but for some reason i'm still holding on. to the past. the memories. i think it's the way you and i fit together. like two pieces of a puzzle, matching perfectly together. i guess it's the thought that i'll never find anyone as good as you. because you made me feel something. you were my good friend. i liked you. i really did. maybe that's why i'm still holding on because i don't want to let go of a gem like you. i want to keep you so badly but i know i can't. i miss you. every night. sometimes i hate you. i hate the way you had to leave. i hate the way that i met you only to lose you. i hate the way you made me laugh. i hate the way you encouraged me. but all the reasons i hate you are all the reasons i like you. i wish that i could turn back the clock to the time i met you

#letters #original writing

If I Die: The Last Scene

@the-professional-overthinker

I hold my last letter to you And I find a breakthrough To why everybody was dying And there's no denying I'm running to you Trying to get to you Can't stand the thought of losing you I lost everybody but I can't lose you too Every second that passes, I'm near Bast as I see you, I see the fear In you eyes I'm not ready to say goodbye 'Déjà!" I call But you fall When I see the tears in your eyes My heart agonizes Please don't go Déjà! I'm sorry Déjà! But soon your body fades to dust I feel my heart is about to bust 'I love you forever ' 'Death or life, we will be together '

#if i die #oaf #start writing #poem #deja #Illiana

Meteor Showers

@the-professional-overthinker

I was broken, I was hurting with these scars, I cried On the day the stars fell out of the sky and died You found me and told me 'I love you can't you see?' You swore upon the stars That you won't be one of my scars Day by day We grew closer as I would say But one night You lost to the fight And give in To death and everyth'in Now I lay here broken for the second time You broke your promise, oh what a crime And that night, the stars fell out of the sky again As I tried to pick myself up the best as I can

#poem #meteor shower #oaf

Spoiler: The Notes That Led To You

She pulled away and I saw how magnificent she was. Her smile was more radiant than the sunshine. Her hair flowed freely, dancing to the rhythm of the wind. Then she stuck out her pinky finger and asked, “Do you want to blossom our friendship?”

Without hesitation, I wrapped my pinky around hers.

Under the afternoon sun.

Under the oak tree.

With Natsume and I.

I said, “I do."

#teaser #writing #writing prompt #heartwarming #the things we live for #vancouver

"For so long I carried others, lying to myself it unfair but at some point I forgot how it's like to feel like someone got my back."

"Sometimes when someone leaves, it was because you weren't a good enough reason for them to stay" - pumpkinspicelatte713

#quote #sad #truth

Random Lyrics #2

Wherever you are Either near or far Wherever you stand In the deep end No matter when Now or then No matter where I'll be right there

#friendship #love #song #lyric