Rant About Shit & I Talk About Relationship Issues

If people have questions I'm willing to answer and I'm as well gonna give my experience to becoming a stronger person

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Sorry for the lag I’ve been hella busy doing comic doodles don’t worry they will be done soon for the holidays

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Sorry for the lag I’ve been hella busy doing comic doodles don’t worry they will be done soon for the holidays

[taffybuns]

a softer sequel to this

(please dont repost without credit)

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Letting go

I at times I think I should let go since I'm probably just burdening u with being so emotional and I shouldn't put that into u I mean what right do I have to do that to u I know I'm ur girlfriend but at times I feel that I'm more ignored by u now and that gets to me I mean if u told me u were busy with something I would understand but wen u don't say anything at all I'm left to think something else which makes me wonder am I not worth ur time any more I know u try to include me into ur life but I feel like I'm being left behind in it I'm not sure wut I should try to pry into wen something is wrong since I'm feeling like I'm walking on eggshells at times and I'm being left to figure this out on my own and it truly sucks cuz if I say something I'm not sure how u would feel or how it would affect u which is why I think I should let go since I'm most likely the only one thinking this and I hate having to feel like I'm going at this alone cuz I can't read ur thoughts about any of this and if u want to make it work that means both sides have to try to work at it instead of feeling like it's a one sided battle to figure something out

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Ignored

I don't know why at times I feel like u just ignore me I mean wen I find out something is upsetting u I try my best but wen I let u know something is bothering me I kinda feel like I'm just being a bother so I wonder should I continue to open up to u should I continue to try to see how ur doing or should I just stop everything all together at times I feel maybe it's best if I let go cuz I want to move forward but if u don't put in some of the same effort I do for u I might just start to back off slowly cuz I don't like feeling like ignored and the more u ignore me the more I'll feel I'm only convenient to u wen u need me which really would make me sad.

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Cold hearted

He dropped by 1 percent but I’m not gonna tell him cuz he doesn’t have a right to worry imma carry my own burden for choosing this path but I won’t tell him wen he said I love u put some salt into the wound. I haven’t told him that he doesn’t know if I’ll be the same ever again from wut he does to me cuz like I said I’m not some little princess no more and I don’t completely trust him enough that he won’t hurt me I build that barrier cuz what makes me think he won’t do it again how can I be so sure I won’t be tossed to the side again what makes me not think I’m not just being used and lied too all over again. I’m not gonna just blindly believe u until I have that secure fact again. Until u reach 90 percent that’s gonna be the toughest shit cuz what makes u think u have the right to earn back my full complete trust u better have a damn good god forsaken reason I should cuz if not it’s easy for me to remove myself from someone and hurt myself before I let other people do it for me cuz I have a feeling deep down ur gonna prove me right and just choose her cuz I’m not worth ur time no more I’m not the one u care about and I never was and will be again. If ur able to prove me wrong about all that to me somehow then I can trust u again but best believe u will be on probation and I will be more likely to be jealous cuz what u did reinstalled that into me. Cuz I'm not someone who will play the same mistakes and best believe I will hate ur coworker with so much passion I don't fucking care if I'm petty anymore cuz I have a right to not like her and a even more reason cuz for a few days I wondered what did she have that I didn't and I am never putting myself in that position ever again cuz do that one more time I might just be done cuz I'm special and I shouldn't question my worth to any other girl

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Closing up

Part of me is closing up more I won't lie cuz I am starting to put a brave face for u too cuz I don't want to hurt u so I will hold in the burden of what I'm feeling and that the fact is my love might be fleeting cuz the more we all talk the more it feels I'm just the friend and nothing more than that and u guys r the couple and I'm just the third wheel

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Pessimistic

U want to have a poly relationship and I can't be fully ok with it cuz I feel it's unfair to me. I mean I am somewhat ok with the trial but I still only want u and just u i don't want to share u with someone else cuz I don't like it personally I understand it's ok for others to do it but I'm not capable of it. I feel like I'm having to split my feelings in for the two and I want to be able to whole heartedly like u and not someone else at the same time cuz that's how I am. It makes me wonder how much longer can I say I love u if u want to make both of us happy and that doesn't make me happy it hurts me more a lot cuz I don't find this fair none of this is and at times I feel like I might walk out cuz I feel like ur love is starting to be half assed and I don't want a half assed relationship but I still continue cuz I want to try at least for u but at the end of this all I can't lie to u and say I won't be the same person I once was after this just hopefully u realize that since I feel u might still choose her cuz I don't feel like I'm worth all of this and I can see that in ur eyes and I at times feel like ripping the band aid off and putting the salt in myself instead of u doing it very slowly for me right now cuz u may say that u have feeling for me and her but that's really damaging my self esteem as well I hope u realize that though

[sj0]

you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

[hersheyhipster]

Couldn’t risk it.

[justjengie]

didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.

[pinayputa]

THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT

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Hopefully this helps me make this year a whole lot better

[letters-to-the-sea]

She is the kind of woman that breaks your heart by being too good at loving you. She’s the kind that you don’t deserve and you know it - so you spend the rest of your life earning that right - the right to deserve her, and hoping to god it’s good enough. And you know what? It is.

It is // Genefe Navilon (via letters-to-the-sea)

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Becoming the villain

No matter how nice u r in life there's times where u have to be the villain. Even for me I'm the sweetest person and always try to be kind but my kindness is also wut I hurt people the most cuz I'm forgiving and I'm also so understanding but don't let that fool u once I make my mind I won't stop unless u give me a good god damn reason to stop but if u tell me u want me to fight for u then I'll make up my mind and do that but u as well have to realize if u do chose me ur gonna need to do wut I did for u to win u the first time around and if u choose her then ur gonna have to deal with the fact I'm gonna walk away cuz I'm not an option for u to just have I'm a strong person who is worth so much I give u this chance that ur not sure wut to do cuz ur scared to hurt her but then again I never said one of us wasn't gonna be hurt cuz of this I'm ready to be seen as the villain by the other girl and anyone else who try's to think they can push me around cuz I may be a scared girl but I will always stand my ground for u hopefully u will be willing to do the same cuz I know I'm a bitch for saying this but I'm not sad that I'm a petty bitch who is pulling this move that will hurt another girl cuz I do want u and I will try to get what I want in my life no matter what is. U just happen to be one of those things I'm a scary girl when my true feelings come out

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Breaking point closing in

I’m close to saying fuck it all cuz I’m just taking my guess he even wants me to move on and if that’s the case I won’t put myself on the line like that if everyone keeps making assumptions about me I might as well make some about them and cut my own ties cuz it’s really annoying being told I’m sad wen I’m not but if everyone wants to take pity then I’ll just put myself into my work and school and try not to focus on one else but that I’ll turn into to the ice queen people want me to be if that’s the case then cuz I’m tired of this all I’m not just some sad little girl I’m my own person and if u want me to stop then I’ll just put my feelings away and stop being the bubbly person I am and turn into someone else who won't give a fuck wut u say about me and let my cute nature turn to stone

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Pity

To be honest I don't mind hanging out with u but I don't want to be seen as a sad little girl I'm working putting my hours in and u for some reason try to put it as a sad person no I'm doing myself a favor and working and trying to keep myself busy and not worry about the little things I hate being seen as a sad little girl wen I'm not sad I don't need pity. I have mainly have been hanging out with him since he is the only person who hasn't been trying to bring up the subject cuz he is learning that it annoys me cuz I'm not one to like being seen weak. And for people to constantly be asking the same damn question is getting on my last nerve cuz yes this effects me but wut affects me more is u constantly trying to remind me of it I'm trying so fucking hard not to think of it but oh Lordy Jesus Christ no bring up the fact I was dumped/ broken up or put on a brake or what ever the fuck this is cuz I am not a charity case and I wish u wouldn't be telling my family I'm sad. If I'm sad I'll contact u I don't need someone telling me what I'm feeling cuz I think I'm capable of saying what I feel and I'll say what I'm feeling don't treat me like that I despise wen people tell me what is best for me or what I'm feeling or what I'm thinking cuz fuck u wen I'm honest I'll tell u what I'm truly thinking

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1 year mark

The year is coming to an end but we ain't stable yet again I feel a pain in my heart cuz this would've been our one year mark I still want u but I don't want to be ur little princess no more I want to be ur equal forever more but I must stop the unstable thoughts I have cuz u do care or else u would've left I know I'm scared to trust u with my heart cuz I know u don't have as much interest in me anymore But sadly I still do but I try to repress them as hard as I can but I know I'm only lying to myself so I have to be honest to u I'm getting into habits that I used to forget but now are become fun once again who knows what will happen but I'm no longer ur little princess cuz now I must stand on my own to grow without u to be able to come to u again once more

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We meet again

I didn’t realize it was you standing in front of me I showed u kindness that u didn’t deserve from me why you ask it’s because you made me feel less of myself You dated my ex boyfriend while I was with him The damage u did u were probably unaware of or most likely didn’t care I thought I did something wrong I thought that I wasn’t good enough I thought it was all my blame I thought everything except realizing I wasn’t at fault The actions you did put me through hell for 1 year and left me damaged And now 2 years later your at my house enjoying the party with my family and friends what gives u the right to enter my home and laugh and snicker at me when you should be the one ashamed of yourself I could’ve told your mom that you were with my ex and harassing me and planning to do harmful things to me but I didn’t I walked off Someone who cared for me saw I was in sheer anger And listened to why I was so mad and told me it was ok to be mad and I’m handling it well and I have the right to be mad We went back outside I saw ur face I didn’t smile but u still laughed but I walked away to be the bigger person He saw that and we talked and I cried from frustration cuz I knew I couldn’t do anything about the situation I was mad at myself for letting it get to me But in reality what I was mad at was you didn’t and don’t know what I went through cuz of the actions you did and how it affected me that’s what I was mad at I would pray to god u could know what happened to me every time u harassed me for what ever god knows what reason u had against me but I didn’t do anything to u. And I still hope karma gives u back what u did to me ten folds in return I may be sweet kind and trusting but once you cross me that’s wen it stops that’s when I treat you the way u treat me and I won’t care who u are cuz to me you have become scum since you already act like one

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Dream felt like a reality

I had a dream but it was a pretty strange dream I was older about a year or two and playing Pokémon on a couch and next thing I knew someone was sitting next to me I was ok with them so near me so I continued to play the game out of nowhere they told me I love you I’m just there like wut cuz I didn’t hear it the first time they tell me you know I love you And I just stare at them They respond with aren’t you gonna say it back In all to honest god I couldn’t I mean if I could I would but I couldn’t and I told them I didn’t feel ready to say that word They sigh and smile and tell me I’m glad u gave me a chance but I can tell ur still into him That’s wen I get confused cuz I’m thinking who’s him They say his name I’m there baffled like that was like 1-2 years ago I’m over it they shake there head and smile and hug me and say I can tell ur not being honest to yourself And then I realize I’m not and they ask me do u still like him or would u choose me and forget him I stand up and tell them I need some time to think about this The person hugs me and say what ever u choose u know I’ll still care for u and I tell them thanks as they hug me And as the hug ends I see it’s the other person I like and he tells me he’s ready he wants to try again I’m there confused And I tell him but I finally got happy again and I don’t want to hurt that person now cuz of this But I don’t want to let u get away let me think this through He tells me I want u to give me shot at us and I’m there scared cuz of the fear of hurting the person I’m with but as well as letting the person I deeply care for go as well Then he disappears and I’m left to think I’m being told to chose and both sides r ok with wut I choose as long as I’m happy then I had to think would I be truly happy with someone I can’t say I love u and still think about the person who I deeply care about or go to the guy who has hurt me but I trust my life with I didn’t want to hurt either but I chose to go for the person I cared for cuz i knew it would hurt me more to be with someone while I think about someone else so it’s better to be honest and tell them I was sorry that I couldn’t love them the way they loved me Then I woke up I realized tears were coming down my Face and I was confused cuz I wasn't sad about the dream I didn't feel sad but I was just teary eyed the more I tried to figure out my dream

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To not give a fuck

It's the first time I actually done it and it worked for me but my only concern is what I don't give a fuck so much that I hurt him I guess I can only give so much non fuckery cuz I still don't want him to get away